I'm dealing with constant pain, fatigue, and nausea from a crippling illness. I had to drop out of college, i can't hold a job, I can't do shit. I live with my family who are all retarded obnoxious adult toddlers who constantly shout, act irrationally and absurdly, and occasionally force me to do ridiculous physical labor that causes intense pain on every inch of my body, they outright tell me that if I won't they'll make me homeless, and of course because this is burgerstan I have no backup, I didnt even get accepted for partial disability after years of applying with a lawyer helping me out. I don't get any real sympathy either, aside from looking pale and exhausted I mostly just look like a normal guy to people, some parasitic mid 20s something living off his family. No one knows how sick I am, no one gets it, no description is enough, there isn't a single part of my body that works properly. Of course that will change soon because within the next few years, as I continue to get worse, i'll probably need a cane, and then a wheelchair.

I can't mentally escape through video games anymore, nothing makes me happy anymore. I can't kill myself though, i have an adorable little pet tortoise that only loves me and I'm certain my family will neglect/abuse it if I'm not around anymore. I do think about dying pretty frequently though.

>>212330366
>Ask a White New zealender where he's from
>He replies "Aotearoa"

>He doesn’t know what he dreamed last night – or ever: “I don’t dream.” Just hits the pillow at 11 and – “bang” – is out till around 5. He doesn’t have a favourite novel or poem, wasn’t scared of anything as a child. “Nothing. No phobias.” Hmmm, this is harder than I thought.

>>211969842
I had to visit London to get a VISA because I got caught speeding 8 years prior, a nice black lady interviewed me and made sure i wasnt a serial killer

>Europeans and Americans don't have Fresh milk
>just some random 5 year old heat-treated "milk" abomination