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>>33515115 (OP)
>I don't want to be male
How about being you who simply identifies as a male for convenience?
The most annoying and retarded foundation of LGBT bullshit ideology was declaration of fighting against traditional gender norms and stereotypes and then defining people by adherence to the most rigid and dumb stereotypes. "Oh, you've exhibited a trait x so you have to be gender y!"
Most normal people simply concentrate on being decent themselves. They act a bit masculine and feminine? They approach it from the standpoint of how it impacts them or other people, rather than fetishizing being some other sex.
Ask yourself why do you want to be a woman and if it's some generic bullshit of "cause women are pretty, caring, subtle" yadda yadda, you're a fucking dumbass who didn't interact with too many of them outside of some public setting. Women are people just like men, all kinds of people, good and bad, beautiful and ugly and everything in-between - and so would you struggle if you'd be one.
It's individuals who truly express some traits and they can do so if they truly want without missing being someone when they have no clue how it's like.
Being a woman wouldn't make you happy if it's really about feeling good with oneself - that's why transexuals, even passing, not bullied etc have considerably higher suicide rates - because they seek self-acceptance through means of mimicry, and that never solves their mental issues.
Rather than killing yourself, fairly evaluate who you are and work with that, working on traits you can exhibit either way, even if in a different fashion - unless, again, it's just the thought of being a woman that gives you a boner. In which case think whether you're willing to die over a dumb, naive fetish built upon unrealistic idealization of a group of people.
