The slumlords didn't clean the filthy shack and wasp nests and broken door like they said they would a week before we picked up the keys
Parents are trying to install three ceiling fans that don't have electrical grounding
They've spent $2,000 so far this month
There's no central air and My dad is going to have to try to fit a window air conditioner unit in a side sliding window and seal it somehow
They are both very crabby and I can't help out
I wanted them to let me go die under a bridge and my mom is overworked with her job and me and both my parents having to take a lot of days off to relocate their subhuman failure son who should have committed suicide 8 years ago

>parents just dropped $1600 up front in cash for a cheap shitty house rental for me and I feel bad

I had to do telehealth because of bloody earplug infectioncel and I got mogged but the telehealth doctor even though she was an old lady but her face look tight and lean unlike me and I looked retarded and I did that thing where I couldn't even make eye contact by looking at her face on the screen not even looking at my camera I think she was cute but I felt so ugly and I looked retarded and I was wearing wrist braces and I looked pathetic and ugly and worthless and subhuman and I need to commit ritual suicide even doe she smiled a lot but it was all fake and she secretly wants me to commit suicide for being a disgusting ugly worthless subhuman dysgenic moidcel haircel eyecel voicecel dinosaur-armscel Even though I looked all right in the mirror but my phone camera picked up my subhumanity which I should commit suicide over I feel humiliated and dehumanized for having showed my face to an attractive woman again even though she was old and not even in the same state as me but I will never recover

Getting kicked out by the end of the month
Nerve damage spreading from my fingertips now past the backs of my hands, poison will circulate for the next 5 weeks
Only $700 in the bank, $500 owed to electric company soon, slumlords will overcharge for the several forehead dents and vinyl scratches
Mom won't let me live with her and thinks that I will lose my disability checks because of Darth Trump soon
Hands compromised can't live on a river or defend myself from crackheads
I'm too soft and pathetic I won't make it on the street
I request authorization from Jesus Christ to commit suicide

Text to speech
Day four
Persistent numbness prickling and shock in hands
24/7 cuck braces
Nerve damage probable
Body feverish and catabolic
Hard to feed myself
Eating saltines with two hands like a cuck
175 lb a few weeks ago, 165 last night
Eyes sunken
Shoulders collapsed
Face bloated
The poison will take 6 weeks to clear
I likely won't be able to sue for medical malpractice
Something smells like piss might have happened when I was on tramadol
Suicidality increasing
Westfallen
Status jover