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7/17/2025, 11:20:16 PM
>>81865074
yeah, it does that
>>81865486
i only stopped because it destroyed my sleep and the wds filled me with inexplicable terror every night, journaled those nights to keep a reminder of how awful it was so i never start again, sympathies to anyone too far along to will themselves out of it
yeah, it does that
>>81865486
i only stopped because it destroyed my sleep and the wds filled me with inexplicable terror every night, journaled those nights to keep a reminder of how awful it was so i never start again, sympathies to anyone too far along to will themselves out of it
7/12/2025, 1:38:19 AM
>>81789491
honestly it stopped being funny now that he took my shitty healthcare away and there's no way i'll work the fields to get it back like they want me to so you guys can overthrow him and undo everything now if you want i guess.....
honestly it stopped being funny now that he took my shitty healthcare away and there's no way i'll work the fields to get it back like they want me to so you guys can overthrow him and undo everything now if you want i guess.....
7/8/2025, 12:15:28 AM
Anyone else feel like they've been on the bottom of the totem pole their whole life? Like other guys instantly know you're weak needy and stupid? And even ppl you think would be below you are brought higher and mock you. Personally I'm sure it's because I'm stupid and say idiotic things/am slow mentally
7/7/2025, 11:18:31 PM
>>40315405
i'm always high for this reason, i'm starting to feel a lot better about how i look lmao i can't even tell if it's real or not. Remember you get get bioavailability if you plug!
i'm always high for this reason, i'm starting to feel a lot better about how i look lmao i can't even tell if it's real or not. Remember you get get bioavailability if you plug!
7/3/2025, 10:17:49 AM
>>40267506
I would genuinely rather die than go back to the office. "Life" in an office is not life anyway.
I would genuinely rather die than go back to the office. "Life" in an office is not life anyway.
6/25/2025, 9:20:55 AM
Op here.
Slowly coming to the realization that the only things stopping me from killing myself is fear ill hurt my friends by doing it and love of my girlfriend.
Otherwise this is kind of the lowest ive ever been and i dont know how to get out of it. I really need depression meds ive been unmedicated for months now and that plus the hrt mood swings make every sad thought spiral. But im not on health insurance and last anti depressant i took made me feel numb which was almost worse.
I know this thread is dumb and weird i just wish i was normal so badly.
If i was cis i would feel so much less self conscious, my mom would accept me as her daughter and so would my dad. My girlfriend would see me as more attractive and i wouldnt feel bad about liking women. Strangers wouldnt see me as nearly as weird and i might even be seen as pleasant. My friends would probably enjoy my presence more to on account of me not becoming crazy dysphoric for seemingly minor reasons randomly. Id just in general be happier and healthier and i just wish for it so badly everyday i hate not passing i hate not being able to moveout i hate being such an emotionally eratic fuck up.
Slowly coming to the realization that the only things stopping me from killing myself is fear ill hurt my friends by doing it and love of my girlfriend.
Otherwise this is kind of the lowest ive ever been and i dont know how to get out of it. I really need depression meds ive been unmedicated for months now and that plus the hrt mood swings make every sad thought spiral. But im not on health insurance and last anti depressant i took made me feel numb which was almost worse.
I know this thread is dumb and weird i just wish i was normal so badly.
If i was cis i would feel so much less self conscious, my mom would accept me as her daughter and so would my dad. My girlfriend would see me as more attractive and i wouldnt feel bad about liking women. Strangers wouldnt see me as nearly as weird and i might even be seen as pleasant. My friends would probably enjoy my presence more to on account of me not becoming crazy dysphoric for seemingly minor reasons randomly. Id just in general be happier and healthier and i just wish for it so badly everyday i hate not passing i hate not being able to moveout i hate being such an emotionally eratic fuck up.
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