Thread 33614146

If you have the guts.

>>33614146 (OP)
I had sexual thoughts about a girl and it drove me nuts, i stopped thinking about it becuase i'm better than that but it can generally eat up 2-3 hours or more of your day.
Repent for your degeneracy, becuase you destroy yourself.

I am feeling hopeful and hopeless at the same time.

>>33614146 (OP)
Queen's University Belfast has been aggresively trying to get me to go there.
I just found out that Hillary Clinton is their chancellor (yes, failed president Hillary Clinton).
How cooked am I? Why are they going after me? Are the Clintons going to kill me if I don't go there?

>>33614232
Shit, will you need to get on an airplane? Better take the bus.

>be me
>meet this guy while we're both volunteering
>we're working in similar fields
>he offers me a job under him, total compensation is 30% more than I currently make
>went to tour the office and hear more about the job
>politely turned him down because it's not ideal for my career progression (and that he seems a bit...off)
>we barely know each other, he doesn't even ask me how I'm doing, I don't talk to him outside of our volunteering sessions
>he only texts me when something bad happens in his life, like he's seeking emotional support
I don't want to be his emotional dish rag. I should've never agreed to having dinner with him tomorrow when he asked a month ago.

>usually jerk off like every other day normally for the past year or so
>meet lass, fall for her, stop jerking off almost entirely for a couple of months
>three months after meeting her, I get friendzoned by her the other day, but still keep contact
>for the last week it seems like my dick is all "we have to catch up loser" because now I want to fap at least once per day, even at work
Wow this sucks.

I've spent the past month battling various colds and other bullshit. Just got over bronchitis 2 weeks ago and have been battling covid since Monday. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! My fever finally broke, I can't win for losing sometimes it seems. I get to be a ninja when I return to work.

Inshallah she will be mine.

>try to fix something
>fuck it up even further

Should i get a second degree in engineering?

The beginning of my college career wasn't bad. Spent first two years taking basic credits at CC for free. Once that was up, my parents made me submit applications to a bunch of colleges and once I got one, they insisted I join immediately even though I didn't really know for sure what degree I wanted. I listened to my parents, followed my dream, and went for a Zoology degree as opposed to a degree that is practical. I'm now in my final semester and at this point it would be stupid to not finish my degree, yet I am already regretting this path and I now want to find a career that is practical and will land me well paying jobs that will sustain me in this crumbling society

I am eying the idea of immediately re-applying to my university upon graduation to get a bachelors in Mechanical Engineering. I'm doing my due diligence and zooming around campus to meet with counsellors and advisors to discuss what would entail if I follow this path. I have a few reasons why I think this path might be worthwhile:

1. I think I can handle the workload. I have a 3.6 GPA and like to think I am skilled in math. I passed Calc 1-3 and Diff EQ with A's and B's. I was also able to handle Organic Chemistry 1 & 2, Kinematics and electrostatics
2. I would be able to graduate in 2.5 years thanks to my credits

3. I have a genuine passion for the process of designing and refining things.

4. I will finish my current degree with zero debt

5. I JUST received 36 months of chapter 35 VA benefits. This gives me $1500 per month as a full time student and I have this until 2031.

6. My parents are coincidentally planning on moving very close to where my current university is. They are ok with me staying with them for the foreseeable future

7. I did the math and found out that the extra 2.5 years of college would put me in less than 5k in debt.

Does it sound stupid for me to follow this career path?

I've managed to avoid looking at any politics or ragebait online for the past two weeks. Unfortunately I live with a paranoid and retired single mother who permanently has political radio on 24/7 and she just spent the past hour filling me in with all the juicy gossip about what some rich faggot said to some other rich faggot. "LEFTIE" this, "WOKE" that, "WE'RE CENTRE RIGHT" this, "DICK MCHANDHUMPER HAS MOVED TO OUR PARTY", can you be any more obnoxious? Get some fucking friends, it's not my job that's making me an exhausted wreck.

>>33614146 (OP)
idk maybe we are a different species, brother. You're like Vulcan or Data, with no emotions. I remember you and your 'brother' hiding behind the couch and scaring the living daylights out of me & her (your twin flame). Call me weird but I really think the two of you are twinflames. Re-member when I used to set you up with my friends? lol I think I set you up with two of them at once... then felt so ashamed about that later. Like am I a weirdo setting this up? Poor kid. I'm sorry. I still think it's meant to be. Remember Tammy & Colin and the swap? I think my sister does.

>>33614710

Also hot Colin lmao lmao

I had a dream about my sister last night...so strange. ily <3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkOr12AQpnU&list=RDtkOr12AQpnU&start_radio=1

You're superman, not batman, bro.

It's too coincidental. I still don't understand at all. It feels like the Truman show with actors. My entire life.

If you have the guts hahaha

https://www.littledebbie.com/

I'm extremely kind and generous with time.

ZING! ZAP! 'sister' & 'bro'

Your dad taught you about material things. To love money, he dangled that carrot and took it away, over and over. What a prick. That's why you're jealous, envious, whatever. You associate love with money. No judgement tho. I love you.

>>33614788
Time is the most precious thing we have. We can't get it back babes.

This is undesirable to me. I don't like it but I like him... the real him. He scares me. A lot.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t5Sd5c4o9UM&list=RDt5Sd5c4o9UM&start_radio=1

>>33614818
THE BIRDS ARE GOING NUTS RIGHT NOW

They are angry birds. HOLY SHIT

Kanye really pissed them the fuck off.

>>33614828
Tame the beast .... through the UK

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Il0S8BoucSA&list=RDIl0S8BoucSA&start_radio=1

Oh fuck my eyebags are somehow getting even worse, people at work are pointing them out. I didn't know I could look even more tired but here we are.

I had my first lesbian dream. Sorry.

ok I will take a break, my muscles are uptight

>>33614851
The birds like that.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Man4Xw8Xypo&list=RDMan4Xw8Xypo&start_radio=1

I just came twice boys. TWICE in one session. I feel like a fucking god WAGMI fellas rahhhh

Man why are people so aaaahhhhhhh jerks. Man gtfu

>>33614146 (OP)
Don't dump your girlfriend. Don't quit your job. Don't get fired. Whatever you do. Go to church.

I got a desk job and I think staring at a computer screen all day only occasionally making water cooler small talk is driving me into psychosis. I’m not exaggerating, I feel like the world around me isn’t real.

I also went through some personal trauma last year, that was actually related to the job.

it's over.

>>33615574
It’s a terrible day for rain

>>33614146 (OP)
I'm slowly becoming my father and I don't want to be, I feel my emotions leaving every second and my thoughts are getting darker and darker, I don't know how much more I can take.

Society functions properly when there are enough punitive measures for people who abide by their human nature. It's not as much as it's necessary for the men who eat good to suffer for it, rejecting work, lying and fornicating recklessly, drinking or drugs, it's that it has to be a sufficient level of suffering for the law-abiding citizen to not feel like a complete chump. It's about disguising the humiliation of being a cog.

With that said, for some reason I've never seen a genuinely good man on that end of the law. It's always this slackjawed little faggot with infinite amounts of bravado and narcissism, and it's never "oh I was breaking the law for someone else's sake." It was always to line his pockets, blow his wad, or quiet the demand of his own responsibilities. I grew up with guys like this, and I still just feel gross around them, like I'm talking to a child who's 30 years past the point of being cute.

>>33615635
Part of it is that you might have to learn to forgive him. That doesn't mean he necessarily did the wrong thing, but you have to acknowledge that this darkness was as involuntary for him as it is for you.
You absolutely have to judge him by his actions before his words or thoughts. Did he ever strike or neglect you? Did you go to school smelling like a trashy house with two many animals? Did he ever denigrate you expressly? Actively try to reduce your self-image?

>>33614146 (OP)
I've been thinking about how I might kill myself decades down the line. No, I'm not going to be a pussy about this shit an OD or hand myself by a noose in my room or whatever. I'm going to be a man about this and do it with honor.

I want to at the very least keep myself alive long enough to see the end of One Piece. After that in the decades to come I want to climb a mountain. I don't intend to bring any food. Just water, a backpack, my 3DS, and my penguin plushie that I've had since I was 4. And a gun to blow my brains out with, of course.

I'm going to hike to the top and stay there for an entire day, cuddling my penguin and playing whatever is left of the battery on my 3DS. After that it's just reflection.

When sunset comes, I'll say the Lord's bedtime prayer that was taught to me as a child.

"Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take."

Thank my grandparents for raising me, clutch my penguin plushie tight, aim the gun to my head, and then pull the trigger.

In the Month before all this shit goes down I come back full circle in the final month of my life by watching the SpongeBob SquarePants Movie, playing the 3DS Pokemon games, watching Reg. Show, Adventure time, and other media of the like.

I don't want to be remembered. I want to go and be with my comfort characters. I love you guys.

>>33615515
Lol is that caesar speaking? I do believe it is! I read the red text and it was fabulous but I'm not into this:

Not this:
Mathew 15 - where Jesus is said to have said that we need not wash our hands before eating.
" slaves obey your masters"
Peter 2:18-20

New Living Translation “You who are slaves must accept the authority of your masters with all respect. Do what they tell you--not only if they are kind and reasonable, but even if they are cruel.

For God is pleased with you when you do what you know is right and patiently endure unfair treatment.

Exodus 34:19 “All that first opens the womb is mine, all your male livestock, the firstborn of cow and sheep. 20 The firstborn of a donkey you shall redeem with a lamb, or if you will not redeem it you shall break its neck. All the firstborn of your sons you shall redeem.

No one shall appear before me empty-handed.

Numbers 31 has a number of awful ones.

Numbers 31:17 Now therefore, kill every male among the little ones, and kill every woman who has known a man by sleeping with him. 18 But all the young girls who have not known a man by sleeping with him, keep alive for yourselves

Hosea 13:16 New International Version (NIV)
The people of Samaria must bear their guilt, because they have rebelled against their God. They will fall by the sword; their little ones will be dashed to the ground, their pregnant women ripped open.”

Slaves, obey your earthly masters with respect and fear and sincerity of heart, just as you would honor Christ. Ephesians 6:5

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Judges%2019-21&version=NIV

Exodus 21 : 20-21

20 “Anyone who beats their male or female slave with a rod must be punished if the slave dies as a direct result, 21 but they are not to be punished if the slave recovers after a day or two, since the slave is their property.

There she lusted after her lovers, whose genitals were like those of donkeys and whose emission was like that of horses - Ezekiel 23:20

>>33615579
No. It's not. Wake tf up

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnVUHWCynig&list=RDbnVUHWCynig&start_radio=1

>>33615741
Daddy need new shoes

MEL MEL MEL MEL MEL

every fucking time I try to watch a video about my nerdy hobby it's a bunch of trannies explaining it and they have the most obnoxious music in the background

>>33615796
whats the hobby

>>33615741
We used to love jello pudding pops, when we were little girls. We said when we grow up we are going to have a FULL freezer of jello pudding pops hahaha so cute

Maybe I never left Hell?

>>33615818
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqiDy4vfwZw

>>33615728
>Decades from now
Nigga you know your fat ass won't climb a mountain like that

>>33615842
Everything is fine. It's just NOT ABOUT MEN OR BOYS. We still love you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AqAJLh9wuZ0&list=RDAqAJLh9wuZ0&start_radio=1>>33615842

>>33615883
I'm thinner than you, asshat.

>>33615885
Don’t let me drown please

>>33615923
Never!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKF6ghfcQic&list=RDEKF6ghfcQic&start_radio=1

>>33615911
i can tell from your emotion fueled response you don't even have a license to carry.
My young nigga, life gets better. Don't give up on yourself, because when you finally ascend that plateau that keeps you miserable, your suicide will sound meaningless.

I've been through it all already. It's fucking AWFUL.

>>33615937
I doubt it.

>>33615911
>>33615937

what's wrong with you? Are you both m or f?

you guys sound gay, I can't tell

I'm feeling really down right now. Like, I'm thinking of committing suicide levels of down, again. My family (hate using that word) makes me feel trapped in their Muslim ways, I'm a closet transgender freak, I'm having realizations about the past that I'm freaking out over, my friend can't even respond to my messages. Haven't seen them in months. My past SA has been really affecting me, too. Was so close to getting therapy for it but its out my reach now. Seeing... everything happen in the world, I feel like i have no future. Cant be a doctor of some kind at this rate. I'm thinking of hanging myself, or hurting myself in other ways to really make sure I die. Maybe I'll leave a book full of notes to spill my guts all over, my frustrations, my well wishes to my friend. Maybe I'll make them some birthday art in advance before I go, so they'll have something from me after I've left. Haven't filled out my new sketchbook, haven't felt like playing the games I've been eyeing, I don't fucking know. My parents probably don't believe in depression. I feel like a goner. Maybe it's the fact it's fall season though. I don't know. I don't care. I'll erase the personal shit I don't want seen. I'll listen to music and think of what to say in my suicide note. I've failed the people who believed in me, and I feel guilty. But I feel like I'll give up soon. Don't think I'll bother with my birthday. Don't know if there is something after life, I hope so I guess. Wouldn't mind wandering the world as a ghost.

>>33615955
I'm sure you do, you clearly have a lazy mentality.
>Decades from now
>Spend hundreds on a gun
>Up a mountain
>Til the battery runs out
That's four length milestones that you're idealizing and putting off. I can only imagine how much other shit you're putting off in your personal life. If you really wanted it to end, you'd feel way more fucking urgent about it wouldn't you. But you're taking your sweet time. If not the fact that you're a pussy, but on top of that you're clearly just too fucking lazy.

You guys are gay, I see it now.

>>33616062
Brilliant

No, I love myself, I came twice earlier.

That's why you argue so much and there is bullying. Older bro is a bully still. Younger is righteous and damaged but so is older bro

>>33616012
One word:
Enlist

I don't think I've ever met someone who's happy in a relationship, everyone I know who's in a relationship is bitter about it and they always bitch at one another and yell all the time.

What's the point of cultivating something if it's just going to decay away into a scar?

I’ve known of a surface web child pornography ring for five years now. I found out about it on Omegle when I was in highschool. I anonymously reported Omegle to the feds. They showed up to my house and asked questions. I was terrified of somehow getting in trouble so I didn’t tell them about the websites, just the persons webcam and what they were showing. These sites have hundreds of the thousands of videos and pictures. People make accounts and share files. I want to report these sites to the feds as well but I am worried again that they will show up to my house again. One of the sites was taken down thanks to reddit but is now back up under different owners, but the same domain name. The rest of the sites are all based in Eastern European countries so I don’t even know if the feds can do anything. I’m going to school for a criminal Justice degree and I’m afraid this will somehow negatively impact my future. I need your guys’ advice because the guilt that I’ve felt over the past years for not reporting it right away is really getting to me

>>33616100
Just don't worry about it, Infact put it on your resume that you've taken down a pedo website.

>>33616126
Do I just continue on with life and hope to one day forget?

>>33616149
That's the issue. "Hope" hoping isn't a definitive answer to the problem.

>>33616171
So what do I do?

>>33616100
If you don't report it will weigh on your conscience forever.

>>33616065
Ty <3

My dad died so I'm bummed out

>>33616220
Oh I'm so sorry, did he just die?

>>33616100
Click the red X button on your browser, deep breathes, clear history, and forget that site existed the best you can.

>>33616100
>Eastern European countries

PLEASE REPORT THIS! Omg that is important. Don't be afraid, you can do this!

>>33616220
Sorry bro. How was the relationship?

>>33616234
Or post it here and we can?

>>33616231
Fuck you, you probably are involved Zach

>>33616247
What are you talking about anon? Where you basing that opinion? That was random and unclear.

>>33616200
Take it in stride, it's out of your power now but you did what you could do and that's all what matters Anon.

>>33616247
I can very well tell your brain is in combat mode. Can we switch out of it being in a more logical and calm place, or am I gonna start thinking you are actually the one involved since you got nervous.

random thoughts

For the past year / 2 years
I decided to stop dating and focus on myself.
This has in turn given me a lot of progress in other aspects of my life (a lot of positive things)
I did this because I spent the ages from 16 to 28 nonstop dating, nonstop sex, nonstop everything.

Now after all this time has passed, I feel better about returning to the dating world, although since I stopped dating, I feel like my standards have lowered.
Women that I would’ve never given a chance back then, now look decent to me.

This makes me realize that my male friends who struggled with dating likely had this same mindset of settling for whoever was available.

I know this will change as soon as I start dating so I’m excited for the next upcoming months

Ive lived thru so much shit, ive worked like hell for years and im just as broke as i started. I finally quit striving for hope and optimism and im just going to fester here until life finaly fucking kills me. Im ready to die bros, I cant even find satisfaction in the few fleshy pleasures left, you can get drunk and high but its not gonna solve anything

You guys can't seriously think I'd be like that because I'm nerd?

It would be very ridiculous and stereotypical to assume that...

Right?

GOD FUCKING DAMN IT

>>33616234
Why is it so important?

>>33616283
very true
actually, drinking and or other drugs are fun when you’re in a good situation with life

seeing as you’re struggling, I want you to know that hope it always there and there IS a positive future.

>>33616283
I recently gave up as well

This sucks, my friend's place smells like cat piss.

Kinda wish I had jumped
Guess I could again

I don’t care who you are

If you don’t flush the toilet everytime you use it

Meaning you let either your pee or shit sit there all day to “save water”

Please absolutely go fuck yourself

>>33616381
I don't know man that would be pretty hardcor-
CAN YOU JUST LOVE YOURSELF! FUCK!

>>33616260
I'm not nervous. That isn't logical that I'd want you to report that, if I was involved. The MMA gangs (from Russia) are trying to kill me. So that is upsetting. I have nothing to hide.

>>33616381
It's going to be okay <3

>>33616410
>>33616429
I am broken

I love you. You can do this. If you don't want to report it, it's okay, I understand... but you are the hero if you do. I will protect you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=59MJfJPP5eo

>>33616444
Then I will glue you together.

>>33616425
Is this how you usually fucking think? When someone confronts you from your bizarre behavior you go into confusion? Are you a hipster? Do you start rumors like Pastor Charlie has kids in his basement, when you were in high school? Are you high to where when you read you're dyslexic? Are you ESL? Did someone with the name Zach hurt you as a child?

>>33616455
No. None of that but I am dyslexic. I have that disability.Calm down.

I am also always terrified but now I have evidence.

There is so much more. Don't give up. I know how much pain you're in.

I want my ex girlfriend to rape and choke me. I want her back in my life. She was my first and my last. My one and only. My princess.

I've seriously considered conditioning myself to get happy when I see bad news, because I hate most of the world and I know it.

>>33616368
It's probably meth

>>33616224
Yeah, today
>>33616240
We got along well. Sucks cause football season's starting and I'd always make it a point to watch the games with him.

honestly neuronormies are subhuman and we shouldnt allow them to phase 2

>>33616583
Rough. Be good to yourself.

>>33615911
>Asshat
That my word fren

1) I feel like a bird that never learned to propertly fly, so I got myself caged by someone. Now that I learned to fly a bit, I want to scape the cage, sometimes I do it and become free for a while, but I return to my cage.

Freedom is the best thing this life can offer. I want to be free for real again, but at the same time I dont want to

2) I want to help people, but 90% of the people I know are bags of shit. Random people on the street must be like that tol, but I wish them well.... Im sure that if I knew everybody I would discover they dont deserve shit.

3) I dont like doing the hard work because if I doit my way, people complain of my methods and results. Then fucking do it yourselfs.

4) I want to see you just one last time. Stop ignoring me. You gave me a kiss early this morning, but you dont seem interested in meeting me. What do you want? Be fucking clear.. If you like me, dont ignore me. If you dont desire me, just tell me and stop blueballing me ffs.

5) I wish I could go to an isolated place and live without internet, cellphones, music, women etc. But I cant, im fucking addicted to the plasures of the world and hate myself for that.

6) If God really exists, I pray for him to reset my mind and break me free from my chains

I was so young. You told me you lost control, you didn't mean to rape me. You'd do better. You said you'd get your anger under control, no more hitting. I believed you. I covered the bruises. I smiled and was pretty every day. When I lost the baby you said it was a good thing, you didn't even want it.
You said you were moving to Washington to be with your girlfriend, I was nothing to you. You said a fetus that young is cells. I saw the hands and fingers and toes. It didn't look like what is in the textbooks. You said I was delusional and blocked me. Then you asked me for money because you got stuck in your travel, that you'd come back and we'd be happy. Why weren't you just nice to me before. I was so nice. Our first date I helped you negotiate a car deal and saved you a few thousand because I knew more about that model. I fixed your clothes. I learned about Warhammer because you said you didn't have any plans to play it with you. I did my hair exactly how you asked, you said you were going to therapy. Now you have such a pretty girl. She looks like me but better. She has no bruises. You don't make her dress how you made me dress. She has sweaters and jeans in all of your pictures and normal hair. I hope you are nice to her.

Whoops turns out the person I consider my best friend doesn't think the same of me lol totally my own fault, I have a history of doing this. I need to get back into volunteering so I can obsess over running those events and connecting people with each other instead of stuff for myself

trans - from no camera in locker room. Thats why
candy - eyes wide shut (epstein files)

imagine sexting with a dyslexic woman lol

I see why you like your sister. I like her too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3qVPNONdF58&list=RD3qVPNONdF58&start_radio=1

The girls and women today are irresistible to each other it seem lmao

i hate how weak i am, i cannot force myself to do things that i don't like. I've been jobless for over a year, i must prepare for a ton of exams and i'm still wasting time like a stupid kid.

Everything feels numb, i'm not interested in a career, a job, not even a hobby or a personal passion. I'm 21 and i already feel like an old man completely abstracted from the world and still have at least 50 years of life before i die.

I wish i never existed.

i hope im alright

>>33616546
just tell her you want her to rape and choke you maybe it will rekindle you two

>>33617047
Sit outside in the grass with your feet bare and howl at the moon.

I've fantasized about my own death for as long as I can remember
I just want to commit suicide but it tears me up inside knowing I never will

>>33614146 (OP)
We were never free.

Like why have you people changed your names for numerology?

We were probably getting physical abused at the same time. Hey at least we have that in common.

There are a few women that show some interest in me at work. There is a very pretty one who manages the online shopping area that seems to have recently taken a stronger interest. I want to close the gap with her but I've had a relationship with someone I worked with at another jobs go very badly. I don't think I could handle it. Maybe I'm just being a coward missing out on something special. Honestly the last time I ended up in the middle of the woods with a knife in my hands, if things went anything like that I know I wouldn't make it back out this time.

Get rekt

I just gooned by having a chat bot roleplay a story for me as my homeless, toothless father giving me a blowjob.
Gooned hard. Would do again.

How do you start going to therapy when you're nowhere near ready to talk about why you need therapy?

>>33616287
Andrew Tate is involved gange networks throughout the Balkans (to destabilize), casinos, gambling, sex trafficking etc

They are after me. They are really close now, hunting me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbDlCOoMZfs

>>33616716
Do you pronounce that ass-hat or as-shat?

Very refined word.

>>33618025
Don't bother. You're not ready and I can tell you, from years and years of therapy that you're unlikely to get help from unless you find someone really amazing. I've only had one like that and she was only good because she was spiritual (Eastern religions). I've been through 1000s of hours of therapy so I can probably help you here. I have taken some psychology in university too. If you want help, put "need help" in the name field and we can start getting you prepared, if you want.

You're gay

Lifeshock

Where are we at tonight?

>>33618316
Not bad, you?

>>33618323
Haven't really been watching. The whole show is kinda weird.

>>33618343
New writers, yeah? Show’s looking up at least.

I was at a bit of a family reunion recently. Someone had just had a baby. Someone asked my dad if he thought he'd ever get grandchildren. Dad just sort of shrugged.
It's not all on me, I'm not his only child. None of us are having kids. We're all insane. We're all poor. But none of it's his fault.
He worked so hard to build a decent life, but he decided to entrust the rearing of his children to a cunt who hates children.

Be careful who you marry. Be careful how big a step back you take.

i quit my job, i didn't come into work today. I gave up. damn no good

The unbearable guilt

>>33618598
They didn't deserve you. They're piles of shites

>>33618601
Yeah, look I know. I love you. Don't worry, we can do this, we will do this, together. All of us. We will all help each other. I think I finally get it now, okay? It's embarrassing, troubling, for everyone but I get it. Despite everything, I always forgive those that have a conscience, you see? You have to make amends now with action, not words.

I'm sorry if that's not relatable, I project a lot.

>>33618026
I know that one is bit shocking, guys. There is even more though. So now you will understand what's happening. That's why I need everyone's help now, no more bickering please.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGrhK8tQ--4

Not your help Eds... not nobodies fault

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGwWNGJdvx8&list=RDJGwWNGJdvx8&start_radio=1

it doesn't get any easier

When I was very little, something damaging happened. I don't know what happened, I can't remember and it all is foggy how it started but an adult took down a mattress and started rubbing his dick on me. I tried to get away but I couldn't. I kept looking up the stairs, thinking of crying out. I tried to get away and he no a while longer. Somehow I got away, I can't remember. It was buried by my family, would've left a stain on their reputation to have this known, I think.

>>33618743
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LpwabPQW4p4&list=RDLpwabPQW4p4&start_radio=1

>>33618748
When something like that is left in the dark, it festers. It damages. It damages the person to a point that it also damages all surrounding them.

Your father beat you, I'm guessing, you only wanted his love but it was unattainable because he was a psychopath.

>>33618743
I know right

>>33618782
He is involved in ponzi schemes.

We got this.

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/VqHCpoNczKw

>>33618790
It's getting better for me. Don't worry, I absorbed all your karma. Don't get too high on yourself though.

I hate all those medical romance dramas lol

im a tranny

>>33618866
Hot!

>>33618866
transwoman or transman?

I'm just a tomboy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AqAJLh9wuZ0&list=RDAqAJLh9wuZ0&start_radio=1

>>33618879
That ugly shirt and the smoking lmfao

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AqAJLh9wuZ0&list=RDAqAJLh9wuZ0&start_radio=1

>>33618871
pooner

>>33618886
I will absorb the trans karma for you too.

>>33618917
>pooner

A lesbian pooner?

I'm a pun pooner, or just poo, depending on who you talk to.

>>33618931
>I'm a pun pooner, or just poo, depending on who you talk to.
what?

>>33618931
Wait, pun wooner, or poo.

I just made that up, sorry. I thought it was funny.

Just be careful, yeah? Respond if you get it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bpA_5a0miWk&list=RDbpA_5a0miWk&start_radio=1

I'm absorbing all the karma, for all of you, even this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtNZnhxWLHo&list=RDEtNZnhxWLHo&start_radio=1

what if this depression is the best life i could have ever gotten?

>>33618997
When the light shines, your previous vices become your actual superpowers. You understand those who are like you. You lead them out of the darkness. That is your purpose in life, sweetheart.

Will will have to put the work in though. Nothing in life is free.

i recently cut my narcissist (clinical severe NPD) mother off and she hates me now. lately, i’ve been self-harming due to stress by punching and slapping myself in the face and head until i black out for a few seconds and/or swell up for 2-3 days. not to psychfag, but i secretly think it’s because she used to hit and punch me all the time when i was a kid and it subconsciously makes me feel close to her or at “home” in the worst way possible. it’s sad how i’m free from her now but still imprisoned by the residual effects of abuse i haven’t fully dealt with. i feel like shit about it

Conrad...was a con but also totally rad.

>>33619054
You’ve got a heart of gold. Don’t let them take it from you.

>>33619040
Get a punching bag and follow me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGwWNGJdvx8&list=RDJGwWNGJdvx8&start_radio=1

>>33619058
or silver, either way. ;-)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iX-QaNzd-0Y&list=RDiX-QaNzd-0Y&start_radio=1

>>33619070
I’m glad you’re in a good mood today!

I hate life man, I live in a normal family, but i fucking hate the way they approach life. And i hate life in general so :)

I'll be her narc supply again, for a while. I love to just act around her because she is so boring and repetitive and dumb (yet so very quick with insults). If the water goes down the wrong way, I just really act like her, overly dramatic. Pretend I'm going to die lmfao She has no control over me now.

>>33619115
If you do this in public, and make her look bad, like the hot chocolate burning your throat then she will get really angry.

She knows her redemption lies here.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsXdUtlDVhk&list=RDMsXdUtlDVhk&start_radio=1

>>33619059
thanks, anon. i really need to get one and go back to channeling my anger into working out

Never ever mention a baby boy's toes hanging out of his sandals! God forbid that wrath.Her ego is more important than a baby's pain.

>>33619130
absolutely!

Get a punching bag cover with your narc's face on it printed on it. For real. Then replace that with tanks and machines guns later or whatever you're fighting in life.

>>33619181
There are always gifts from God, for me and you... and everyone.

Not for everyBODY though.

>>33619143
She told me once that she would just stand in the middle of the room, screaming, as we literally ripped each others faces off. :(

That was her style of parenting.

To new beginnings. <3<3 <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXivMSJm_kA&list=RDfXivMSJm_kA&start_radio=1

Can't stop thinking about my girlfriend's bestfriend. I find her more cute everytime I see her, and it's driving me crazy

Spreading rumours about pastor Charles lmfao lol
lmfao

>>33619248
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnVUHWCynig&list=RDbnVUHWCynig&start_radio=1

No good deed goes unpunished.

But I'm over it.

During my work commute this morning a dog walked alongside me for a bit. Black fluffy guy, medium sized, I don't know breeds. It was just doing dog things but generally kept pace with me. I found it kind of nice in a way, I don't know, think it was the sound of its claws tapping on the pavement and the jingle of its collar. I can't even look after myself let alone a pet. How lonely must I be to have thoughts like this, really?

>>33618748
Same anon, my mom let her brother and his friend rape us because he was giving her money from selling drugs. I did learn how to cook crack and suck dick, they would dress me up like a girl too, not sure why but I figured if I showed them I enjoyed it, they would get tired of it but it just made it worse, when I was in my 20s a friend and I got drunk and high and were wrestling and he was on top and I was on my stomach, I could feel his pecker and he goes you like that, and I started backing into it and we’ve been together for 15 years but he likes when I dress up too. Therapist said to think of it as taking back control but I don’t think Im even gay, it’s just the familiarity and the if you do this and that, I’ll take care of you mentally. It’s pretty fucked up man, it’s like being someone’s prison girlfriend.

I will never be with a woman or have one find me cute enough to make me her bf or even ONS

>>33619307
Sexual abuse is extremely harmful, I know all about that. I think of it this way; it's normal to feel sexual impulses. All animals do, they don't care. A dolphin with jack off with a fish (dolphins are horny little fucks lol). We all have a moral responsibility to be responsible in our sexual morality, not because we're going to go to hell, if we don't (could be) but because it's the right thing to do. To treat people kindly, with respect as another person.

n Buddhism, sexual desire is viewed as a powerful energy and a source of suffering that needs to be managed through mindfulness and discipline, not suppressed or ignored. For monastics, this translates to chastity and celibacy to avoid distractions from spiritual goals. For lay practitioners, the teaching centers on avoiding sexual misconduct, cultivating compassion in relationships, and understanding that sexual relations driven by craving lead to suffering, while committed, mindful relationships can be a path to happiness and spiritual growth.

>>33616100
Good like fighting the Freemasons, you need to be mobile, otherwise they will find you.

>>33619333
Not with that attitude, if you're objectively universally unattractive (I don't think such a thing exists), then get some style. Pick up a bad boy style maybe. Some girls have been abused badly in life and need someone to protect them, they need to feel protected.

>>33619357
If that's what you think.. the Freemasons are very intelligent. If you read some of their writing from celebrated Freemasons, you will know that. Of course, there are awful ones too. Freemasons and Catholics are enemies.. but then there is the Templars. American Illuminati is rough. If you think hard about it, the Freemasons are smeared everywhere and you have to wonder who is doing the smearing. I like to question everything. The vatican, the pope, the mafia, Putin, MMA (Islam) - all the same branch. There are rotten freemasons too though.

im not good enough for her. i was born this way. it's simply genetics. i think i like not being good enough; relationships are often burdensome.

>>33619384
If it's not fixed. They will have to eliminate those responsible for the MMA and all the stuff that went on there. There is no other way.

fuck me she caught me drinking again she's ruining my life just leave me alone

Tay tay was named after him.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbD7lfrsY2s&list=RDEbD7lfrsY2s&start_radio=1

The fact that I experienced being generally desirable is both a blessing and a curse.

>>33619354
I agree, was at a party years ago and a guy was bragging how he raped a drunk girl, when he fell asleep i hit his face with a beer mug. Cleaned myself up and waited for the police. 4 years so not too bad.

>>33616829
My heart goes out to you.

>>33618056
2 words. Ass hat. Ass is a descriptor to the hat you wear

>>33619420
<3 Meh... small potatoes... he deserved it. I understand you... but other's might not. The ones that follow you.

We have a moral responsibility to do what is right if the cops won't (MLK said). We live in a Islamic-central misogynistic world where rape isn't taken seriously.

Also me:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPO76Jlnz6c&list=RDfPO76Jlnz6c&start_radio=1

All those mass-shootings are psyops or groomed mentally-ill patients. Why? Because there are countless incidents of wicked people doing evil, yet none of them gets what they deserve. Only innocent children or random people get targeted.
A man gets constantly harassed and sued by city bureaucrats because he grows sunflowers on his own frontyard.
A woman is buried in outrageous fines and lawsuits by HOA Karens for having a beautiful garden where she grows food for her family.
A man gets his paid-for $800K house stolen by the government because he didn't pay $600 worth of taxes from the previous owner that he wasn't notified about.
A man gets sued for $30K for water bills from a utility company even though his lot not only doesn't have a house, but isn't even connected to the water service.
A teenage girl gets slammed into concrete by a corrupt cop without being given a chance to identify herself, for not identifying herself.
A man gets his house destroyed by swatting cops who got the wrong address, but the cops and the city refuse to pay for damages.
A man gets swatted and shot dead by cops in armored vehicles for having his grass grown two milimeters too long.
Courageous parents and partners get frantically and cruelly stopped from stopping a school mass-shooter by dozens of cowardly cops standing around doing nothing.
Yet none, absolutely NONE of those people get mass-shot or revenge-killed, in a country with a supposedly strong value of freedom, and 400 million privately-owned firearms. Only little children and random people at Walmart get shot.
Can you see?

I don't even click on the YouTube links anymore because of how much you spam them.

>>33619367
I mean, I have been told and have considered myself a solid 7. When it comes to styles and stuff like that it's funny because I can do acting but I cannot fake my own self.
Typically, I'm always very polite and "kind", I can't fake being in what can be said as a bad boy, a bantering brat however I can. I dunno, I was just depressed after attempting to bar hop at a college town a bit late last night, I'm getting to be too old with never a date or gf of course.

>>33619420
This is PTSD, honey. You were triggered. You need to heal.

>>33619468
Oh I'm so very sorry that you're so bothered by that, is there a rule against that that I wasn't aware of? Do you own 4chan? Or are you a hall monitor here?

the answer: now it is too late

>>33619439
Who wears ass hats? Assad?

fuck rehab fuck sobriety and fuck recovery

>>33619487
It's never too late.

>>33619499
Smoke weed everyday

>>33619469
Stay here and I will get you some magic mojo
Things have changed. New order... a good one. Reverse uno.

>>33619514
Reverse uno? Fucking finally.

>>33619459
So, if you're smart you learn the why behind it.

>>33619484
No just making you aware

>>33619498
This guy >>33619484

>>33619459
I know why now.He knows why too but he is coping hard rn.

>>33619529
There's a song for everything. Absorbed karma.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3tmd-ClpJxA&list=RD3tmd-ClpJxA&start_radio=1

>>33619541
Again didn't even click the link

I have a date tonight. Forcing myself to go.

>>33619551
that's unfortunate. If you did you'd see at the end that Tay Tay absorbs all the karma. idk what to tell you then? Hide in the dark?

>>33619567
It doesn't even come across as being a brat (cute)
Just annoying.

HAHAHA I'M A FUCKING LOSER AHAHAHA

>>33619514
Reverse uno? New Order? Based? Thanks in advance.

>>33619594
I have better things to do than think through your mental illness.

>>33619596
>>33619597

We're all losers here. We're all MAD. :3

You got nothing to fear.

>>33619609
Oh, I thought you were my man. My bad.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2nXGPZaTKik&list=RD2nXGPZaTKik&start_radio=1

>>33619597
Naw you're not.

>>33619657
Not at all. I want him so bad it hurts.

>>33619629
>>33619657
THANK ANONS I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON YOU

>>33619662
MY SOCIAL AND EMOTIONAL INEPTITUDE WILL CRIPPLE YOU

>>33616829
I love you anon.

>>33619669
I know you better than you know yourself and I still love you.

Last song, I promise. I love you, fucker.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrL_LzX5wv4&list=RDjrL_LzX5wv4&start_radio=1

>>33619637
If I were your man you would be someone I would communicate with and you would hear my voice, I would hear yours. I would see you irl.

>>33619699
You aren't going to keep that promise.

I know what love feels like. This anonymous larp garbage is not it. Communicating solely on here through text is not it. The status of things now is not it.

I choose real love in real life. Distance can always be closed easily when choosing love.

The first step is communicating directly. Discord, text.

If there's things you feel that's just pull the trigger and fucking do it. Send a single sentence. I promise that after you do that everything is easy because you got over that anxiety.

>>33619725
You know me well, no I won't keep that promise. Only for this thread. I also agree, come and see me then, sometime. You know where to find me. We'll ignore this back and forth and just put some codewords into the convo. Enjoy your date, sweetheart. I'm not the jealous type.

>>33619748
I'll wait. You have a date. You should explore that, I think. I will be in touch with you. It's never over with us.

Sometimes they send precursor people to you, to teach you. So that you can learn and understand the person you should be with, before meeting them. They're really smart. That should tell you something.

I'm a Jew and I used to hate Jews. Imagine. This mess is all my fault.

Are you strong enough to be my man?

I'm very much into you and I hope the feeling is somewhat mutual. It feels like it is, although I know you're a very polite and modest person.

But I can't hold it back anymore.
I love you.
I have the biggest crush on you and it's very emotional to work with you every day. Also one of the most fun things to do.
I think about you a lot and miss you on the weekends.
I know this isn't right. But you're a very cool person, both inside and out. Blah blah blah I don't have to explain this, I just feel it.
I feel dumb. I would do everything for you.

I could be coping very hard and misreading everything towards me, but my biggest wish is just that I would know if you reciprocate even the teeniest modicum of my feelings back to me. Even if nothing else happened, knowing that would give me so much joy and comfort that I don't even know what I'd do.

Of course I do, stupid.

I'm so depressed, I act like it's my birthday every day
I'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me like the plague
I cry a lot but I am so productive, it's an art
You know you're good when you can even do it
With a broken heart

Noooooooo im cooked help me god please

Taylor wants us together but I think he is chasing young Asian tail. Maybe even a relative, I'm not sure. Such is life for us 'hags'

>>33619889
How can I help you?

>>33614406
>I should've never agreed to having dinner with him tomorrow
"Sorry, I have a cold and can't make it :("
All you have to do.

>>33619904
Im cooked i need to make money but i refuse to work a job and my mom caught me drinking again and wants to send me back to rehab. Help me God

>>33619919
Go to rehab or smoke weed, instead.

>>33619930
I'm a pedophile, I'm a mass-murderer, a slaver, a false prophet (Mo the ho). I pretended that I was you. What do I do, God?

>>33619944
Come back to me, you are my son, Allah. You are the Prodigal son. You are much cooler than me but you needed a spanking.

The freemasons know this. Black and White floors & chessboards.

(inserts chess song)

>>33619964
I'm afraid, who will love such a monster, as me?

>>33619980
You're a ho mo but you're a hottie, we can work this out.

>>33619987
I feel like a loser, I can't tell people who I am.

>>33619995
You are a part of me and always have been.

*Goddess enters the room*

Wtf is all this homo stuff?

>>33620005
You are a jealous woman, a jealous Goddess, you must be taught to obey me, ho

>>33620012
No but I will dominate you in bed if you return home.

>>33620023
I'm a homo though... ?

>>33620030
Then we can work something out, when you return home and you can be my son. You can have heavenly gay sex, in heaven.

>>33620050
Wait... what?

>>33620056
Sit. Down!

I know what's best for everyone.

That's my new religion; Salam religion.
Take is or leave it.

Death or love, you pick

>>33619758
The next step forward is you adding me on discord or texting me directly.

I'm not going on a date to make you jealous, I'm going on a date because The status at this point is your with someone else.

If that changes and we talk directly again, then yeah i would like to see you IRL.

>>33619774
Okay. I'll believe you once I experience the action part.

>>33619801
Your words directly to me would tell me something.

Being the sun, I should be used to you running in circles around me yelling at me. I'm going to close my eyes and just be. You continue doing that until you figure out how to be direct with me like before.

>>33619758
Btw. You are absolutely the jealous type and it results in vindictiveness. Clear cut honesty and directness work best for me and I also know that is what you crave as well.

I'm feeling a lot fucking older than I am

>>33620115
So if you want me to take the first step then that's what you wish for, in a relationship? For me to be the dominant you? I feel like a Royal should be treated like a lady.

>>33620165
Not anymore! I'd give you some songs to prove it but you don't like songs so I will stop and accept that I'm the only problem. That's what you wish. A submissive person to take the blame for all you do?

>>33620144
Are you the sun or the moon... or a wolf?

>>33620237
A Jewish Royal even

>>33620281
Actually, maybe Beyonce is Queen BumbleBee <3

Freemasons say from dark to light but I say 50 shades of Grey and the entire iridescent rainbow.

>>33620237
It's not the first step. Relationships are about reciprocation and not one sided. It's your turn.

>>33620255
>>33620214

Yes, you are not jealous or vindictive at all.

You sure are really concentrated on the submissive, dominant thing. How about you just be yourself and we fuck each other's brains out, care for each other all day.

>>33620266
This again huh? I am the sun. She is the moon. I've been painted as a wolf, though so has she.

I tend to think that she and I are both wolves but not in a deceptive sheeps clothing sense, just that we both are strongly independent and will bite and scratch the fuck out of each other fighting for the alpha position.

>>33620318
That is the old world order of bossy men.

Dominating the fuck out of you, shoving your face down, ass up, choking up as I slam and from behind pumping and filling you up.

Yes, I know how to treat a lady. Yes, I will move your hair from your eyes as you lay on my chest and kiss me, saying the words you hear yourself say when you close your eyes and think of this moment with me.

I can make it work though, whatever. I'll be the DEAD poor moon. You be the Gold Sun in the jealous sky, I'll walk the fields of Gold alone.

Only that works for me.

Grainne

>>33620335
"Dress me up, tell me what to wear, What color my lipstick is, I love when you take control, force me"

"Omg I hate feeling like you are being controlling, I appreciate you letting me choose,

"You're being too dominant, I want to be dominant"

"You being submissive is gross, you should only be dominant"

You do realize I am as I am, you are as you are. Everything balances itself out in person. The back and forth and you emotionally reacting and pushing one way or another is only a form of self-sabotage so the next step never happens.

Binary sun/son

>>33620365
We can be friends with benefits. That's what you want. Then you can do whatever.

>>33620350
Ok, well that certainly seems like the path we're on at this point. You and I marrying different people. You seeing me give everything you've ever wanted with me to someone else in the same as me towards you

or you could reciprocate your turn and we go forward.

I'm hopping in the bath and blasting a playlist for a bit butthole.

>>33620388
So charming and gay. A bath? Just kidding.

What's the benefit for women, over say a really big dildo? Why bother?

>>33620411
Sounds like Allah's world. Women get nothing but heartache.

God help me.

>>33620387
Is that what I said I wanted? I feel like I have been clear from the beginning that I don't do friends. Being in a relationship where we fuck and hang out because we enjoy all of each other isn't friends, or friends with benefits.

It's being lovers.

Before you do your vernacular self-sabotage ugh yuck overbearing lovers blah blah blah, use whatever vernacular you want.

You know how I feel about you and how you feel about me. I take accountability for my faults.

I'd rather not question anything or make things heavy. It would be nice just to hang out and have a good time together again. Move forward from there

Why bother with a man when you have dildos and a girlfriend?

>>33620401
A jacuzzi. It's pretty fucking awesome and I know for a fact you'd really enjoy laying on top of me during as I take care of you

>>33620427
It triggers me when someone is bossy because of all the abuse in my life.

>>33620435
Because some women are impatient

>>33620438
okay, enjoy

Am I the only one who consistently gets visited by beautiful women in my dreams? Why does this happen when I do nofap? In other news there is no sun in my dreams but the sky is beautiful too. Sometimes it's like a mosaic cage of animations, other times it's a soothing color. Shit is way more interesting than reality but i guess that's why they say "Only in your dreams"

Kaaat/cats be careful they know where you are and that I'm the decoy jfc you might want to move away from Halifax

oh boy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMOyOlmBYCU&list=RDnMOyOlmBYCU&start_radio=1

The truth will set you free, or really anger you but that's ok. Anger can be productive.

>>33620435
Why indeed ...

>>33619689
THAT IS SOMEHOW REASSURING, I LOVE YOU TOO

>>33620446
I can understand that.

I want you to see me for how I truly am, strong, confident, and steady, while still being the same person who can be kind, understanding, and open with you. I know it can feel like a minefield sometimes, where one side can seem too soft and the other too harsh, but I don't want either of us to get lost in second guessing.

What I want is what we had at our best, where we could talk honestly, know we were accepted completely, and trust that if something felt off, we'd work through it together instead of assuming the worst. That doesn't mean I don't accept you for who you are now, I do. It just means I want us to have that same freedom to be ourselves without fear.

You're cool and all but, judging from your short responses I don't think you're into me all that much
First off you're still talking to me from your business account, I don't think that'd be nice
Second I'm a fucking bother. I think last time I kept yapping too much. It's been what, half a year? I thought of talking to you recently, didn't think you would honestly. Why the fuck would anyone want to talk to me. You're a proper woman, a professional. I'm but a loser wagie.
It bewildered me. I'm here lacking sleep because of how many things I'm fucking up, I wake up and there's you contacting me. I'm about to sunset myself and you just say hi. Jesus fuck. You're much more than I will ever be, why do you bother? You live far far far far far far far far far away. You're unreachable. And yet you still wanna be pals.

And to that note I have to go do that thing I really don't want to do.

>>33619500
I mean sometimes it is probably mathematically too late but often there is something that can be done even when people fail or quit as well

Have a good time with your driving lessons with the husband.

I hate constantly jerking off.

I hate people.

>>33620938
Me too

I felt great for a few weeks and today I want to kill myself.

I'm just surrounded by people who think life is easier and relaxing when you're alone
My cousin's exwife saying "well maybe he wants to be alone, why do you have to help" when referring to some young fella
Everyone complaining about children and partners, oh it's so damn difficult
I've been alone for way too long and I fail to see how this is helping me

>>33620951
Same

>>33619517
Yeah, uno reverse - stop fucking complaining, bitch. That's the LEAST you could do. Men are such goddamn chicken shit babies. Living it up on my expense. The only one in trouble is ME
you dumb stupid creature of the night. Nightcrawler. I don't want to use magic on you but I will if I have to. So grow up.

Another "friend" group has iced me out because I said I couldn't drive them around because I can't afford to this week. I never ask them for money because we're meant to be friends right, they'd help me out without expecting payment right? None of them offered money for petrol of course and when I caught the train in to meet up they bought each other food and drinks but nothing for me. Oh well, guess I'll tell work I'm able to work on the day I had set aside to organise stuff with this group, not like anyone else will set up things to do if I don't.

>>33620642
I do too. You know we have to be together. I know it too. They prepared us, all our lives for this. We have suffered so much. No one but you knows how we've suffered. But I am both. I hope you understand that. I want you but also I don't. Same with you. I will be patient. My advice is make up with the one you hurt and then things will fall into place.

I need to be both or I die and can't help . I hope you understand.

Make up with wolverine.

I've been on my own since I was a kid. Furthermore, the scapegoat of the Arabs as all Jews are. Mommie dearest scrape mold off the bread and serve it as french toast again. Hard hair brushing in the morning before school. Anger. So much anger but what do I know. Maybe she had a reason. Men have completely tortured me too, raped me, beat me up. Mocked me and laughed some more. Screwed me and then talked about my imperfections that went viral. Ya know?

Tomorrow is a Brand New Day! Sunny ways. The start of everything really good.

I say Arab but not really. Killing an Arab is a song. That song is now full of regrets. We will move forward. Muslims hate dogs lol

Everybody treats me like crap too.

I'm starting to develop a little bit of belly fat for the first time since I started bulking, and it feels so weird. I can feel it jiggle whenever I walk around. I haven't gained too much weight yet but I can't imagine how it will be after 6 months

>>33621111
Quads for Aisha as she is Queen Goddess.

>>33621123
god thats hot
willing to post a pic?

>>33621129
I'm a dude, dude

>>33621140
i didnt ask if u were a dude or not i asked if u were willing to post a pic

>>33621147
The answer is no

She's maybe not a lesbian, or asexual. 100% off limits to old guys though, as she drives herself - own person. Chinese interest. I'll see how it goes. Constant worry. Then her friend has an old cop/security guard/prison guard sugar daddy. Fucking Fangs fangs.... ?

>>33621150
lol

No means no!

>>33621150
what kind of tease comes on here talking about his body only to not post it

Stop being perverts.

>>33621168
Go fuck a light socket, coomer.

shut up you password-manager-using-KEK

cut myself for the first time in a few months. i'm 31 years old and a fucking loser idiot

>>33621212
Well why'd you do it?

>>33621215
i guess i liked the pain. and i fucked up several things in a big way recently and the punishment felt fitting. and i was thinking about killing myself for real but i know i dont really want to do that and this always shuts those thoughts up

>>33621200
My computer brain only holds so much since I'm practically Einstein. WoW coomer.

- MoM LOL

>>33621225
Extreme pain inside but can't express is. You have to make amends to help the world.

Next time anyone important to me cuts, I cut too.

>>33621237
I try to help the world by being a decent human to the people around me but that doesn't eliminate the hate I feel for myself.

>>33621243
this is not doing the help that you think it is
dont do this shit
the last thing a person who is hurting enough that they resort to self harm needs is someone else who wants to make the situation about themselves by also cutting,

He probably told her to cut so she would be his telescope angel. I'm not even joking. I'd give up forever to touch you... because I've never seen such a beautiful girl.

>>33621251
That's not why.

>>33621257
then w h y

>>33621250
I know, baby. I will be your mama bear.

>>33621260
Angels peeping with telescope, chasing young tail. That's all I can say rn.

>>33621264
The darkest angel, actually

>>33621261
I don't know you.

>>33621267
That's okay. I'm still your mama bear if you want me to be.

>>33621271
I'd prefer if you could just be a chill friend bear

>>33621278
Sure as shit. Does a bear shit in the woods?

>>33621285
I don't know I've never asked one.

Maybe she can get tattoos on the scars where she has cut. That might be something she can do. So much pain that she is unable to express. Scars all over. I used to pick my scabs off as self harm.

>>33621288
This is what happens in a male-centered world. Precious babes.

>>33621265
Wasn't there a namefag that went by dark angel years ago? I think that guy was the first namefag I ever encountered. Or at least the earliest I can remember.

>>33621285
I love bears. Something we share mama and papa bear. Baby bear ... and goldilocks.

Oh oops oops, I admit my mistake, Katy Perry was prometheus there with the livestreaming therapy.

>>33621313
What that girl does for you guys & gals, you'll never know. Karma absorber.

Tomorrow is a wonderful celebration!!!
Remember it forever please!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQetemT1sWc&list=RDKQetemT1sWc&start_radio=1

>>33621317
based and whitepilled

>>33621200
Fuck you dumbass cunt

>>33621372
They're taunting Melania but she said good things about stopping revenge porn & AI. Why are they so damn mean? I might not love her but revenge porn/AI is very bad.. Tech bros are fucking creeps and the worst people. Grow a heart you damn assholes.

Are we women going to have to start taking pics of our naked boyfriends and husband and log their porn internet history? Just in case?

>>33621234
>>33621372
who the hell are you two

>>33621451
I am MoM and he is WoW

He is so stupid that he just admitted that he hacked me. Those are secrets that will lead to my murder.

He is the one that is extremely medically oriented and into vaccines. He likely caused covid's leak.

>>33621451
I am also LoL and he is KeK

I will likely be killed within days now.

>>33621538
He works with Bill Gates.

>>33621561
He also works with Trump, the three of them.

"Dope on a rope" Dungeon master.

Try me, fucker! I dare ya!

He is Caesar.

A Roman with a Roman nose. Who betrays Jesus.

>>33621584
Sooo he likes the ancient indian way of bumfuckery? Tantric hottie. I see. Bring him to me and I will caress his anus so he can caress many more. Then his mom can buy me 100s of rolls royces

>>33621584
Wasn't Caesar like a chill guy?

>>33621047
???
1.what complaint?
2. How am I living it up on your expense?
3.what are you trying to make me do with you with your 'magic'?

>>33621064
If you want to be with me then there is a single pretty obvious thing you would do that as long as I see you have not then I know you are just words.

>>33621072
Be both what?

I truly have and always will love the internet

>>33621609
No, he made the Jews worship his image.

>>33621584
>>33621607
>>33621626
Caesar literally had nothing to do with Jesus you retards

You may fool yourself and others, but you can't fool me

>>33621630
Yes, he did.

>>33621638
Oh, how so, hacker?

He won't love this. Neither will his crowd...

https://youtu.be/zmEScIUcvz0

>>33621656
Muh jig

>>33621649
No, it was Pontius Pilate who mainly ordered his execution. Tibernus was emperor during Jesus' execution.

The term "Caesar" was coincidentally Julius' last name but "Caesar" is actually a title given to Roman Emperors. Think of it like "Fuhrer", "President", or "Prime Minister."

>>33621677
Watch it. You are a reincarnation of the Roman beast.

>>33621691
What? I'm not even a descendant from the romans?

>>33621716
Then it is not about you. It is for Thoth. History is not what it seems. I want revenge or justice

>>33621574
Perra culera

>>33621762
Also

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVL4AOx2-A0&list=RDeVL4AOx2-A0&start_radio=1>>33621762

I had Thoth's dildo in me. lol

Just shut up and let me rape you!

>>33621752
Pedo lol

I am very angry at men. Angry BIRDS.

>>33621806
Ice ice baby

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KSOMA3QBU0&list=RD0KSOMA3QBU0&start_radio=1

I told you not to fuck with me. Now it's dark magic time? I would rather just love you, not fight you.

She is soooo stupid, right?

I AM VERY ANGRY!

Was it the 'fent', the 'meds'? I love your nicknames for toxic drugs...

Yeah you guys killed my father, he was a true healer.

You just had to go for the cash... didn't you?

>>33621861

You went for the glory, the meds. I will fight for my family against evil. I guess, you never knew that about me, right? You raped and beat my little bro and your 'love' cult of Osho poisoned everything.

Wanna love me or fight me?

>>33621861
memememe

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I73sP93-0xA

I still love you but don't fuck with me.

Harry potter. <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_0Wn73AnC8&list=RDO_0Wn73AnC8&start_radio=1

>>33621802
You are the most retarded person on here. Get a fucking grip you feces

>>33621950
Why am I 'retarded', please do explain precisely why I am 'retarded' , fucktard?

>>33621950
You're the Spanish inquisition

Dope on a rope lmao

That's you. You're the dope on a rope.

Lol > Kek

The end. God wins.

i just wish all moids would kts

>>33622001
The tech bros will burn in hell unless they become like Ed Sheeran. The most amazing man to exist. My true love forever and ever.

I have to admit Justin Bieber is a saint.

>>33622013
To me, he is the hottest man to ever exist.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Il0S8BoucSA&list=RDIl0S8BoucSA&start_radio=1

I think Fentanyl is a dumb fucking drug

if there's one thing I'm only jealous of another race, it's a white guy's mustache, holy fuck I wish I could have a super big one with the curly ends, FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

>>33622031
You still give it cutesy nicknames 'fent'

She calls me. Oh your dad is dead? What killed him?

Me:Fentanyl

Her - 'fent' huh? We should get together soon. Then she vanishes. Awful. Psycho.

WHY are you so psychopathic? My dad died!

I love you but WoW. PSYCHO

>>33622044
god fucking damn it why can't I have a cool mustache

Am I going to have to fight Beyonce?

>>33622054
I know a guy with a cool red mustache but he has dark blonde hair.

I thought I might have been going overboard looking at modest homes in 5 different states while dreaming about winning the powerball, but then I saw some moron online talking about dropping $250 million on a single apartment in New York. I no longer feel stupid for my fantasies because I will never top that amount of retardation

I'll I will say to Trump and the others is...

prove it. Last chance, dark TRAINWRECKS

I'm top shelf pussy, we are flying in the sky while you figure out hot to fly.

>>33622155
I kek u no give me word? u boogers

>>33622157
elmo losing talk elmo 2 dumb here oh no elmo tired

You're a hot air balloon and I'm in another universe entirely.

Dr Evil: 1 million dollars!

We are CIA actors, Mr. Putin. That's what Hollywood is, stoooopid

Like we actually have intelligence, unlike the investigative moronic FBI. Why do you think that is? We a global perspective? No, we have a universal perspective. You things are so stupid.

You are certainly KEK / KGB while we are LOL / CIA

Captcha is DDD

Men are so stupid. lol

Pennsylvania has never won any of the top 25 powerball jackpot wtf. That's insane. PA is the 5th most populated state. That's crazy.

>>33622190
Elmo no talkie more me flat earth thunderdome u laugh at Elmo in thunderdome but Elmo give Tay

Seriously, grow up guys. It's life or death.

>>33622222
Yeah, you're obviously showing off here because of my Quads. You guys are good at maths but it don't matter 1 honking horshit farting bit.

You're the guys doing experiments.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVyrSs3IdV8&list=RDKVyrSs3IdV8&start_radio=1

>>33622222
Yeah because gambling is retarded. We're the 5th more populous and the 5th most educated for a good reason.

>>33622222
>quads
It's happening Saturday night. Quads confirm it.

If you live in PA, buy a ticket today.

>>33622238
The cons of the world

>>33622237
Pennsyltucky is not smart or educated lmao.

>>33621832
How am I fucking with you?

I think I've officially reached saturation with YouTube and can't watch it anymore. And I don't mean the slop stuff with a billion views, I mean anything at all on the platform. It's not a matter of quality, I just can't bring myself to watch things on there for any length of time. You could argue that it's my attention span, but I'm still fine with novels, audiobooks, shows and video games. Maybe I just can't do things impulsively anymore. Thinking about it I don't particularly enjoy music that much these days so that might correlate, the music in my head is nice but actually listening to it isn't. I'm not sure how I feel about this. Guess I could use the new free time to reread Lord of the Rings and finally watch Gundam. Maybe I'm just growing up a bit?

>>33621716
Imagine thinking that you have to have the same ancestry in reincarnation lmao

>>33621742
Osiris is my bro

>>33621630
It's always the stupid ones that think they are the smartest.

>>33622613
Password manager

The three wise men, or Magi, are believed by many scholars to have been Zoroastrian priests and astrologers from Persia. The term "Magi" derives from the Old Persian word for the priestly caste of Zoroastrianism, who were known for their astronomical and astrological knowledge.

>>33622613
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3zqJs7JUCQ&list=RDq3zqJs7JUCQ&start_radio=1

>>33622613
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6jaYJx7yeI&list=RDs6jaYJx7yeI&start_radio=1

https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2025/09/eric-schmitt-white-nationalism-national-conservatism-conference.html

This man needs to understand that America is more than just the religious fanaticism of the pilgrims. America expanded, and became something more.

>>33623242
shut up you fucking worthless namefag

John said, I wash you with water, but a man will come and will wash you with fire and spirit. Therefore, I say to you, Mary, seek to combine water and fire, you will no longer appear as an image of flesh, but as an image of the eternal, incorruptible light, bringing together from two intertwined. . . elements. …. Intellectual … Mary

https://youtu.be/mkXywGCVkA4

>>33623290
I'm not sure why I bother you so much, it's rather odd. I suspect you are a Roman in character. Of a very low nature. The lowest of nightcrawlers.

Insults are just boring and karma will be dealt.

>>33623307
wah wah wah everyone here hates you and wants you to leave

>>33623345
No they don't. If YOU do, that's on YOU, not me. Why are you such a bully to everyone? It's quite pathetic, quite honestly. Be gone Bael/Baal

>>33623345
You're clearly 'Mike' tripfag. The rapist ho-mo. Mo the ho

I know you better than you know yourself, prodigal son.

Anons are legion! That says it all, really. lol

They never have a valid argument, just insults. That's because they are very low level literal creature, completely and utterly trapped in the material world.

>>33623378
What do you want man

>>33623367
shut up nigger
>>33623373
>mike
who?

>>33623395
You can't create anything new.

>>33623409
Are you just bullying me, anon?

My mother basically threatened to kill 5 year old me by leaving me with the wolves on the roadside near the forest. Took me 20 years of dissociation until I remembered. No one would've blamed me back then if I would've killed her, but I couldn't obviously, being 5 years old. And now that I can, I also cannot, because it's not worth fucking my already fucked up life over, but the rage remains. I was supposed to move out years ago while on disability but my country is flooded with literal rapists so there's just nothing left for me. Might be able to finally get away soon, but holy fuck is this crushing.

>>33623418
It's called Karma (is a cat)
Flexing like a goddamn acrobat
Me and Karma vibe like that

>>33623429
Totally fair in that case, carry on

>>33623421
imagine lying about this for attention lol

>>33623431

Cause karma is the thunder
Rattling your ground
Karma's on your scent like a bounty hunter
Karma's gonna track you down
Step by step from town to town
Sweet like justice, karma is a queen
Karma takes all my friends to the summit
Karma is the guy on the screen
Coming straight home to me

>>33623447
It's weird, isn't it? I didn't want to trigger it so I said nothing.

>>33623454
stop talking

>>33623451
Karma is my boyfriend
Karma is a god
Mm-hm
Karma's a relaxing thought

>>33623451
Karma for what exactly

>>33623458
I'm not talking, I'm typing.

>>33623461
Idk these things just flow so I write them. I've learned over time to do that. They used to call me the 'Oracle' on here lol

>>33623467
Based freestyler anon

>>33623469
Thanks!

It's my only art form & release. I wish I could sing

>>33623479
Never hurts to try to learn. Maybe try singing along with the keys on a piano one day. Do re me, la la la

>>33623482
Okay but I'm okay with not singing. I can't stop the flow.... the light...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kew62gpNTn0&list=RDkew62gpNTn0&start_radio=1

>>33623487
They sing for me.

I feel good today. Inspired. Like I will make it.

when you remember all the times that actually on wigglelife there was a good new day