Thread 82145642

>25 years old
>$500k/year
>I want to blow my brains out
What the fuck would you do in my situation? Two hookers at the same time and snort a fuckton of cocaine?

Nice larp, try again with someone who believes you.

>>82145642 (OP)
i would be a kind soul and donate some money to poorfag anons so i can feel like i did a good deed

>>82145642 (OP)
seek help

go to doctor and talk to them about your depression

>>82145642 (OP)
Post blacked out pay stub.
You can afford to get a quality therapist

>>82145642 (OP)
If it were me, I would quit, put everything into some safe etf, live off the interest in SEA as a NEET, probably dating a new girl every month

>>82145642 (OP)
Get a less stressful job

>>82145642 (OP)
Set aside like a solid chunk of money
Donate to people
Pay someone to be your personal friend

When did 4chan update their stupid fucking captcha, it takes forever to post now. I'm going to reply to everyone because of this stupid fucking captcha. And what the fuck is this stupid fucking spam bot check

>82145655
>82145752
I donate to charity sometimes. It makes me feel good for 5 minutes afterwards and whenever they spam me with emails saying "thank you, please donate more." I never donate a second time

>82145658
>82145726
I see a therapist. Talking to her makes me feel better, but I'm still lonely as hell. The payment is heavy in equity/bonuses,and it's so easy to fake I'm not even going to bother. My salaried takehome is six figures but significantly less. I work in tech/finance

>82145739
I have like $250k in savings. I just started my career so I don't have much saved. I could probably live in SEA doing fuckall though

>82145748
I have thought about quitting everyday. But then I ask, what the hell else would I do? I've done NEET-hood before and it's not fun. It's humiliating, yes you're free to do as you like, but my pride couldn't take it

>>82145772
>5726
>I see a therapist
Then quit your bitching. Figure out a way to convince yourself that everything is alright. What are you doing about the loneliness? Do you have hobbies? Do you fuck hookers? Do you take vacations to places or do you have normie friends you hang out with?
I have worked in low paying, shit tier, crappy jobs and have never made more than 40k a year. We're robots so we might share some of the same problems but dude, I would kill to be in your shoes. If you're not trolling, 500k a year would change my life. I would at least have a chance to make a dent in my problems because money wouldn't be an issue. Money is 80 percent of your problems when you have none.

>>82145642 (OP)
Don't know what to tell you. Maybe do a hiatus your job and go somewhere nice for a while to decompress, you know. Surely you have the money to do so.

>>82145642 (OP)
500k? What the fuck kind of job gives that kind of cash? Thats way too much for one person.

sounds like what you need is genuine friendship
what i need about 10k

>>82145642 (OP)
do you feel like ur lacking something that would make you happy
or are you inherently unhappy

>>82145830
>What are you doing about the loneliness? Do you have hobbies? Do you fuck hookers? Do you take vacations to places or do you have normie friends you hang out with?
I hangout with coworkers, but I always put the normie mask on. I don't connect with other people at all. They seem to enjoy my company, but I don't seem to want to reach out at all, probably because talking to other people is essentially... work. I don't find hobbies or vidya interesting anymore unfortunately. I just feel dull about life and my mind numbs out whenever I play mobile games or watch short-form video content.

I am making a lot of excuses. I really should just go for a run and like, eat healthy, or some shit. Sleep well. I don't know. I really just don't have genuine connection with other human beings.

>>82145847
Vacationing alone is the saddest thing I've done. I drove to a nearby beach and just stared at the waves for like an hour. Then I went to a museum. Didn't really read or care much for it.

>>82145921
I gravitate towards misery when left unchecked. I envy people who are happy with little. Strong relationships are really the strongest indicator of happiness, and frankly, money doesn't buy that.

>>82146033
I don't mean to be entirely dismissive of your situation because it is a problem to you and clearly money doesn't solve your problems. Just for persepctive's sake, having those means can make it easier for you to help yourself. I don't know what to say other than get a better therapist. Get a proper diagnosis for your feelings of dullness or lack of connection with other people. Get on some medication. You want to connect but find that you can't. You're dissatisfied and feeling empty or blue. Use some of that money to speak to a proper psychiatrist or doctor. Unironically use reddit for some suggestions. I don't fucking know. You made a thread as a way of reaching out and maybe getting some direction. Get a pet dog or cat. Desire is never satisfied

I would sexpat through SEA like a motherfucker. I would have SEA monkeys fly to my city, fuck them and then send them back. Maybe this is why God made me poor and dumb
Also whats your job

>>82145642 (OP)
Join a local autistic hobby group if you don't want to deal with normies and need to socialize. DnD, Warhammer, anything to do with models etc.

>>82145642 (OP)
Can you send me $1000 nigga

Bless a nigga with $500

>>82146171
This OP. Be da realest nigga in the hood and bless a nigga with a couple hunnid

>>82146098
Thanks for the advice. I get that it's really all the words in my head. I've tried to stop thinking, but it genuinely does not help the feelings and numbness go away. I'll probably look into getting a dog next. I'm allergic, but it's getting really lonely.

>>82146151
I don't autist like that anymore unfortunately. Maybe for Danganronpa I would, but that was years ago.

>>82146171
>>82146179
It's all illiquid in cryptocurrency lil nigga, I'll be a lonely lil bitch uncle who's never touched a woman, but by God I'm gonna be fucking rich

>>82145642 (OP)
I would get a few million dollars, quit, live off passive income, and never work again. Generally I would live very frugally, but I would spend whatever it would cost to eat fresh raw animal products from healthy animals every day so that I feel as good as possible all the time. Mostly livers, brains, hearts, blood, bone marrow and fat trimmings from land animals along with oysters and swordfish. The only other "big" expense would be high end computer hardware every 3-6 years and some instruments. I don't need or want cooking appliances, cleaning products, decorations, furniture, or a spacious place to live. I would keep a freezer and refrigerator, but I would very rarely make use of the freezer. I would either live in the midwest or move to a better country

>>82146198
You're not retarded, you have the charlie sheen disease. Your mind is firing on all cylinders and it can be a bitch. I suggest you listen to music, indulge in some comedy specials. You could get a pet cat or some other animal that acts like a pet. A bird even.

>>82146198
Can a nigga borrow a dollar

>>82145642 (OP)
I know you aren't earning 500k consistantly at 25. What a fucking larp and it is sad that most retard faggots believe you. I am 24 and earning 120k salary, and that is about as good as it gets for this age.

>>82146204
For some time I tried to prioritize beef liver and high fiber foods. Lard is a great alternative to the shit oils they sell in store. I like using my money to buy a special extra virgin olive oil. I even tried Bryan Johnson's blueprint shit and take the pills to optimize my health

Honestly, just waiting for retirement and that would be interesting. But I seriously don't have any social connections, so it doesn't matter really.

>>82146251
A bird sounds nice. Actually, no, they smell really bad. Maybe I'll get a turtle or something. Or a fish. Fuck

>>82146256
how is a nigga supposed to borrow a fry

Yeah, why not? I'd definitely want to fuck two hookers at once with coke.

>>82146277
you'd be correct, a lot of it is equity/bonuses. It's not consistent, and my salary is closer to yours

>>82146277
Do you niggas have degrees or something? I'm hella tired of being broke. I would literally unalive someone but only if they have bad karma. How do I make bread and get my money up?
>>82146280
You can do other things besides a pet. Maybe get into the arts or go hunting. Get a journal and start confessing in your journal or just analyzing your dreams.

>>82146326
>How do I make bread and get my money up?
Help people with money, and they will give you money. Be nice and polite to people, and focus on how you can serve their needs and interests. Demonstrate competence and confidence, and a willingness to listen and learn. Be generally pleasant to be around (smile!) Learn how to sell, whether it's selling professional skills (degree) or selling a product online, a lot of making money is convincing other people they should give you money. (Don't be a Jew and just Jew people out of money, actually HELP people and want to help people.)

>know what people want
>convince them you can deliver that
>deliver
The world is your oyster if you can do that.

>You can do other things besides a pet. Maybe get into the arts or go hunting. Get a journal and start confessing in your journal or just analyzing your dreams.
I keep a personal blog where I complain. Re-reading the entries help, but maybe picking up art again would help? I don't know, I still feel kind of empty of it all.

>>82146378
Do you usually feel empty? If you didn't feel empty, would it make being unable to connect more tolerable?
You could have depression, you could be burned out, you could be depressed because you are unable to connect which brings about feelings of emptiness and it is a vicious cycle. It could be an existential thing going on where you're unsure and want "meaning", either in the broader sense or to get some enjoyment out of life in the day to day sense.
Shit man, I don't have the answers. I'm asking how to not be broke on r9k and you're asking how to not feel the way you do and how to deal with it.
Such is life. We all have our own problems

>>82146308
>a lot of it is equity/bonuses
you are telling me that you get 350k in stocks and bonuses? what the hell company do you work for? NVIDIA? I want to believe you but that is an insane number. Most CEOs don't even make that much.
>>82146326
Yes I have my MSN, was a nursoid now am an NP.
>How do I make bread and get my money up?
dedicate your life to the grind. Either get smart and get a worthwhile degree (JD, MD, PA, Optometry, NP, engineering, Accountant, Architect, sometimes MBA) or get connections. Or start a business that works. Invest in the right places.

Why the fuck is 4chan making me wait 120 seconds before every single post? fuck this shit i'm out

>>82146413
>I'm asking how to not be broke on r9k
Location and environment matters too. I'm in the USA in a high cost of living area, so it's easier to make a lot of money. Luck helps a lot.

Where you are, perhaps can you mow lawns? Figure out how to help people deal with annoying paperwork? Do you work a job? Are you actively trying to make your manager's life easier by showing up and taking responsibility?

Who you know helps you make money in ways that are hard to imagine. Surround yourself with people who want to make money, and you'll find the desire to make money come alive inside you and feel pressured to push for more. You are who you surround yourself with, and if you surround yourself with people who get rich off of helping people, you will find yourself getting rich by helping people

>Do you usually feel empty? If you didn't feel empty, would it make being unable to connect more tolerable?
Yes, I've felt empty most of my life. I've been coming back this shithole for >8 years

>It could be an existential thing going on where you're unsure and want "meaning", either in the broader sense or to get some enjoyment out of life in the day to day sense.
Pretty much

>Such is life. We all have our own problems
Indeed. I honestly don't know what to do. I thought this job and the money would give me meaning. I thought the prestige would solve my life's problems, but it's just delayed it. I need another goal, another number to just chase after

>>82146459
tech/finance. I got really lucky w/ equity/bonuses. I should be sitting at around 150k-250k salary right now.

>>82146459
>Dedicate yourself to the grind
The mind isn't willing and the flesh is weak
>Why is the captcha taking so long?
4chan is gay now. It has just been downhill ever since moot left. It is standard for everyone new without a pass

I want a lot of money to pay off my debts and give away better gifts than shitty fivers but whenever a rich guy comes here he's always boring and miserable. I'll just keep playing the lotto and hope life glitches then

>>82146495
I'm lazy so I can't say it is a mystery. You get tired of the grind when it keeps you broke.
The spirit isn't willing and the flesh is weak desu.
If you've perpetually felt empty for about a decade, then it sounds like a mental condition. Actual, genuine, clinical depression and not the standard depression of life disappointment and wagie living. If you feel the need to mask, there is a bit of dissonance and exhaustion of playing a role, constantly.
Maybe ask yourself questions we can't ask for you because we don't know you and bring that up in your next session.
Disillusionment is a bitch.

>>82146516
I know right? When I was younger I was a d/ic/k and wanted to be a mangaka. I practiced drawing for like 7 hours a day and did danganronpa roleplay in random discord servers and dream about owning a cafe like in YKK.

Now I'm some white-collar boring professional with nothing interesting going in my life. Well, everything goes to my job, and I have to maintain reputation in my coworker friend group so none of that quirky stuff comes out. I have a milquetoast appropriate corpo humor that makes me want to gouge my eyes out, but it's ok, I just need to be pleasant.

>>82146459
Was np worth the trouble? I knew one who basically walked off the graduation stage into a comfy physicians group, but some seem to struggle finding work or wind up at Walgreens writing antibiotics for viral infections all day. I kind of hate being in the hospital but at the same time I would hate being in a clinic even more.

>>82145642 (OP)
If I made 500k I would work for like 3 years and retire

>>82146566
Nta. So white collar existence is one big larp? Kill me, kill me now. Hurry. Do it.

>>82146503
>The mind isn't willing and the flesh is weak
The only other thing I can think of is maybe join the military, become a pilot, after your contract use your military pilot training to go commercial. Or stay for 22+ years, rise the ranks and get a pension.

Honestly theres like an infinite amount of ways to get rich it is just most people fail because there is also an infinite amount of ways to fuck up or go down the wrong path. You could always become an inventor and just patent a bunch of shit until you finally make something that people want to buy

>>82146563
Probably why I cannot sincerely connect with people who genuinely care for me. I have no idea. I do not care for them as much as they care for me, and it kind of sickens me. Perhaps I am really sick in the head

>>82146601
You eliminate the edge and angst and jagged edges just to get along and be pleasant around your coworkers. And, honestly, your coworkers will appreciate you more for it. Like I mentioned before, the more adaptable and useful you are to your environment, the more it'll reward you.

It's not the end of the world really. Being milquetoast pleasant isn't bad, and I'm certainly more stable than I was during my LARPing days.

>>82146566
lmao anon you sound like patrick bateman
>>82146567
I am a PMHNP in a rural, low cost of living area. I only worked in a hospital as a nurse but I did precept as an NP in both the hospital and outpatient. I can tell you with certainty outpatient is 10000x better. There are some jobs in the area that pay around 200k but you have to see like 30 patients a day while I only ever see 5-10 a day in my practice. I am thinking about moving to telehealth where you can make a shitton more but I really like my job. However, I do not get a bonus and there is no 401k match at my practice.
>Was np worth the trouble?
hell yes.

All that money to do anything meanwhile I am near broke and have so much goals and ambition. Fuck.

>>82146675
Patrick Bateman is a sick sod of a human being. Publicly I would deny relating to him in any way, because it's fucking edgy as fuck to say you're so SIGMA like PATRICK BATEMAN! Like grow-up and just do your fucking job. But his emptiness is so fucking relatable, and the mask is just so fucking real, I know all the correct and PC answers to any and all questions and to say the right thing without doing the right thing and giving an actual fuck about it. I will feed a cat into an ATM one of these days

>$120k LCOL
your quality of life is probably just as good as mine

>>82146669
Unless you're habitually scheming and coming up with new ways to kill, destroy, and inflict pain, you're not sick in that sense. In spite of our ability to be rational and reasonable, not everything is borne from a rational or reasonable place. The universe is inherently chaotic. At least you're aware enough to be able to catch it and observe it. You need to rub your wang on a pop tart or toaster strudel while listening to michael buble's greatest hits and lather honey all over your body, maybe get freaky and pour hot wax from a candle on your chest. You know? Just one of those things to relax and let go of stress

>>82146742
>You need to rub your wang on a pop tart or toaster strudel while listening to michael buble's greatest hits and lather honey all over your body, maybe get freaky and pour hot wax from a candle on your chest. You know? Just one of those things to relax and let go of stress
my pp got a little bigger from this description, can you write more?

>>82146741
Well you may be right, but either way you make way more money than I do and have much more in savings. If I were in your shoes I would be buying real estate and start renting out, selling property, doing airbnb, and hopefully be good enough at it to quit the grind and live off the real estate

>>82146879
>If I were in your shoes I would be buying real estate and start renting out, selling property, doing airbnb, and hopefully be good enough at it to quit the grind and live off the real estate
I started eating up properties in the midwest, but I started hitting depression mode and cannot fill out paperwork...

>>82146894
>started hitting depression mode and cannot fill out paperwork
You ever tried CBT? Antidepressants? Shrooms? Vitamin D? There are so many ways to manage and to get out of depression.

>>82146925
cock and ball torture? no my therapist said I was too self-aware for that shit. I know the words I'm telling myself aren't helping me. She's told me to show myself empathy and understanding and not harrass myself so much about my personal shortcomings.

>Shrooms
where do I get some, I kind of want to go on a trip one weekend just to figure things out. I take a Vitamin D supplement as well as tr y to get sunlight. But really I think the issue is genuine human connection and not the facade I go and do everywhere. Imageboards and my blog diary (desu) are literally the only places I have zero filter and make a connection

>>82146957
The safe advice: you should probably look into getting on an antidepressant.

The shrooms advice: the true psychiatry black pill is shrooms. Ironically I live in an area where it is highly illegal, but I use them myself for my own depression and OCD. Ideally, you want to get the real stuff- psilocybin - which binds to serotonin. In some places it is legal, but most places it is not. You can grow them yourself, but this takes a long time. You can also forage them or buy them from someone. I usually just buy them but I have also foraged them and grown them before, which the latter two are suprisingly perfectly legal in most places. There is also the fully legal shrooms that you get from most vape shops (muscimol). These shrooms bind to GABA instead of serotonin and they REALLY help with setting your sleep schedule on track. Muscimol definitely helps with depression too but I imagine not as much as psilocybin which binds to serotonin.

The lazy advice: go to the local drug store and get some 5-HTP or Ashwaghanda. Take it every day for a couple months and it is basically the same as an antidepressant

>>82146675
Sounds pretty comfy, it's fnps that seem to get the short end of the stick. I'll have to look into psych more.

>>82147076
Also, do not take shrooms if schizophrenia runs in the family. Would not be a good idea for obvious reasons.

>>82145642 (OP)
Larping Nigger

send me $500 so I can buy a hooker and mcdonalds

>>82147076
>>82147087
Schizophrenia does run in the family. I will avoid shrooms then. I've looked into Ashwaghanda but I read if taken daily the effects wear off after a while, and they also affect testosterone levels. Guess beggars can't be choosers though.

>>82146957
honestly if you can see right through CBT, shrooms and psychedelics aren't going to do shit. It's certainly a nice novel experience, but it didn't do jack shit to fix my stubborn depression in the end. I've tried microdosing and different cultivars to no avail.

I've exhausted most of my options, I've tried every meme supplement and have been through the gauntlet of SSRIs and atypical antidepressants, but I'm holding out hope on MAOIs. I suffer from pretty similar issues socially, stimulants can make talking to people easier but nothing will fix how superficial it all is.

Hiking, drawing, or intense activities that require the full attention of your brain and body might be helpful to break up the monotony. I wish you luck anon.

>>82147118
I got my brother-in law to start taking some 5-HTP and he sees massive results. He started off at 200mg for a couple weeks and has been taking 300mg every day since. If you are worried about side effects he has reported none to me.

>>82147138
Have you tried any SNRIs like cymbalta or effexor? What about ketamine infusions? I would try both of those before MAOIs. I would maybe even try ECT before an MAOI

send me 500 bucks in ether if you are so rich, nikka needs a new phone ifywim

>>82145642 (OP)
>$500k/year
What's your job, anon?

>>82146925
Vitamin D is completely irrelevant to depression.
Light therapy only works with genuine sunlight because you need uva radiation. As much as dermatologists hate it, but we literally evolved to live under it. It activates our immune system instantly increasing a variety of neurotransmitters and even literally aiding in healing wounds.
Vitamin D is just osteoporosis management.

It seems that your main issue is lack of connection. I can relate. Do you mayhaps have autism? Shameful to admit but weed helps me greatly. It literally made it easier for me to talk even when I'm not high. I what I figured out, you can only connect with someone if you express yourself. Which comes with a risk of bullying and such, but unless you say out loud what's on your mind no one will will ever hear or see for who you are. And as such if no one relates to you, how can they connect? It's a two side thing.