>>82146957
honestly if you can see right through CBT, shrooms and psychedelics aren't going to do shit. It's certainly a nice novel experience, but it didn't do jack shit to fix my stubborn depression in the end. I've tried microdosing and different cultivars to no avail.
I've exhausted most of my options, I've tried every meme supplement and have been through the gauntlet of SSRIs and atypical antidepressants, but I'm holding out hope on MAOIs. I suffer from pretty similar issues socially, stimulants can make talking to people easier but nothing will fix how superficial it all is.
Hiking, drawing, or intense activities that require the full attention of your brain and body might be helpful to break up the monotony. I wish you luck anon.