Thread 40784444

I’m Not Ready To Die Edition

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QOTT: do you like the person you’ve become?

fpd won

>>40784444 (OP)
>person
Heh
Nice quads

Wow i can't believe Faye turned out to be a heterosexual man! How do it keep happening?

>>40784444 (OP)
generally speaking I've become the best person I could given circumstances
I still really dislike myself a lot though and a good portion of it is nebulous feeling like a broken useless thing rather than more specific stuff
other ppl do say I'm likable and interesting and good hearted which are good qualities imo but I feel like a failure in the things I care about
I've lost people I love or consider friends, I can't seem to create the art I wish I could, I can't function like a normal person and live independently sustainably
but I guess if kid me knew I'd be someone who grows mushrooms and writes gay mecha romance and can knit and do all sorts of cool stuff, I think he'd think that's pretty cool and say that all sounds better than just making money. it's not all bad

>>40784649
damn Stallma'am looks like that now??

>>40784444 (OP)
I hate myself and I never feel like a woman even though i desperately want to. 5 years HRT, 5 years out as a troon. I’ve plateaued and its only gonna get worse as I get older

>>40784649
zizek

i /mtfg/. im cis male. my friend, who is mtf, said i was using them as an emotional soapbox due to my abusive relationship with former boyfriend. she said i would constantly call her and ask her relationship issues, advice, or boast about sexual conquests. at one point they said i was mentally ill, but later backtracked. they said i would take only a tiny part of what they said into account in order to justify my continued self destruction relationship. our relationship improved since he broke up with me, but are they right? am i using the only girl in the friend group to get stuff off my back?

>>40784444 (OP)
i haven’t felt this bad about how i look in a very long time. might rope soon.

I've been listening this guy on youtube, the functional melancholic, and it's helped quite a bit. I've been feeling down about not doing so well financially despite working hard for years and I've been beating myself up about it. the truth is the system is designed to grind us down and blame ourselves for not working hard enough. I'm not gonna do that anymore, just gonna observe the collapse and roll with it the best I can.

i want to buy some perfume thats meant to have notes like lying in bed after rough sex. is that agp

>>40785322
dead soulless moid stare

>>40785322
you look ok

fumbled an absolutely gorgeous woman whose company i loved by being too much of a failure of a person. sh'd for the first time in a v long time and really just want to die. too much goes wrong all the time i just want to be happy why was i born mentally ill and trans

I'm honestly the worst person that's ever posted on mtfg

When you go to planned parenthood for hrt what actually happens there

>>40784444 (OP)
>QOTT: do you like the person you’ve become?
Every once in a while. I'm more interested in what i become next desu.

>>40784513
did you do the needful?

>>40787175
try again
second time usually does the trick

>>40787177
I contest this claim

>>40784444 (OP)
no, the thing i've become is no longer a person. i am a slave to """stealth""" that i don't even have because i almost certainly don't pass, and outside of that i have replaced all of my hobbies and interests with weed. i need to quit weed and learn to feel like life is worth living if people know im trans

>>40787373
do u mean i need to chase her again or sh again. either is fine - id honestly be fine with being led on at this point

>>40787449
chase duh
don't sh...

>>40787395
she just like me...

>>40787373
meds

>>40784444 (OP)
My dad called me as soon as our football team's match ended and he was all preoccupied because I have whatsapp read receipts deactivated and he thought something happened to me.

Are your dads like this Council of 'nonas????

>>40787839
my dad never talks to me

>maka
Isnt that the fat tranny that's the unicorn cuck for the cis het couple?

>>40784444 (OP)
>qott
Im definitely no saint and I've made mistakes and have regrets BUT i think I'm an alright guy, and I'm happier than I've been in a really long time.
>>40784649
Who's faye
>>40785292
Everyone vents to friends but try to keep it rare or you'll lose the friend.
>>40787175
Work on yourself and move on. Plenty of people that will be good fits for you in the future. Hanging your hopes on one person that left you is a recipe for continued heartbreak
>>40787915
Only maka i know is one of Paul's most obsessed simps. Pretty sure she doesn't like me very much since Paul and me have met irl a few times.

i got prescribed DULOXETINE

>>40788315
good luck

sigh dead cope thread. What jrpg should I play

What's sissy mincing?

>>40788569
The sissy game! Goon your little clitty while playing!

>>40788569

i hear Earthbound & Chrono Trigger are peak. jrpgs have never been my thing tho

feelin creepy looking at this 8yos drawing book

>>40788587
mincing is like chopping something very finely, idk

>>40788662
eight year old child has better handwriting than 2/3 of my country

>>40788385
blehh i've felt nauseous for the past 3 days

>>40788061
>Who's faye
mommy

How come I'm straight but not attracted to trans "girls" at all? I normally just think you're ugly and gross

Hi I'm doing research on trans women's penises, please post a picture of your penis alongside its size and girth or just describe it.

I give up, I'm trimming my fingernails to stubs again, I can't handle caring for these nonstop, as cute as they'd be painted

>>40789183
it's a matter of taste. I feel the same about hispanic guys.

single hair strands from my bangs are poking my eyes and irritating them
sobbing extensively due to this

>>40789183
yer a faggrit, harrod

>>40787804
u got any good recs?

>>40788315

useless medication

>>40784444 (OP)
QOTT: Generally. I'm less of a pushover than I used to be

How do I stop jerking off to trans porn?

That's not a bikini, that's a two-piece.

>>40789855
delete system32

>>40789698
haloperodol

I wish I could stop feeling jealous.

Im a cis chubby guy. Should i transition?

>hurrrrrr late transitioners had male privilege
Fuck off there ain't no privilege in being a short-ass girly-voiced dude. Maybe if you're fucking Chad Thundercock or even just a regular guy but excuse me I AM A TRANNY and it was plainly obvious since childhood which is why I got bullied my whole life for being a fag even though I don't even like men. Where's the male privilege you little shit? I wasn't even treated like a man except that people thought my life was expendable. This stuff pisses me off. As if every human with a penis has the same exact life and experiences and nobody is visibly queer.

i have decided i am going to get a man to buy me the perfume i was speaking about here >>40785723. how would i go about doing this

>try on skirt for the first time
>get massive boner
whyyyy? :(
what does it mean I feel like a freak?

>>40789953
I had that last year, got it through Injections
never again

>>40788315
this>>40789722
cymbalta is the worst SNRI. Not only does it jack shit, SSRI/SNRI have an average effective duration of 6 months at best and then nothing.

and oh boy just wait till you have to stop them. Now those are some fun withdrawals (fun fact: Ely lilli got sued for omitting many of cymbaltas side effects and withdrawal symptoms)

>>40790346
Depends on your genetics and age.

>>40790528
That's pretty normal. How do you feel about people referring to you by female pronouns?

>>40788061
>the serial cheater and polycuck is giving relationship advice
nigga just cuz you literally bought yourself some Canadian dwarf with Nintendo toys and now watch her get fucked by other people doesn't mean u know anything about relationships
you literally cheated on every single partner and jackie hated you so much she fucked and married your wife LOL

while you watched. picrel
go find ur arf arf pup and play with that unc

>>40790543
18 ^^

>>40790578
Then why are you even asking? The only other factor is genetics. Just lose weight and take a gamble.

>>40790573
idk, it makes me feel good inside, maybe it turns me on a bit...

>>40790598
Then congrats, you're trans MTF.

>>40790574
lame post. her advice would apply to you all the same. stop being 12 years old already i hate humans man

>>40790743
okay mom I'm sorry pls don't take my PlayStation away

*grabs you by the clitty*
You like that?

>>40790591
Idk if i wanna be a woman tho.

>>40785322
Work on that hairline and everything will be ok. You look fine

>>40791116
Don't worry, HRT alone doesn't guarantee you'll look like a woman anyway.

>>40790574
None of that is true aside from jackie hating me. You seem pretty filled with hate and anger tho, bad for the heart and soul id recc you let the obsession go

>>40791328
>aside from jackie hating me

Wtf why? (Nta)

>>40791337
Well, it's a complicated feeling and we have a long storied past between us but the reason I think she does is based on reading those old caps k@ posted of jackie talking shit about me. There was just so much venom and disdain in her words I can't help but to think she must hate me. I had seen them before but at the time I was going through it. Stressed about losing someone important to me at the time and fighting to keep her so I mustn't have read them very closely. Seeing them now ig explains some of what she did and said after the caps were made. Tbph I have nothing against her other than when she cost me a real life friend with her schizophrenia and anger issues irl but even that feeling has faded over time. I suppose I shouldn't comment on these things it's kinda inviting trouble but I'm trying to be a truther and as objective as I can these days

>>40791377
Thanks for the explanation

Fuckkkkk I need to rape one of you sissies, I need to feel that tight sissy hole wrapped around my cock

>>40791401
Np anon, have a good one

it's true tho, even if someone is a cheating loser or a horrible person, you shouldn't spend any time hating them
it's only going to give you wrinkles...

You sissies are just begging to be raped, why else would you do this to yourselves kek?

You want it so fucking badly

Heya mtfg
I stayed up too late again and am now trying to resurrect a bit

Seriously who is this guy (>>40791534) Ive seen them post this stuff like a buncha times
always weird rapey posts

>>40791537
Show me that sissy ass and those little sissy tits

>>40791540
no

>>40790528
ok but like how does this happen, are these stories just psyops?

>>40790532
i was on effexor for like a few days while i was in the hospital and was having near constant panic attacks. i hate SNRIs

>>40791539
i feel like this board has been inundated w these ppl recently :/

>>40791544
Come on isn't it validating to have a man want you, be a good little sissy and show me some ass

>>40791537
hopefully it doesn't become a habit...

>>40791550
who are you?
>i feel like this board has been inundated w these ppl recently
For about a year or two at this point
this place used to be relatively normal

ah.. soon Ofcom will ban UK ISPs from connecting to this place and I'll be free..
>>40791551
no
>>40791554
It's already kind of a habit
I've been taking in far too much caffeine recently, so that's disrupting my sleep too..

Who is the hottest tranny in here?

>>40791550
>>40791563
>i feel like this board has been inundated w these ppl recently :/
>For about a year or two at this point
>this place used to be relatively normal
it's all pretty new to me, those posts and all the boy threads and the man threads and various other trends
I guess things just change to fit the times you know?
>>40791599
iunno, I'm always hot since I'm in a near constant state of inflammation, y'know?

>>40791467
>even if
Hey wait a minute...
>>40791599
That still posts? Paul
:^)

>>40791563
im normally in chasergen, but there isn't one up rn. don't get me wrong, its always been shitty but it feels like its been especially worse recently as its combined w dumb drama.

>>40791613
how long have u been on the board?

>>40791599
def not me

>>40791613
This is the terminal decline desu

>>40791615
eww brother eww

>>40791626
Uh what? Have you SEEN them? Bad taste anon.

>>40791615
hey, well I'm not saying it is like that but if it were like that... I wouldn't take it personally...
not that anyone in the thread ever had the opportunity to cheat on me mind you
>>40791624
3 months, 2 years and 6 months, or 12 years depending on how you count it
>>40791625
we're no longer a fad, now we're just clowns to them ...

>>40791624
From what I can tell its a few obsessed anons trying to bait people into returning to drama
>>40791651
the fad stuff was bad, now its been replaced with pure distilled slopification of /tttt/

>>40791651
new class hierarchy:
>normal
>undesirables (trannys)

>>40784444 (OP)
Madchan is going to be devastated when she hears the news

I have nowhere else to bitch about my life so u all get the privilege
My mom’s been visiting me for 2 weeks and holyyyyy fuck I can’t wait for her to leave
She used to gender me right about half the time, now it’s almost never
Last time we saw each other she was unhappy with me because none of my job interviews had led to a job yet
Now I have a job and she’s unhappy because it’s not a permanent position, which like fine I’m not happy about that either but this is obviously an improvement, at least I’m working and getting experience at a job that is actually related to my degree and making decent money but do I get a single “good job” or even a break from the nagging? Fuck no
And despite the fact that she nags constantly about my job, if my bosses will let me stay longer, if I’m applying to other places, again and again literally every day, despite that she has had NO QUALMS making me do shit for her during my work day and all weekend, running errands for her, setting up Internet at her new apartment because she can’t be bothered to read an instruction booklet
How tf am I supposed to apply to jobs on top of getting my work done when she’s making me run around town for her every god damn day
Neither of my other siblings gets this treatment, my parents treat their jobs like the fucking world depends on it but not mine
Fuck these people you bet your ass I’m cutting ties with them at the first opportunity

>>40791328
>none of that is true
zehaha surely
>this nigga coomed over jades feetpics while dating *someone*(hint)
>then tried to go for Sophie using spawn of Saturn
>then proceeds to tell spawn of Saturn she wants to meet up and "fuck her juicy ass"
this ain't gonna stop. in 2022 everyone knew about your pathological cheating going back as far as 2018(Merc rogue, hayato when u were dating him, juni-jackie situation, qkky, Jane, and the list goes onit would fill a whole ass e-book
>id rec you let go
sure, just tell Lynn to unblock me so I can finish this.

>>40791615
quit the subtle rape comments about her while ur at it
ur nutcracker "wife" deserves better

thread need lithium

>>40792155
Ah yes some random person on discord surely knows more about my life than I do. Ofc they are a perfectly objective source to base your opinions on. Are you retarded or pretending?
>jade feet
Still waiting for proof of that and like I said I'm kinda jokey, I've said i fap to like everyone's feet. Hell I'm not even actually into feet it's more a meme that everyone was doing that year lmao
>calling someone attractive is rape
Lmao ok
>huuuur unblock me so I can send caps from 2023 that will make things better!
Were you always this... stupid? Fuck I must have been really unwell to ever even love you at all. Glad I finally came to my senses

I'm making soup chat
with garlic, potatoes, leeks, chicken, spring onions, tofu, and miso, and chicken stock

>>40792155
Also just for fun
Never dated rouge, never dated hayato, never dated mercury?(barely spoke to her wtf), Jane isn't real she is a larp i made up, never dated juni, jackie was poly and had 2 gfs when we met, no cheating involved, and with me and you.. well you cheated with hayato and shit got complicated after that.

>>40792421
last time I had garlic I couldn't stop smelling it for about a week, either my body was secreting it through my pores or something, or my senses had heightened to supernatural levels
be careful with garlic carol...
>>40792455
how many ppl have you dated tho?
it sounds like at least somebody in this thread must have dated a lot
it couldn't all be made up... right?

>>40791337
she was being serial on for literal years
took a really bad toll on jackie (drugs, alcohol, warded for sui attempts) all because of that person. it all came crashing down in this thread ( https://archived.moe/lgbt/thread/24343219/#24345928 follow the comment chain through the whole thread )when Jackie n me discovered navy was telling us the same lies, plotting us against each other and making us fake promises. and then she had the audacity to get mad about Jackie's suffering after basically everyone was telling this ASPD abuser to stop ruining the poor girl

lynn was/is a horrible person too and made everyone have a miserable time while being at n*** house, apparently lee took it rly badly because Lynn would take her narc tantrums out on her etc.
was pretty crazy to read what went down there
oh and ofc navy was cheating on lynn herself and intended to dump her
navy had a wife and kept it a secret for 6-7 months, claiming it was a "roommate" at first but shes do dumb she doesn't even the lies she told a day before so the the roommate suddenly was her mother who supposedly stayed over every now and then and that lee, her wife, had left her for a "real man" after navy trooned out and was now supposedly "living down the street"

none of it made sense and I knew she was lying her ass off so she decided to threaten me with blocking me for calling her a liar.

she also "dated" Carol, telling her she was 24(navy is 39) and made Carol never mention their fake relationship in public because """"quid"""(who was right all along) would slander and "spread false lies" about navy.
Carol was also made to cut some weird sign navy dres into her arm as proof that "she owned her"

its the rabbit holes of rabbit holes

wanna know why navys sister sui'd(and navy impersonating her sister here for a while)? that's a lesser known and extremely fucked up story

>>40792455
it's funny even your corrections sound crazy

>>40792499
>was pretty crazy to read what went down there
>lesser known and extremely fucked up story

Send it all!

>>40792481
..How much garlic did you eat exactly o_o

>>40792481
Breh i dated like 4 people in my life i didn't give a shit about any of those other ones romantically. K@ is just an insane cheating whore tryna cover for ruining our relationship to save her image.
>>40792499
Too long can I get a qrd?

>>40792502
Yea i did a lot of larping and such back then. She's just throwing shit at the wall and saying I dayed everyone I ever spoke and was nice to at this point lmao
>mercury
I did laugh at this one, fucking wild what schizo bpd delusions will make people think.
>Dating carol
LMAO! Oh man

Never let k@ lie about why our relationship died. In the end it died right here, just a few weeks in. I wish I never loved her but it is what it is.

>>40792404
>proof
okeh just a second

>rape
you LITERALLY made a comment about wanting to type her not too long ago. she didn't take that well to put it lightly
>lynn
I simply think she deserves the truth about how even earlier this year you tried to get me to move to the US and that Lynn "wouldn't be an issue after that" when I told you I don't want to ruin some girl's life just to move in with you. I said this many many times.

you may delete all your dms before deleting your alts but in a bunch of them you forgot to do so.

its completely psychotic of you and all it would take is to admit to what you have done to so many people (>emi) but you keep digging your whole deeper and deeper and double down be size you hope people here forget what you did

>>40792531
I think it was only one regular clove and a little one that also fell out, I think it was because of health issues and body out of balance or who knows
hope your soup is nice tho!
>>40792533
ohhh, so it's like that same person that was involved with all those other trips? so like.. how many ppl has she dated then?

>>40792587
It should bee
it should finish simmering in a few minutes at least

Jade and Navy
she was even invited to navys house

>>40792584
>caps
Why would I give a shit what hayato has to say?
>rape lies
Odd she still seems to be my friend. Got some proof? Ofc not
>earlier this year
More lies, your drug addled mind just mixes up times. Post more 2023/early 24 caps tho I'm sure people will care this time

End of the day, you ruined our relationship for a mcdonalds worker and a retarded homeless teenager with a big ass chin after that, and a fat bald old man that checks out groceries after that. I gave you too many chances and i regret ever meeting you. Congrats turning love into that, very impressive.

>>40792587
Don't know or care at this point honestly. She's just mad I showed proof she cheated with fry man sent nudes to him.and rape erp'd
>>40792641
Lmao pretty tame cap is this all you have?

So the soup tastes good but it looks kind of bleh
hrm
I need to get better at cooking..

mfw navy is a 40 year old rapist

>>40792574
bruh you dated hayato IRL when you were using the name Hazegray here and then cheated on him with Jackie that's why he hated you. I never dated him, I'm in fucking Germany and he's in the US and you know very well I was just humiliating him the whole time because I sent the caps of that DIRECTLY to you.

I think its because the tofu keeps breaking up?
hrm

>>40792690
Nah you sent him nudes called him 5 hours a day and erp'd all of which you've admitted a dozen times. Maybe a year later you humiliated him but you def cheated with him and lied until you couldn't anymore when he finally showed me. I saved this cap so I'd never forget. Everything after that was me tryna give you more chances and you failing miserably.
>deflection from what you did
>trying desperately to change the subject
>rouge
>proof from Carol of all people
Lmao not even worth discussing.

>>40792690
to be fair, navy and hayato have a lot in common (being pedophiles)

Like I add tofu but then during simmering ig? it breaks up and becomes tiny bits..

>>40792720
>she was 27 you monster!
Lol as always

>>40792731
why don't u and kat just make already up so u can go back to dming each other about murdering children xD

>>40792773
Got proof I've ever said I wanted to harm children? Like sure she said that here, about Ukrainian children but I never did. I was abused as a kid if never do that shit. Kys for the insinuation.

>>40792731
and what about paul?

>>40792660
well yeh, but I'm not reading through all of that either, you can understand
still kind of wild I guess
>>40792663
aw that's lovely carol, the recipe sounded well developed at least
>>40792773
do you think they will? it sounds like they haven't made up in 3 years

>>40792818
navy and kat have been flirting in dms for like at least the last 2 years
>>40792800
ok buddy lol

>>40792811
Me and Paul have not had sex or dated? Like calling someone attractive is not rape, she's in her 20s it isn't pedophilia either. Yall need help if you don't see the difference.
>>40792818
It isn't worth it trust me. Not sure why she thinks anyone cares. I legit only posted the proof cause she called me a liar and I got heated but even i know nobody cares but her and me.

>>40792660
where is the proof of the nudes? picrel is how I treated him the entire time

give it up Mable I have it all on record.

and remember in all of these caps YOU SNF ME WHERE DATING and you promised to marry me and get me to the US.
>Odd she still seems to be my friend. Got some proof? Ofc not
I abso-lute-ly do. I'm just feeling rather uncomfortable sharing caps of my convos with her but if I have to...

you have to be stopped. you are quite possibly schizophrenic at the least.

Remember the cancer thing? Or when Sophie sent me the caps of you flirting and saying sexual things about her(and trashing her BF along the way) you sent full psycho telling me those where edits made by hayato and told me to kill myself because your entire cheating scheme had just been made public and you panicked?

>>40792818
Yeah, I just need more practice T_T

>>40792830
>ok buddy
Classic no proof haver. GG loser (insert trump gif) hehe
>>40792851
>cap from 2 years later
Yea i already said years later you were mean to him. This cheating was in 2022. Show some of those convos :3

>the cancer thing
oh my god I forgot about that
everyone pray for navy she has cancer :((

>>40792851
>no caps
Just more lies. Paul is my friend. She knows i was anon joking and told.me.as much in dms. Lying as always

>>40792719
nigger I was 4 months of HRT I coulfnt even take of my covid mask IN MY HOUSE due to dysphoria you think I was sending nudes???? what kind of deranged mind do you have?

where is the proof too

i deleted my discord and can't get into it btw lol so like im of no aid here and involving me is pointless ?

>>40792873
Already posted all the proof i need.
>more carol bullshit
Not worth a reply. You cheated with hayato, I proved that which is all i wanted to do. Fuck off nobody cares least of all me

shout out to that time navy tried to fuck freshly 18 year old cheshire. not weird at all tho

>>40792892
>proof?
Of course not

shout out to all the times navy has flirted with 4chan troons behind Lynn's back

sorry Paul but we talked about that it might be necessary to be posted

>>40792870
here you go you pathetic predator

Songs I listened to recently that I enjoyed a lot:

https://youtu.be/4RRe40O6QKU
https://youtu.be/d_VHFyaSXQw
https://youtu.be/p0lz7pKnIhA

Blah blah blah lots of accusations and no proof itt rn

Anyway k@ wanted fry man nuts while dating me. I proved that and the discussion is over. Even if these lies about me were true it changes nothing. Why has she posted no caps with him from around march 2022? Pretty telling hmmmm?
GG

>>40792900
>chesh
also mtfg discord is where you became explicit with her, do we need those caps too?

btwbtw

Chumbawamba aren't really a great band
like a lot of their songs honestly are too like unsubtle to be good music and like
just don't sound great
idk
but they have some v good songs among the slop

>>40792938
>if lynn wanted
Lmao you played yourself
>>40792940
Thred jokes lmao

RIP big old Navy. Exposed.

https://youtu.be/eetIgGXH6DA oh, yeah this song by the mountain goats is also GOAT
heh
uhm but yeah its a v good song

>>40792921
the context of this was when you sent me the logs of navy cheating on Lynn right? i deleted the account and can't get into it. i don't really know what to say and can't remember the conversation well
>>40792940
this is what i was referring to when kat brought up the post.

>>40792970
Ugh see this one is true. My poor dusty bones!

It was fun friends, ty for all the (you)s

>>40792830
>>40792836
well we've got to talk about something I guess, but oh well yeh it's all a bit abstract I guess
>>40792856
well, don't give up, you have lots of time to improve and if it wasn't bad now then it's a good sign, right?
>>40792884
true, I made a discord for this place and then never bothered using it lmao

>>40792977
Dw paul friend it was random when I said it. She's definitely trying to make it look like my joke itt devastated and scared you when obviously you were just having a casual convo about it in confidence. Her posting such things is why i did say to be careful talking to her tho she takes everything far out of context. Still frens (to the extent we are) <3

anyways I have no skin in this game. idk what's real and who's telling the truth. regarding everything else everyone tells me different things and I just don't really know who to believe or who to trust. gremlin is a big girl and can make her own decisions and I'm not her keeper, I can't make decisions for her or anything. I'm sure she knows, because she must check this gen at some point. idk what's considered what and what's poly or whatever.

ay i heard navy broke tho lowkey word on the street is she gets no bands and lives off bennies

>>40793000
Yea
idk what to do for rest of evening
theres stuff I was reading I need to finish reading but eating always makes me tired x.x

>>40793023
maybe it's blood sugars or something, oh what are you reading?

>>40793017
Ugh true people should stop tryna get money from me I'm so broke.

Kinda bored now that I showed my proof and proved my point. Ig I'll find something else to do for my day off. Lata troons

i figure at this point grem knows everything doesn't she.

>>40793046
I did say nobody cares :/
Not sure why yall don't listen

Byyyyye

navy be like "actually it's called ephebophilia"

>>40792937
there were no caps cuz I didn't talk during that time. Sophie made damn sure of that.

I got this one tho, makes it pretty clear I was not dating this fucking Clown at ANY point

Paul is such a coward ahah

>>40793035
Maybe? some books I bought recently, I became interested in non-Christian religions so bought a commentary on the Buddhist heart sutra by Thich Nhat Hanh, I read somewhere that that sutra was one of the most popular Buddhist texts so thought that a commentary on it would be a good way to learn about Buddhism, other than that there should have been a chapter of this manga Ive been reading named War of the Adults released today, so theres that too

also I think theres a new South Park episode I kinda wanna watch
idk
lots of stuff I could do but blhh
Hows your.. probably afternoon? going

>anxiety ridden autist who is only friends with BPD people is a passive doormat
who would have guessed

>>40793063
Didn't you meet rizzle years later?

>>40793015
>>40792977
this isn't what you said in our dms Paul. you said that you know about these things but can't forward it to Lynn because Lynn would intentionally refuse to believe it.

you also said navy BPD split on you just because you didn't dm her back within minutes and blocked you. ig because of Lynn and possibly navy threats you are keeping things at plausible deniability but you were very direct and certain about the things going on. I understand not wanting to be involved but you can't tell me all this stuff to just go "idk I don't really remember" when it was like 4 days ago when we last spoke.

I know ur afraid of Lynn treating you like she did in the past but at least be honest about what we spoke about

idk. weird. we talked about much more than just logs but also your pretty negative overall experiences with navy.

like why are you doing this now? you know how much of a monster navy is, you are indirectly defending her. our dms are still there, remember the whole "navy wants a harem of girls and wants us to fuck" etc? you were pretty clear about how you think about it all

this feels really sus. blink twice if you are made to day this stuff now.

>>40793046
she does but navy is her cash cow

>>40793229
ok yeah. i was pretty disturbed by what you sent me and being talked about sexually outside of context and all that stuff and all the stuff you told me. it freaked me out a lot and admittedly yeah. it just read really bad to me and scared me. im not being threatened I'm just high as shit and don't really know what to say. lynn doesn't threaten me I just think she already knows everything because she checks the thread I'm pretty sure at this point that. its just a matter of.. her not caring because she checked here. i don't know if I was reacting out of proportion at the time but. the logs you sent me made me really upset, yeah. i just don't want to lose the people I love. i think Lynn just doesn't care about all this stuff now since I'm pretty sure she's seen all of it which is why I'm wondering if I've been overreacting to shit

I met paul and she left her drink unattended with me

>>40792800
you tortured you sister as a teen by tying her to a chair, putting bugs on her and hitting her with a stick
she ended her life years later because of this (and worse) happening
you told me that.

>>40793267
K@ said you call n@vy a rapist pedophile though is that true?

>>40793356
>making things up now
did not say that
fuck off you disfigured goblin
go and whore yourself out some more

btw Jackie and lee said you smell rly bad

Why is your clitty so small and cute? Can you explain why it's like that?

>>40793419
Not everyone is like you some people love her for real.

>>40792888
are you bitter because hayato said you have a gay fagvoice and broke up with you?
go grab ur shotgun and pull the trigger like you threatened so many times

maybe I'm malebrained but I don't see the entertainment in this manufactured drama that the characters engage with endlessly

>>40792703
hello carolfren
what type of tofu are you using and how are you preparing it? :)

>>40793088
ohh sounds interesting, might I recommend tao te ching and zhuangzi
for me, well I also got some books, I'm planning on reading various books and deciding how I'll get through them
there are a few psychiatric philosophy papers I need to read soon, and some thomas szasz books
other than that I did some chores

>>40793503
it was earlier
there's different types of tofu? Idk I just cut it up then added it to the soup

>>40793516
Hi um, can you explain why your clitty is so small and cute, thanks

>>40793516
i know it was earlier but i wanted to talk to you about cooking because i am, as you often say, a hag and enjoy such things. there are different types yes! its mostly about the moisture content and how set it is. im not sure what they add to set it but it can be more gelatinous or firmer. if it is breaking up, you're probably using silken tofu! that is great in soups but very delicate. i would recommend cutting it into much larger pieces, and adding it later. you can eat it raw and its quite delicious, so you don't need to worry about undercooking it. add it right at the end, leave for a min or so without stirring, then remove from the heat and let it stand for another minute. that should stop silken tofu breaking up :)
if you have a asian foodstore near you, look out for deep fried tofu. its often sold in bags, and is big puffy cubes. you can cook that in the same manner above, and its my favourite way to have tofu with soup

>>40793510
There's a lot of interesting books I need to read like that..
>there are a few psychiatric philosophy papers I need to read soon, and some thomas szasz books
Thomas Szasz?
>other than that I did some chores
Ganbatte :D
>>40793549
wtfff
>>40793551
ah, its pretty gelatinous-y, easy to break apart..
>i would recommend cutting it into much larger pieces, and adding it later
Ohh.. hrm
>if you have a asian foodstore near you,
We sorta have a store calling itself an Asian store now but it mostly just sells korean snacks x.x
I think maybe theres a better one somewhere around here tho..

>>40793449
mhm yup

>>40793628
Listening to makayla yeesh

This thread needs to be closed permanently.

>>40793594
do you like sissy hypnos carol?

>>40793594
yes you are probs using silken tofu then :)
it has a texture almost like very firm panna cotta. my favourite way to eat it is to take an entire block, and score along the top both vertically and horizontally. then pour over a mixture of dark onions sauce, sugar, honey, and minced ginger. i usually serve it with shredded carrot and cabbage that i've made into a lazy pickle by soaking in vinegar and maybe some rice. its really delicious eaten raw like that

get yourself to sainsburys lass, they have 'extra firm tofu' very cheap. way cheaper than other supermakets and its really good quality. you'll find that breaks up less, i suspect

Thread recap:
>Navy proves she's batshit insane again by attempting to gaslight, deny, and twist her pedo groomer serial killer behavior into slightly less pedo groomer serial killer, but still pedo groomer serial killer
>Navy admits to larping, making her look even more insane
>Navy has absolutely nothing
>Kat is right
>Carol is avoiding the topic despite being the little rat pup behind the scenes
>Paul is high
>Navy still wants to rape Paul
>Newfrens wonder why uncs still go on about this
>Navy has: cancer, aspd, psycho meds, ward, insane levels of narcissism, at least 6 gfs under 20, tortured and killed her sister, and 82 more things
>despite everything, K/\T is right

Thread recap:
>Sissy hypnos
>Clitty gooning
>Good girls being good girls

>>40793728
>>40792574

https://youtu.be/JTmvqcRHsD8
Lmfao this was a really funny sketch
>>40793690
Does raw tofu really taste.. good? It always seemed like it'd taste of.. air or something without being cooked and stuff

>>40793763
it doesn't taste of much at all. raw silken tofu has a sort of rich taste and is otherwise very neutral. you for sure need to flavour it which is why i like that sauce over it. but the texture is lovely and the richeness pairs well with the rice and pickle. i think you want to add salty flavours and unami flavours most importantly to it which is why onions sauce is the base of that sauce i use. you could probably also just top it with like, salt and bonito or nori, i bet that would be enough to season it pretty well.
if you don't want it entirely raw it sears quite well too but its so delicate so you have to be very careful

i wish someone spammed my relationship drama on 4chin but i guess it's too boring because i just tell people i want to fuck my ex

>>40793666
Nice trips but it will never happen. I will keep making this thread. Then, Discord uncs will seethe at each other. Thread dies. Repeat.

lmao sophie wanted to dump david for mable and carol helped set it in motion
carol is such a snake

It is a beautiful cycle.

>>40793822
Yeah, salty stuff and those kind of flavours are the ones I prefer in general
I really have to cut down on salt usage ngl, I use way too much in cooking >~<
>if you don't want it entirely raw it sears quite well too but its so delicate so you have to be very careful
Hrm..

my trans friend likes to be topless with me a few other close cis guys in the discord group chat. she says she only feels comparable around us to do that and can't on stream because TOS.

>>40793594
oh yes, he was a psychiatrist that wrote about how psychiatry is no good and it's a political body for controlling ppl
he had a lot of enemies but was pretty forward thinking on stuff like against chemical imbalance stories which are no longer considered valid, so I guess he was right
>>40793877
true, you have to be the type for it
>>40793822
>>40793953
what is the consensus on tempeh?

damn everybody’s getting a piece of the action except poor marriemodderr

wild to see 22 year olds pulled into this

i love mtfg

I love… me…

>>40794008
i've never tried tempeh! is it good? how do you cook it?
>>40793953
i bet you don't use too much! most people use too little. so long as you're not eating lots of high sodium processed food its hard to eat too much salt just from seasoning things properly

>>40787474
i think i got my date back on... i dont think she wants me long term but im happy to be close to her for now

>>40794102
here u go
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=UMRMDk-IYk8

>>40794495
I think it's pretty good, I guess you can bake it or fry it, marinate it and so on
it's indonesian so goes well with some dishes, but you can use it as a meat substitute for a lot of things I think

>>40794584
:0 thank u nona
I have been trying to teach myself guitar
I thought, I know violin how different can it be
The answer as it turns out is very
I might need to find a teacher
Anyways here’s a song I’ve been obsessed with
Poor Jeff Buckley, such a beautiful soul gone far too young
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=TY8LmvuMvUs&si=zovxPCbmJlEp8CfD

>>40794008
Oh, like Deleuze and Guattari?
>what is the consensus on tempeh?
Tempeh? :o
>>40794495
True, its hard to tell since UK labels salt instead of sodium, the sodium amount being like 1/2 or 1/3 of the salt amount..

>>40795007
just keep processed food with high salt to a minimum and you're fine carolfren. unless you're cooking a ton of cured salty things or something weird then yeah seasoning is not something to stress.
god when my stepdad got sick he had to have no sodium. like zero. i tried to help my mom come up with recipes for it and it was so hard, everything tasted so bad
>>40794661
hmmmm i shall get some. i want to try making seitan too

>>40794691
he was cute ;_;

Nick??

ffs was a mistake

Now that he's gone, would you have had sex with him?

My chin is too fucking big I need to get in there with a file and take it down a bit

wait cobes died wow did his liver die. Bro drank way too much

>>40795650
i will miss him so much

cute feet! must sniff!

>>40784444 (OP)
>QOTT
no...

just spent a couple of hours transing all the townies on sims 4. every single one of them, mtf and ftm. mortimer goth is now morticia goth and so on.

>>40796805
I transed my Lancer Evo in FH5

I inject estradiol enanthate into my butt because I have severe AGP, it makes me feel better.

Where do you see yourself in 10 years

>>40796957
kingcobrajfs

I'm the laughing stock of humanity


>>40796957
Definitely not alive

>>40796957
The years like great black oxen tread the world, and God, the herdsman goads them on behind, and I am broken by their passing feet.

>>40793728
you forgot to say that Navy is 56 years old

>>40793728
Mono still seething and obsessed nice to see

I would totally cuck mono since she's a tiny petite girl and play her guitars, eat her food, bury my cock in her, and findom her

If cis lesbians can date transmen, can I as a transbian ?

>>40797189
Anyone can do anything.

2am and still wide awake
ah
Im never gonna sleep properly am I..

>>40797340
you know what makes me sleepy? having a job. I have to nap almost every workday now.

>>40797340
bnuy

QUESTIONs OF THE THREAD

Would you detransition for $100,000 (no cheats, and you get your genitals magically restored, same for all questions)?
Would you detransition if it meant ten random strangers who you would like if you knew them didn't die in car crashes at 30 and died of old age instead at 96?
Would you detransition if it meant you could be cryogenically frozen when you are 100 and you get unfrozen ten million years later?

>>40797661
what happens 10 million years later? is the technology so advanced they can reverse aging and change my sex at the base level?

>>40797340
Maybe it's stress or ur diet causing bad sleep, have you tried wrapping your legs around ur bf and passing out

>>40797340
when do u ever do anything properly

Transsisters, is it okay to fall for the simp whose been paypalling me for 2 years straight? I didnt really like him at first but hes grown on me, never had this much cash before.

>>40797340
piss off homewrecker

>>40797945
You don't get to know in advance

cis guy here

is it weird my trans fem friend likes to show her tits out in discord calls with me a select few men in the discord group? she says she only does it for us because she trusts us and it's less stressful to be topless.

>>40798920
Shes just a slut, but thats okay, sluts need attention too.

Has anyone actually used one of those at-home electrolysis kits? Do they work? Are they hard to do?

>>40798958
I put one together once and copperplated a quarter

>>40796360
feet! feet! feet!

>>40794661
why did you choose to post under the alias kirakishou?

Im trying to find my friends from a discord sever circa 2017/2018

It was a small server, founded here. My name was numbersequence, but you all called me numbs. I only posted my face once and deleted it, I was pre trans.

I remember mimikyyu and a German person and I think Amelia. Please, if you guys remember me let me know. People on here call me milfanon now. I miss you all and regret deleting my discord, yall where there for me when I couldn't talk to anyone else. Pic unrelated I didnt have a pfp.pop.

As for do I like who i have become, for the most part, yes. I am much more comfortable in my own skin and im.proud of myself for really taking myself seriously and pushing myself as hard as I could to eventually pass. It was hard and took over a year, but we made it.

However, I dislike who I have become in other ways. I have let myself get taken advantage of and I let people walk on me now more than ever. I have a very hard time prioritizing myself. I also let my art suffer. A few years ago i was much much better. I wanna return to that.

>>40799362
Goon your little clitty for mommy!

>>40799410
.... breh
>>40798920
This is kinda weird attention seeking behavior. Feels inappropriate desu.

>>40798920
they might be autistic and unaware that it's inappropriate to flash his moobs like that

>>40799362
the thread isn't anything like it was back in 2017/2018

>>40784444 (OP)
Did the OP pic image change???? I swear she was smiling earlier. thats kind of scary. I Remember very vividly that she was smiling???

was the image always like this?

I'm taking 100mg Spiro and 10mg EV sublingual, used to be just swallowing it but I switched to sublingual a week ago and I swear I feel much better like this, no hot flashes or bad mood. Wtf?

>>40799507
>they might be autistic
we are both autistic. she said she trusts us men in the discord group. she also lives in a public flat in poverty and doesn't even have AC from her landlord.

lol

>>40799052

lol

>>40799410
I luv you clittyanon

>>40799410
Clittyanon is everywhere lmao

>>40792337

i love this picture

>>40796957

10 years older

>>40799625
>>40799640
What is your scientific analysis on Clittyanon?

Why do trannies get so offended when I call them a sissy? You realise that's what you are right?

Too many transbians online, I'm looking to get FUCKED by a MAN, not a woman, I am not among like-minded company

goodbye frens
in the next 48 hrs it's gonna happen. its what i want.
The years here were a crazy time but i met lots of great people, friends, even found love.

But I can no longer post here, for reasons, and in 48 hours the medication i use to keep me alive will be eliminated from my body, shortly after I will likely pass away.

i wish i had kept in contact with some of you over the years, i miss you all!

But everything must come to an end.
you are all gonna make it!
bye!

>>40799734
>Why do trannies get so offended when I call them a sissy? You realise that's what you are right?

>Tranny is a derogatory slur for a transgender person, often specifically a transgender woman.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tranny

>Sissy (derived from sister), also sissy baby, sissy boy, sissy man, sissy pants, etc., is a pejorative term for a boy or man who does not demonstrate masculine traits, and shows possible signs of fragility. Generally, sissy implies a lack of courage, strength, athleticism, coordination, testosterone, male libido, and stoicism.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sissy

>>40799874
The majority of society still sees a tranny and assumes he's a sissy. Future generations will learn what AGP is and you'll wish society still confused you with sissies.

>>40799734
>>40799879
>he's a sissy
are you talking of a trans women or trans male?

>you'll wish society still confused you with sissies.

I'm not trans. I don't know why you feel you can call them "trannies" or "sissies". Do you talk to your trans friends like this?

So many hours fighting allmind iguazu
So many failed attempts
Turns out all I needed to do was put dual stun needles on the heavy arquebus ac and the laser lance and grenade launcher
Beat him first try ez pz lmao

>>40799990
I just pranked his ass with songbirds, dagger spam off cooldown, and the seeker drones

>>40799899
Why are you here

I've heard you sissies suck it good, like REALLY good. Any tips on where I can find some sissies ready to suck it?

>>40800005
no kidding is the dagger actually good? i liked using it but i kinda assumed it was shit
lately i have gotten rly into using the weapon bay and never having to reload its so fun lol
wait the drones too??? are those good??? i thought they sucked

Why would anyone paint their nails? Isn't the whole point to draw attention AWAY from masculine features and try to hide them?

incels were right
my boyfriend is taller than me
he's white
he makes more money than me
he's older than me
P.S. i hear voices but instead of commanding me to behead federal agents it's just my parents arguing

>>40800483
What about his penis, is it juicy? Do you like it?

>>40799858
what's your name

Ohayou
>>40797395
Ganbette anon-san
>>40797548
bnuy!
>>40797962
I don't have a bf

>>40801138
>I don't have a bf
In your words, you're an AGP transbian in a discord gooner polycule

>>40801154
I'm not dating anyone.

>>40801158
But you are an AGP discord transbian yes?

ugghhhh another boring Saturday of doing nothing in particular
When nobody is telling me what to do I just do nothing
Maybe I’ll go buy a six pack
Or go to a pub? Haven’t tried that before
Idk

>>40800483
Describe his penis please

>>40799216
iunno, it was ok I guess, I liked the part where she didn't exist since she didn't have a body
>>40801138
why is everyone bunnies these days
>>40801224
you could go to a park and paint en plein air

>>40801490
They're cute

>>40801523
I did it before it was cool, I'm hipster like that, a real trend setter, way ahead of my time, fashion forward...
but yeh true

>>40801523
Are you a good girl carol?

>>40801490
Did you read the manga?

>>40801776
yeh but it was a long time ago, I never finished it

>>40801839
>never finished it
why not? this year is the 20th anniversary. new special editions of the manga are in current progress. if you every have time, now is best time because there now exist cleaner scans.

>>40801776
>>40801873
Goon your little clitty to sissy hypnos!

>>40801873
maybe when it started, but after the pause and switch to a different publisher, then I guess I kinda got distracted
honestly a lot of things got pushed aside, but I guess I should

he made me hook up with another old pin pusher cross dresser for reward they couldnt talk properly mumbling so hard i hope i die soon

so bored today

>>40801911
were you ever at one point afraid to go outside

>>40801490
what’s plein air
I like airplanes

>>40802021
what?

>>40802029
read rozen maiden.

>>40802115
the user you replied to is a druggie sissy crossdresser who lets anyone fuck him. he tries to portray that he hates it but he secretly likes it because he’s just another promiscuous gay man on estrogen

Kat, why do you sleep in the bed with a rapist, abuser and cheater? You told us in detail that mono is all of these things. Does abusive cheater cock taste that good?

>>40802395
the pic lmfao

>>40802395
LOL

>>40802049
hmm, not exactly, but I guess maybe I avoided it, and health issues, at one point I asked my general doctor to sign me up for euthanasia, and the ssris made me stop caring about living life, and just laying there without even internet contacts
if that still counts...?
>>40802095
it's like painting outside but you say it like that to sound fancy mhm
>>40802029
read gokinjo monogatari

there is a kiraki and a kirakishou, are they related?

>>40802497
i would say yes but it doesn’t really matter. let schizos be schizos

>>40802497
not that I know of

>>40800104
The dagger has no cooldown at all and insane tracking, the drones last forever and each little laser completely stalls the opponent's stagger gauge (some enemies even try to dodge the drone lasers which can be your easy in)

>>40799362
>However, I dislike who I have become in other ways. I have let myself get taken advantage of and I let people walk on me now more than ever. I have a very hard time prioritizing myself.
Many such cases.

>>40799854
>by a man
>when you are pre-SRS
why would you even consider

>>40802904
Because it feels good

I asked local autism NGO if they did support groups only for women but all of them are mixed and I bet it's 90% men so I will just keep tolerating my normie friends.

>>40802466
>health issues
>ssris
>hopeless
>isolation
almost reads as if it were i discounting the euthanasia. it never got that bad. i would simply close my eyes and escape to an abstract world. when it was time to come back to this one, it was dark and macabre.

we are here at this present moment, both awake and bound by happenstance. that means we went outside. has your nightmare subsided?

this season has been fairly inclement to remind me of those days. a bout of illness has befallen me and with the weather being rather caustic, those leveling walks have become less common. because of this, i developed an anxiety to go outside. soon i will be pushed again to leave my comfort and once again escape complacency. how do you cope? what helps you stay grounded? sorry for being rather....whats the word....dispelling so much to so soon. im curious about your thoughts and how you think.

>>40800547
>>40801311
it's above average in size and very yummy. sort of bigger in the middle like a club

>>40800730
where i go names are not needed

beautiful view, isn't it

>>40803690
it could be much worse yep

>>40803690
those are some very pretty mountains in what seems to be a very nice town, it'd be hard to get a better view :)

>>40803068
to be fair, I wasn't awake for a lot of it, and in and out of consciousness then spent years recovering a lot of the things I lost
I hope you can get out of the debilitating feelings you have now, maybe it would help if you think of ppl like animals, like you would not dwell too much on a barking dog or chirping bird... iunno...
I guess I became mostly groundless if that makes sense
>>40803690
yes, it's beautiful, I love it so much

makeup used to make me want to kms but now i feel happier and pass well i really enjoy it. today i figured out a really cute way to do my lips and last week i found a way to contour that sent me. its funny thinking about how like half a decade ago i couldn't even wear a little mascara without feeling like some gross caricature of a tranny

the lip thing is like brown lip liner with black honey, then a bit of clear shimmery gloss over the top. its deep without looking too much like how bad black lips look. i like it a lot

>>40800483
3/4 of those are hot but i dont get the incel obsession w race

i'm on a damn depressive spiral and i find myself here again...
i have everything i could need, i pass, i have a partner that loves me, so why do i feel so alone?
idk i think i miss meeting probably and getting to know them irl
i miss being young and stupid and innocent, before people had other motives and when everything was easy

ughhhhhh

>>40804608
people always had other motives, you just didn't pick up on them

>really horny
>buy dildo and cage
>arrives
>not horny
>put on cage
>remember how nice it feels
>realize I’m gunna end up in this thing cause it’s comfortable and feels right

Anyone else know this feel? Why do I like chastity.

>>40803831
what motivated you to return?

>>40805084
I hate how it feels, it's always too big and heavy and clunky plus it feels too much like being groped. same reason I can't wear cycling shorts, it literally makes me suicidal and triggered and such stuff

milk bag is pretty interesting

>>40804182
that's wonderful anon, I guess you started half a decade ago, but you're doing well now
>>40804608
I guess, try not to dwell on it too much, it can really spiral
anon >>40805005 is right but you can still just enjoy things for what they are
>>40805170
nothing really, I mean you can just do things without motivation
like you can breath without motivation, and if you believe that then you might believe that if I push you your body will move to steady itself automatically
if you believe that then you might believe that some things become force of habit, and then actions with distant past reasons that aren't as salient anymore, and then actions can just be mechanical
but mechanical actions can change your life, and so you can improve your life while not really caring or being motivated
even anxiety can be like that I guess, like realizing that after staying indoors going outside becomes a hurdle, but once you've been outside a few times it's often less of a hurdle than the first time??

>>40805440
ain't not a god damned soul on this planet ask

How're yall troons and sissy's doin this fine navy day?

>>40805545
I asked

>>40805543
what are your thoughts on taoism?

>>40805570
happy because of makeup reasons see >>40804182

>>40805543
thank you :))
i actually started transition properly about 10 years ago and that was my second attempt at it after the first went wrong lol. i just took a long time feeling comfortable doing makeup again after the period of repressing. brainworms and such. i am a lot happier in myself these days

all fags are cancer

>>40805839
tfw no immortality elixir

>>40805841
Hey congrats on learning the new skill :)

>>40805570
Lonely

>>40805839
well the way that can we walked is not the way, and the word that can be spoken is not the word mhm
>>40805841
aww that's good, I'm glad anon, things like makeup and clothes can be a whole frequency you need to tune into properly
I'm pretty out of practice myself right now since for a while anything at all sets my skin off and glowing red
>>40805947
tfw no chang'e
>>40805570
grrrr don't say it like that... but I'm doing well, how are you? any plans this evening?

>>40805947
toaism is so weird in that it is not meant to be taken literally, but there are so many shysters, shams, crooks, etc that have muddied the beliefs throughout history. todays toaism is never yesterdays taoism. there is always a different interpretation.

what i am trying to autisticaly explain is that the "immortality elixir" was most likely at some point a figurative device or one of toaisms crazy stories like riding a dragon to a floating island.

>>40806044
>well the way that can we walked is not the way, and the word that can be spoken is not the word mhm
that is a very taoist thing to say.

new gen?

>>40806027
You should do somewhere public like a nice downtown area and walk around. I did that yesterday and it was nice
>>40806044
Hehe just bein silly. I'm hanging with my friend Sarah today, she is very sweet. Glad you're well!

>>40806102
Being in public makes me even lonlier

>>40806084
Not until page 9 or 10 newbie

there is this trans Chinese mtf in ca. they are so fucking THIRSTY over this bisexual white boi in their art class. they say they got a body of a greek statue. they have to leave in 50 days die to visa expiring and being deported to china and told them to tell them they love them and stay in touch with them. im hard as diamonds when they told me.

>>40806079
did you know the only god of gay/lgbt love is also a daoist rabbit god?
see, it's all connected... I'm telling you...
>>40806102
hey that's wonderful

>>40805882
>chang'e
>>40806079
>was most likely at some point a figurative device or one of toaisms crazy stories like riding a dragon to a floating island.
If memory serves, its smth like within certain Taoist sects and writings you can find practices meant to lead to a kind of spiritual immortality, but also historically some people tried to make that a physical immortality through various rituals and other measures and seemed to believe it'd work. Qin Shi Huang famously drank concoctions containing mercury hoping it would at the least extend his life, and did other practices suggested to him.
>there are so many shysters, shams, crooks, etc that have muddied the beliefs throughout history
In a sense it sounds more silly now than it was then though, the poisonous effects of mercury weren't known and people those thousands of years ago didn't really have the requisite knowledge that such a thing was definitely impossibly - after all, we think of it as impossible to be physically immortal because we have a decent understanding of how the body works built up over thousands of years and instilled concepts from our education that lead us to conclude its not possible (themselves built up over thousands of years), but without that we might also think its possible in some unknown way. Even nowadays people haven't given up on the idea of living forever and thats with a materialist philosophical framework being dominant.. I don't think its a case of scam artists or such. People can have mistaken beliefs and genuinely believe them, even if they look silly looking back on them.

>>40806336
you don't want to be immortal? could be worse, ppl could believe they can upload their consciousness ...
oh wait, some ppl actually believe that...

hello franco
im on the 7.15
need your italiano body
and an arm protecting me
hello franco
all the thought-through didn't function
i've given up on modern love
i'll be the girl you wanted

its just going around my head endlessly its so annoying

>>40805005
>>40805543
maybe... idk it's kinda sad if true
like i can tell when people talk to me cause they want something weird, i hate how shallow and transactional it all feels. i hate people trying to chat me up and stuff it never used to happen and i hate it so much
i just want innocent and real and intimate (not sexually) friendship

plus i hate being depressed cause it makes my weird body issues worse lol

>>40806044
yeah you're right. its weird as its not even like i can say that happened for me when i started passing. it's only years later that something clicked in my head? its like. oh im just a woman huh. and suddenly i just feel 100% less weird about expressing myself in ways i enjoy instead of constantly trying to make myself as small as possible. its living giving myself permission almost.
> anything at all sets my skin off and glowing red
i have very sensitive skin and find a barrier salve helps with this. i use something called balmonds skin slave. i do a little of that where my skin gets irritated, then primer on top, then full beat. it is kind of oily but i find it works well so long as you use the primer correctly, and cleanse well after. though i also have very not-oily skin so it might be too much if you're prone to break outs

>>40806120
Go with a friend silly anon
>>40806210
It was comfy :)anvvr

>>40806336
you are right, it could be people misinterpreting ideas.
>Even nowadays people haven't given up on the idea of living forever
there is this book i found that talks about death and acceptance. i read the preface of it about a week ago. i wish i didnt have such a dysfunction mind because i am having a hard time recollecting...i'll come back to you on that one later. it was an interesting read.

>Even nowadays people haven't given up on the idea of living forever
dying is scary. especially when you wake up in the middle of the night and think you are dying.

>>40806453
I guess, at a certain point I also noticed when ppl talked to me and when some stopped talking to me
it used to upset me how shallow it felt, but then I stopped like ... iunno... thinking about what they must be thinking
so just taking things at face value I guess
>>40806455
oh yeh, I have a lot of topicals and ointments, and get a medical grade vaseline from the hospital
it doesn't take much for me to get red and inflamed, in fact I need regular injections to suppress it, but even that loses effectiveness over time
me and my body are in constant war with each other, and sooner or later one of us will win and kill the other
>>40806487
oh yeh, good!

>>40806399
>oh wait, some ppl actually believe that...
who believes in that?

>upload their consciousness
the body is just a body. a vessel used to physically navigate through the world. the idea is that mind and body are separate, but if a conscious is uploaded is it essentially a copy? would it still be the same being? copying regular files onto a different device still yields the risk of losing data. so, if an imperfect copy is made, is it still the same person?

>>40806722
iunno, I think that the computational analogy and brain as a computer metaphor might lead to a future where humanity destroys itself to be replaced by inert artifacts that mean nothing without someone to interpret it

The thing is that mind and body are interdependent, the mind couldn't exist without the body, but the body couldn't without the mind (after all, without the mind coordinating the body it would be incapable of any longterm existence, so humanity would never have lived until now and neither would any living being), neither is capable of actually being separated. Even our thoughts, essentially, come from what we see, hear, taste, touch, what we have in the past, what we plan on in the future, our longterm and very physical experiences, etc.

who up severely nauseous seizuremaxxing

>>40806843
I generally don't talk much about this sort of thing online, since certain ideas are firmly entrenched with the public, but your view is not entirely wrong
but I would personally go much further in an academic setting, arguing against neo-dualism by adopting a more ecologically useful framework based on mind-body unity necessarily coupled to its environment

>>40806807
>>40806843
thanks for talking to me. you two seem to be interesting types. although i wish it werent on this board and under a certain context. this place is scary. if it werent for the name >>40806807 i wouldnt be here. i dont even know how i came about encountering you. dont interpret this message as implying a request to talk outside this website, its best when one day the other isnt heard from again for whatever reason. there is freedom in just leaving at any time.

>>40807079
Yeah, there’s not actually a true difference between mind and body, that’s not to reduce either but while they feel different in a conventional sense they really aren’t separate in reality

>>40807141
I think so too, no worries, I made an app account for contacts from here but never added anyone
we're just screaming into the void with fellow strangers, and it doesn't need to be more than that tbqh
>>40807146
sadly, it's not really a thing that is accepted in public discourse
the media tends to still push cognitivism, but the popular trend in research and academia seems to be 4e (embeded, embodied, enactive, extended) and other ecological frameworks, predictive processing, autopoiesis, free energy...
or try to rehabilitate cognitivism by trying to include some aspects

>>40807377
>>40807146
>>40807141
>>40806487
Katja Lang (Kat) is pushing a fat turd out of her "pussy" (his male asshole)...
Tess Tukkers (Mono) is moaning and rubbing "her" dick in Kat's poop....

Kat's pussy (his asshole) is getting wet (he is shitting himself)
Brown wet poop keeps spraying out of Kat's ass all over the chair
"My ass-pussy is so wet for you TESS" Katja Lang moans

"We are... LESBIAN WOMEN..."
Mono moans..
Kat poops..
They both cum...
TRANSBIAN LOVE

>>40806403
>>40806453
>>40806120
>>40806129
>>40806198
Katja Lang (Kat) is pushing a fat turd out of her "pussy" (his male asshole)...
Tess Tukkers (Mono) is moaning and rubbing "her" dick in Kat's poop....

Kat's pussy (his asshole) is getting wet (he is shitting himself)
Brown wet poop keeps spraying out of Kat's ass all over the chair
"My ass-pussy is so wet for you TESS" Katja Lang moans

"We are... LESBIAN WOMEN..."
Mono moans..
Kat poops..
They both cum...
TRANSBIAN LOVERS

what a good thread

>>40807079
based heterophenomenologist

sigh this board is just a black hole. there is nothing good left

>>40808181
All things come to an end. Best learn to accept that.

where should I cut next
the artsy is tight down the wristtight
are these razors enough

>>40808622
don't hurt yourself

>>40808622
you could do belly

>>40808675
shut up retard you try to get transwomen to kill themselves or self harm over shit posts you slimy rat fuck two faced shit pile

>>40808675
I have to
only way to escape
I'm worthless, undesirable and get lead on
took 90 mg of brnxod and will add ktztoom now
hope I suffocate but I e as my to make sute

>>40808773
better to get peed on than lead on

this doesn't cut it.i have to go serious

>>40808773
call paramedic

nope they don't go freon enough even with pressurr

>>40808919
it helps to hold the skin taught and cut quickly

>>40808994
bro stfu

>>40808996
you first bitch

Why do most trans people sound like they are 14 years old? Listening to this one trans youtuber and they sound literally like a child.

>>40808994
won't go through epidermis..

>>40808996
I appreciate your concern but nobody cares about anymore.(except one person who didn't pretend to care.)..
everyone else had their sub human rat friends shit in their cards making them think I just property

I'll get a scalpel I already ruined m detox snysays
I'll buy 7-oh while it's legal and do it that way

time to start dating agassin to find someone who actually cares
well, technically...

>>40809101
gl desu

>>40805084
God I wish this were me