Extremely sad and angry
I go to college and live on campus and was supposed to meet with a friend at the bar for Halloween but he got caught up waiting for his fucking lady friend at his place. I told my friend I think I'm done for the night and went home. i drank 3 hard ciders and got very drunk and instead of feeling happy and relaxed I feel extremely sad and miserable. I am breaking down uncontrollably sobbing right now. Walking home I see so many beautiful girls with their boyfriends happy and having a good time. I have never had a chance with any girl here. I have very little sense of social scene and I feel so fucking lonely and like a total fucking loser. The ones that are by there selfs that I did interact with want nothing to do with me. I feel so sad and fucking isolated. I am just a sad one among billions. My life has no purpose and I'm never gonna find the love of my life and reproduce. I am so unbelievably sad and just wanna die. Fuck the human race!!! Please fucking help me I can't go on like this.
