I wish more women were open to casual relationships
My bf and I are in an open relationship but the only people down for a FWB setup have been other men and when I hook up with other guys I just feel like I would rather be fucking my bf
I need something different and as a strict top the only thing I can't get from my bf is pussy
I have no kinks he isn't able to fulfill. The only thing he can't do for me is be a cis woman
I feel like things would be easier if I was in a relationship with a woman looking to hookup with other men rather than vice versa

I spent so much time leading up to my current relationship improving myself, starting hobbies and generally just doing shit
18 months in and I've become consumed by my relationship. My bf is all I think about and I'm constantly wishing I could spend more time with him and have 1h30 min calls while I'm at work like we did when we first started dating
My bf pointed out to me that we need to start refocusing on ourselves and I'm finding it so rough to get back into my old hobbies because I keep thinking "wouldn't it be nice to do this with (bf)?"
We still love each other, go on dates and just exist with each other sometimes but I think my bf needs more time to himself and I need to stop obsessing over him

I never understood. if dysphoria is so bad and your goal is to be a woman, why date other women? Especially trans women who are going through the exact same shit you are? To a lesser extent, why date cis women who are basically the epitome of all you covet and will trigger dysphoria whenever you notice something about them that you don't have?
Transbians really are an enigma and they seem to be the majority of trans women
Every trans woman I know is a lesbian at least, or fem attracted bi
Actual cursed existence

>cuddling with my bf
>Fan in the window and light blanket over us, very comfy temp
>Cat joins and throws off the temperature so now I'm hot and uncomfortable
>But getting rid of that cat would mean shifting and waking up my bf
Wut do?