Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

heyo everybody
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82208578
>how I look at my trash can after I notice the excess food in the fridge
understandable. i have a hard time with restricting what i eat at the moment myself. :/ how did you end up with too much, though?

>>82215357 (OP)
hey friend. how was you day? i went out for a workout this morning. it went alright, but i have a headache atm. i don't think i'll post much tonight.

>>82206794
>it might be older than your whole country heh
no debate there. Plenty of interesting things here, but one thing I am jealous of Europeans over is being so close to so much history and ease of getting around it there.
>Anything strange that would point to that?
No, I don't believe I've had anything that I would think was a ghost here. Heard from some people who have experiences, that I trust their judgement on and are quite bizarre. I don't trust 90% of people talking about these though lol
>I wonder how much a regular hotel costs
Varies quite a lot and so many factors. Cost of living season you go places. I traveled somewhere less popular this time of year since gets really damn hot down south

>>82207037
> so i dropped the manga. wasn't angry, though.
completely reasonable take there. Author has freedom to choose as they see fit as you can choose what you read/watch
>as if i care what some stupid author thinks when there's people drawing fanart

i cut on my wrist

>>82215901
Helloo
>how was you day?
pretty okay
Didn't do much but tomorrow I'll go on a bike ride
>headache atm.
noo D;
hope it stops soon
> i don't think i'll post much tonight.
that's okay

>>82215920
Heyo
how's it going today?
>ease of getting around it there.
that is true
>don't trust 90% of people talking about these though lol
yeah I get u
it doesn't mean those people are lying but hallucinations happen and also people don't have perfect memory
>since gets really damn hot down south
yep I wonder what the average temperature was, here this summer also was supposed hot

>>82215922
Hello anon
make sure to patch urself up^^
btw how was your day?

>>82207373
> not something i ever got into
funnily enough, I didn't get into till I owned a house. Guess I had what financial achievements I needed at that point. I don't spend too much on them either.
> what characters have you bought figures of? :
Some of Rem from Re:zero, Saber, Sakura, and some other Fate stuff, and technically it's a game, but I have Monika from DDLC I'm unwell but in my defense i was in college still when this came out
>you won't be dissapointed.
watched the first episode so far. Fighting looks very interesting, not enough to form an opinion, but so far so good
>not familiar with that franchise
i went down a dark dark rabbit hole with Fate many years back. I watched every series (including the not great ones), went to the old visual novel (which was basically an eroge in the beginning), and even played the damn gatcha game (and got really into it)
>i think i'm attracted to the broken ones
I get that as well, at least in terms of ones that stick with me and I look back and say "yeah I liked that character"
>>82207527
> giving no fucks in japan elevates you to a level of being untouchable, i feel.
it's needed because Japan seems okay with a lot of stuff people over here would get very mad with. Which is absolutely fine by me
>which one was that?
watching episode of episode after meaningless side storing culminating in an episode literally about "the curry of life", which was when I couldn't the stupid anymore

>>82207789
Sorry didn't respond last night, but love RE as well. I was okay with RE6, definitely the weakest in the series, but I enjoyed it. Could never get into the first person ones later though, so not sure what they're like

sup everyone. hung out with friends today which was okay. unfortunately we went to go get some spare parts for a motorcycle from a friend, his mom was chill but her boyfriend was absolutely wasted and being a total dick to me and a friend. talking about rape to us (probably the worst people to do that to since both of us are victims). that pissed me off a lot but now I'm home and I'll probably just chill a bit

>>82215920
>Author has freedom to choose as they see fit as you can choose what you read/watch
in the end canon is just a suggestion. i've been looking at turtle world of warcraft lately. a private server that has been going for a few years. they decided to stay on the earliest version of the game, but do their own balancing and also add new content to the game in a way that fits within that version and their interpretation of the lore and how it should have developed. i can't play it at the moment, but i'm really enjoying that it exists.

>>82215922
hey anon. hope your at least feeling a bit better now. stay safe!

>>82216092
>Didn't do much but tomorrow I'll go on a bike ride
sounds like a plan. :> any destination or will you just see where it takes you?

>hope it stops soon
same. it's a bit better, but not by much

>>82216135
>Guess I had what financial achievements I needed at that point. I don't spend too much on them either.
true. they can be a bit pricey, but you want some quality display pieces and not some cheap crap, i imagine. helps if you can just put them where you want as well. ^^

>I'm unwell but in my defense i was in college still when this came out
no judgement here. not like you're the only one who likes those characters.

>Fighting looks very interesting, not enough to form an opinion, but so far so good
hope you'll like it. i should rewatch it myself. maybe i'll start tomorrow

>i went down a dark dark rabbit hole with Fate many years back.
well, there must be a reason why it got so popular in the first place. i think tried watching it a lifetime ago, but overall it just confused me, i think. if it struck a chord with you, why shouldn't you enjoy yourself? gatcha is always dangerous, though.

>I get that as well, at least in terms of ones that stick with me and I look back and say "yeah I liked that character"
lots to relate to and maybe get inspired by. depending on the arc, of course.

>>82216135
>Japan seems okay with a lot of stuff people over here would get very mad with. Which is absolutely fine by me
sure. that's why it's one of the few places that produces media i can still enjoy, but the way most creators are browbeat into conforming is a bit concerning and only the ones that can withstand all that pressure can do whatever they feel like. you either become another drone or evolve into a queen. like there's these creative decisionmakers that get put on the highest pedestal and everyone else just toils to profit from it.

>"the curry of life", which was when I couldn't the stupid anymore
hm. maybe they were just waiting for the next chapters of the manga to drop, but sometimes i feel it would be better to just wait until it resumes and not damage the story with this random nonsense. regardless of that, whenever you feel like enough is ebough, that's exactly the point to switch off the tv, get up and do something else. worst offender in that regard was tmnt 2003. i really liked the show until they revealed shredder was an utrom in that version. turned of the tv, did something else and never watched another episode.

>>82216468
good evening, chevi! :>

>his mom was chill but her boyfriend was absolutely wasted and being a total dick to me and a friend.
don't know why people feel the need to bother someone about stuff like that in the first place. sorry you had to deal with that.

>that pissed me off a lot but now I'm home and I'll probably just chill a bit
understandably so. hope you can let out some steam somehow. cool pic, btw.

>>82216468
Hello :D
>hung out with friends today which was
that's great
>chill but her boyfriend was absolutely wasted
at least you have something to talk about I guess
>talking about
huh? okay that's pretty bad
who says that sort of thing!

>>82216691
how's your evening?
I found a thing to watch, OFF is rereleased on steam :D
lots of new stuff qnd the guy who's video I sent you last time is playing it :DD
>any destination or will you just see where it takes you?
probably the big bridge and go along following river when I've been on last bikerides
it's a nice place
>it's a bit better, but not by much
maybe time for an early good night?

>>82217038
>how's your evening?
it's ok. did some laundry, watched an episode of samurai champloo to see if it actually still holds up and i'm not just making stuff up (i think it does) and now i'm just watching streams.

>OFF is rereleased on steam :D lots of new stuff qnd the guy who's video I sent you last time is playing it :DD
let's gooo! :D you can send me the vod if there is one. would be interesting to see.

>it's a nice place
it's cool you found one that you enjoy that much.

>maybe time for an early good night?
not that early anymore anyway, is it. ^^ you're right, tho. i should head to bed soon.

>>82216865
sup yuanon
>sorry you had to deal with that.
eh it's whatever, my friend seemed more bothered by it than me. I guess it just shows who I need to avoid more in the future, still pisses me tf off. nothing I can do about it anyways, I was a guest at someone's house and I don't think they'd appreciate me beating the brakes off one of their loved ones.
>hope you can let out some steam somehow.
I prolly will, I'm gonna finish a movie I was watching and then probably just game a bit more, been a while since I've done that. I really wanted to play Far Cry New Dawn, but the game is so laughably shit which ruined it for me. Shame, since I'm a huge fan of anything with the Mad Max vibe. I wonder if there are any games that could capture that in a good way, I know the official video games were basically shovelware.
>cool pic, btw.
thanks, been getting into dark fantasy again, must be a recurring thing.

>>82217038
heya cat!
>at least you have something to talk about I guess
well I would've rather avoided that desu, but it's whatever now. back to bedrotting (and taking care of my cats ofc.)
>who says that sort of thing!
well idk, imo it's a topic you should approach very carefully, no matter who you're talking about it with. I guess he couldn't have known, but he did choose the worst people possible to speak to ehehe.

>>82215357 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Got a pretty big headache
>Any plans for today?
I picked up a shift for my old boss. It wasn't take bad. Now she and my new boss are asking me to take on an extra few hours to clean pools. idk what happened to their old guy. It okay. If I'm doing this, I'll make as much money as I can.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Just classes and work I guess.
>>82215901
hi yu
>headache atm.
same
>i don't think i'll post much tonight.
same
>>82216092
hi cat
>Didn't do much but tomorrow I'll go on a bike ride
That sounds like a decent plan.

>>82217412
>my friend seemed more bothered by it than me.
hope it won't bother them for a long time. at least you can support each other in that regard.

>I guess it just shows who I need to avoid more in the future
it's the best you can do. no use arguing with people like that.

>I don't think they'd appreciate me beating the brakes off one of their loved ones.
probably not. ^^' glad you were able to restrain yourself.

>I'm gonna finish a movie I was watching
which one?

>but the game is so laughably shit which ruined it for me.
that would ruin it for most people, i'd say. anything that annoyed you in particular?

>I'm a huge fan of anything with the Mad Max vibe. I wonder if there are any games that could capture that in a good way
hm. the original fallout games or the spiritual successor games? i think they are called wasteland. death thrash comes to mind. or does it have to be a shooter?

>been getting into dark fantasy again
it's cool. probably my favorite kind of setting.

>>82217465
>Got a pretty big headache
make sure to rest well and drink lots of water.

>I'll make as much money as I can.
don't overwork yourself. money is nice, but not everything. doesn't hurt to have it, though...

>Just classes and work I guess
both bothersome by design. :<

>same
shame :/

>same
shame :/

>>82217465
hey sup cynic
>Got a pretty big headache
take care of yourself. hope it gets better soon
>I picked up a shift for my old boss. It wasn't take bad.
hope everything goes well, glad to see someone on the grind, wishing u lots of luck.

>>82217786
>at least you can support each other in that regard.
probably just different ways of dealing with it. I always try to bury trauma as deep as I can, usually it doesn't bother me but when I'm confronted by it or it just hits me I get fucking explosive.
>no use arguing with people like that.
Nope, just a waste of energy
>which one?
desu there are a lot of movies I haven't finished. I'm gonna finish the 2015 mad max tho, also while looking where to watch I think I found a laughably terrible parody porno, I might watch that one just for the lolz
>anything that annoyed you in particular?
The level system makes no sense for far cry, and the whole story and gameplay is just plain uninteresting, the vehicle combat is also just boring as fuckkkk
>the original fallout games or the spiritual successor games?
might be worth a try, I'm just a bit scared of the whole isometric thing.
>does it have to be a shooter?
not at all, just has to have a similar setting and I'd like a lot of vehicle content (combat, customization)
>probably my favorite kind of setting.
It's good, just hard to get right I feel like.

goodnight everyone sorry for not responding but I been nodding off for a whilenow

>>82217404
ere u go
https://youtu.be/iqQIhzpahDM?si=KFkwb8rZw8bwQOf6
and goodnight friend I'll be sleeping tpo

>>82215901
Its a long story..
>>82215922
pretty deep

>>82217900
>I always try to bury trauma as deep as I can, usually it doesn't bother me but when I'm confronted by it or it just hits me I get fucking explosive.
makes sense. not like you can let your guard down.

>I'm gonna finish the 2015 mad max tho
have fun. i watched it in cinema an really didn't like that movie. ^^' looked good, though.

>I think I found a laughably terrible parody porno, I might watch that one just for the lolz
mad max probably gets more action scenes in this one :p

>The level system makes no sense for far cry, and the whole story and gameplay is just plain uninteresting, the vehicle combat is also just boring as fuckkkk
the first two games in that series were fun, but i was never a fan of ubisofts open world grindfests. too bad that the game doesn't even live up to the standards of someone who is, though. :/

>I'm just a bit scared of the whole isometric thing.
yeah. i can see why, but it's not so bad if you take the time to get used to it. at least they have to try a bit harder to immerse you in the world.

>just has to have a similar setting and I'd like a lot of vehicle content (combat, customization)
hm. the vehicle stuff is hard. it's not something indie games try often.

>just hard to get right I feel like.
yup. usually just a backdrop for misery porn and not very engaging plots. nice visuals, though.

>>82217924
sleep tight and enjoy your bikeride tomorrow!

>>82218297
>Its a long story..
well, i can't promise i'll be awake long enough to reply, but if you feel like typing it out, i'd read it tomorrow morning. you don't have to, of course. up to you, fren.

>>82218505
>not like you can let your guard down.
maybe someday, but definitely not soon. this place has come close, but I still don't feel like sharing everything.
>looked good, though.
the plot is kinda meh, but I would be lying if those visuals didn't make me gasm
>gets more action scenes in this one :p
probably, with less gasoline however (I hope)
>the standards of someone who is, though. :/
I always considered myself easy to please with games I don't take serious, but even I was horribly disappointed with it. My favorite still has to be far cry 2, nothing gets close to that vibe.
>at least they have to try a bit harder to immerse you in the world.
The appeal for me with the older fallouts is that they really didn't take themselves seriously and still had silly/wacky things without it affecting the overall vibe n such, bethesda could fucking never.
>it's not something indie games try often.
hey, that means it's unexplored territory. can't wait to get horribly disappointed again!
>usually just a backdrop for misery porn and not very engaging plots
dark souls did it well, i assume berserk too (never read it), leave it to the japanese ig
>nice visuals, though.
yep, very european, nice change of pace for me since atleast the scenery seems somewhat familiar to places I've been. Gives a nice sense of deja vu


I'm gonna go sleep now tho, hope everyone has a goodnight

Captcha is GYHAA, basically just link

>>82218680
>I'm gonna go sleep now tho, hope everyone has a goodnight
sleep tight. i'll head to bed, too.

kinda wanna just kill myself tomorrow, probably will

>>82218505
I have caring family members, but they cant see how I have to change. im going to be alone for a few days, this will be an accidental test to see if im even worthy of a job. what if i oversleep? i cant worry too much, but I have to worry to an extent.
last year I lost some weight because I was kept busy by her, and we shared some food. I guess I try to share food with the trash now.

ive watched something about that previous spiderman actor today. he had a oneitis case apparently - his gf left him 10 years ago and he has been alone ever since. a lot of men respected him in the comments or something, which means I will get the same treatment from some people eventually. im not manifesting that future, Im doubting my luck.

>>82219330
fairytales and chivalry are great things, but unfortunately if I ever get into a relationship again I will speak less of true love and connections. but maybe those bpd genes will take over. or mix into it, creating a sort of pessimistic yet addicted persona

>>82219304
Any reason why?

>>82219474
lot of reasons. I've always been too late too everything like school and not good enough for anything, im always empty. no one loves me

>>82219577
Have you considered calling a crisis hotline?

>>82219698
i did try once a year ago and the police came, maybe I'll try again tho

>>82219764
The best thing to do is talk to professionals who can help you

>>82219764
from personal experiences I wouldn't really recommend it, but usually it depends on your country/region and their laws and protocol with dealing with these things. as Bibbit has said the best course here is to talk with professionals, I do highly suggest getting one that you have a good feeling about, lest it ends up going nowhere. wishing you luck if you end up trying to get help and remember that it's never too late to take steps to change your life around, NEVER.

>>82219805
yea guess getting a therapist or something would be good probably

>>82219850
does feel they were super quick to call the cops yea. yea just would have to ask my parents and everything and that's a headache. thanks and idk and goodnight

>>82219577
Buy a GoPro and record yourself harassing people in public.

good morningh
im only goingg to cut on my wrist from now on i mean like the inside where the veins are im bored of cutting on only safer spots

1. Miserable
2. Sat in the dark all day on my computer
3. Its probably been a week, too lazy to cut myself
4. Cheated on
5. Basically what I mentioned in 4. My friend is also likely going to off himself. Not fun.