Thread 82168210

psychonautwiki
erowid
tripsit
bluelight
etc

how the hell has there not been a thread for so long, you fuckers all OD or some shit?

Drugs are retarded don't do them.

>>82168212
thank you this changed my life im never doing drugs again god bless

i fucking took more kpins and passed out AGAIN
FUCK ME FUCK MY LIFE I SLEPT THROUGH THE HIGH I HAD BEEN WAITING FOR FOR A FUCKING WEEK

whats the gayest drug

>>82168420
easily poppers, meth gets second place

worst people at the blunt rotation
>nonverbal doomscroller
>voiceline spammer
>political nigga
who else am i missing

>>82168210 (OP)
im high give me some cool things to look at plz

>>82168545
>political nigga
most based in the rotation, anyone not engaged in politics is a retarded brainless sheep like npc

>>82168545
people that don't read the vibe and aggressively force their shit music into the queue

>>82168965
so much this bro, everyone needs to be reminded of the crimes of the jew every ten seconds when we are trying to chill and have some laughs

How do I find a sleazy doctor to prescribe me some codeine or oxycodone (florida)

>>82169060
just go grab it on the street

>>82168210 (OP)
there was a thread that dies ~4hrs ago
sorry for not bumping i was playing the walking dead
god damn that ending hurts, but i cant even cry anymore
at least i have my benzos to keep me company

just came off of a weekend bender after losing my best friend and swore to get sober; here i am about to finish of a bottle of bottom-shelf whiskey. lonely and miserable, the only consistent relationship i've had in my life is drugs. based!!!!!!

doing mescaline for the first time in a couple weeks. Im very experienced with other psys but never gotten my hands on mescaline before. any mescaline stories?

drugs are just not good bros

>>82170017
stupid little faggot

>come into drug general
>say that drugs are bad mkay
why is there suddenly an influx of retards in these threads like this
>>82169979
i'm sorry for your loss anon

>>82170024
you're NOT gonna make it!

>>82170049
because you're meant to grow out of drugs when you get older. nobody new comes to these threads, it's all the same people

>>82170049
thank you anon, means a lot
>>82170050
so true, thank you for giving me a genuine laugh; the best i can hope for is a peaceful overdose/cardiac arrest

>>82170063
quite a few people are addicts/use drugs to cope, quite a few just don't grow up, but newfags are somewhat common.
>its all the same people
i would argue that that's a boardwide or even sitewide problem, not something isolated to just this/other general threads

Kek yall still taking drugs like little kids grow up already

>>82170084
you are literally such a retarded faggot lol

>>82169060
Just buy online like everyone else. It's cheaper and safer.

>>82170084
It's stupid to do drugs when you're young and your brain is undeveloped.
I discovered most drugs in my late twenties and have been doing them in a very sustainable way, without abuse or danger.

Will weed (after peak) help me fall asleep after acid or no?

>>82170619
>Will weed (after peak) help me fall asleep after acid or no?
no

>>82170657
Sad. I hate that shit, last time I did acid at 5:30am and only was able to fall asleep after 1am next day.

>>82170017
That statement is just not universally true. Drugs help plenty of people achieve great things that they wouldn't be able to achieve otherwise.

>>82170859
Nope, only thing drugs do is worsen a person. Think about it. Drugs don't change your brain, whatever drugs do in your brain is already something your brain is capable of doing itself but biologically chooses not to. Sober is literally the ideal mental formed through millions of years of evolution. Anything else is delusion.

>>82171054
Yeah you're not very educated on the topic.

>>82169979
>the only consistent relationship i've had in my life
When you develop a relationship with a drug, you fucked up.

>>82170619
>Will weed (after peak) help me fall asleep after acid
No, it'll make the trip more intense.

Bud smokers only reefer
Well it makes you happy dont it ?

>>82168212
Kys fag boi

https://youtu.be/MSssG1C_y04?si=awJZsPbjyzREy--N

>>82168441
>meth gets second place
Hey, I use meth relatively reponsibly and you're making me question my life's decisions.

I need a good source for poppy seeds, to make PST. Poppy Seed Tea, seems like there are no reliable online vendors anymore. Pls help.

i want to trip now but i have an appointment later and i don't want to make my doctor mad because he'll know if i took anything. so now im just sitting here, high off of boredom and video games. i swear i'm not addicted
>>82168212 true

Sniffing cocaine at home. Going out to meet a friend later. Gonna be wired as fuck

>>82172846
Damn, bad old vibes

>Want to get Adderal for my adhd
>Only route is either dark web or doing testing which cuts into my job hours and costs 3k


I need a new doctor.

Anyone try al-lad? From what I see its acid with less of a headspace

>>82173245
>i'm a junkie

About to do a QWISO on about half a year's worth of vaped cannabis since I heard about it a couple threads ago.

>>82173245
what's wrong with darknet? ig adderal is a bit pricey if you're committed to pharma grade

>>82173245
i have adhd and wasn't prescribed any either, was told to 'work with my adhd' or something and that was that
i don't think i need it though i get distracted constantly, but i must admit i AM curious how diet meth feels

nearly killed myself with tapentadol and codeine today
I wonder how many brain cells I lost while being passed out for 14 hours

>>82173971
Please be safe, anon.

>>82173971
>being passed out for 14 hours
That must've felt so amazing, I remember when I conked out on an oxy megadose.

i am NOT sleeping through my high today
so help me god i will flip the fuck out if i miss it again

>>82173865
i'm a paranoid baby and im deathly afraid of fucking up and getting caught

>>82172267
seen far too many stories of niggas turning zesty as hell off the meth

>>82169995
What kind of mesc and what dose?

What happens when you smoke meth while already gay? do you become gay squared? or does the homosexuality cancel itself out and you become straight?

>>82175498
its more that it can make you willing to fuck literally anything, so gays are just having more gay sex while "straight" dudes start exploring other options

>>82175617
Soooo, gay squared.
I thought I was on to discovering the most fun version of conversion therapy.

>>82175333
Hope it won't happen to me.

Survived 2 weeks of Lyrica withdrawals, but finally got some more. Two 150mg pill made me feel so warm and cozy. I think I think I am going to have to order more from the internets. I love this drug.

>>82176581
How long/how much were you taking it for to be in withdrawals for 2 weeks?

I made a thread about this but i suppose hwre would be a good place to ask too.
Ive been seeing a lot of ads for at home ketamine "therapy" for depression and anxiety and such. Has anyone tries this? Im interested in just getting some ketamine but dont really care about the therapy part. Are you required to speak with doctors or can you just cancel after you recieve your drugs? Is this supposed to be actual therapy or just a thinly veiled drug dealing ring?

>>82176963
from what ive seen its unbelievably expensive to try to get legal K this way.

>>82176980
The prices listed on the site dont seem bad, unless thats per dose and not for a whole box. Also im socially retarded and dont know anybody irl who can get stuff.

>>82170619
Lmao no, try some phenibut next time.
It's long acting just like the acid, lowers the body load about and just makes the trip a little less anxious

im going to fucking kill myself this is the second time ive slept through my fucking high jesus fucking christ WHAT A FUCKING WASTE FUUUUCCCKKK

How different is the high from a dry herb vape compared to a joint?

>>82176904
Prescribed 300mg a day but I took 600mg+ for a few months

>>82177603
much smoother, like hitting the penjamin but flower. also it doesnt make my mouth dry as fuck and tastes better if you care about that

Good day for me bros, Stole adderall 5s from my little cousin, sniffing them while playing battlefield 1
> I realize why the Nazis used meth during attacks now cause it works

>>82178016
have you noticed any improvements in your aim/kdr?

This pregabalin is hitting hard. I'm not getting anything done this afternoon lmao.

>>82173870
>>82173245
ADHD isn't real you have a natural dopamine tolerance caused by overstimulating lifestyle.

>>82175680
The most effective conversion therapies happened on LSD studies.
You can still find the studies, a huge amount of subjects were cured of their homosexual tendencies.

>>82176581
Keep in mind that pregabalin abuse causes definitive cognitive and memory issues.
Don't become a forgetful retard.

>>82168210 (OP)
>vendors have 2 WEEKS to ship
>mentioned absolutely nowhere until order is accepted
meme market

>>82179635
They are usually a lot faster than that, they want the good reviews.
They're also used to addicts that need it fast.

>listening to bladee
>smoking weed
>rewatching haibane renmei
Dillan, I wonder if we would've worked out if we met at this point of my life? You were my first so it's not worth thinking about anyway. Back then any guy who was remotely nice to me was the love of my life but now I'm guarded and I feel alone. I don't know if I'm lonely anymore.
Now im manic at home typing on 4chan for all the feds to hear.
I'm tired of being depressed I'm trying to let go of it
no more. I dont want it. I dont want my ego.
now I understand that the only way to escape the ego is to face it head on and embrace it with kindness.

>>82179871
where is this anon

>>82179983
>bladee
>haibane
>weed
>trying to not be depressed
sure dud

>>82173245
I tried to get diagnosed with ADHD last year and my doctor told me I likely didn't have it. Sucked, hard. Then a few months ago I was talking with some chick at a bar and she told me she sold adderall so I bought some off her. Used it and goddamn is it so good. There's no indecision when on it, no downtime between getting tasks done when normally it could be minutes or even hours between doing things, or sometimes I just don't even try.

Got a regular hook up now which is nice, but still too expensive for regular consumption. Really hope I can try and get diagnosed again soon.

>>82180221
Getting closer. Soon at your front door.

>>82180275
Of course you don't have ADHD, it's not real.
If you want cheap amphetamines buy some online like everyone else.

>>82180347
come say hi me and all the other officers are waiting

>>82179091
Some people have a naturally higher "dopamine tolerance" and for them the need to be overstimulated is more the symptom than the cause of ADHD. Also, the general lack of catecholamines, not only dopamine, is what causes ADHD, which is why sNRIs are often used to treat the symptoms.

>>82180274
>things depressed people to not be depressed
>ehrm akshxually ur not trying to be happy
watch it, maybe you'll learn something
also bladee's message is important in a healing journey

I think years of benzo abuse made me narcoleptic I sleep 12 hours per day and I'm not even taking anything anymore

>>82180378
Humans are not the same and some don't react the same, we all know that's the case with drugs for example.
Still, I've never met an "ADHD" guy that wasn't cured after a few weeks without phone, screen, or any other high stimulation activity or device.

The stimulants just made me depressed today

>>82168230
thoughts on the fat pile of kratom?

>>82181096
Which stimulant?

>>82173870
>but i must admit i AM curious how diet meth feels
Brain slows down and the smaller things start becoming noticeable. Distractions (both figuratively and literately) get quieter.
But you gotta do something in the first place. They won't cure your gaming or doomscrolling addiction.
If you want them to help you learn something for example you at least need the will power to do it a little without the pills. Then they start acting really nice.
If you don't, i guess staring at walls is fun too.

lol psychonaut getting ddosed because the admins are tranny faggots

>>82181326
deserved, honeypot website anyways

>>82181331
How would a mere wiki website would act as a honeypot you retard? No one cares that you do drugs.

I want to go back to taking Ritalin but my psychiatrist won't prescribe it, fuck me

>>82181876
Why did he stop prescribing it to you?

>>82181917
Apparently taking Ritalin + Escitalopram + Clonazepam has some bad side effects, so he replaced Ritalin for Bupropion

>>82181979
Why would he get you this sit ass cocktail in the first place? To my knowledge you don't get stims when you are depressed enough because they might help you pull bad things through to the end. Escitalopram for me at lest also did exactly the opposite that ritalin does. Very stupid to take them together in my opinion. What sort of side effects did you have?

>>82182007
I'm suffering from major depression and anxiety, my treatment with Escitalopram + Bupropion has been working good so far, but my ADHD stays the same. Clonazepam has been great for anxiety attacks.
>What sort of side effects did you have?
Sexual side effects mostly, but currently it ain't that bad.

>>82181876
I was going to say that you can just order your methylphenidate online like everyone else but judging by your other posts:
>>82181979
>>82182031
You're some kind of faggot that's too stupid to live, so I don't expect you to take care of things and order something online instead of begging a man to allow you to buy it.

>>82182031
>Sexual side effects mostly, but currently it ain't that bad.
as in more or less libido? Erectile dysfunction?
And those were caused by Ritalin?

>>82182044
I will eventually order from somewhere else without precription, I have my ways but whatever

>>82182057
Delayed orgasm and a moderate hit on my libido.
>And those were caused by Ritalin?
No, from Escitalopram.

>>82182070
>No, from Escitalopram.
So why'd he stop giving you ritalin then?
I was not causing the issues as you say.

>>82182082
He said taking Clonazepam while on treatment with Ritalin can be a bit dangerous, but I know very little about drugs, so I just took his word for it. I dunno, he's the doctor.

>>82182106
Are these new drugs helping you get better? I don't mean not just feeling like you want to kys but crawl out of the hole and not need them some time in the future?
I had a very different experience and went another route to get better hence im asking.

>>82182136
well not just not
- and - are +
you get what i mean

>>82173733
never doing that again, I forgot how much I hate dealing with sticky substances holy shit.

Encourage me to snort a line of 4-ho-met, lay in my bed, and close my eyes.

>venture out into wider r9k and even Reddit on a long commute
>sad incels
>sad whores
>sad fatties
>sad proanas
>sad coomers
>sad NEETS
>sad workaholics
>angry nofappers
...yeah nah dr00gs are definitely not a "healthy" coping mechanism but Jesus Christ it's head shoulders and nipples above the VAST majority of the competition.

>>82182334
Nope, I'd rather be sad but in reality than some delusional addict hiding in drug-induced fake contentment

>psychonaut currently ddosed
>can't get to the page regarding safe practices so i can ensure i don't get permanent brain damage or psychosis from the dumb shit i decide i want to take
great target, glowclowns

>>82182318
Snort some and listen to Ott

>>82182422
What're ya thinking about taking? At least erowid has subjective reports that can be useful to consider.

>>82168210 (OP)
I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital on July 9th for medication abuse and was released today. I had taken 30mg of zolpidem and went out with my mother to see a psychiatrist, but the doctor realized I was high, so she referred me to the hospital where I was admitted (I didn't know I would be admitted; if I had known, I wouldn't have gone there). Taking 30mg of zolpidem was a curious experience. I lost half my memory, I couldn't remember the route to the psychiatrist's appointment, and my mother said I was dizzy. I'd previously taken 50mg of zolpidem and had hallucinations. I've taken several medications for recreational use: clonazepam, bromazepam, alprazolam, pregabalin, codeine, and others that were used for treatment purposes. My parents and I agreed that I would only use medications prescribed by the doctor. I am using olanzapine, lithium and lorazepam as my doctor prescribed them.

Man the cashier was rude as hell to me this morning, probably because I bought three types of alcohol. She was friendly, returned my hello with a smile, but as soon as she scanned them she got extremely pissed and short with me. She told me goodbye have a good day before I even inserted my card.. I stood there waiting for my receipt and she handed it to me wordlessly. Grim wonder if she had an alcoholic family member or someone she knows got hurt by a drunk driver. Really weirded me out but whatever. I didn't do a damn thing wrong.

>>82182318
Update: decided to take some LSD, but had to also take benzos because anxiety was bad. Took about 0.1mg LSD though. No visuals but my thoughts are tripping if that makes sense

>>82179110
How much do you have to do before that happens? Are you talking about people who do grams a day for 6 months, or even someone who does like 600mg sporadically?

>>82180356
>>82179091
low iq posting is wild

I don't really know how much gabapentin you're supposed to take thats enough to get you high but not enough to feel like my guts are being put through the meat grinder I kind of just take 500 mg every 30 minutes until I start to lose the plot but I feel like I'm overdoing it because I feel ill days or even weeks later every time, any advice? I wanna get my hands on lyrica or benzos but til then yk

Need to score smack in Hessen Germany. Ideally Fulda

I challenge /drugfeel/ to name 3 fun drugs to use.
Rules: benzos, opioids, lyrica, DXM, ketamine, cocaine, marijuana, St. John's wort, poppy seed tea, LSD, and mushrooms.

I challenge /drugfeel/ to name three drugs that are fun to use.
Rules: NOT VALID: benzodiazepines, opioids, lyrica, DXM, ketamine, cocaine, marijuana, St. John's wort, poppy seed tea, LSD, and mushrooms.

>>82184489
>>82184516
embarrassing...
and easy to answer to: gabapentin, mxe and amphetamine
could go on but won't
p.s. poppy seed tea is an opioid

>>82182668
>I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital [...] for medication abuse
thats fucking horrifying i cant even imagine being kidnapped by white coats for doing drugs jfc im so sorry anon

>>82184516
salvia, amanita muscaria, datura
meth, pcp, pyros
ether, nitrous, gbl
plenty of silly combos to try

>>82184516
>name three fun drugs
>invalidates a whole list of drugs that a fun as fuck
OP is retarded but also
mescaline, nitrous, alcohol

>>82184516
How the fuck am I supposed to give you a list if you invalidate every drug beforehand?
I'll can work with this tho.
>2cb
>MDMA
>Phenibut

>>82183763
>how much gabapentin you're supposed to take
Referencing the following will likely be sufficient:
https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Gabapentin
https://www.erowid.org/experiences/subs/exp_Pharms_Gabapentin.shtml

Sniffing cocaine in my room while my parents have just gone to bed and are in the room next door

>>82183763
you're wasting your gabapentin to a degree
300mg every 30 mins max and even that might be a bit too much, you can't properly absorb high doses of gabapentin instantly, you have to stagger the doses and even 500mg is enough to waste a large portion of it
don't know what to say about feeling ill afterwards because that never happened to me and instead i got an afterglow and felt great for a few days after a day of using
pregab is superior sure but gabapentin did the job just fine for me
also keep this:
>>82185316
>The bioavailability of gabapentin is relatively low and is inversely proportional to the dose (i.e. higher doses have lower bioavailability than lower doses). The bioavailability of gabapentin is approximately 60%, 47%, 34%, 33%, and 27% following 900, 1200, 2400, 3600, and 4800 mg/day, given in divided doses of one pill per every 8 hours.[18] Gabapentin is highly lipophilic, making unsaturated fats such as vegetable oil and olive oil significantly boost the total amount of absorption. This means that eating a high fat meal substantially increases gabapentin's bioavailability, due to the fact that unsaturated fats bind to gabapentin to allow for absorption, and that meals slow down and thus increase gabapentin absorption by decreasing gabapentin transporter saturation.
in mind
i also remember reading that acidic drinks like soda can also improve it's absorption

>>82185839
hey fyi anon, you likely didn't mean to give me that (you) as I never mentioned gabapentin.

>>82186223
my bad and i might be "somewhat" intoxicated
meant to quote >>82185396

I liked gabapentin because it didn't give me psychosis (diagnosed schizo) like every other substance I've ever tried but I think I jinxed myself on that because I had a several hours long schizo psycho hallucination super hell freak out on them
>>82185396
Oh god lol I'm retarded and kept taking way more than the heavy dose cus I kind of lose track of how many I take at a time thanks man
>>82185839
Thank you that helps a lot, I'll keep it in mind for next time but I'll probably try to switch to pregabalin or benzos anyhow. Much appreciated king

>>82173245
>>82173865
>>82175230
>>82173870
Why don't you fags just get modafinil? You can just buy it online without a prescription, and it's almost as effective as adderall anyway.

>>82173258
I've tried ETH-LAD. Cool visuals with interesting fractal patterns but not much headspace. I imagine AL-LAD would be similar. If you want something with decent visuals and lighter headspace, 4-HO-MET is way better honestly.

>wait at least three days to take subutex
>get a little high
>more high than i have been in months of using daily
>fall back in love with opiate bliss
>try to get the same high again the next day
>tolerance back to normal so i feel nothing
>next day after this
>surelythistimewillbedifferent.png
>take another 8mg of sub
>feel even less than on the second day
why the fuck do i keep falling for this and wasting my very limited supply of subutex? addiction makes you fucking retarded i swear to God

>>82187017
can't really add anything because you already said what needs to be said
that is what addiction is and it doesn't matter if taking a break could 10x the time you could spend time high because that is not now and all an addict cares about is now
in my experience at the best i'm taking a break so i can abuse the shit out of substances later

>>82185839
>>82186257
>lipophilic
Neat!
>>82186770
>lose track of how many I take at a time
A common mistake when using GABAergics, lol

>>82182668
Congrats on hurting and worrying your mother I guess, this must have been the goal after all.

>>82183971
Order on a darknet market like everyone else. It's not hard.

i got prescribed opioids (tramadol) for some pain i'm dealing with. it may not be morphine, but i see how this shit can be so addicting. it feels great
good thing i was only given like 10, i can see myself going off the deep end with these
i like the sleepy/happy sensation, it's cozy

>>82183506
>waaaah he doesn't agree with my fake disease I use as an excuse for being a failure and buying amphetamines
>he must be low IQ, that's it
Grow up. Everything you do and don't do is your fault, your responsibility, your choice.
You're not a robot. You control your every move.

>>82184516
Borax combo, 5-APB, 1P-LSD.

>>82186911
You can buy everything online without a prescription, what are you talking about?

>>82187687
Do you know anywhere online that sells adderall?

>>82187980
Amphetamines? Yeah pretty much every darknet market.

Holy shit substance abuse makes you super good at lying, I was such a bad liar beforehand

I'm about to get into growing my own shrooms with a milk jug. How good is sporeswaps?

>>82187668
>retarded seething anon has never heard of an impulse in his life
grow up

>>82188830
An impulse is a feeling, an emotion, a sensation.
Not an action.
If you do what your impulses suggest you do without questioning them, you're an NPC, you're not sentient. Worse than a black gorilla nigger monkey.

I'm gonna try oxy for the first time sometime next week and I'm lowkey scared.

>>82168210 (OP)
guys should i get high and lay around for the rest of the night and listen to music and watch conspiracy tiktoks or should i spend the night sober?

>>82189164
>should i spend the night sober?
why

>>82189179
well, i'm not supposed to be doing drugs i'm schizophrenic, but they're fun. so i can't decide on weather to do the responsible thing or have a little fun time.

>>82189199
Life is about having fun

>>82189207
>Life is about having fun
A sentence so stupid I would've expected it from a 16 year old girl.

>>82189299
how is it stupid. ur just mad

>>82189038
keep telling yourself that you brainless inbred sow lol

>>82189304
>>82189207
The hedonist question has been answered 2500 years ago.
Grow up.

>>82189311
why are you in this thread then? let me guess, you think drugs somehow improve productivity or maybe worse you think they give you some special insight into some retarded anti materialist concept of the universe
you need to grow the fuck up and either admit youre just as hedonistic as anyone else here or get sober and get off this website, either that and keep lying to yourself and shitting up my board

>>82189340
I made you mad huh.
Drugs are tools, you can do whatever you want with them, including being more productive and philosophizing. The thread doesn't belong only to you hedonists with your meaningless lives, running on the treadmill of pleasure because stopping would mean to think about how much your life is senseless.

Put some water in your wine.

>>82189460
>>82189340
guys stop fighting over me, why don't you both just smoke a little weed and find something squishy to squish.
it'll make you feel better.

>>82189496
I don't believe life is just about fun but it's part of it. Whether you're looking into deeper trvkes or just gooning and overeating be happy and grateful that we live in an age where we can do whatever with relative ease.

Finally getting some coke tonight boys, 2g. Got some xanax and weed to go with it

>"we will call you when you can come get your script"
>still no call, they are closing until monday in 4 hours

I don't like how close its getting..

>>82189863
Just call again maybe, just say you're out and it would be convenient if possible.

>>82189863
Yeah just call and tell them that you're really fiending right now and need a quick fix right away otherwise you might just do a junkie poop in front of the pharmacy door.
They'll give you some of the emergency stash they use to keep the druggies calm.

>>82190006
>>82190082
Ah i think prescription its better. Dunno if its the same. Nothing hard too. Just wanted to do some nice thing this weekend and my diet meth will run out tomorrow.
They know its time sensitive and that it should be given ASAP like last time. I don't like calling them but i will before time runs dry.

>>82190107
What is it that you call "diet meth"?
It's either methamphetamine or it's not.

>>82190163
its just methylphenidate. Have seen others use this term a couple of times and i think its fitting. ITT actually too.

Just kinda weird how they usually make such a fuss about using it ASAP even when i assure that i will. But now they are not really following their own instructions. If i have to get it money it will only stay valid for two or maybe three days. What if i can't use it in this time?
I feel like the secretaries are high off their own supply sometimes.

>>82190201
>money
monday

omg first time taking lyrica and this is so ass my head feels like it's going to explode and my eyes pop out meanwhile I'm in this confused delusional sobriety state I took 600mg and this is going to continue for hours tsk what a shit reaction

>>82189160
Maybe I didnt take enough but for me it was primarily like being tired with some shitty nausea. No euphoria either but I'd imagine the sedation is good for not feeling problems. I'd imagine it'd be hard for me to get addicted unless I was really in a rough patch. Its good to be scared going into it though.

Can anyone recommend something to calm my anxiety down enough that I can actually function until this flare up passes?

>>82190740
Alcohol.
Bit by bit not getting drunk just enough to remove the subconscious workings

>>82190740
>something to calm my anxiety down
Ask your family doctor for something for anxiety and they'll give you some weak benzo like oxazepam. It'll work for a short time and may help you.

>>82190325
>first time
>600mg
Stupid decision. Why didn't you do 150 or 300?

>>82190740
>anxiety flare up
What a faggy way to put it.
Go for a run or do a boxing session, you'll feel a lot better.

Or take any depressant, like GHB or whatever.

>>82190740
If it actually is short-term, then a small dose of any GABAergics (benzo, gabapentinoid, or alcohol) would work. Just pick a legal option (likely to be phenibut or alcohol depending on where you live) and make sure to not use it more than once a week.

>>82191407
>your family doctor
>they'll give you
A doctor is a single person, illiterate Anon. He or she cannot be a "they".

>>82190740
chew some gum

>>82191843
cashew deez nuts

Can someone tell me what the long term effects of me being on this stack every night for sleep will be? Been on it for almost 10 years. Cant sleep without it.
10mg Oxycodone 2XW4X
300mg lyrica
1000mg soma
2mg Klonopin
Glass of wine

>>82191981
Alzheimer, most likely

>>82191981
Lower quality sleep
Organ damage (liver, kidneys)
Neurological issues (memory, focus)
Tolerance and addiction

ahh I managed to scrounge up a small line out of the leftover oxy peels (I peel my oxycodone before crushing it)
Ordering more is a bad idea as I'll inhale it all in 2 weeks but fuck... I want to.

detox/t-breaks are so boring i just want to lose myself today but i know i can't
video games and music have been my drugs of choice because of this hhhhhhghgghnnn,,n
might resort to drinking

I experienced dissociation while under the effect of shrooms and it was scary as fuck, I wasn't prepared at all.

>>82191576
In my language you say them if you don't know whether or not the person is male or female which I don't. Just tried to be accurate.

>>82192561
>detox/t-breaks are so boring
I get you, just came out of a week detox and was bored af.

>>82168441
How do you even get poppers? Do they really make you as horny as people say? What's the deal with them and can I use them to achieve a hardcore anal orgasm?

having a cold plus caffeine high is an odd but satisfying combo.

>>82191981
Here's what will happen when you withdraw from it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBe_0UIBylY

Anyone else here develops insane tolerance to drugs without getting any withdrawal? I need 12mg alprazolam to feel like when I took 2mg the first time but I don't take it regularly at all

>>82189460
people like you are so fucking insufferable

>>82193622
>Do they really make you as horny as people say?
i dont know about that but it literally loosens up your butthole muscle which is why it is commonly used specifically for enhancing buttsex

>>82194741
>dude here to tell you how bad benzo withdraws are
>has never gotten high off benzos or withdrawn from them
no thanks

>>82193622
>How do you even get poppers?
any sex shop or smoke shop should have them and i believe you can get them online too
>Do they really make you as horny as people say?
idk who says that because they have no effect on libo
>What's the deal with them and can I use them to achieve a hardcore anal orgasm?
like the other anon said they loosen up your muscles to make penetration easier so unless you think youll achieve a more hardcore orgasm from slipping in a larger plug then probably not

>>82168210 (OP)
All the trip reports on erowid were written by god. He actually cloned himself and did all the drugs. Although his reports kinda suck a lot of the time, because he writes in from the humans perspective instead of his own bodies perspective. He also lies a lot, he is a huge liar about almost every possible thing, like he was making a point to lie about absolutely every single thing just to hide the real lies which are now almost impossible to even discover.

I swear to god I hate these fucking nigerian drug dealers. Tells me he'll be there at 9 and I'm sitting waiting until 11 then said he had 'business' and is currently a fucking hours drive away. Hope he arrives soon I was sitting my ass in the cold for an hour

>>82195351
You gotta buy more product buddy hes not making much off of you. Being poor means youre like a background character.

>>82195382
Yea im not even paying him I dont have money at the moment I told him id pay him when my paycheck arrives so I'm glad he's bringing it at all

>>82195387
Damn hope the heroin helps. Your lifes pretty shit dude. Im sure Ill end up like you soon enough. Life without a gf is so shit.

>>82195426
Not heroin but coke and it finally fucking arrived. God I cant wait to get shitfaced. Wonder if I should try heroin, never bothered, I'm too hooked to kratom already so I imagine that shit would just destroy my life

I'm cooking my brain by trying to watch 3 things at once while high :D

i fucking hate drinking without adding either gabapentin or benzos on top of it, alcohol by itself always makes me feel sick before i start to feel drunk but its all ive got till sunday so fuck it

>>82196079
Did you ever try stims besides coke?

>>82196479
Yes ive done ritalin, amph, meth, also 2cb, mescaline and mdma if you count those as stims, coke is by far my favourite as the most functional pure stimulant. Meth is the most recreational but I would never do it again because the damage simply isnt worth it. Coke I recover from within a day, ive had lasting psychoses from meth after overdosing, the high potency of meth and how long it lasts makes it a really shit drug to use if you want to have a functional life

low dose 4-mmc + bromazolam + anime = heaven

>>82196500
Interesting, I've virtually taken everything there is too but barely get anything out of coke it's strange... 4-mmc is what I'd have imagined coke to feel like
Also meth does not cause major damage unless you go on multiple day binges.... Many people hate the comedown but I actually quite enjoy it

>>82196537
You have to really high dose coke to enjoy it, and its the kinda drug where you can never have enough like booze, I mostly dislike meth because i've had bad experiences with severe sleep deprivation and psychosis from it. I don't think coke is any better at all and its pretty weak but its the ideal drug for me as a working man. Kind of like the choice to use kratom over heroin, maybe when I was younger I would chase the stronger highs but I cant do that anymore

>>82196592
>can never have enough like booze
brother that is alcoholism lol. theres usually a point where you want to stop

>>82196638
Coke is a strange drug, where amounts as small as 40mg can kill, but habitual users can take up to 5g a day. I would definitely say it's more physically dangerous than meth. The amount of celebrities that have died from pure coke is surprisingly high. I wouldn't recommend coke to anyone unless they have a tight schedule since recreational meth is really hard to hide

>>82196592
I did quite a large about like 100mg lines but the drip was actually so fucking nasty and I didn't feel any ephora

>>82196731
Yea thats not enough for me. I clear half a g in one go. Even without tolerance. Feels too weak otherwise

>>82196740
How do you fit all of that up your nose? This is literally why I quit meth after a while doses became so big and returns still diminished that I just dropped it from one day to the other

>>82196784
You get used to large lines. When I did meth I did it like cocaine and that fucked me up too bad. Didn't enjoy the aftereffects. Cocaine doesn't really give me a comedown at all I feel normal when it wears off

>>82196803
well obviously since cocaine does not reverse DAT causing an almost immediate depletion of dopamine stores, I guess I just used it less heavily when I did 2-3 lines at work, in the beginning 15mg and in the end about 60mg. I wonder why I took it so well and never had problems with the comedown or sleep I rarely did allnighters because the focus and motivation was way more fun at work

>>82193478
Not in English it's a grammatical error.

>>82195058
>How do you know getting burned alive is painful? Have you ever gotten burned alive?
This is how retarded you sound

>>82195351
That's why everyone orders online instead of having to deal with shitskins.
It's safer, cheaper, easier.

>>82197019
Cant buy cocaine online in my country or at least I dont know DNs that exist here unfortunately. But the people are pretty nice to you if you give them money

>>82197005
Got you. Again, just trying to be accurate.

scored some ambien and i paired 10mg ambien with 10mg rx valium and some bong rips. Has /drugfeel/ combined traditional benzos with z-drugs before? I have a moderate benzo tolerance and this is still excellent.
Made this bowl of chem dog x garlic breath for my dad when he got home from work as well.

>>82197084
What country is that? If a drug is sold openly by a street nigger it's always sold openly on a DNM as well.

I just did meth properly for the first time, it's been 5 minutes and I have BPM of 140.

I'm 28, should I call ambulance ?
Right now I'm lying on the bed so there no more extra strain on my heart

>>82197559
Which RoA?

>>82197010
buring alive and withdrawing are not even remotely comparable lol, if you honestly think withdrawing is that bad youre a fucking pussy
>t. someone who has gone through benzo and opiate withdrawal multiple times

Another successful 500mg meth night. Had a blast. Hope you guys are doing well and are fuled rightfully on your poison of choise.

>had a tramadol scrip because of wisdom teeth
>cant use it because the meds i was on completely neuter cyp2d6
>ffw call the police during a panic attack
>they take all my drugs
>not sure if they took my trams or not
aaaaghh i really hope they didnt take them
but i cant fucking find the bottle

>>82198619
Why did you have a panic attack and call the cops like a hysterical woman?

Why does codeine feel so much more euphoric to me than oxy to me, I wish I had known that earlier oxy is so expensive even if I'm quite well off... damn

What's your favorite "on vacation for a few hours" drug?
I have to take care of my infant son all day every day so when I have a few hours available I want to make them count and be able to decompress.

>>82193478
That other person is a grown retard, I have a doctorate in English and they is grammaticaly correct as a gender neutral pronoun, carry on.

>>82199712
Do a sport or a hobby dude... that's a dangerous path to refuel with drugs

Sonic Sez that drugs are no good and you're not gonna make it.

>>82199712
just be sure to lock yourself in a room and throw away the key that's a recipe for disaster right there lol

>>82193478
The first person is a grown genius, I have two doctorates in English and they is grammatically incorrect and gender neutral pronouns do not exist since gender was invented by a pedo in the 60's and basic grammar has not changed a iota since then. Carry on.

>>82200574
>Poster clearly states they are esl
>Mentions gender neutral pronouns in their language but doesn't know the word for them in English
>Hurr durr a bunch of political and tranny hate stupidity.
Have sex

>>82199190
yeah it was extremely retarded but i get really bad panic attacks if i forget to take my meds

>>82200611
>Poster
>they
The poster is a single person, you cannot use they, since it's a plural pronoun. Hope that helps.

>>82200632
What meds are that?

>>82200981
it was actually me going cold turkey on bupropion, fluoxetine and clonazepam at the same time. the antidepressants were not bad but the clonazepam withdrawals were fucking brutal

>>82197278
Well to say I've never bothered using DNMs in my life but have surprisingly been able to get my hands on real tested MDMA/2cb/LSD from clearnet vendors through their whatsapp

>>82201150
Do you live in canada? I've had similar experiences because of how lazy the rcmp are, gotten loads of good stuff from clearnets

>>82201233
South africa surprisingly. Not much drug enforcement for anything thats not cocaine/meth/heroin

>>82201272
Oh that's interesting. Similar story over here, as long as it's not a "hard" drug the cops usually don't give a shit.

I love ritualistically snorting meth bros

>>82197559
>BPM of 140.

That's nothing. I'm 27 and I have a BPM of 150 going up a flight of stairs.

>>82197559
No. Try getting a benzo if you can

Man I love Monero.

>>82201457
Lmao how fat are you?

>>82201457
You're not making it to 30

>>82201475
>put a few hundred bucks into monero to get some goods
>forgot about the wallet for a bit so i just worked through my stash
>ffw a few weeks and the price jumped 50%
such a good feeling, i splurged hard and got a massive stash

>>82168210 (OP)
is sniffing gabapentin a bad idea? I read that it hits you harder. I kinda want to pass out. I sniffed like a lil tiny bit and I shoved the rest of the powder in my ass. I feel like I wasted a perfectly good pill though

Does anyone else use LSD to pull all nighters? I have insomnia and have found it to be pretty useful as long as I don't use it more than twice a week. 300ug here we go

>>82199556
>Why does codeine feel so much more euphoric to me than oxy to me
same bro i never got the oxy hyp meanwhile codeine makes me feel orgasmic

>>82199712
>my infant son
>drugs
no.
you are not allowed to fuck up your suns life by being a drug addict anymore, nobody with any sort of responsibility besides a 9 to 5 should ever dabble in drug use its completely irresponsible

>>82199823
Got ya, it makes sense to me.

>>82202106
idk what the fuck you're tripping about anon, I take care of newborn animals while fucked up all the time, their mommas never saw me sober but at the end of the day they're all safe and sound.

>>82201500
My BPM crosses 100 from light activity, and I've never done a hard stimulant. Some people are just built different.

>>82202232
'built different' you mean chronically unhealthy and will die from heart failure soon

>>82202237
I take a 20-minute bicycle trip to work every day. My fitness is adequate.

The powers that be please endow me with plenty of cocaine

Anon is withdrawing from opiates again!!
does he take tramadol he doesn't even enjoy to delay withdrawals or does he actually withdraw to get it over with?

>>82202232
he was talking to me

>>82202255
>light cycling with stops every 100 meters means my fitness is adequate
No it's not. You couldn't hold a single round of boxing.

Do a real sport.

10 months no alcohol
5 months no pregabalin
1 month no opiates
Tapering off caffeine and will be completely drug-free by the end of the year

What's next?

>>82202496
And are you really happier than you were then?

Alcohol is amazing according to Kurzgesagt
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aOwmt39L2IQ

>>82200611
I didn't mean it to devolve into gender politics. I think 'they' is the right word to use as a gender nutral pronoun when you don't know what the gender of the person in question is. But idc about gender politics and don't mean to derail the thread to that.

>>82201937
>300ug here we go
That's a big dose. Can you even be productive on that much?

>>82203024
Could be a tolerance thing? not something I'd do twice a week personally, not built like that.

>>82202305
>does he take tramadol he doesn't even enjoy to delay withdrawals or does he actually withdraw to get it over with?
Just get it over with. Better sooner then later and delaying the inevitable is pointless.

>>82202496
Good job, anon! Stick to your goals. I can't imagine my life without drugs but it's admirable to see people dealing with their demons successfully. Goodluck!

>>82203057
>Could be a tolerance thing?
If he spaces it right, the tolerance should not be a problem imo. But LSD tolerance rises up real fast so maybe he won't feel the full effect (but then it won't keep him awake as well, which is his goal).

>>82198619
>because of wisdom teeth
Congratulations on getting manipulated into getting a procedure you don't need. You probably don't have a foreskin either.

im lonely and want friends, but deep down i just want my peace and be alone and evwen deeper down i absolutely do not want to be alone
Everything is copes, im slipping. Was sober for a longer time my life got only more shit. Opiates it will be me for me. I will never get over my avoidant personality. Atleast i know people who tolerate me hovering around in their near vicinity. But i sperg out and sabotage everything that gets more intimade

>>82203566
but to add on, today i was in the library and got me the first 2 volumes of blade of the immortal and two nice jazz -CDs so evening gonna be lit, anyone read it?

>>82203566
i'm lonely, but not because i want friends, it's because people don't get me and i don't get them. i'd love to just live in complete solitude and do what i want, without judgment.

>>82203596
sounds comfy, enjoy

>>82203644
but wouldnt it be better to be around a loving person who understands you and doesnt judge you, where you can be yourself? whats your drug of choice?

>>82203566
Same, got screwed over and abandoned too many times, now I'm an avoidant subhuman and I became the very thing that I hated.
Atleast I'm good at keeping myself in check and not starting anything that I'd end abruptly.

>>82203665
>but wouldnt it be better to be around a loving person who understands you and doesnt judge you
yes, but i've more or less given up on that idea at this point. being a recluse is not ideal, but far more achievable.
>drug of choice?
cocaine/ritalin, for study purposes

waaaaaaaa fuck withdrawals, why can't I abuse pain meds forever this shit is so unfair why why why.

I CAN'T STOP DOING EDIBLES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

then I'm going to head down to my local club alone and dance for hours. what drug gives you the same numbness and reduction in self consciousness while allowing you to get lost in the environment? my red high eyes are too obvious and I probably will be rejected at the door sometime soon.

>>82204434
major envy on my side, respect that you manage to go out on edibles. Im anxious enough sober, but on edibles i would sperg out completely in public

>>82204434
>what drug gives you the same numbness and reduction in self consciousness while allowing you to get lost in the environment?
Opiates do the first half perfectly for me, it's not visible you're on it (depending on the dose) so I doubt the second one is a problem either, just be wary of nausea.

in nodfordshire
populatipn: me

>>82203566
>>82203747
>I will never get over my avoidant personality
>now I'm an avoidant subhuman
>people don't get me and i don't get them
You're not subhuman, anon, you had your feelings hurt and it left a scar.
My best advice to the both of you if you want to get over your avoidant personality is exposure. Reach out and learn how to trust people again. It'll be a proccess but will work. When it comes to personality issues, practice is the best solution most of the time. It's like a muscle you need to exercise.
>i just want my peace and be alone
That is also an option, and one that I took myself. It has it's pluses and minuses. Years ago I had no problem making friends and be out going but the solitude appealed to me more. Now I'm prolly in the same boat as you two (the social muscle has atrophied), but by choice (but I also have crippling mental illness so take it with a grain of salt :p).

>>82204226
>fuck withdrawals
I'm sorry you are going through that, anon. Hope it'll get better and you'll be on the up n' up soon enough.
Hang in there.

>>82200897
Unfortunately angrily arguing about this in 4chan will not get you a girlfriend or help you lose your virginity

>>82204434
>what drug gives you the same numbness and reduction in self consciousness while allowing you to get lost in the environment?
Alchohol, from what I've heard, but I don't have much experience with it. MDMA can also do that too, at the right doses I suppose.

>>82205235
thanks man, I'm coping with weed while waiting for more to arrive.
atleast the tolerance will be nice and low by that time.

It's amphetamine night y'all, yay.

>>82206146
>atleast the tolerance will be nice and low by that time.
That's the spirit hehe.

>>82203024
nah its been 3 weeks since my last dose. sadly fell asleep after a couple hours somehow. at least i didnt sleep too long, should be able to sleep easier tonight.

>>82202496
>What's next?
No porn.
Nofap is a meme but going no porn massively improves your imagination and taste.

Gimme some unconventional tunes to trip to.

>>8220443
no, they like you. the environment likes you. you would start getting rejected at the door if you showed up on hard drugs or too drunk

>>82207330
Have a transcendental experience:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HZjS4s8yi_g

>>82206937
>its been 3 weeks since my last dose
You've made it sound like you take it regularly.
>sadly fell asleep after a couple hours somehow
While on 300ug? Literally how?

>>82207330
>Gimme some unconventional tunes to trip to
Hardly unconvetional but is good:
https://youtu.be/PD0FQ6Qg1cA?feature=shared
Also search yt for a playlist called 'cool kids do acid' (somehow I can't find a link to it rn) that's more unconvetional.

>>82207330
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSIMVnPA994