How do I bring myself to give a shit about anything in the world? Like I am incapable of caring about anything outside of myself? Everything seems empty and meaningless. And when I find joy in life people try and tear me down.

I have the sense that modern society is genuinely all bullshit. Like anything abstract that people take seriously only exists in our minds. Our bureaucratic way of life is BS. Corporate America is BS. Beyond our life and concrete reality there is nothing else.

I have the sense that modern society is genuinely all bullshit. Like anything abstract that people take seriously only exists in our minds. Our bureaucratic way of life is BS. Corporate America is BS. Beyond our life and concrete reality there is nothing else.

How am I meant to tolerate the hideousness of modern life? How can I learn self approval instead of external approval?

I have been spending a great deal of time alone and find that I am at peace with myself. Then I find that I am spiritually filled. I want to go out into the world again and interact with people. Then I do and what happens? People are so awful in general that I remember why I spent so much time alone in the first place. I go back to being alone. Can anyone relate?

>>715711286
>you will never pop cocaine drops with your school friends at recess

>>712762792
I have unironically played nothing but RimWorld in the past 3 weeks.
>I still can't get past the first year and I refuse to play anything but naked brutality without any tech