Thread 23254194

Just pile more inconveniences. Just pile up more suffering. Just bear with it and shut the fuck up. Just don't scream and cry out in pain when they hurt you. Your dreams are just their footstool.
I hate how fucking selfish and garbage other people are.
It's like being a shitty person is a thing to be proud of these days.

We live in a patriarchy

>>23254201
We live in a world where some people are celebrated for fucking others over and being selfish pieces of shit. Where people who don't take responsibility inflict unjust circumstances or other people get to live on their childlike garbage life and still be celebrated for it.
Where people who have lost and really try get told to fuck off and figure themselves out.
What's wrong is that people are so fucking FULL OFF THEMSELVES.

>>23254209
That's patriarchy

It makes me want to fucking scream, but I have developed too much self control to not scream when things happen to me. Now it's involuntary.
I just want the suffering to stop

Let's discuss about FGO's new servant Noah

I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING FUCKING WRONG. I TRY TO BE GENUINE AND PEOPLE JUST FUCKING SHIT ALL OVER ME.
and this isn't related to how I act here, because this is a fucking retarded imageboard and most people here are shit to begin with. I used to be way nicer here before all the shitty posters started going here.
No amount of screaming can fix me

>>23254218
I don't give a shit about anime girls being embarresed over what they wear. What the fuck do you want? Are you this bored? You could write this to anyone else?

>>23254228
It's a man

>>23254230
Which italian fag are you? Are you the faggot who was telling me he was learning japanese through hentai?

>>23254194 (OP)
>I hate how fucking selfish and garbage other people are.
>It's like being a shitty person is a thing to be proud of these days.
i know what you mean
>>23254209
>>23254209
>What's wrong is that people are so fucking FULL OFF THEMSELVES.
it's not that simple
but you're right something is wrong

>>23254774
lol

>>23254774

It's not that serious

>>23254780
And it's just going to get worse.
>>23254787
Just tell me who the fuck you are

What happen Ritsu

>>23254804
It's not just one event, it's multiple events and people and things culminating into a fuckery.
Right now I'm really pissed because my mom is behind in houserent and what has she been doing the past months while I saved up a bunch of my neet money rotting in my room?
Oh right, going to concerts, hanging out with friends at some fucking mansion thing, attending running races.
that and on top of that. There are concerns this rat of a mother also might develop dementia.
What am I supposed to do? All my extended family are silent, my father is out of the picture, my mom is a uneducated single mom who had kids irresponsbily with men and is living in a fantasy world and acts as if shes in her early 20s. SHES IN HER 50S IM ROTTING IN MY BEDROOM I HAVE A HORRIBLE TIME AND SHES PARTYING LIKE SHES MY AGE.
Few years from now I'm prob going to kill myself and people will go
"what happened" as if everythign wasn't a clusterfuck that lasted my entire life time and everyone was just too self absorbed to give a shit

This vodka tastes like crap, but atleast it will make me feel good

>>23254865
put it up ur butte then you don't have to taste it

>>23254871
I'm not falling for that you dumbass. That's going to give me too much alcohol spike or whatever and give me alcohol poisoning even tho normal drinking also is kind of self poisoning.

It feels so calmijng and nice. It¨s fuynny that something thats basically poison makes you feel better than therapists, psychologsits and all copes normies come up with. they get mogged by fungi poison

>>23254823
Your mom needs to understand her actions affect all her kids
How is she so stupid
>>23254871
It’s too loose, it would all fall out

>>23254891
Drunksu

>>23254877
i was just trying to help

>>23254902
>To understan
Critical error, the person in question is incapable of understanding past basal instincts and urges.
No amount of reasoning and explaining to others will make them change. If authors writing interesting stories can't then most of us can't.
i remember reading a story by a 19th century norwegian author. the story is about a poor woman who is forced to become a whore because shes too poor. and a cop and a doctor takes advantage of her. the book got banned but caused a huge uprising and led to changes in norwegian law. this was a time way before feminism so maybe there is hope. who knows

>>23254915
I might read a book again but I’d probably read a retarded action slop book
I remember reading starship troopers and whenever they started talking about profound philosophical stuff I skipped the pages. It was a nice book doe

>>23254928
>whenever they started talking about profound philosophical stuff
That's the best part and all great stories have that.
In code geass you have the dilemma between change via revolution or via reformation. The flaws and upsides of each.
Dumbass friend always hated watching overlord with me because "the show is too high iq". I think his brain couldn't keep up with all the different perspectives and world building

>>23254934
>code geass
Looks cool, last anime slop I watched was hellsing

>>23255010
code geass is cool because high iq main character playing 4d chess.
its one of my fav animes

>>23255019
>4d chess
I still can’t into chess

>>23255091
Chess is all about checkmating. So just make the other king vunerable and check mate

fucking groomers

>>23254194 (OP)
I wont take that from someone who watches anime, if you were told sucking a dick was a rite of passage you'd suck ten. I'll be paying my taxes.

>>23254823
mom yelled at me for the same thing...

I don't really have a solution for your shit, but it's good to see that you're feeling a bit better through talking about other stuff
P.S: Dead to the jeet and the cucktalian

>>23255126
Anime site albeit

>>23255126
Nonsense statement
>>23255132
Sometimes there isn't anything that can be done than just let nature take it's course.
>>23255127
moms are dumb. thats why u need a father to offset their stupidity.

>>23255155
i keep looking for father figures... i've never found any. i don't let myself consider it anymore either. just a pain when you see their kid growing up with an actual dad in their life. it's not necessarily envy, but tears open that wound of longing.

>>23255178
>>23255127
>>23254823
sorry anons

>>23255178
I feel that. I feel weird when people mention their dads. I don't even remember anymore what it's like having one. but we cant choose the cards we recieve in life, we just have to put on a poker face and do our best with what we got

>>23255191
it'll be okay, we'll overcome someday

>>23255194
*headpats the Ritsu*

>>23255225
Yeah. I'm just gonna make music, but i'm prob never gonna get far with it. but its whatever

>>23255232
Post moar of what you've made recently, I want new ritsu music

>>23255341
https://voca.ro/1m3rH1BMwWBK
I haven't made full songs a lot lately. Made some shorter ones as experiments. I figured out I can divide my chords into two different guitars in a certain way and it helps so much. so I can transfer a lot of my piano music autism into guitar writing.
Also miku english is HARD to sound as good and consistent as japanese miku. but im still doing her since i want to be great at whatever language she has to sing.

https://voca.ro/1n9iHicEdLKn
this is still my fav. originally it was a filipino piano score. but i added lyrics and turned chords into guitar. it was fun. then i added drums

>>23255363
kawaii~

>>23255375
I know right. Her voice is great

>>23255363
First one is nice
Second one is probably one of the best you’ve made, miku sounds very good in it too

>>23255375
Are you a foid
Ritsu has slots open for new foids in his discord harem

>>23255550
Ritsu harem does not exsist.
>>23255549
My tuning is getting better, I'm tisming through a lot. Right now I'm focusing more on multipolar harmony(japanese harmony) which is a big pain, but I'm researching, studying some texts, analysing and experimenting and figured some stuff out.

>>23254774
>aggot who was telling me he was learning japanese through hentai
Sounds p keyed

Had a feeling it was this time of the month again. At least the vodka can flip his switch.

>>23255562
Hardworksu

>>23255634
Just say pedophile. stop being scared of words
>>23255642
Shuddup. This year has been horrible don't act as if I'm on my period. Which isn't possible since I'm a biological male.
>>23255649
Yes. I'm also moving unto mixing and mastering, but that's going to be a completely different beast, but I need to be great at that since it's what makes music sound professional and polished

I HATE BEING SICK. I have a sore throat, my nose is runny. so my productivity is on an all time low.

>>23255704
Every time you mention you’re a bio moid, you break someone’s heart here probably

>>23255132
this

>>23255704
I could sense the animosity building in the air last night. It was like you were about to erupt and take all your rage out on me.

>>23255733
Vodka will cure it

>>23255742
Good.
>>23255759
Vodka eased a lot of the physical pain and mental too. I remember playing red dead redemption 2 and some guy that was shot asked for some liquour. Alcohol really does help with pain relief.

>>23255759
>Vodka will cure it
no

>>23255771
it can be a good temporary painkiller, but sickness can last days, and alcohol might make your recovery slower

hot toddy can be nice i guess

>>23255777
Maybe, but I think it might have genocided the bacteria in my throat or something.
I don't care though, i feel better than i did before

>>23255733
Runny nose ritsu must be so cute
I had sore throat too, just do steam inhalation

>>23255771
If only you could learn to channel nicesu while in your sober form too.

>>23255772
Shut up pissbaby

>>23255784
I'm not doing hookah.
It's not cute since it just gets all over my sweater.

>>23255784
>I had sore throat too, just do steam inhalation
that can be good too
>>23255782
be careful...

>>23255790
Kek his nosey gets all over his sweater like a little boy

>>23255789
I'm too faded. Only alcohol can restore me back to 2019 ritsu level niceness
>>23255794
I don't care too much about my health and I don't feel comfortable growing older. I would prefer to die young than see myself rot and become old and even more useless

3 people from different parts of the world working together to cure ritsu

>>23255800
There isn't anything I do. I type on my keyboard and it just comes out of my nose. I have to cover it up with tissue paper

>>23255802
it's not even about that
that's not a reason to kill yourself slowly and painfully, you know?
you talk about being useless, you could end up with liver failure or a ruined stomach & be dependent on a hospital forever

I'm in my 30s and I'm having the best time of my life because I can basically do whatever I want. skill issue

>>23255802
How many sips did you take? two?

>>23255814
He can't drink enough to cause any kind of harm to himself. + he doesn't care

>>23255823
wasn't talking to you

>>23255814
Yes. Could. I could smoke fat cigars and live to 100. I could dedicate my life to working out and can get cancer from a single radioactive isotype that happened to corrupt a single DNA that happened to become cancerous. I could avoid all things and be hit a car. Life is RNG, I don't think too much about it. Of course I don't drink everyday, it's not like I don't believe in probability
>>23255818
Yeah because of your circumstances. There are people who are born to billionaires living in paradise so who cares.
>>23255823
4 ish pours. Not much

>>23255814
Alcohol doesn’t do allat

>>23255802
these two
>>23255823
>>23255806
are masculin men who would fuck you in the ass if they had the opportunity, by the way
one said you were his favorite autist
they brag to each other about grooming
you can read it here if you're interested
https://archived.moe/bant/thread/23249128/#q23249128
i wouldn't drink because they encourage it though, it's up to you

>>23255836
it did that to my dad

>>23255841
Nigger thinks he’s the ritsu’s guardian

>>23255834
>I could avoid all things and be hit a car. Life is RNG, I don't think too much about it. Of course I don't drink everyday, it's not like I don't believe in probability
that doesn't mean you have no control
you can gamble when the odds are in your favor, several hundred times, if you know how to navigate the world properly
it's no reason to be nihilistic, just because life is RNG

>>23255848
i'm just tired of rape

>>23255841
lmao
Ritsu is my friend
He knows me better than pretty much any other bantoid
You're not exposing me with this retard

>>23255834
smol sips for a smol boy

>>23255842
Some people beat their wives when they are on alcohol. To me alcohol shows how people really are. When I'm on alcohol people say I'm nice. You can't base everything on a single thing. There are always risks and trade offs.
>>23255849
>you can gamble when the odds are in your favor
Then that's not really gambling anymore and more akin to investing.
You pick your cards in life and play your hand the way you want. That's the name of the game.
>>23255855
I'm too sick to binge drink.

>>23255861
>Then that's not really gambling anymore and more akin to investing.
>You pick your cards in life and play your hand the way you want. That's the name of the game.
yes, but i'm saying, you have control over your life, because there's INFINITE ways to gamble
you have the power to put yourself in positions where the odds are in your favor, and if you do that enough times, you can guarantee that your life turns out well
it's a copout to say "everything is RNG so you may as well not bother controlling things"

>>23255861
My Italian friend taught me how to take small amounts slowly throughout the day so you can be buzzed all the time. If I was a drunkard thats what I'd do. Don't do this though you might get corrupted.

>>23255854
Ritsu doesn't get raped, ritsu does the raping

>>23255890
i doubt it
>>23255848
i worry about ritsu

>>23255879
There is no guarentee to make anything work only moves to grant yourself higher chances of success. Life is kinda like poker in a way.
I just want to focus on the things that matter and go out like an explosion. I don't want to die old, weak and weary.
>>23255884
Sounds like a forbidden technique. Don't think my liver could work with that though.
>>23255890
Stop

>>23255901
I don't know if I have known you more personally in the past or not. You would have to clarify since I don't remember people very well

>>23255901
Do you happen to be female?
If yes then ritsu can add you on the cord you know

>>23255907
>There is no guarentee to make anything work only moves to grant yourself higher chances of success. Life is kinda like poker in a way.
no, that's retarded
it's not like you can gain a SLIGHT edge once, like 50.1% in your favor
in life, you can put yourself in positions where you win like 80% of the time
if you do that 100 times, the expected value means you'll always end up with a good life
do you understand?
>>23255907
>I just want to focus on the things that matter and go out like an explosion. I don't want to die old, weak and weary.
i get it, and you don't have to die that way
but if you drink too much, you're gonna die YOUNG, weak and weary, you know?

>>23255907
It could if you took smaller sips. All you'd have to do is adjust the dosage to account for your tiny liver.

>>23255916
Tell him to kill himself

>>23255916
we've talked a bit, but not really
i just lurk on bant
i like your music & the threads you make, but i know you're kinda troubled as well
you share alot about your problems, so everyone on bant kinda knows you personally in a way
i just want you to be able to depend on yourself and get somewhere better

ritsucord is weird

>>23255936
i guess nothing matters, it's all funny
>>23255933
killing ritsu with alcohol to spite me award

i'll leave now
good luckeveryone

>>23255925
>you can put yourself in positions where you win like 80% of the time
You aren't gonna find these posistions where you are that high all the time.
Life is RNG, people have won several lotteries. People have been hit by lightning strikes several time. You could build your entire life on being healthy and rich it still doesn't truly safeguard you it only limits your risk. There is always risks everywhere.
It's why I don't like modern stoics so much since they think a starving african child in a war torn country can become the next Bill gates or leonardo da vinci if they tried harder.
blaming it on "lack of willpower" if they fail.
>but if you drink too much, you're gonna die YOUNG, weak and weary, you know?
Still better than dying old. I have never wanted to be old even when I was a kid and I wasn't as mentally ill as today.
>>23255933
I won't do that. My liver isn't small I just don't have as much enzymes to break down the chemicals as normal people have. Unlucky genetics, or maybe lucky depends how you see it.
>>23255935
I kinda forgot it's like that on bant. More people were like you in the past, but the last 2 years everyone has been so impersonal I kinda forget people like you exsist on bant so I just think the only people who care are the people I have talked to on discord. You shouldn't worry about me and life your own life.
>>23255936
Nah uh it's not. You are

Ritsus BRC 5 seconds after adding a new girl on discord (It happens like every week)

>>23255965
i'm a creep
i'm a weirdo

>>23255951
ASK FOR HIS DISCORD

>>23255969
No.
>>23255973
It's okay. We are outcasts here

>>23255936
If you post pics for your waist you can get loyal orbiters too

>>23255936
the anal orgasmcord is worse

>>23255943
More like I'm having a casual conversation with my friend that I've known for years while some sperg buts in thinking he knows best.

>>23255965
You might be way worse off if you could get wasted all the time. Its probably for the best since I think you'd have a problem if you could drink however much you wanted.

>>23255983
i don't want orbiters
>>23255986
not a real 'cord

Ritsu be like "noooooo noooooo my life sucks nooooooo" while having girls DM him nudes every other day while the rest of us are suffering from legit incel rage.

>>23255986
>Its probably for the best since I think you'd have a problem if you could drink however much you wante
True. The biggest reason I'm not binge drinking weekly is because I'm anxious about going outside lol.
Great artists are often drunk though. One of my favoure music composers Tchaikovsky was also mentally ill and loved drinking alcohol. A lot of people say the tormented artist is a meme, but I think it's true. A lot of musical inspiration comes from when I feel shitty and I tend to hear music in my head a lot and more clearly when I feel horrible.
>>23256001
shut up and leave.

>>23256000
Post your waist still, cmon

>>23256000
Maybe you know it by another name then. Does pitsniffercord sound right?

>>23256001
>the rest of us are suffering from legit incel rage.
Speak for yourself truecel

>>23256003
When I make you in my rimworld colony I'll be sure to give you the tortured artist perk and probably a cat tail too. Are you going to upload your songs to your current channel or make a new one for it?

>>23256029
How many hoes have you had this year. Just be honest.

>“It was only my art that held me back. Oh, it seemed impossible to me to leave this world before I had produced all that I felt capable of producing, and so I prolonged this wretched existence — truly wretched for so susceptible a body that a sudden change can plunge me from the best into the worst of states.”
-Beethoven's Heiligenstadt Testament
>>23256029
>Are you going to upload your songs to your current channel or make a new one for it?
I'm gonna make a new one. I'm also gonna have to organise more than just a youtube channel but other media platforms.
Right now I'm too busy working on mixing/mastering which is much more important than uploading songs. Since badly mixed/mastered songs don't do too well.
>When I make you in my rimworld colony I'll be sure to give you the tortured artist perk and probably a cat tail too
You better not have porn mods in your rimworld since I knew a girl who played rimworld with porn mods on it

>>23256038
4

wait no 5

>>23256043
I MEAN how many pooner hoes have you had. Not fucking faggots, trannies, larpers. Actual full on monthly axe split wound having pooners.

>>23256011
search twink tummy pic ten billion results

>>23256042
Maybe making songs without the guitar will force you to get better at that. I don't really know though desu.
>You better not have porn mods in your rimworld
Sex is in the game by default now. Don't worry boys can't get pregnant unless I make an artificial womb.

>>23256051
One was a bio foid and the rest were guys that might as well be girls.

>>23256061
I like personalised shit tho
Sigh will have to work with ritsu tummy again

>>23256082
Exactly. So you have had one. And she was probably ugly anyways. Ritsu though attracts highly educated, fit, high class women without even trying. This is why he is my enemy. I have to destroy him before his fat cock stretches every hole beyond recovery and theres none left for the rest of us.

>>23256087
Ritsu just can't get enough of BIG BHARAT COCK

>>23256082
>Maybe making songs without the guitar will force you to get better at that.
Maybe, but I just need to do it. I need to learn to use EQ, compression, pan, etc. Properly. Especially compression since it has a huge impact. In terms of feel.
What I learned though is no matter what music I make, rock, orchestral. I need a solid amount of bass frequencies. Either from a bass guitar or from a cello or whatever thing that makes bass frequencies.
>Don't worry boys can't get pregnant unless I make an artificial womb.
Cool. Don't do it.
>>23256087
>>23256100
>>23256104
STOP this is getting out of hand

>>23256087
Post his BRC too. I know you have a pic of it

>>23256100
My femcel was definitely cuter than his

>>23256118
I’m sure you’ll figure it out if you keep practicing. I’ve already seen how much you’ve improved, and when it all comes together, I’ll be like a proud father.
I need to go eat something before I die
>Cool. Don't do it.
But I want to feel the baby kicking

>>23256082
>One was a bio foid and the rest were guys that might as well be girls
If that’s the ratio of foid to femboys that you pull then it’s pretty grim, but some don’t pull any so I suppose you’re doing ok
>>23256151
I don’t nigger, I have more pics but no brc

>>23256183
I kind of find the average woman insufferable and not worth it

>>23256183
gwnydolin

>>23256183
What other pics do you have. Wtf has he been sending you. Have you seen his bussy?

>>23256193
Stop fucking replying to me if you’re not gonna post your waist

>>23256173
>I’ve already seen how much you’ve improved
Yeah I'm obsessed with getting better music, but it takes time and is rough. I kinda have slumps and peaks.
>I need to go eat
Go treat yourself to something nice.

>>23256200
Not telling you
>>23256206
>Yeah I'm obsessed with getting better music
Obsession is good

>>23256206
I will
Enjoy your booze and orbies

>>23256214
Yeah I want to be able to make 1000+ full songs before I die. Volume based goal is nice since you get to put in stuff. But also aiming for just "work on X every X time" is also good.
>>23256220
Good. I feel nice and at peace right now

>>23256242
>1000+ full songs before I die
You won’t die so fast, you can make more

>>23256265
Making a full song is hard. I write lyrics for the entire thing. Then I have to add chords that fit the feeling, record myself playing the guitar parts properly, clean them up even after playing pretty well. Add bassline, drums, counter melodies. Add a main melody that fits the lyrics. Then I have to tune Miku to sing it properly. Once I got all the musical elements I have to gauge the db levels of all the different instruments, pan them, apply effects to make them fit together and sound good. It's going to take time.
It's why I have been making shorter stuff lately to test things out quickly instead of making longer music so I get shorter feedback time as to how it will sound like in a close to finished format.
It's similar to drawing kinda, it's easy to do sketches all day, but doing a whole complete painting takes time. I know some people have spent 100+ hours on a single track, I really want to avoid doing that.

>>23256294
>It's similar to drawing kinda
Past 2 weeks I’ve only used my drawing book to keep my mousepad on it to play games

>>23256309
Depressing, but happens. Same shit happened to my digital piano. It got cucked by the guitar, but you get to decide how serious you go about drawing, not me or anyone else

>>23256321
Yeah I need to get serious
>>23255841
Just read this properly kek
He’s not wrong tho, I would fuck you in the ass if I had the opportunity

>>23256406
>Yeah I need to get serious
First year or two suck. prob same ish for drawing. Most of what you make is gonna feel mediocre at the start and eventually you occasionally make stuff that you enjoy. But keep at it since you will enjoy it more and more eventually. You just need to become more experienced and learned.
>I would fuck you in the ass
Freak

>>23256202
i'll only show my waist to my husband on our wedding night

>>23256422
>First year or two suck
I’ll grind through it, hopefully
>>23256543
Lame, how about you post them to me and get instant internet gratification