Thread 82042374

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

merry friday :]

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

paege 8 bump

just bumping now
bjump :3

Ig I'll just talk about how my day went
so I had a pretty nice sleep and a really strange dream then I woke up pretty early
I chilled in bed for the next few hours and watched old psp games and japanicon vlog which was a bit cringe but also charming
later I finnaly managed to force myself to work a little bit on that damn uni project
now I'm in bed again, watching stuff and eating berries
I also dug out my old psp from the back of the closet and I'm going to install a few games on it tomorrow

>>82045007
hey cat, sorry was playing a game all day
>strange dream
oh what was the dream if I may ask?
>old psp games and japanicon vlog which was a bit cringe
that is pretty and does sound a tad cringe lol
>little bit on that damn uni project
well good job, always hard to forget yourself to be productive
>and eating berries
Oo nice what kind of berries?
>install a few games on it tomorrow
alrighty hope you have fun with it

>>82045056
heyo ali
what were u playing??
>was the dream if I may ask?
it was strange
at first i was doing something with a needle then it turned out i had hpv then i was shooting muskets and them I don't remember
but it's funny because I bet I was thinking while sleeping about you vaccine yesterday and that's why I had that needle thing and then i was thinking about blood and iron and that's why muskets heh
>pretty and does sound a tad cringe
yep hehe
have you been to any conventions ever?
>always hard to forget yourself to be productive
it's very hard for me :<
>nice what kind of berries?
blue :3
>alrighty hope you have fun with
I think I will
and how was ur day?

hey frens! sorry for being late. spend the day at my friend's place.

>>82046296
hey:DD
did u have tun ??

>>82046589
yep. we picked up some stuff i ordered, i gave him some stuff he ordered and then we went to an indonesian restaurant. it was really good. then i went home and here we are. ^^ how was your day? chill, i hope.

>>82046793
>picked up some stuff i ordered, i gave him some stuff he ordered
anything cool?
> indonesian restaurant. it was really good.
sounds nice
man I should eat at one one day I've heard there's a nice chinese place apparently in the city center, I've heard it's very cheap but good maybe I should go there
>went home and here we are. ^^
sounds like a very nice day actually
and now ur relaxing too I hope:D
oh and any weekend plans??
> how was your day? chill, i hope.
oh u can read here >>82045007

>>82045979
sorry sorry was mowing my lawn with my dad :(
>what were u playing??
was Roblox the enteral tower of hell game
>had hpv then i was shooting muskets
oh lol that sounds very strange hehe
>you vaccine yesterday and that's why I had that needle thing
oh yea probably, that's actually crazy, but makes sense
>that's why muskets heh
iron and blood is basically a musket hehe
>been to any conventions ever?
I have not sadly really want to someday tho. have you?
>very hard for me :<
me too me to :(
>blue
the best kind uh so good
>how was ur day?
started off bad my fault tho now it's alright. haven't had a call with my friend in a while so :(

>>82046296
hey yuanon hope you had fun

>>82047080
>anything cool?
i just got me some high elf miniatures and he got a display of sorcery contested realm cards. just some nerd stuff. ^^

>sounds nice
yeah. i had something like a chili with big chunks of meat, ox tail, rice and some veggie side dishes. it was a bit much. ^^'

>maybe I should go there
why not? maybe you could go there with your family?

>and now ur relaxing too I hope:D
i try, but honestly, i'm just being picked apart by my insecurities right now.

>oh and any weekend plans??
i'll head out for my usual workout with my friends tomorrow and maybe we'll play some games after that. we'll see.

>oh u can read here
good job forcing yourself to work on that project. i'm sure it's no easy task. also: the psp might be one of the best handhelds ever made, but sadly it just didn't make it. i feel like the prices for the games were just too high. i remember getting one for christmas but i never bought that many games for it when i could just get games for my pc or other consoles at a similar price or even cheaper. there was a pretty good 40k turn based game for it, though.

>>82042374 (OP)
>be me
>go to /r9k/
>thread about pedophiles getting caught
>robots are mad: "nooooo! you can't catch people trying to abuse children that's BULLYING!"
Really?
There are children being starved to death and animals being tortured and THATS what makes robots offended?

>>82047080
found it. it was called warhammer 40k: squad command.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NG1I9RSxh74&pp=ygUZc3F1YWQgY29tbWFuZCBwc3AgdHJhaWxlcg%3D%3D

>>82047211
hi gator! :D

>hope you had fun.
thanks, we did. didn't do anything fancy, though. just picked up some stuff, hung out and grabbed something to eat afterwards.

>>82047262
>There are children being starved to death and animals being tortured and THATS what makes robots offended?
i guess. this is still 4chan, after all. just got a question. did you actually mean to reply to this thread?

>>82047211
>sorry sorry was
don't worry ^^
how's the weather out there?
>Roblox the enteral tower of hell game
did u have fun?
>but makes sense
I pretty often have dreams about stuff I ro or this through the day
>really want to someday tho.
hope you get to :>
>have you?
I long time ago but I was too shy to talk or do anything
>best kind uh so good
exactly :3
have you eaten any fruits recently?
I decided to eat a lot of them lately
>started off bad
ow but I'm glad it got better
>haven't had a call with my friend in a while so :(
are they busy?

>>82047213
>just some nerd stuff. ^^
at least you guys like it
>it was a bit much. ^^'
hopefully your managed to get through this torture of eating a tasty meal :]
>maybe you could go there with your family?
maybe with a fren
I'm worried I'll get something and then I won't like it and I won't know what to do because I can't just throw it out
>i'm just being picked apart
nooo we can't have that
maybe initiate protocol get in bed and watch comfy !
>workout and games
have fun :D
>good job forcing yoursel
thank you !
>best handhelds
I feel so too
>for the games were just too high
that's goobness for internet hehe >:3
>getting one for christmas
oh that's nice
do you still have it?

>>82047262
hello
>what makes robots offended?
I think maybe people here with loudly disagree with whatever anyone says because they really want someone to respond to them

>>82047363
>picked up some stuff, hung out and grabbed something to eat
that sounds like the perfect day ever with a friend :)

>>82047379
>how's the weather out there?
thankfully it's getting cooler only like 30 today. you?
>did u have fun?
yea, I got to the final floor on 3 different towers, failed all 3 tho lol
>dreams about stuff I ro or this through the day
that's quite interesting, most my dreams are quite random I feel
>was too shy to talk or do anything
oh yea does seem like a place you have to be willing to talk and be out there to have fun
>any fruits recently?
I got some grapes recently, they were nice
>decided to eat a lot of them lately
one of the best snacks to have
>are they busy?
yea they have been, they've been quite busy ever since summer started tbf

>>82047556
>only like 30 today.
that's still pretty dang warm
> you?
around 20
>got to the final floor
good work :D
>failed all 3 tho lol
but you almost got it
>that's quite interesting
I wonder how much I could influence them
>dreams are quite random I feel
I feel that's pretty normal
>grapes
hmm I may get some too
>quite busy ever since summer started
do you know what they doin?
also I'll probably go eep soon so sry if I dissapear

>>82047611
>that's still pretty dang warm
true but not as awful
>around 20
that's a pretty perfect temp
>but you almost got it
yea, just so close
>how much I could influence them
oh yeah maybe you could make it so you dream of cats and kittens :3
>pretty normal
yea probably, most of them are with my friends but random stuff so yeah
>may get some too
they are the best snacking fruit I'd say
>do you know what they doin?
there simaler age to me so driving and playing with friends and gaming and stuff, and family stuff I think. just enjoy his summer while he has it ^^
>probably go eep soon so sry if I dissapear
okay goodnight and sweet dreams <3

>>82047379
>at least you guys like it
that we do.

>hopefully your managed to get through this torture of eating a tasty meal :]
it was rough, but i'll survive. ;D next time i'll only get one of the meats, though.

>I'm worried I'll get something and then I won't like it and I won't know what to do because I can't just throw it out
it would be a shame, but as long as you paid for it, you can do whatever you want with the food. you could also just take the leftovers home.

>maybe initiate protocol get in bed and watch comfy !
already tried that, but it's not really working tonight. i'll give it another go. maybe i'll just fall asleep over it.

>have fun :D
thanks. :>

>that's goobness for internet hehe >:3
true. the platform is defunct anyway, so just have fun with it. sadly i wasn't thinking about that back then.

>oh that's nice do you still have it?
it should be somewhere. maybe my brother has it. i have to ask him.

>>82047556
>that sounds like the perfect day ever with a friend :)
not gonna lie, it's pretty good. (^-^)

i'll be heading to bed now. should we stretch tomorrow?

good night, everyone!

>>82047766
>not gonna lie, it's pretty good. (^-^)
that's lovely then <3
>i'll be heading to bed now
goodnight and sleep well <3
>should we stretch tomorrow?
we can if you want

I will cut myself if I can't get this

>>82049310
actually would be nice if it was a cucumber drink

>How are you doing today?
doing fine, a 5/10
>Any plans for today?
play game and touch myself
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
2 months ago
>Why did you hurt yourself?
boyfriend dumped me
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
this guy I've been out with a few times saw my cuts when I was giving him a blowjob and I think he's scared now

>>82050010
Sorry to hear that anon, has he asked you about it?

>>82050166
he has and he's being cautious, I can't tell if he's going to drop me because I sometimes cut myself, or if he thinks he's going to be my saviour

>>82050179
Hopefully he communicates his worries to you about it rather than just dropping you.

>>82050194
yeah well I know what I'll do if he just drops me

>>82050213
What else could you do besides cut? As in what're some hobbies you like to engage in?

>>82050225
I read and play games pretty much, but I'd do those after cutting myself

>>82050391
Felt. What are some books you've read recently?

>>82050404
not proper books, I read manga, stuff like dragon ball or one piece

>>82050406
Sounds nice! There used to be this really cool app back in like 2014 I used to love, didn't have many mainstream mangas, but sooo many independent mangas, it was really nice! If it's still around, and it's not a shell of its former self, I highly recommend it, was called Manga Rock iirc.

>>82050430
googled it and it's gone now

>>82050441
Sad to hear that : ( most of the time these days I don't read it as much, and it I do, it's in physical form. Really loved Bleach.

>>82050452
yeah I mostly read in physical form myself

>>82050696
Nice! What kind of games do you play?

>>82050703
I'm playing the new demon slayer one at the moment, having a blast playing that, I also really like marvel rivals

I'm having a bit of difficulty telling difference between dermis and epidermis. I cut quite thin and shallow imo (on the wrist with a razor if that is helpful info, how original) so I thought it would just be the epidermis, but it bleeds more than like a cat climbing on me or something. Have I reached the epidermis? However I can't see any white layer, the wound is not wide enough to see inside. Also, I have some old cuts that became thin white scars, and some that were just darkened and then faded without scars. Is it only dermis and beyond that scars? I do not want to reach the fat layer on accident (is that possible without being intentional?) so I want to be a bit more cautious. Sorry if dumb question, thanks

>>82050760
Oh I haven't seen that one I think! What does it play like?
>>82050764
It is definitely possible to reach dermis without it being intentional. Scarring can be kinda weird ime, you could absolutely be getting scars at epidermis, although unlikely, deeper you go the more likely they become. While it is easier to reach the dermis accidently, it is a bit more difficult to reach fat on accident. If it's bleeding more today than normal, I would ask if you changed your diet at all in the last 24-48 hours (taking medications, drinking more water, working out, etc.) these could potentially all be a factor as to why you are seeing more blood. Hope this is helpful!

oh, thread's still up. nice. :> good morning, everyone. i'll be heading out soon. hope you all have a good day!

>>82051101
Have a great day!

Hello frens !!
how's it going??
I'll be going to a store soon

>>82050824
like other arena fighters, you'd have to google it to get a good look

>>82051101
have a good day.

>>82051663
I'm sleepy haven't slept. have a fun time at the store

fell apart for a moment there.

every time i remember to come back here. i always either get blasted back to reality to do my life, or return to friends...

got friends now btw, cant remember if i said that before. they know i harm, but thats not really important. perhaps a story for another time?

seriously tho. every time i come back to see if anyone says something to me, i cant get back in time, and the thread is archived.
i wont to the whole list thing again, just sliding in to say im not dead (yet).

>>82051101
hello Yuanon c:
have a nice dayy

>>82051989
Hello ali
maybe you should to take a nap?

>>82052422
Heya
it's nice to onsee you :>
>every time i remember to come
it's okay as long as you're busy doing well ^^
>got friends now
that's great
do you have fun together?
>sliding in to say im not dead
phew

>>82042374 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
pretty mixed. I felt terrible last night. I don't know what I feel like right now.
>Any plans for today?
Just rescheduling classes.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I finally got my interview for a promotion after pestering the boss.
I don't know what to think about this. It's like I had to fight to get this far, do they even want me? Further, I have to explain why I don't want a similar job. My best explanation is health concerns and some drama I don't want to spread.
>>82051101
good morning yu, have a good day.
>>82051663
hi cat, have fun at the store.
>>82052422
hi anon
>im not dead
I'm glad you're not dead.
> cant get back in time, and the thread is archived.
that's ok, no one expects you to.
>got friends now btw,
Congrats.

i cut last night until i got dizzy and went to sleep and im going to do it again tonight and i want to see beans

>>82053086
That's pretty real, I use it for a sleep aid a lot. Be careful if you do get beans as to not get infected.

>4chan told me NOT to kill myself
thats a first

>>82052950
yea I took a quick one

bump
i installed a very legal patapon 1 on my psp and now I'm gonna game

>>82053358
they do that pretty often actually
why does it say Australia?

think I'm gonna take a break from the thread, maybe not tho lol

>>82053967
>very legal
that's the best and most legit kind of legal

>>82052991
Hello cynic
>felt terrible last night. I don't know what I feel
doesn't sound well
hope you can relax this weekend
>interview for a promotion after pestering the boss.
hope it goes well
hopefully it gives you more money and not more work
>do they even want me?
call me, well cynical heh but I feel they don't want you, they want profit or just someone who'd do the job well and it could be you
And I think it is, you seem like you work hard, even too hard maybe
>have to explain why I don't want a similar job
what kind of reasons are acceptable?
like what if you just feel you'd do better and be more comfortable in this one rather than that one
>have fun at the store
thank youu ^^
wanted to get some strange food to eat but didn't have much time to look around

>>82053086
Hey anon
>last night until i got dizzy
from blood loss??
>want to see beans
not sure it's a good idea anon, cutting deeper doesn't really hurt more but it heals a hell of a lot longer and you gotta care for ot more because it might get infected, also you might need stitches or it will look unpleasing when it scars

>>82053897
How are you feeling after the nap?

>>82055221
>think I'm gonna take a break
you can is you want to
do you feel your need it? for how long?
>most legit kind of legal
yes yes ;3

>>82055282
>How are you feeling after the nap?
I feel ok, I think I've found a way to not worry about if my friend hates me so much
>do you feel your need it? for how long?
not necessarily, just feel like I should focus on other things. and only for a week max probably
>yes yes ;3
well have fun

>>82055811
>think I've found a way to not worry
what do u do?
>like I should focus on other things
it's okay ^^
but remember ur always welcome here
>well have fun
I played a bit and I am havin fun :3
thank you

None of you have real problems and cutting is done for attention. Return to Reddit

>>82056084
Cope harder robofag

my friend said he thinks I may have BPD and it really scares me, I doubt I have if but I do have most of the symptoms. I don't know what do to

>>82056589
hey anon
>friend said he thinks I may have BPD
well he's not psychologist or a therapist right?
maybe you do have a symptom or two of bpd but that might easily be other things
>most of the symptoms.
that doesn't have to mean much
>I don't know what do to
maybe see someone that could diagnose you and see what they say?
I know it's scary but do you think you could do that?

i dont feel satisfied so im probably cutting again soon as i wake up but i got real sleepy looking at the cuts i made. so ig its nap time

>>82056773
sleep well anon
hope you have nice dreams

I'll probably be sleepin soon too

>>82056773
nonny delivers again, wonderful

>>82056060
>what do u do?
I just know I'm either crazy or right and can't really change that
>remember ur always welcome here
yea I know <3
>played a bit and I am havin fun :3
that's super delightful to hear, I'm glad

>>82056724
>well he's not psychologist or a therapist right?
he's not but he's quite knowledgeable about it
>that might easily be other things
that's what I think as well I just never thought about that it could be bpd and it just scared me
>maybe see someone that could diagnose you and see what they say?
I could try, i would at least know.

>>82055282
>hopefully it gives you more money
it'll be less work and that's what I'm hoping for.
I'm just so tired all the time.
>what kind of reasons are acceptable?
idk anymore.
>wanted to get some strange food to eat but didn't have much time to look around
that's far, I wish I had the time to cook more sea food.

>>82056589
Definitely would recommend looking into therapy and/or psychiatry in your area. You may not have BPD but sometimes PTSD mixed with depression can present as BPD. Why does your friend think you have it? Also, if you do choose to pursue a diagnosis, and you do get one, don't let it define you, there are lots of great resources out there dealing with BPD.

>>82042374 (OP)
I fucked up. I cut myself at basic training for the first time in over a year. I just hated myself so much in the moment and I still do. I hate being yelled at for shit others are fucking up when I am making my timings. It just makes me hate myself so fucking much. My fireteam partner seems worried about me but I cant help but want to cut my arm open.

>>82057514
Really sorry to hear that anon, it always sucks when things we can't control are held accountable to us. I've never been through basic, wish I had advice to give besides focus on the things you can control.

>>82057472
>looking into therapy and/or psychiatry in your area.
i will try to at least
>PTSD
I doubt I'd have that, nothing extremely traumatic has happened to me I'd say
>Why does your friend think you have it?
he says cause I get lots of mood swings and I have this constant fear that everyone secretly hates me and busy pretends to like me, and self harm
>don't let it define you
I won't, I guess I've just always thought I was fucked up cause of me

>>82057514
lot of mycousins and brother went through basic training in someway they all hated it Stories I've heard it's awful

>>82057800
Thanks anon. It is what it is but I wont quit. Im too stubborn and the infantry never fucking quits no matter the distance

>>82057823
Its just as bad as youve heard. Sometimes its funny or just merely okay but this course was really fucked up. One guy almost died of organ failure due to not being provided electrolytes whilst in extreme heat and after undergoing extended periods of cardio

>>82057823
What do you think is the cause of these mood swings? Also, why do you believe everyone secretly hates you?

>>82057904
>almost died of organ failure due to not being provided electrolytes
that's extremely fucked up, that's really bad. I've heard quite bad stuff but never heard something that bad. those are some awful people leading them then

>>82057985
>cause of these mood swings?
usually it's just my thoughts and thinking about stuff to much. or if I start to feel someone is starting to not like me or something, it's hard to describe why they happen
>why do you believe everyone secretly hates you?
it's just Everytime I text them they basically never respond or don't seem like they care, it always seems like there just pretending. but when we're actually texting and talking it really does feel like they like me and stuff, it's just when I'm alone and they don't respond I hage the thoughts they do. i really want to ask out this person I know online but I constantly feel they secretly don't like me

>>82042374 (OP)
damn this thread is still going? are you all really that desperate for attention?

>>82058069
Incredible self report to say that but keep checking back in and posting here.
>>82058052
Do you journal at all? I would highly recommend you start if you don't already, you can start off with stuff that isn't as related to this to set it in your routine, but eventually you should start identifying what is causing these mood swings, for example "Friend #1, left me on read for hours and this made feel like they hated me." type of thing. From here you could start using dialectical behavior therapy practices to go "Ok, maybe they don't hate me, but instead they may just be busy with work/school/other friends/etc."

Why do you feel they are pretending?

>>82058244
i don't journal no, I've always enjoyed typing about stuff I could write for ages about stuff I enjoy so probably wouldn't be to hard to get into.
>maybe they don't hate me, but instead they may just be busy
yea they are always busy, then I just start to fear they just pretend to be busy, but yea I really need to start journaling
>Why do you feel they are pretending?
I don't really know how to describe it. I guess I just wish they respond to my texts faster

>>82058352
It's fantastic that you enjoy typing already, will definitely make it a bit easier for you. Would you say you describe yourself as someone with low self worth/esteem? If so, what have you looked into to bolster your self worth/esteem?

>>82058432
>someone with low self worth/esteem?
oh definitely I hate every single thing about my self.
>what have you looked into to bolster your self worth/esteem?
nothing really, I feel I don't deserve to be better. but I have been doing skin care stuff recently. I do really need to better myself if I ever do want to ask him out

>>82058515
What do you think are the top five things you hate about yourself and how have you addressed them? Great to hear you've been trying out some skin care! Some self care like that will be really helpful for both your mental health and physical well being.

>>82058722
>top five things you hate about yourself
I'd probably say
1: can't really say. can't do anything about it tho
2: my height I'm 6'3 and I just feel like a giant. can't do anything
3: my skin/scars my skin is so disgusting and awful and just horrible in everyway. trying skin care
4: my awful voice and just horrible at talking/texting in general. I have been talking to people more.
5: being pretty emotionless and don't know how to express emotions. can't do to much.
>trying out some skin care
yea my skin is awful so really need it

>>82058906
Why do you not like your height/why do you feel it as a negative, seeing yourself as a giant?
Have you looked into skin grafts/scar revision? Not sure what your financial status is and/or insurance provider is (or if you're even in America, not sure what this looks like in other countries). Doing skin care will definitely aid you though, so keep it up!
Why don't you like your voice, and I guess on that subject, have people told your voice is bad?
Not sure how to really help you with being emotionless, it's something I still struggle with quite a bit. Something I try to do is to mimic others emotions, but I realize this may be undesirable and cause further issues. This is going to sound a little asinine, so I apologize in advance, but on one of my visits to the mood disorder clinic, there was a guy there who told me watching some movies with themes around emotions (Inside Out in particular was his example) that helped him to be more emotional, so maybe it would be worth checking out?

>>82058982
>not like your height
I've just always wanted to be small and to be able to be picked up as cared for and be cute. but since I'm tall it feels impossible, people will always see me more as a caregiver :(
>skin grafts/scar revision?
I have not, I actually will look into it now tho.
>skin care will definitely aid you though, so keep it up!
yea I'm trying my best to, I wish j was born with better softer skin
>don't you like your voice
it's just bad I guess and it's too like deep and I just hate everything about it.
>have people told your voice is bad?
no, but I've also rarely talked to people
>worth checking out?
I guess I could try, I have watched those movies. but it could help and mimicking how other people express emotion and stuff could definitely help.

>>82059068
I get that. I had to change my perspective quite a bit from wanting to be small and cute to being a caregiver, life definitely helped me with that.
Hopefully you get some good information!
Have you considered trying to alter your voice?
Definitely be careful with the mimicking as some people will view as you mocking them.

>>82059130
>wanting to be small and cute to being a caregiver,
I just never want to be a caregiver no matter what
>Have you considered trying to alter your voice?
yea I've kinda been trying too, is hard to keep it perfect tho
>some people will view as you mocking them.
yea I really wouldn't want that at all

how long until my scars fade? ive had some scars on my thighs that have been here for a few months now. the thought of them staying with me for life scares me.

here is an alternative support board

https://neets.moe/

>>82042374 (OP)
>Any plans for today
Falling asleep
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself
I've cut myself after I've been sh free for 3 months I did it with a razor I broke because I couldn't find anything else
I did it because I have gotten extremely restless lately
>Is there anything bothering you right now
I'm always thinking about reading some of my thought journal to my therapist but whenever I try I just get overwhelmed with embarrassment and guilt so I go nonverbal for like 5 minutes and then we change subjects
sorry for bad English I'm esl

>>82059213
Sorry to hear that. And yea the voice thing is really hard to do, it's just practice makes perfect for real.
>>82059226
Have you tried any creams or gels to try and subdue their appearance?

>>82059275
Sorry to hear for your relapse anon. Have you tried handing your therapist so they can read it themself rather than you reading it aloud? May help to minimize the stress while still being able to convey your thoughts.

>>82059299
there are things in there that I don't want him to see
also it's on my phone and I really hate to give it to other people I'm thinking of just sending him screencaps from it but it makes me kind of anxious
I don't know why I am so restless lately but I did write in it a lot in the past week because of it and I would like another person to see it

>>82059365
Would you want to share it with us as a sort of step towards getting the courage to show it to your therapist?

>>82059284
yea very true.. I'll go to bed now. I'll let you know the results if I do get a bpd test or whatever

>>82059480
Goodnight, sleep well! Hope it all works out for you! : )

>>82059400
I tried to find some of the more comprehensive thoughts I had here are some of them...
I need to be more antisocial because rn I'm right in the middle of not being sociable and not reaping its benefits but not getting the benefits of being truly alone only the negative side effects of being slightly alone
I want to say I have trouble sleeping but it seems everyone does
a cringe compilation flashes into my eyes whenever I write stuff like this I wonder if that'll be the same thing that flashes before my eyes when a car hits me and turns me into red paste
I love it when words have 0 meaning
I'm such a huge loser and I hate myself and I don't hate myself nearly enough as I should
I think that I write more often when I have nothing to write(?) because right now my mind is in chaos but I just can't stop writing all of this
I think it's more productive to harm my body than my soul
I'm sorry for acting like this I'm in full control I just am that much of an arrogant hateful stupid pretentious clumsy unfunny uncharismatic untrustworthy untalented loser with no social skills no purpose and nothing better to do than being awful at everything so embarrassing...
CONSTANT
I still don't know if I should get a diagnosis? can I retry it if I'm not happy with the result or is it a one time and then you're set with it that's so unfair even tho I don't know what I'd like my results to be

>>82059507
What diagnosis are you pursuing?

I really miss her guys.

>>82052950
hi Cat. great to read over your messages to others again.

>it's okay as long as you're busy doing well ^^
yeah, its mainly been work, family, hobbies or friends. to many things im doing because ive gotta 'have hobbies and reason in life'. apparently, being stuck in a limbo life doing nothing is bad. i agreed, so i got into gundam models... and now im trying to get into other things, but like it was before, aint much to decide that i dont already know, try, or dislike.

(one response, and its a fucking paragraph. you can tell my hands need enrichment...)

>do you have fun together?
yeah. i like them all. one of them is a software engineer, and all of them are coders to a degree... except me of course, i mainly sit in the background and chill the fuck out instead of trying to give my batshit insane words to them. and i like it this way.

we play games alot, and its fun to have a multiplayer game. i never used to play them, but now that i can? its like a part of me was let out of the dungeon.

>phew
yeah. with everything how it is, things changing in this world and all the shit being stirred. its getting hard to see the light at these tunnels. but at the very least, most of it doesnt affect me. so i can sit by, and float past my own bad thoughts like a seaweed floats against a current.

thanks to this place, ive shed alot less blood than i wouldve. and i never graduated from pencil sharpener razors... seeing how some people hurt themselves, really just dampers how much better mine seem in comparison. though some days, i do catch myself looking at my arm again.

>>82052991
hey Cynic. great to see you again too, dont think i havent seen you!

>I'm glad you're not dead.
with how everything used to be with old 'friends', id gotten used to my life meaning almost nothing. even when i had work, money, a car, and even my own bedframe (yes, i slept without one for a while), i used to think my life was worth fuck all.

hold on, i need 2 posts for this ;-;

>>82060949
CONT, because my ass is FAR too expressive!

where was i?
ah yes, meaningless worth, yadda yadda.

>>82052991
Cynic.

continuing on, i used to think my life was pretty useless. but with how ive slowly been changing myself to think and act, i see that the friends i used to have, were just leaving me out of everything, and abbandoning me.
not that its a problem. i have no photos of them, so no place of my life is stained with them.

>that's ok, no one expects you to.
yeah, thats why im doing the whole info dump thing. so i can blast out the last 2ish months of shit, and continue on with you all knowing i aint dead yet.

even if none of you expect it, I expect it. i should be able to follow up on questions that IM asked, and not just leave people guessing as to what i wouldve said... maybe ill go back and try to find them one day. if im not too lazy :p

>Congrats.
yup! and all it took was... well, you can guess already. but im more than happy trading friends i cant touch, for friends that would stab me in the back.

im still just a chill then, and i dont mind being the punching bag a few times. atleast this time, they cant get close enough to punch me at all!

good lord, look at all those words. anyone else got something they wanna ask? my ass will be back either in a few hours, or tommorow.

my hands shake :]

good morning everyone
time to wake up and take a shower

just a bumping because it's page 8

>>82061454
Good morning Cat! Hope you have a great day!

>>82059605
I was thinking about getting a bpd diagnosis but I think it doesn't really matter one way or another, from the few meetings we had my therapist thinks what I'm going through is quite normal but that he can get me a psychiatric appointment if I want
It's just that my brain is being fed so much poison from the internet especially with things that are related to self diagnosis and some of the terms around mental illness
my ex had asd so I was told about terms like "masking" and "stimming" that sound just like regular human behavior and I think that caused me to believe I might have something wrong with my brain

Hey guys, I'm done walking my dog, so I'm just gonna play thrive today.
>>82061454
good morning cat
>>82060973
>trading friends i cant touch, for friends that would stab me in the back.
I might be mis reading this, but I think you can have friends that won't stab you in the back. Not having an outing or two with them isn't that much of a problem in comparison.

>>82062875
Ah yea, when i got my diagnosis, I thought it was just some kinda general anxiety disorder and I just wanted wanted some kinda medication to help manage it for work and stop trying to kill myself, was really surprised when they came back back with like quite a few diagnoses including BPD. When I got out, everyone was like, "wait you didn't know?". What steps have you taken towards reducing your Internet time or engaging in my healthy internet practices? And yea, "masking" is pretty normal, used to be referred to as "being two faced" by the older generations, but millennials and zoomers have started to refer to it differently, thanks to our better understanding of how people interact with each other in society.

>>82063297
Do you go to a park to walk your dog or just like around the neighborhood?

>>82062577
hello and thank you
hope you have a good one as well
I decided I'm going to chill today because I'm tirer

>>82063297
Hey cynic
>I'm done walking my dog, so I'm just gonna play thrive today
have fun :D
I'll probably play aome patapons

>>82063371
I don't know about the diagnosis because getting high score on a few online tests doesn't really mean anything
My therapist said to me that a lot of what I'm saying and going through seems kind of normal self harm and included
I'm trying to have healthier internet usage by avoiding short form content and trying to watch more shows and movies instead of meaningless videos but I'm still struggling

>>82064259
What shows and/or movies have you watched so far?

I'm so tired of him, but he knows that if he lets me go and stay alone I will be dead before the year ends, 2 years ago I wish i hadn't gone to his thread, I wish I stayed here, maybe things would be better. I'm so exhausted, i barely have the strength to relapse and hurt myself more than a few cuts. At least I can hug my plushies in bed..

>>82064414
Why are you letting this man have so much control over you?

>>82063379
just around a park. sometimes we take him further around the neighborhood, but it's been hot and he can't make it as far as he wants to.
>I'll probably play aome patapons
don't think I've played that before, how is it?

>>82064551
>>82063756
forgot to tag cat

>>82064551
Nice! We do the same, unfortunately he's a bit of an old dog so we don't usually walk for longer than an hour or so.

man I'm not doing anything today but I still feel so busy and time flies so fast

>>82064414
Hello
>will be dead before the year ends,
that's sounds really bad
why do you depend on that person so much?
>barely have the strength to relapse
it might sounds wrong but it's probably a good thing
do hurt yourself further anon you're already hurt enough
>least I can hug my plushies in bed..
sending hugs
hope it gets better

>>82064551
>how is it
pretty fun :3
I decided to use my olp psp again and play some nice games, after that one I might play the second one if it works on my console

>>82064573
dw ^^

hey everyone!

>>82064414
hey! welcome back! sorry to hear things have not been going well. hope your bed and plushies give you some comfort.

>>82065372
hello Yuanon :3
how it goingg??

>>82064281
Dorohedero which wasn't amazing rewatched lain and I'm about to finish monogatari
For movies I watched the good the bad and the ugly
I also try to get into more single player games after dumping ungodly hours of my time into multiplayer games in the start of the year I got back to painting but I haven't painted in a few months

>>82065425
good evening, catbro! :>

>how it goingg??
a bit sore from yesterdays workout and a bit sad in general, so i made some waffles. now i'm sore and sad, but also had some waffles. how was your weekend?

>>82065525
Oh I'm sorry to hear you're sad but at least you have waffles so that's something
>how was your weekend?
it pased me, I don't do much but it should flew by
Played some patapons today
and now I may play some peak idk

hey everyone i'm pretty damn upset cus I tried painting my black templar's cloth bits white and I think I ended up ruining the entire mini :(

>>82065850
Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear that! : ( I hope once it dries it turns out looking better!

>>82065658
>Oh I'm sorry to hear you're sad
it's ok. it happens. ^^

>at least you have waffles so that's something
yeah. i wanted to make to make oat waffles, but i just had rice flour. luckily it still worked out. at least i have something i can use it for.

>it pased me, I don't do much but it should flew by
that sucks. :/ let's hope you'll have a nice and long sunday evening.

>Played some patapons today
how is it? i played it on my ps4, but had the feeling that something was off. like the inputs were a bit delayed and i had the feeling that the button layout wasn't as it should be.

>>82065850
hey chev. too bad it didn't work out the way you intended. :[ what happened?

>>82065878
i've been trying to scrape it off to the best of my abilities.

>>82066118
>what happened?
basically i was trying to layer it on top of light grey undercoat as i thought that would cover better, ended up still not covering very well, but this time i thought i put on too little paint (big mistake) and now it's clogged up most of the detail and created this horrible blobby texture. i've been trying to scrape it off with my fingernails, but that only gets so far.

Gym journey begins :3
its tough but im still trying, i have a gym fren so that's good, i dont go alone there,
how have you all been?


>>82066219
i mean, i hope you dont have any now... but wouldnt razor be better for that?

>>82066219
i see. if it really turned out that badly, you can always just strip the model with ispropyl alcohol. just put it in for a few hours and then give it a scrub with an old toothbrush. white is the most horrible colour to paint.

>>82066325
>Gym journey begins :3
best of luck! o7 keep us updated, ok?

>i have a gym fren so that's good, i dont go alone there
that's good. it's always easier to keep up working out with friends.

>how have you all been?
last couple of weeks have been rough, but other than that, not much. just work, working out and sometimes hanging out with friends. what about you?

>>82066325
>Gym journey begins :3
hey good luck!!
>wouldnt razor be better for that?
I tried with a boxcutter, but it scratches the plastic and that's bad bad.

>>82066548
I'll see what I do. for now I'm gonna drop the hobby for a bit (since the white paint also fucked up my last good brushes and I don't wanna waste money on new ones for now). It's a shame but It's not like my mini's or paints are gonna run away. once I get some new brushes I'll probably fully strip that model and go for a different primer and such. Also I was considering buying some of those plastic army men so I can test out paints without having to ruin a mini.

>>82066951
that's fair. it can be frustrating at times. my advice would be to drop the pure whites (they got shit coverage and very big pigments) and just use very light pastel colors. light greys, blues and beiges, depending on what hue you're going for. the army man idea isn't bad, but you can always check out other miniature brands, like mantic, north star, archon studios or wargames atlantic. good enough quality for a decent price. i'm currently waiting for the er'sael orcs for argatoria from spellcrow. those guys look awesome and the smaller scale is a nice change of pace.

>>82067128
>my advice would be to drop the pure whites
already gonna do that, i'll probably go for a bone-ish tan color for the robes and an offwhite for the pauldrons.
>check out other miniature brands
i'll see if they're in stock anywhere near me
I'll probably just paint my other templars (i kinda picked the hardest one for me personally to paint cus a lot of cloth n such (other than the marshal which i will probably do last anyways) I've got a bunch of crusaders who don't have capes n such so that'll be a LOT easier i think. otherwise i'll do the scouts since their design is a lot simpler. I actually managed to paint my mini pretty well before I decided to do the white (picrel). for now i'll dial it back to just watching lore videos lmao

>>82067407
>already gonna do that
looking forward to what you'll come up with. :>

>I'll probably just paint my other templars (i kinda picked the hardest one for me personally to paint cus a lot of cloth n such
good decision. the crusaders are led by a sword brother, right? they really run around with a lot more bling than the regular chaps. ^^

>I actually managed to paint my mini pretty well before I decided to do the white (picrel).
i think so, too. way better than my first attempts at the black legion, i can tell you that. ^^

>for now i'll dial it back to just watching lore videos lmao
gotta recharge that enthusiasm. :>

i'll be heading to bed now. good night.

>>82067933
goodnight fren sorry for leaving but i was gaming
I managed to get to the peak :3

I'll probably be going to sleep too now

Dyed my hair blue/black today and it actually came out better than I expected! The blue isn't as pronounced as I'd like it to be in low light conditions but under harsh overhead light or sunlight, it looks really blue.

>>82065850
Heyoo
>white and I think I ended up ruining the entire mini :(
what if you used a pain thinner to get it off?
or maybe it looks fine you just don't see it yet
anyway
nice to see ya

>>82066325
>Gym journey begins :3
best of luuckk!!

>>82068380
hay anon
>came out better than I expected!
it sounds nice
glad you're happy with it !

leavign a bump

>>82068426
>what if you used a pain thinner to get it off?
I probably will, but it just pissed me off since it's the 2nd time i've tried to paint that mini. I'll probably just use a different primer next time, someone gave me that advice and it sounds like a good idea desu. I just struggled a lot with brighter colors like white and red

its all in le head bump

>>82042374 (OP)
Bumping cause I like cutters.

good morning. (~.~)

>>82068239
>sorry for leaving but i was gaming
I managed to get to the peak :3
all good and well done.

>>82068426
>>82069103
>what if you used a pain thinner to get it off?
>I probably will
don't use regular paint thinner for plastic minis. it might melt the minis themselves. you only need that for enamel or oil paints.

>>82071874
morning mornin

Good morning

>>82071874
Hello :D

>>82070397
>>82071874
wow thread survived 4 hours of no bumps
I wonder why r9k was so slow then

>>82072421
heyo! what's up?

>>82072718
good morning! any plans for today?

>>82073012
>any plans for today?
chilling and playing and and later I'll work on that project
hbu?
Oh and you asked about patapons yesterday, I don't feel any delay or anything so I wonder why you could feel one on ps4 which more powerful than a little psp

>>82073079
>hbu?
just work. heading out soon.

>I don't feel any delay or anything so I wonder why you could feel one on ps4 which more powerful than a little psp
probably just a bad port or something like that. no clue, really.

>>82073256
>work. heading out soon.
best of luck !
hope it goes by quick
>probably just a bad port or something
hm maybe maybe
have you finished the game?

i love long car rides and road trips, always help me relax and enjoy the view. if i could roadtrip everyday life would be perfect

>>82071874
>it might melt the minis themselves
yeah apparently if you use some sort of ethanol it should be fine?

good evening everyone btw

>>82074688
>i love long car rides and road trips
i relate to that heavily. there's just something so magical about seeing the scenery change and such

>>82066548
>best of luck! o7 keep us updated, ok?
xd i will try, but i dont go here ofte, i forget and then i reappear
>last couple of weeks have been rough
ouch, sorry to hear that.
but hangign out with friends is nice
>>82066951
real scratched plastic dont sound fun...

>>82074688
hello
>always help me relax
I never particularly liked them but it it nice to zone out and listen to the road
>road trips
where did you go anon?

im back from the dead :0
hii every1!! :3

>>82076061
hello :D
it's very nice to see you again !!!
how are you doing ??

>>82076082
cute vid :0
>how are you doing ??
ah good ^^ got discharged from the hospital and finally home and got some snacks ^^

>>82076094
>cute vid :0
thank youu ^^
cool pictures!
you're gonna post omori pics now?
have you played the game? (have we talked about this already)
>discharged from the hospital
how was your time there??
>got some snacks ^^
ooaa :0
what snacks?
I got a babana

>>82074810
yea i always love going on them during autem or spring cause its the most beautiful time imo, just so nice. saw a big rainbow as well was so beautiful.. you can kinda barley see it in the blurry pic

>>82075623
that's fair its mainly being on the highway i like anyways and not driving i get really bad car sickness if its not on the highway
just clothes shopping with my friends, didn't get much myself but was nice being there for them

>>82073826
>best of luck ! hope it goes by quick
thanks. it went alright, i think. how was your day?

>have you finished the game?
no. playing rythm games when you feel like there's a delay isn't a lot of fun. ^^'

>>82074688
nice view :>

>>82074810
>yeah apparently if you use some sort of ethanol it should be fine?
i think, but isopropyl alcohol should be cheaper, but you get what's available to you. just throw in some sprue clippings for a bit and see what happens before you test it on the mini, just to be safe.

>good evening everyone btw.
good evening, chevy. :]

>>82074990
>i dont go here ofte, i forget and then i reappear
that's ok ^^ it's nice that you still think about us from time to time.

>sorry to hear that.
thanks. it's ok, though. it happens.

>but hangign out with friends is nice
that's true.

>>82076061
hey meowster! welcome back! :D

I know I was the scout, I should've found the way out, so that
Everyone could find a way out
I know I was the scout, I should've found the way out, so that
Everyone could find a way out

>>82076730
>love going on them during autem or spring
autumn is definitely the best time to do so for me personally, especially when it's raining (provided you don't crash). I prefer biking in spring tho, the air is rlly good for it then here.

>>82076819
>isopropyl alcohol should be cheaper
been told that too, but I got no idea where to get that.
also maybe I'll go back to ultramarines, they were so much easier to paint ahaha. I'll see if I can get a cheap Calgar (picrel) maybe. I was gonna go look for new brushes and paint this week, but me friends decided to meet for the festival tomorrow, so I'll do that all next week, if I can still afford it atleast, otherwise I might ask some for my birthday (end of this month)

Tranny central

>>82076730
>just clothes shopping with my friends, didn't get much myself but was nice being there for them
that sounds nice, when will you hang out with your friens again?

>>82076819
>>82076819
>it went alright, i think.
phew
>how was your day?
just chilled
and I didn't work on the project, idk, didn't feeling like it, I don't feel very hopeful about the uni stuff
>no
can't blame you
>playing rythm games when
true heh

>>82076828
Heyyo
how are you doing?
enjoying the summer ?

>>82076828
hey, friend! how have you been?

>>82077099
>been told that too, but I got no idea where to get that.
just check the wikipedia page. it lists a lot of alternative names it might be sold under. i'm sure you could find it in a hardware store.

>also maybe I'll go back to ultramarines, they were so much easier to paint ahaha
if you feel like it would be more fun, sure. why not? what are you gonna do with the specific templar models, though?

>me friends decided to meet for the festival tomorrow, so I'll do that all next week
you can always get some brushes whenever. have fun with your friends. ^^ oh, maybe invest in some ear plugs. loud music over a long period of time can really damage your hearing.

>otherwise I might ask some for my birthday (end of this month)
sounds like a nice idea for a gift.

>>82077273
>and I didn't work on the project, idk, didn't feeling like it, I don't feel very hopeful about the uni stuff
sorry to hear it's been wearing you down. it's ok, though. enjoy your chill night and maybe you'll feel more motivated tomorrow.

>can't blame you
i hope not. might also be just one of those games where like the idea of more than the actual game. i think a spiritual successor has been announced in a gaming show i saw recently, but i can't remember what it was called.

>>82077099
going on a road trip in the rain is the best by far just so nice and really nice to just listen to while looking out. never been too much into biking myself but does seem like the best time too

>>82077273
probably in like a week i hope

>>82077633
>been wearing you down.
unfortunately but I'll try
I feel wierd saying that but I also been slowly thinking about maybe visiting some psychologist to get a evaluated or something, I'm not sure I'm gonna do it, I'm not sure if you want talk about that tho
>enjoy your chill night
thank you :>
I decided to play some patapons but jow time to lay down and watch some stuff
and how are you enjoy evening?
>maybe you'll feel more motivated tomorrow.
I'll try to force myself
>spiritual successor has been announced in a gaming show i saw recently
I've heard something about it too!
but i also don't know :/
I just heard that people though it'd be a new patapon game but it isn't

>>82077835
>in like a week i hope
glad to hear it's soon
hope you have fun
are you going to buy clothes again together?

>>82077273
heya cat!!

>>82077633
>i'm sure you could find it in a hardware store.
I'll give that a try, there are loads near me anyways

>what are you gonna do with the specific templar models, though?
probably paint them at a later time, I do still love black templars (always found it kinda funny that the imperial fists are completely outshined by their successor chapters). I still got those orks if I wanna do something completely different as well as that kharn mini (which has no white parts!!) he does have funny blue hair tho which kinda reminds me of miku for some reason, must've been a meme I saw.
>loud music over a long period of time can really damage your hearing.
kinda found that out too late, i've had multiple ear operations as a child and basically had tinnitus since i was 14. probably why i always sleep with headphones on.
>sounds like a nice idea for a gift.
yeah, idk what else i'd want anyways (a car would be pretty nice ahaha

>>82077835
>never been too much into biking myself
I just do it since I don't have my drivers license yet and I still have to wait a while for a motorcycle license. that's probably why I always have to go on roadtrips with friends, which isn't always as fun as everyone tends to have different places they wanna go to.

does anyone have any tips on ways to cut that shed the most blood without scarring. i had a friend that mentioned that was possible but she does not talk to me anymore. i need blood for blood ritual

>>82042374 (OP)
im conflicted. there is a blade i really want to use, but im not sure if its clean. what do?

>>82078146
Hello :D
how are you today?

>>82078181
Hello anon I can't help much
from my experience it's very easy to get scars, basically any cut that's not on my hand will leave a scar and won't bleed much
though other people might be different
The only time I really bled a bunch was when I accidentally fut my finger open but that injury healed from months and left a scar also
I don't reccomend hitting yourself
>need blood for blood ritual
what riital?

>>82078371
hey
I'd say it's best if you don't hurt yourself especially with a dirty blade
Why do you wanna cut anon?

>>82078408
>Why do you wanna cut anon?
its a habit. plus the fact that i havent slept in over 24 hours and im feeling especially erratic. i can hear the blade calling me. and im just feeling so low.

>>82078181

The places of your body that bleed the most and easiest are about an inch above the thight and your fingertips, you dont have to cut just stab thru

>>82078440
I feel it'd be best of you went to hed and took a nap instead
or maybe just lay down and watch a movie

>>82078448
i cant i need to think of a way to clean this thing.

>>82078447
>inch above the thigh
isn't there an artery in that place?

>>82078462
just use isopropyl alcohol to clean it
what kinda blade?

>>82078085
>also been slowly thinking about maybe visiting some psychologist to get a evaluated or something
maybe that's not a bad idea. talking to someone you don't have any close connection to might help you voice some concerns you wouldn't otherwise talk about or it may show you a new perspective.

>I'm not sure I'm gonna do it
take your time and think it through thoroughly.

>I'm not sure if you want talk about that tho
we can talk about anything you want. i don't mind.

>but jow time to lay down and watch some stuff
good idea. i might do that as well.

>how are you enjoy evening?
could be better. i think i broke my tv's remote by spilling some lemon water over it. (-_-;) also can't find anything to watch.

>I'll try to force myself
good luck. o7

>I've heard something about it too!
but i also don't know :/
i think it's called ratatan.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wJjfY01TfPA&pp=ygUPcmF0YXRhbiB0cmFpbGVy0gcJCfwAo7VqN5tD

>>82078146
>always found it kinda funny that the imperial fists are completely outshined by their successor chapters
true. ^^ yellow has always been quite tricky to paint and i guess they're just a bit boring. even the new lysander is a bit lame compared to other character models. black templars are just cool. cool lore, cool models and cool art. and all that since 3rd edition.

>which has no white parts!!
definitely a plus, if you ask me. ^^

>he does have funny blue hair tho
i always forget he has those tassel thingies. just paint them however you like. he probably has a collection and puts on whatever colour represents his mood the best.

>kinda found that out too late, i've had multiple ear operations as a child and basically had tinnitus since i was 14. probably why i always sleep with headphones on.
that's rough. very sorry to hear that. life's never so bad it can't get worse, though.

>idk what else i'd want anyways (a car would be pretty nice ahaha
a man can dream. a man can dream. ^^

>>82078462
>i cant
why not if it's okay to ask?
>way to clean this thing.
you might use rubbing alcohol but if it's rusty it won't help much

>>82078463
yeahhh so dont go too deep but it bleeds a lot

>>82078472
i dont have access to anything like that i just have common household items

>>82078085
maybe probably not, the plan is to hopefully eat at a restaurant or something

>>82078146
hope you get yours soon then i dont have mine myself. yea you really gotta all agree to have fun if people argue or stuff just becomes a headache

getting a bit eepy

>>82078476
>might help you voice some concerns you
it might it might but the is a slight problem that I can't talk in polish lol
I can talk but when it comes to what I feel I can really only find the right words in english because I only talk to you guys about that stuff
>. i don't mind
thank you fren
I slightly suspect I might have inattentive adhd, but to really know I should go visit a professional because self diagnosis is obviously bad
I just have some signs maybe pointing me in that direction like for example coffein not really working on me
I also have stuff saying I don't because I remember being in a place as a kid and I got diagnosed with just dyslexia but at the time adhd was pretty stigmatized and I wouldn't be surprised if my mom just decided I shouldn't be checking for adhd because she knows better, and I remember her often saying that I'm "normal" for some reason
>might do that as well.
you should very much do so
maybe even in your comfy bed
whatcha watching?
>think i broke my tv's remote
:0
well if you take out the battery you could technically wash it in some water and it'll work if you dry it out well
>can't find anything to watch.
maybe the stuff I sent ya if you hadn't seen it?
>called ratatan.
there's so much visual noise my eyes don't know where to look

>>82078605
how dirty is it?

>>82078818
>hopefully eat at a restaurant or something
that sounds nice
what kind? anything fancy?

>>82078973
>getting a bit eepy
me too. i think i'll head to bed now.

>the is a slight problem that I can't talk in polish lol I can talk but when it comes to what I feel I can really only find the right words in english
i get you. i also think that it's easier to express my emotions in english. i always thought it's because the words just don't have the same emotional value in a second language. they come out easier because they don't mean as much.

>I slightly suspect I might have inattentive adhd, but to really know I should go visit a professional because self diagnosis is obviously bad
yeah. just read a description of the symptoms and it seems like that describes like 80% of the population. i feel like you can google a random mental issue and by the end you're convinced you have it. better ask a professional what they think.

>coffein not really working on me
interesting. do you drink it often?

>I remember being in a place as a kid and I got diagnosed with just dyslexia but at the time adhd was pretty stigmatized
i guess we're a bit better now when it comes to acknowledge neurodivergence and how to help individuals deal with it, but at the same time i also don't think that we're actually dealing with the root causes atm.

>I remember her often saying that I'm "normal" for some reason
what else makes you feel more normal than sombody always saying how normal you are... have you talked to her about it?

>whatcha watching?
nothing. haven't found anything yet.

>well if you take out the battery you could technically wash it in some water and it'll work if you dry it out well
i'll see if it changed it's mind tomorrow. if it didn't i'll try your solution. can't get more broken than it already is.

>maybe the stuff I sent ya if you hadn't seen it?
the issue is that when i fall asleep over it all the time, i'll never finish it. ^^' i'll see if any of the vids fits my mood rn.

>there's so much visual noise my eyes don't know where to look
that's everything now.

>>82078973
>how dirty is it?

>>82078973
either fast food or a Chinese place don't know yet. and not fancy x3 just normal chill place for friends

>>82078408
heyhey :3
>how are you today?
i'm doing okay I suppose. not gonna sleep cus I have to do alot tomorrow. I've been playing some gacha game cus it reminds me of a game I used to play alot, but it plays a lot different to that game and it confuses me alot.

>>82078476
>black templars
I agree, and from what I see around alot they're starting to become more of the poster boys (along with deathwatch too), maybe they'll even dethrone the ultramarines in that regard. also just a random question but were the ultramarines always the "default" chapter/legion?
>definitely a plus, if you ask me. ^^
yepyep, a lot of red tho but as it's chaos im sure i can get away with doing it a lil bit crudely.
>just paint them however you like
the blue breaks up all the red nicely in my opinion, and I have a lot of blue paint (some of my templars had plasma weapons)
>that's rough. very sorry to hear that
thanks but it's okay now, you kinda just learn to live with it, not much choice in it anyways. what is more annoying is that I think I'm slowly going deaf. I already hear about 20db lower than the average person, but lately it's been getting worse and worse. not fun for a music lover like me.

>>82078818
>if people argue or stuff just becomes a headache
yep, usually we all just end up going back home or driving around aimlessly since nobody can ever agree where to go.

>>82078605
Do you have white vinegar? Could use that.

>>82080011
im sorry to hear that, that really sucks :/. maybe you could try to plan something small before hand just like a lunch or clothes shopping and maybe after that you could go different places that's usually what we do, ofc doesn't always work out to well

>>82080211
>something small before hand just like a lunch or clothes shopping
not rlly my style for my usual friend group. I only rlly tend to do that with my female friends (of which none have a driver's license yet haha), maybe I can think of something, although i'm not that great at thinking of small activities

Bump to keep it alive

hope you all have been having a better night than me

You're all a bunch of faggots.

Cut yourself and get it over with, it's that simple. Give up. I have done the same. It's nice. It's easy.

>>82082794
It is very nice agreed anon.

>>82082479
what made you sad?

>How are you doing today?
terrible
>Any plans for today?
masturbate, then cut myself some more
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
in like 2 or 3 hours
>Why did you hurt yourself?
boyfriend dumped me
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
boyfriend dumping me

>>82080011
>maybe they'll even dethrone the ultramarines in that regard.
in popularity maybe. i mean, they're a successor chapter that gets their own codex and minis, that's quite the big achievement, but they won't be put in a big starter set anytime soon. one of the biggest mistakes gw ever made was to put chapter specific models in a starter set (dark angels in 7th) and that reduced their potential customer base so much they never did that again and probably won't try for the forseeable future. weird that deathwatch is so popular. i liked them better when they were just a squad you could include in your other imperial armies, but i guess that's also been quite a while ago. ^^'

>also just a random question but were the ultramarines always the "default" chapter/legion?
not always, but they've hold that spot most of the time. in rogue trader it was the crimson fists, then ultramarines for 2nd (codex space marines was actually called codec ultramarines in 2nd ^^), in 3rd it was crimson fists on the codex cover and black templars in the starter set and then it's been ultramarines until 7th, i believe, when they tried their luck with the dark angels and failed miserably with that, so they went back to ultras after that. and why not? they're inoffensive and cool enough.

>a lot of red tho but as it's chaos im sure i can get away with doing it a lil bit crudely.
red isn't that bad once you get the hang of it. and yes. chaos is a bit more forgiving in that regard.

>the blue breaks up all the red nicely in my opinion, and I have a lot of blue paint
guess that's settled, then. blue it is. :>

>not fun for a music lover like me.
i can imagine. seems to be an epidemic among younger people. my brother lost hearing in one ear as well. :/

>>82083333
>terrible
hey anon. sorry to hear that.

>masturbate, then cut myself some more
not much else to do on a day lime this, i suppose. don't be to hard on yourself, ok?

>boyfriend dumped me
what happened?

I did it again :(
I couldn't help it but I threw my blades away, unfortunately my mom found out and told my dad ugh why are they pretending to care now? anyway it took me like 24 hours for it to stop bleeding and I ruined another pair of pants :(

why is it addicting!? it shouldn't be this way!!!

sorry. had to charge my phone and spaced out for a bit.

>>82083515
hey d!

>I couldn't help it but I threw my blades away
the first step is always the hardest. well done.

>my mom found out and told my dad ugh why are they pretending to care now?
maybe they do actually care, but were to busy with their own issues to notice it before?

>anyway it took me like 24 hours for it to stop bleeding
sounds scary. good that it stopped.

>I ruined another pair of pants :(
maybe you could soak them in natron?

>why is it addicting!? it shouldn't be this way!!!
it releases all sorts of chemicals in your brain and makes you forget about other worries for a while. i guess that's all it takes.

today is school day. i am quite terrified. i really don't want to embarrass myself, i know i need to talk to people cause first day would be the best for that, im just very nervous and awkward.

>>82084249
best of luck, fren! i'm rooting for you! (*^*)9

>>82084319
That guys satan dude. He isnt really learning anything at school, he just needed something to do. Satan even answers wrong on tests intentionally lol. Satan knows a lot of shit dude hes not human. But he seems to have settled on living as ppl and having sex with girls.

>>82083515
hello
>took me like 24 hours for it to stop bleeding
that sounds dangerous, make sure it doesn't reopen
>>82083515
>ruined another pair of pants :(
dang it, you sur you can wash ot off with some baking soda?


>>82084249
best of luck!
hope it goes wellI
>need to talk to people
maybe you could start conversations by telling them that your kina uneasy because it's your first day

>>82084332
anon are you okay?

>>82084377
No, I gotta go poo so bad. I sharted into my sock but theres more where that came from it seems. If u were here wld u let me use ur mouth as a toilet seat? I got lots of pee stored in my balls too, hope ur thirsty.

>>82084092
>maybe they do actually care, but were to busy with their own issues to notice it before?
no they don't care they were always very neglectful! my dad would berate me if I cried which is one of the reasons I started cutting in the first place because after a certain point I wasn't able to cry anymore because I had to learn how to hold myself from crying and now the only way to get that "release" one usually gets from crying is by cutting they are only pretending to care, they'll forget about it soon enough just like they always do
but yeah I got rid of the blades even after bleeding for an entire day I still had the urge to do it again! god I'm such a failure.
>>82084377
>that sounds dangerous, make sure it doesn't reopen
it reopened several times that's why the bleeding wouldn't stop but it's fine now, I was starting to feel weak actually
>dang it, you sur you can wash ot off with some baking soda?
I'll try with the other pairs but the one in the picture is ruined there was way too much blood, I ruined a shirt too but at least that shirt was old

Hello everyone
how's it going??

>>82079415
heya :>
>head to bed now.
how was your sleep?
>words just don't have the same emotional value in a second language
maybe that's probably a part of it as well
>describes like 80% of the population.
some of the parts, yeah
that's why the only thing that made me more interested was the caffein not working
even though I don't drink it often
>better ask a professional what they think.
exactly
>do you drink it often?
like 3-4 times a year maybe
>don't think that we're actually dealing with the root causes atm.
yeah same
>have you talked to her about it?
no
>i'll see if it changed it's mind tomorrow
hopefully
>i'll never finish it. ^^'
that's okay
>that's everything now.
I'm sure it'll everything
but wonder why, maybe because everyone got big screens?

>>82080011
Heya
>i'm doing okay
that's good ^^
> not gonna sleep cus I have to do alot tomorrow
but that doesn't sound too good
do you really have so much stuff to do you can't sleep?
what are you going to be busy doing?

just bjumping this

>>82042374 (OP)
hello /cut/
kinda surprised on how long this thread has been up lol

>How are you doing today?
im okay, i was playing some games with my friends today

>Any plans for today?
i was thinking of going to meet up with my irl friend today
but apparently he got too high so ig not

>>82085829
Hello
>kinda surprised on how long this thread has been up lol
same but it happens sometimes
>was playing some games with my friends today
sounds nice :D
>but apparently he got too high so ig not
oh well next time u should see him earlier so he doesn't have time to get too high

bumpingson

>>82084454
>no they don't care they were always very neglectful!
i see. not being allowed to express your emotions really is terrible. i have a hard time dealing with mine, too.

>they'll forget about it soon enough just like they always do
sorry they are like that.

>I got rid of the blades even after bleeding for an entire day I still had the urge to do it again!
you did well, but if you want to get rid of it, you need to decide against it every time again and again. i know you can do it, but it will be difficult.

>god I'm such a failure.
being a failure and being set up for failure are not the same thing. though i have to admit that both feel the same.

>>82084461
hey, fren! (^-^)

>how was your sleep?
it was ok, but not great. i woke up still a bit sore from my weekend workout.

>that's why the only thing that made me more interested was the caffein not working even though I don't drink it often
>like 3-4 times a year maybe
that really isn't that often and it should be pretty noticable when you consume it. might actually be a clue.

>no
probably wouldn't lead to anything if you did. :/

>hopefully
it thought about it, realized it's error and decided to work again.

>that's okay
honestly, i even have a hard time watching the animes i was talking about. just a lot of stress right now.

>but wonder why, maybe because everyone got big screens?
a lot of people don't understand that absence of detail isn't absence of design, so they think they have to fill every tiny bit of free space with something. and you just can't escape it. you also get bombarded with information everywhere you look. it's just tiresome.

>>82085338
thanks :>

>>82085829
hi pink!

>kinda surprised on how long this thread has been up lol
yeah. it's nice to have one of those. :>

>i was playing some games with my friends today
what games? :0

>he got too high so ig not
dang. :/ did you decide to do anything else?

im back, i don't exactly know how to feel, it went fine enough didn't do any actual school work cause it was the first day. i couldn't talk to anyone sadly, everyone else just seemed like they either didn't want to talk to anyone or was already talking to people. the thing i hate most about it is i basically can't make time for my friend, they don't allow phones so i basically can't ever text him and that just feels awful, im back now and it's basically his bed time. rn he's the most important thing to me and i know I'll never find someone better so i just dont know :(

>>82084319
thanks.

>>82084377
thanks. and i probably should have tried something like that, sadly didn't. i didn't go to lunch or anything so made it even harder

Any oldfags that can tell me if scars will ever disappear or will they stay forever?

I got a bunch of old deep cuts from when I was 16 till 18, I'm now 27 years old and I still got the scars but they kinda look more like stretch marks now however there location and looks still makes it clear that it's self-harm scars. The scars on my legs are non visible because of my leg hairs but my arms look like the surface of the moon. I'm at peace with myself and friends and family are fine with it but it's very annoying when meeting new people or at work if I get asked. They litterally switch their personality 180 when they realize what the scars are and they either stop talking to me or try to be very careful with me. I had to explain to my boss just how annoying it was that he had to speak to me as if I was a broken child.

A small derailment to the topic but yeah...

>>82042374 (OP)
First gf was a cutter. I moved away idk what happened to her.

>>82087608
>woke up still a bit sore from my weekend workout.
what :0
you really gotta slow down on those workouts and let urself refover well or they'll just make you less healthy fren
>be pretty noticable when you consume it
yeah I noticed it when I had a lecture very early and i decided to drink a redbull on an empty stomach and it didn't really do anything
>wouldn't lead to anything if you did. :/
exactly
>realized it's error and decided to work again.
haha tv remotes are really fussy are they're
they like throwing fits and hiding too
>just a lot of stress right now.
is it a stressful season? lots of people to deal with?
>bombarded with information everywhere you look. it's just tiresome.
people's attention get constantly stolen so they make things more attention grabbing and people's attention get constantly stolen so they make things more attention grabbing...

>>82088214
Hello alo
dw it's only the first day
I assume everyone decided to have the same idea and they tried talking to someone so they hopefully can find some friends
>didn't do any actual school work
it'll probably be like that for this whole week
>they don't allow phones
you probably could sneak one on and use it in the bathroom but I'm worried it might make you just spend all the brakes in the toilet texting
>didn't go to lunch or anything
why?
how does lunch work in school over there?

>>82088292
Hey
>scars will ever disappear or will they stay forever?
>I'm now 27
sorry anon they'll be there forever
You can look into, I think, it's called scar revision surgery but I don't know how much that could help
and also cover up tattoos exist
>small derailment to the topic bu
no worries

>>82088214
welcome back! :D

>it went fine enough didn't do any actual school work cause it was the first day.
glad to hear it went alright. hope you'll get the hang of everything soon.

>everyone else just seemed like they either didn't want to talk to anyone or was already talking to people.
sounds like school, alright. ^^ give it some time. it's an odd situation for them as well.

>im back now and it's basically his bed time.
it'll be harder to catch each other that way, but it's not like you can't talk at all. it'll take a bit more patience, though.

>>82088292
>Any oldfags that can tell me if scars will ever disappear or will they stay forever?
they fade a bit over time, but depending on how big they are, they'll probably always be visible. there's some creams or oils you could try, but i'm not sure how much it would help. sorry.

>A small derailment to the topic but yeah...
not at all. we just talk about whatever anyways.

>>82087608
>hi pink!
hiiii

>what games? :0
isle and blood debt on roblox, we didnt do much on isle cause he wasnt that good at it and the rng sucked but we mainly played the latter

>dang. :/ did you decide to do anything else?
nope i just stayed home sadly, hope i can do something tomorrow

>>82042374 (OP)
i got a nice cut from a razorblade.

this threads last a long time
doing these cuts felt like my stress floated away. i feel sad now though i dont really get it. hope everyone have a nice night

>>82088520
>I moved away idk what happened to her.
that's sad. how was yout relationship with her?

>>82088544
>you really gotta slow down on those workouts and let urself refover well or they'll just make you less healthy fren
your right. it started to rain and we decided to jog and do some sprints, but i hadn't done that in a while, so i'm still feeling it a bit. it's one of the few things that actually makes me feel a bit better, so it's hard to stop myself sometimes.

>yeah I noticed it when I had a lecture very early and i decided to drink a redbull on an empty stomach and it didn't really do anything.
hm. i heard that you should drink coffee about an hour after waking up to get the full effect (i think some receptors in your brain are still blocked shortly after waking up), so maybe it had something to do with that? i'll look it up.

>they like throwing fits and hiding too
they're like very boring pets, but at least they don't need much care. ^^

>is it a stressful season? lots of people to deal with?
not really, but i work alone for at least 1 hour and 30 minutes each evening and sometimes it's just too much. it burns me out and when i'm stressed i also make more mistakes which means more stress down the line. (-_-;)

>people's attention get constantly stolen so they make things more attention grabbing
exactly. and since attention spans are decreasing, they also have to cram more information in smaller and smaller amounts of time.

>>82088629
>isle and blood debt on roblox
man, i really need to inform myself about this game. i hear about it all the time now, but it basically never enters my game-media-bubble. i don't think a single streamer i watch plays it. really odd.

>we mainly played the latter
did you have a good time over all?

>>82088844
don't forget to patch yourself up, ok?

>>82088975
>this threads last a long time
it really does. :>

>doing these cuts felt like my stress floated away. i feel sad now though i dont really get it.
it did help you in the moment, but in the end it's just a temporay relief, i suppose. please be careful and take good care of yourself.

>hope everyone have a nice night
thank you and same to you. any plans for the rest of the night?

>>82089029
Pretty good. It was kinda before everyone had cellphones. We kept in contact over msn instant massanger for a while but less and less until not at all. We where pretty young.

>>82089200
>Pretty good. It was kinda before everyone had cellphones.
it was a simpler time.

>We kept in contact over msn instant massanger for a while but less and less until not at all.
i guess it happened back then just like it does today.

>We where pretty young.
at least you have some nice memories.

>>82089067
>but in the end it's just a temporay relief
usually lasts longer ig i have to cut more i just feel flat this time usually i like things again at least until i sleep fml i should kms

>>82089029
>so it's hard to stop myself sometimes.
maybe think of some nice movies or something you'd like to watch and make a list and just spend the weekend inside chilling and watching
>maybe it had something to do with that? i'll look it up.
idk but I didn't drink it right after waking up I had to drive up to uni and walk up to a store, it took a while
>they're like very boring pets,
like pet rocks!
>but i work alone for at least 1 hour and 30
oh :<
can think but avoided
>smaller and smaller amounts of time.
yep!

>>82088975
hey anon
>threads last a long time
they do sometimes ^^
>feel sad now thoug
maybe you felt so good for a while you lr brains sad you don't feel it anymore
but it'll probably pass, hang on
>hope everyone have a nice night
same to you !
thank you

>>82089545
>usually lasts longer ig i have to cut more i just feel flat this time
that's how it is with addictions. you have to do it more and more to get the some effect until you have to do it just to feel normal.

>i just feel flat this time
maybe it's a sign it's time to stop or at least reduce the amount of how often you cut?

>usually i like things again at least until i sleep
sleep doesn't sound like a bad idea rn, though.

>fml i should kms
i don't think you should.

>>82089665
>maybe think of some nice movies or something you'd like to watch and make a list and just spend the weekend inside chilling and watching
that's a nice idea. i hope i can think of something.

>I didn't drink it right after waking up I had to drive up to uni and walk up to a store, it took a while
hm. ok. it was just an idea i had. you better go and have yourself tested properly.

>like pet rocks!
yup. i've got a small lying around somewhere. i wonder where it went.

>oh :< can think but avoided
maybe it could be, but not like it currently is.

hallooo im a cis guy with bpd who only cuts like once a month nowadays (was 4 years sober at one point), am I allowed to post here or will I be pelted with rocks? just kinda want friends desu

>>82089891
>hope i can think of something
hmm I'm thinking about what you could watch
I'll give you some ideas
bladerunner 2048, trainspotting, the lighthouse, lord of the rings or maybe some ghibli movies
idk you feel like watching that but it's something
>you better go and have yourself tested properly.
yep
>lying around somewhere. i wonder where it went.
hehe^^
>but not like it currently is.
hope it changes and you don't get to overworked
do you think you could talk to boss about that?
btw how your evening going?

>>82089973
Hello anon
>cis guy
pretty much we all are,
>only cuts like once a month nowaday
good you do it so rarely
>allowed to post here or
oh course you can post here
how's your day going?

>>82090177
>bladerunner, trainspotting
you listed to of my favorite movies omg
>we are all cis men
oh wow I assumed just based on statistics that most of u would be cis or trans women!
>how has your day been
it has been okay, i am at work, im just a little lonely

>>82089973
hey anon! welcome to the thread!

>>82090177
>idk you feel like watching that but it's something
all good movies. at least the ones i know haven't seen trainspotting. at the moment i don't know if i can make myself watch anything that need engagement. i'm just in a really bad spot again. sorry. maybe it'll be different in a few days. at least i hope so.

>yep
i hope it'll shed some light on things. good luck. o7

>hehe^^
you laugh, but i actually have a small stone lying around that i misplace, forget about, remember and then search for. rinse and repeat. guess it's time to look for it again.

>do you think you could talk to boss about that?
i should do that. i don't know if i can endure it much longer.

>btw how your evening going?
not well. i'm constantly close to tears, feel queasy and dread going to work tomorrow. don't feel like sleeping either. not a good night so far.

>>82042374 (OP)
I really really want to hurt myself right now.

>>82090658
Nevermind, I cried really hard and now feel a bit better. No self-harm streak still intact. I'm going to bed.

>>82090334
>my favorite movies omg
they're good movies
you're a big movie guy?
>based on statistic
are there any about that?
I didn't know but it's also important to keep in mind that as a guy you don't want anyone irl ro know about it so that probably skews statistics
>am at work
how that going? do you like it?
>im just a little lonely
at least you have internet stranger to talk to

>>82090489
>>82090489
>maybe it'll be different in a few days. at least i hope so.
it's okay :>
>guess it's time to look for it again.
maybe it just keeps moving when you're not looking
rock are sneaky
>constantly close to tears, feel queasy
sounds bad
do you think maybe you could call in sick tomorrow?
>don't feel like sleeping
happens to me too but if you lay down sleep will snatch you and you won't even notice
maybe you could open the window and listen to the wind outside

>>82090658
hallo anon
why?
you shouldn't do that
maybe you could do something else like go on a walk or watch some movie?

>>82090693
>why?
Hi cat, I was just feeling really overwhelmed and sad and lonely. My whole life is a mess. I just wanted to feel something different I guess. I think I'm okay enough now. Just really tired. I'm good. Thank you for being here. I don't really have anyone to talk to but you always seem to respond. I appreciate you being here. You're a saint.

>>82090690
Goodnight anon, i hope you have a restful night of sleep. : )

>>82090769
Goodnight, anon. I'm headed to bed now. You guys are great here. Thanks for being nice.

slep time !

>>82090690
phew
glad that made you feel better
>going to bed.
sleep well!

>>82090743
hey^^
>whole life is a mess. I just wanted to
that's understandable, still sad though
It's weird how life can just all go wrong like that
>Thank you for being here. I don't really have anyone to talk to
you are welcome
at least the internet exist and you can talk with us although I know it's not the same
>You're a saint.
aw I'm not but thank you

>>82090690
sleep tight!

>maybe it just keeps moving when you're not looking rock are sneaky
true. it's also really smooth. that probably helps with the sneakyness.

>sounds bad do you think maybe you could call in sick tomorrow?
i'll see how i feel about it tomorrow. i should just try to get some sleep.

>happens to me too but if you lay down sleep will snatch you and you won't even notice maybe you could open the window and listen to the wind outside
sounds like a plan. :>

good night, everyone!

>>82090863
forgot to reply to you here >>82090871. good night!

>>82090871
>>82090883
sleep tight frendo

>>82083326
Just life I guess, more than just sad though, angry, stressed, unfulfilled. Seeing the blood makes me happy even if but for a moment.

sorry I'll reply tomorrow. just feel like everyone hates me rn, I'm a bad person

>>82091619
>sorry I'll reply tomorrow. just feel like everyone hates me rn, I'm a bad person
it's ok. we all get like that sometimes. just a reminder: we don't hate you. you're always welcome here and you're not a bad person. a bad person wouldn't help me keep up my routine, would they?

>>82091619
Why do you feel like you're a bad person gator?

>>82088292
Oldfag here, look into scar revision and/or skin grafts depending on how severe they are. If you're in America, most decent health insurances will cover it.

>>82091857
that's very kind of you yuanon. and thanks.

>>82091862
i just feel like i am don't know how to describe it. i just do nothing right

>>82092039
I'm sorry you're feeling that way gator, I haven't interacted with you much, but seeing how you post and engage with the general makes me happy, as you are always considerate of others. You seem like a pretty good person to me.

>>82092106
I'm glad it can make you happy, your very kind as well
thanks i always try to be nice to people. im just quite awful in a lot of other ways

>>82092304
Such as what other ways?