Thread 942446847

G/fur cuz

Hmm

>>942447620
>>942447950
Hoobs.

>>942448539
Yeah post em

>>942448617
Say please.

>>94244878617

ur gross

>>942447620
Post better hoobs than borb.

>>942449331
Has horny like you like
Had split hooves lime you like
No clue how you hate her you cuntboy

>>942449388
Eww women.

>>942449692
You are women

>>942449779
Borb, take your meds.

>>942449891
No

>>942449957
Hooooober!

>>942449945
>>942449957
Hoobs

finally employed. Here's to estrogen soon and a reset on my identity, though I never had one. I think I've just broken out of 17 years of CPTSD and PTSD.
Life is good. I feel so comfy, safe and warm.

>>942450316
Nvm you aren't thet bad

>>942450764
lol, youre gonna hate yourself.

>>942450824
Thank you for realizing.

>>942451839
I love all no matter what. Follow Christ bro. Mom tranny in a nun outfit with a cross dangling giving you head

>>942450764
Employment is good, especially during a recession

>>942452334
Ja. It's McDonald's but hey. Okay pay, free meals, and I'm gardening and hunting on top. All that money is going into savings, investments.

"There're no rules against sunbathing naked on campus, I checked"

>>942452493
Trust me, there's always someone way worse than me popping up here posting. Now give me more hoobs.

*fart*

>>942452628
Kind of it isn’t intolerable since it’s mostly the norm

>>942452834
Please install FS on your phone so I can filter you, thanks.

>>942452868
Let me guess this is noire

Ughhh I'm grinding into chair listening to good bass and getting so darn close
I made a pact with God to never jerk off again, it was the most horrific addiction.

>>942452909
he sounds mean

>>942452705
Finally someone sane

>>942452628
Here hoofslut

>>942452933
Can you also install frensync so I can filter you it’s embarrassing speaking to you

>>942453003
Sanest person alive

>>942453068
Mmmmm

>>942453068
You're mean too, lol.

>>942453121
Hoo

>>942453217
I’m honest

>>942452410
Oh my. Its something at least. Still, service work is...ass. I could never go back from remote work.

Also,
>All that money is going into savings
I guess the pay grade is good and/or small living upkeep cost?

>>942453521
Hoo?

>>942453624
oob

>>942453521
Can you explain your position?

Mine is being put on medication that causes hypersexuality after 20 years of horrible child abuse, and receiving a bad concussion at work followed by a large fall the days after.

I don't understand what picture you have formed of me but it isn't a correct one, I'm sorry.

I managed to keep all my teeth too!

>>942453591
man. I just got out of a lifetime of scoliosis, depression, dissociation and drugs. Now that I'm healthy I get so much pleasure from work.

My meth binge was high dose short duration. It cured my add lol. It also means that natural phenehtylamines, the meth equivalent my body makes, cause extreme effects at their targets from hypersensitization. Abilify also did this a bit.

I can almost get off from thinking about sitting in someone's lap or then spreading my legs.

>>942453695
It's just conflicting personalities
You don't need to play the victim card to ''win me over''

>>942453670
Hoobs

>>942453806
Man, piss off. I'll ignore you, but you're a jerk and it is really obvious from the way you phrase things.

>>942453806
Okay Mavvy you are good boy and I consider you honourable hoober. *Rubs your snout*

>>942453863
yes hoobs!

>>942453966
Mmm yes... I don't think he understands me maybe he is very emotional

>>942454115
bnu

Hmm so many hoober

>>942454115
Cute.

Good afternoon.

>>942453764
Damn. I'm still surprised to hear that. Usually food service is a pretty miserable place to be. From my experience at least. Good that you're off the drugs.

>>942454335
Afternoon

>>942454491
How are you doing?

>>942454282
Post MORE.

>>942454491
It is impossible for me to be miserable except when dealing with people's negative emotions or death. Otherwise life is amazing. I am hoping to find love eventually, staying abstinence until marriage now. I was heading down a dark path of nymphomania, porn and meth addiction. If I went into the srmy... I would have become my grandfather.

Namesync is broken

>>942454519
Good good. Have you been eating good?

>>942454650
I see, and it looks like you managed to miss the ongoing opioid situation as well. It could have been an extra hurdle. The army is a dead end, unless one is willing to stay for almost a decade. What happened to granddad?

>>942454903
Yes I have, made more yakisoba the other night with lots of cabbage, carrots, and onions, the proteinwas chicken this tine instead of beef. How about you?

>>942454903
I once went to a heroin addicts attic in the ghetto, he rented it. They say your room is as organized as your mind... no episodes of hoarders competes.

I know that from the man who gave me IV meth, I have no track marks.. yet i have one in my foot.. i have one other similar intensity scar from another time i had my trust totally broken.. i think i did get shot up with a lot of heroin then and went through polysubstance withdraw unknowingly.

was on Abilify and his mom just died and I talked about research chemicals with meth in the name and he asked "you like ice?". I was into chemistry, not drugs. I thought ice was like Boku no Pico, my first introduction to gay pornm and said yeah.

>>942454903
he died. I'm pretty sure he molested me. I remember him "training" me, vague memories of blues clues and sucking.

Part of my desire to remove testosterone and my genitalia, while I do have actual gender dysphoriq too, is my fear of being 70, becoming demented and molesting someone since it is a core memory of mine.

I've already experienced drug induced dementia and psychosis, and was strong enough to resist. But what would it be like in 50 years?

I hate being a boy and also hate the idea that I could turn into him.

>>942455105
I was also on my belly, prone. So... easy access. I was so sleepy after.

>>942455105
What I meant was my “position” last time we spoke on discord you spammed me with messages and I’ve just ignored you since

>>942455223
I was actually about to join the Navy and be a nympho barracks bunny, I had a thought pop into my head just telling me it was an evil decision for me.

Spent the last few weeks analyzing why and remembered my childhood.

>>942455278
I see you like last words. Two can play at that! You said you wanted to ignore me and I want to ignore you, so why are you replying to me? Can you not get me out of your head and filter material without the computer doing it for you?

>>942455353
I’m just going to keep ignoring you

>>942455390
are you?

>>942454182
Don't expect intelligence from meth fueled troon.

>>942455542
Is this the alcoholic talking or just another sergal poster?

>>942455542
Thems fighting words

I was being sarcastic

>>942455723
Hmmm

>>942455823
Just checked about schizo injection, LAIs seems to be cool technology tbh, better than pills that you might forget to take.

>>942456053
Holy shit i love you
Fuck I finally coughed up this phlegm thanks to that comment

>>942454648
MORE

>>942455095
I would say as well. Nothing special however. Just mainly oats.

>>942455105
>>942455223
I see. I'm sorry you had to go through with all that.

>>942455829
Hmm yeth

>>942456053
It disturbs more hormonally I'm lucky I can get a hard on the nurse said
At least I can act like I have erectile dysfuntion and get viagra
Do I?

>>942456295
Why eat so many oats? Why not mix it up a little and get ypu some other kinds of grains? Rice for example? It's tasty, it's nutritious. Throw a little bit of soy sauce on it, maybe some furikake then you'll have yourself a really wonderful meal.

>>942456295
It's okay, now that I realized whats wrong and what path I was going down. Happy coincidence I don't care about having a penis and prefer femininity.

It should remove dominance libido from me and I think a hard reset on identity might help too.

Thank you for being caring.

>>942456471
I am also reconsidering freezing sperm. Trauma passes down in your dna and... I don't know if it's right for me to pass this down to someone else.
I spent the first 20 years of my life in a totally inhuman fashion and I think this will really harm any kids I could have.

>>942456401
How come you know people here IRL and it not affecting you
I shared a face here and I've had two encounters with people recognising me online
I'm pretty sure they used face recognition as people not using 4chan
I can go on the website and delete the link to here specifically
Might be over the top maybe buy a anti facial recogntion mask

>>942456706
holy shit actually schizoid? I'd know, I just broke out of insanity finally.

>>942456752
We are not alike now stop replying fag

>>942456706
It doesn't effect me because I don't post in any other forums or anything like that. My social media presence is used just for my paintings and comics or following animators, artists/art institutions, and musicians and my friends from here are also friends with me on there.

>>942456834
One sign of being on the schizo spectrum is an inability to gate/filter visual and auditory stimuli, and lack of impulse control. Do you have trouble sleeping with, say, the house creaking? Can you listen intently on your friends conversations in a crowded area?

>>942457047
although granted these are also add symptoms and autism symptoms, I'm just trying to make you paranoid.

Hehe

>>942456302
Poor boy
Hard one nurse? Like boner?
>>942456401
Mmm oats, *stuffs you oats*

>>942456939
You also are pretty old I'm young and adopted into the internet at it's start

>>942457047
>>942457100
Schizoid is a personality disorder not a full on mental illness
God you are so fucking dumb

>>942457148
Yes I am lucky I can get on

>>942457148
Rice is the superior grain.

>>942457199
Yes, I am an old man. It's quite wonderful.

>>942457199
You just have to call us old
>>942457221
Mm okay

Would you adopt?

I love yall, I just came back in hopes of a spark. I'll be patient until the end of next year and pray and if it doesn't happen, they weren't my soul mate. But I'll let God sort it out and follow the Daoist way, and let life happen rather than seeking it out.

Peace and love.

>>942457341
I'll answer this since it popped up as I posted that.

Absolutely, once I am feminized and have no male genitalia. I can control myself now and without porn my thoughts aren't flooded with sex, so I can look at anyone and think neutrally. But I fear for future head injuries, known to highly increase T in me especially to insane levels. I do not trust this risk with the core memory i have until then.

>>942457233
I'm wondering what I can achieve by then

>>942457242
*pretty* old
do you code?

>>942457385
fuck off back to the trailer park you got molested in

>>942457446
How old are you, Mav?

>>942457446
No
Ask dely

>>942457497
He's ancient, fucking 65 years old

>>942457497
I told you before many times 24 last time I say it
Why do you keep asking

>>942457500
I guess it was mario you talked about
I'm not asking for anything I'm questioning

>>942457513
Did you ever hear about Tamara Samsanova? She's quite an unusual case. Developed schizophrenia in her 40s, long past the age range it usually develops and began killing people.

>>942457611
I forget sometimes, Mav, I'm only human. When you are in your 30s hopefully you will learn how to not care.

sup faggots

>>942457760
Sorry I forgot also I'm so self centered, I already don't care about a lot of things I might seem emotional.
I've been told many times I am a cold and calculated person

>>942457611
Mario?
Oh okay.
>>942457760
Damn that's scary, you think you are out of risk age and then bam you are schizo

>>942457760
was this the lady that ate the face off her baby

>>942458036
She was probably undiagnosed fo a long time and the delusions cascaded and probably took over

>>942457933
That would be the schizoid personality. You don't seem emotional, but you also don't seem cold and calculating to me. You seem more easily and generally annoyed by things.

>>942458036
Very much so. There are a few extremely unusual cases of people developing schizophrenia outside of the age range. Another extremely bizarre case jnvolved a girl who developed schizophrenia when she was, like, nine years old and started hearing voices telling her her baby brother was possessed by a demon and that she had to kill him, which she attempted to do multiple times.

>>942458104
I don't remember her killing and esting her own child, but she did admit in her diaries to eating some of her victims. She's the one who killed multiple people and dismembered them then disposed of their remains around the town she lived in. She was eventually caught on camera dumping remains of her last victim.

>>942457500
Hoobs

>>942458346
Times change and yes I do get annoyed by certain things
I'm just young and inexperienced hardly know myself

I saw on youtube a long time ago about that woman
It's crazy that people like me without the proper help eat people no wonder schizophrenics get a bad rep

>>942456401
I do other grains as well sometimes. Its just easier to go with one standard. Cooking is a chore

>>942456471
yes

>>942457148
yes

>>942458104
hmmm
>>942458346
still better than getting alzheimer at 17

>>942458751
Get a rice maker, then you won't have to worry about that. Just add your rice and water amd the rice maker will take care of the rest.

>>942458718
Most untreated schizophrenics don't go around eating folks. What is alarming is that she developed it and began killing well past what is considered typical. Most serial murders start killing in their late 20s, she started killing in her 50s.

>>942458976
My dad's mom had Alzheimer's as an old woman. By the end of her life she was like she was a child again, would sing songs from when she was a little girl in Tokyo before the war. It would be sad but from all accounts she was quite a horrible person, very abusive and a drunk so my father shielded us from her so we kids never got to meet her.

>>942459109
sad to hear it

yarr...

>>942459165
Hoobs.

>>942458346
I developed schizotypal disorder with intermittent psychotic episodes at 6.
I have only just dealt with the traumas that caused it and broken out. I hope to completely reset who I am to never fall 8nto old patterns.

Any tips?

>>942459254
yeahhhhh

>>942459277
Hooooooooooooobs

>>942458976
Hmmmm

>>942459109
So what you are asking is my age and then somehow shift the conversation to schizophrenics being murders
What I did do in my youth was shooting a guy in his eye with a BB gun, mostly because he beat my head against a radiator

I hope the doctor adjust my medication on friday

>>942459341
stinky
>>942459309
hoobs

>>942459109
No

fuck gays in the ass

>>942459267
Therapy and any medication your doctor prescribes.

>>942459341
No, Mav, I asked your age because you seem to be generally and easily aggravated, which makes sense since you are still quite young.

>>942459710
All I'm saying is rice is better than oats. And rice has religious and spiritual significance.

>>942459590
Keep me sane with Hoobers.

>>942459794
That was on the list. Abilify sucked but the new generation antipsychotic sounds nice, or Seroquel.

>>942459862
I feel a lot better accepting that I might be better with an antipsychotic for awhile.

>>942459833
I wish

>>942459862
Just stick to your medication and therapy and be sure to let your doctor know of any adverse side effects or if it is not working as it should.

>>942459794
I'll just be with oats

>No, Mav, I asked your age because you seem to be generally and easily aggravated, which makes sense since you are still quite young.
Lol. I remember when that saying agitated me at a younger age.

>>942459999
...male hoobers

>>942460054
That's the plan.

Go ahead tabkong. Target designated. Jihad jihad la la la la la.

>>942460202
Young folks are always more easily agitated. It's with age that you tend to calm down. Not always, some folks have anger issues their whole lives, but those people are also assholes.

>>942460245
Good. Also don't be afraid of reaching out to someone you know and trust if you feel like you are going to relapse. There is never any shame in it, addiction is a disease and relapses aren't signs of failure.

>>942460242
sorry

>>942459590
No

>>942459794
Maybe I am going go to bed mind is racing

>>942460269
Is this danish?

... mom smoking stimulants and heroin in the bathroom, goes to er. I'm watching blues clues, grandpa takes a shower.
Grandpa already stressed, wife dead just a few months ago, now on drugs, already a nymphomaniac porn addict

Holy fucking shit. It makes so much sense.

God damn youngsters. They think they know everything!

>>942460382
Every time you show me tits, a hoober dies and gets eaten by a frenchman.

>>942460397
That's a good idea. Sleep well and have sweet dreams, Mavvy.

>>942460397
hmmmmm
>>942460649
classic

>>942460576
Of course they do. The young are impetuous and don't want to take advice. They want to express their autonomy and prove themselves.

>>942460700
Wouldn't want that to happen would you?

>>942460765
Yippers. With that being said, they do have generally more energy than us oldies. I'm feeling pretty tired already.

>>942461824
I don't know about all that. I'm full of energy, especially in the colder months.

>>942461870
I guess I have been working a bit too hard. Plus people keep calling me and annoying me with their requests. I'm just about ready to get a pixel to block everyone that isn't on my contacts.

>>942462168
Sounds like you're stretching yourself too thin. I work one job and don't do anything beyond that which I don't want to do. If a friend needs help I'll help them, but for the most part my friend group tends to solve por own problems. The last thing I helped a friend with was I build a large cat prison for a friend because she moved ojt to the country and couldn't let her cats run free anymore.

>>942462241
Perhaps so. Curious about the cat prison. Did you make the room the prison or did you make a large box for the cat to be in?

I wish I could reset and grow up in a normal family.
I wish I could just find true love tomorrow and snuggle every night until we die of old age.
I took a seroquel and I feel warm and in tune with reality better.
I think I'm gonna stop smoking weed solely so I can dream of when I was happy, to fill the void until job starts.

>>942462871
Large wooden frame with multiple platforms and chicken wire to keep the cat contained. The cat likes to be outside, but where she moved to there are a lot of coyotes and mountain lions so she can't let the cat wander around.

>>942462949
That's pretty cool. Yeah a cat can't really wander by itself around much larger predators.

>>942463401
Cats really shouldn't be allowed to wander in general. They're bad for the environment and they can get diseases and parasites.

>>942463447
Shit I was going to mention that as well, but I forgot. Its amazing how many avians go down due to cats moving in.

>>942463759
Yeah, millions of birds a year get killed by domestic cats. It's pretty terrible. But with basic carpentry skills anyone can build a prison to keep their cats imprisoned while outside that's effective and relatively inexpensive.

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Hmu if you have more like this pls

>>942464116
Hi snarf.

>>942463906
Yep. We just need a few million more of those creates, lol

>>942464187
Cats should always be kept indoors to protect the birds and to protect them. Anyone who lets their cats wander arlund shouldn't be surprised or upset when their cat gets flattened by a car or eaten by a coyote or carried away by a bird of prey.

>>942464140
Hello.

>>942464433
How goes

>>942464379
That's for sure

>>942464572
Pet owners in general seem to be terribly irresponsible.

>>942464268
>>942464756
Real

>>942464756
Humans were never meant to have pets. Pets in general are a pretty terrible concept. Best examples are cats and dogs

Good night

peenis

>>942466890
Supposed to have has nothing to do with it. Dogs were domesticated when prehistoric wolves began to cooperate with humans during hunts while cats essentially domesticated themselves. We are actually seeing similar things in some areas with foxes, who are adopting behavioral traits of domestic dogs and cats in order to appeal to humans to be fed and given shelter.

I can't believe I'm getting sick before an important trip

>>942467460
nooo!

>>942467424
MEOW.

Hello

>>942467630
i want weiners like that aroiund me

>>942467632
goodbye~

>>942467679
I don't know why, you say goodbye, I say hello.

>>942467730
hello :3c

>>942467892
how's it going?

>>942467946
its aight. chillin watching the tele~
how you what up???

>>942468070
drinking and drunk. listening to music. :)

>>942467632
Hello

>>942457444
Literally mindbroken by cock

>>942468106
fuck yeah!!whar drinking what listening to?

>>942467679
I'm eepy.

>>942468347
me too i go bed in a minute

yeah it bedtime sorry anon
nini snarf

>>942468266
pepsi and vodka. rush, at the moment. (he's got a force field and a flexible plan.)

>>942468166
o shit, it's peter lorre! whaddup

Goodnight.

>>942468451
Not much, listening to music and reading about Unit 731. How're you doing?

>>942468512
/me googles Unit 731
That's some heavy shit.
I am doing ok. Cleaned up a lot of leaves today at two properties. Nothing to do tomorrow, so getting drunk now. :D

>>942468572
Yes it is, but I'm interested in the Pacific Theater. That part of WWII was so god damned weird. Are you a landscaper?

>>942468693
I'm a little more interested in Civil War II, Electric Boogaloo. If only because I have to live through it, and/or my young male relatives might get drafted for it. (They might get drafted for Civil War II, or they might get drafted for the Resource Wars - water, land. Either way, they're on the hook for it, and I'm not.)
No, I'm not a landscaper. I play piano in a whorehouse, but I supplement my income with gardening work. :D