>read book on chimp behavior
>notice parrarels between many famous people and how big chimp / tribe leader chimp act
>start myself acting like a chimp tribe leader around people
>Move slowly, stretch a lot, talk rarely but deeply when i do, start walking how they walk, fist bump randomly, hand out food randomly to people, ect
>people suddenly start coming to me to solve disputes and arguments
>people suddenly want me to touch them randomly like shaking my hand and such
>people start instinctively crouching / making themselves smaller when approaching me, refuse to look me in the face
Hight? Looks? Muscles? Nope. the real deal is found in how much you can emulate an old school monkey tribe chieftain, that is the key

what would you do if you were watching the news and trump, on live tv, just actually melted like a snowman like disintegrated into mush with everyone screaming in terror before the video goes cuts

I cant stand this constant feeling of complete emotional isolation. God why cant i relate to anybody at all.

Any authors that straight up say that having, wanting, or looking for a meaning in life is actually a bad thing to do? I honestly think that the notion of there being a "meaning of life" is a misguided thing and we ought hope there isnt one

>read a book on chimp behavioral psychology
>now cant look at 4chan or social media posts without instantly seeing the pararells between chimp society
>what used to be shitposts are now screeching and mating calls and arbitrary threats towards the designated "other" groups.
wow, i cant unsee it, we are all literal fucking chimps, wow

This board is like if a bunch of fat ugly loser women went around constantly complaining about men, except gender swapped. It is actually hilarious how clueless about reality you all are. Its sad, too. You posters will never evolve beyond the illusions youve created, lol

You ever wonder why people never talk about the basic fact they exist? Why isnt everyone going around asking
>Where am I? What is this? How is this?
The fact everyone just goes along with this never questioning it is deeply concerning, huh

I genuinely have not met a living creature i get along with. Not any of you, you all suck. Nobody online, I just can not fucking relate to anyone. Nobody in real life. I constantly argue with family members. I just feel so damn alien to everyone, i dont like them but have to pretend i do. I really dont think im ever going to fall in love with anyone ever. I even hate animals, just cant stand them. Its not their fault i just hate them, i dont know why, they just are gross and annoying and i hate being around them, like humans. I hate life

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interest bump

I swear to god i just do not relate to humans. I dont relate to the people on this website, or anywhere. I dont understand WHY people care about certain things. I cant relate to fearing death, but everyone fears death. Everyone seeths and cries about AI and how obvious it is, I can never tell the difference between real and ai. People bitch about trans, the other sex, other races, nobody ever talks about inventing immortality. I just do not relate to this species. It's like they are scared of death, but do nothing about it, they all LOVE the status quo, i dont get it

I had a very smart professor friend briefly who gave me this advice on reading and note taking; He said he prefered to only take any notes, make any underlines, or write anything in the margins on the second reading, never the first. His logic was that he claimed it of utmost importance to get through an initial reading of a book as quickly as possible, and he also said that you wouldn't know what to take notes on the first time through anyways, and that if a book is really worth taking notes from, it's worth reading twice. Your opinions?

i keep getting kinda upset because i failed high school. I mean, i started failing school really bad in 3rd grade and never caught up, and so i had zero chance of passing high school. I feel like a failure because basically everyone else was able to do it and im just literally retarded, like my iq was tested at a facility as a kid and i am borderline disabled retarded. i feel like a loser and an idiot because i genuinely am too stupid for even a ged and my life will never progress because of this

I really deep down feel like my soul is NOT learning anything during my time here, i really feel instead like its regressing, or disintergrating. There was a time when my soul wanted to exist. This world destroyed that part of me. I can't fathom willingly existing after experiencing this life

>be me
>hang out with same 4 friends since high school
>one friend starts working at a new tech job, meets a guy named Wei Zhang
>starts inviting him to game nights, says he's "chill"
>Wei's quiet at first, but kinda intense when he talks
>talks about self-control a lot
>brings up dopamine, productivity, all that
>says he hasn't jerked off in 4 years
>everyone laughs, but he doesn't
>next week, other friend says he's trying it
>"Bro, nofap actually feels great"
>entire friend group joins in eventually
>I think it's stupid but whatever
>suddenly group chat turns into daily accountability logs
>Wei sends motivational quotes like "seed is power"
>they start doing cold showers and waking up at 5am
>group dynamic shifts
>feel like an outsider now
>they start subtly treating me as a joke
>not even joking really
>then Wei says he has some money and wants to have a trip with the guys
>suggests going to Cancun
>says it slowly, then smiles
>"You know... Can coom."
>they all laugh way too hard
>I nope out, say I can't afford it
>they go without me
>group chat goes dark for a few days
>suddenly flooded with panic messages
>apparently Wei told them the final stage was a "ritual release" during sunrise meditation
>they got caught jerking it facing the ocean, in sync, like lunatics
>Wei fled the scene, never found
>all my other friends got arrested and their families are left trying to get them out of Cancun.