>>531969469
Autogynephilia functions more like an addiction than an orientation or identity. Understanding it as an addiction also gives insight into the escalating nature of the phenomenon. Men like you who crossdress start out doing it occasionally as a masturbatory exercise. Over time, the bliss wanes, and the AGP begins to chase the dragon. There are extensive psychiatric comorbidities among this population because addictions, even non-substance-use ones, are regularly part of a mentally ill person’s coping strategies.
Dissociation is the source of the "high" for the AGP. He'd achieve that perfect bliss in embodying any role that was deeply not him. This is why sexism is an absolute prerequisite for AGP. He sees women as another species, not just people who happen to be female. He must "other" women in order to reach that non-self place.
You cannot satisfy an addict. It's not chemically possible. Trying to do so doesn't help them and isn't good for you.