>>40297055
similar thing happened to me.
put on waiting list to access nhs care at 14, knew i'd be waiting a while so tried to selfmed, made the mistake of telling mum and she schiz'd out
hondosed by nhs at 19 after dropping out of uni and trying to kms. dose gradually increased.
out of nowhere nhs cut my dose to 2mg oral no blocker. first doctor i spoke to said she'd fix it after a review, second who reviewed it said i didn't have gd diagnosis and if i didn't legally change my documents and get therapy for bdd they wouldn't up it (she did say i passed better than like most of her patients tho lmfao)
been doing injections for 2 years since, male fail a lot in boymode and only kind of want to kms myself
things will get better but it takes time, make some friends who care about you and try to enjoy life to its fullest in the meantime