>>719718337
Life is how we perceive it and for Chris life right now is an adventurous struggle between good and evil.
Do you slowly fade away into nothingness or do you remain in the safety of morning cartoon ignorance?

Unable to stop my weight loss my body as a final act of spite has entered a near permanent state of bloatedness in order to obfuscate my progress. Are there any non fatal things I can do to punish it for betraying me?

Not gonna lie, it’s getting harder and harder to smile.

I lost approximately 15,382 USD gambling, I have $0 at the moment. I can not even afford a haircut.

I still have my job, it pays $4,270 a month and it is remote

But I want other ways to make money to accelerate making back the $15k so that I no longer feel bad

I dated one particular girl who was psychopathic, but at first she was sweet.

That’s what drew me into her, we were studying together and slowly but surely we began talking about personal stuff and that’s when I knew that she just likes me so I made the move and layed it out to her that I also love her.

Initially she was still sweet and nice until she began becoming angry at me, admittably sometimes it’s my fault but the reaction is note-worthy. And when she’s angry she’s a whole different person. She’s terrifying. It’s almost like that’s when her mask slips.

She would always come back and apologize after this irratic behavior, and I forgave her the first two times but after the third time (which happened last month so far) I just didn’t say a word, I began completely ghosting her. As you can guess she didn’t take me ignoring her kindly.

I am not in school anymore so there is no way to see her IRL anymore, (thank fuck) but I see her long texts of her blaming me for verbally abusing and disrespecting me (why do women do this?) she was saying in her text that I am being “cruel“ for treating her like this (Ignoring you? Really? But what you did to me isn’t cruel?) As well as minimizing her disrespecting me and insulting me simultaneously, this behavior is so disgusting that it is interesting.

Not only am I not going to forgive her, but I won’t even give her the satisfaction of a response. Instead I will focus on my life.

Imagine if I married her, I was seriously considering it at one point. She would have taken my kids and kicked me out of the house.

I probably would have killed myself in this alternative universe.

I am putting this output here because I really don’t even feel like looking at her let alone talking with her, we’re fucking done. Yet I feel like I want to express myself.

Only serious people because I want genuine help with this

My mom works as a secretary in a company far away from our home

She is very smart and hard working, healthy and good looking. That’s what makes me nervous, I wish she was ugly. Because I already know a male co-worker would be into her and I don’t like the thought of it one bit.

One day she came home with groceries, that day was when my nightmare would be confirmed. I had a night shift that day so I was home when that happened. She put her phone in the living room while she began moving the groceries to the fridge. I was going to help her but I coincidentally saw a notification popping up in her phone it was locked but I still saw the notification of someone, likely a co-worker, flirting with her. Now I feel like killing him. Obviously I am not going to do anything illegal but I feel furious.

Any help please?

please tell me i didn't bought the Ethereum top

I also plead “not good”

>so burnt out from work and overtime lately that I don’t even have the mental to play vidya when I finally get to my day off (actually just morning, I go back in about 3 hours for the night tour)
>soft-NEETed for 2 months recently, and that just drove me stir-crazy instead to the point of being disgusted at myself for loafing around all the time instead

>3 months left until the World Cup
>Mexico still doesn't have a team.

>>714595862
>/utg/ trannies in this thread
Go back to your containment board please

>>714173654
>psychological horror game
>look outside
>psychological horror game

>>5006675
I almost flipped out and started crying at work today because the song that was playing when my cat died came on the speaker. Had to skip it. I have two cats now but I miss my angels

>>527850682
>Abyss chests

How can I detach myself from the physical plane?

It's becoming increasingly difficult for me to find value in the natural, physical world and what it entails. I feel like if this feeling continues, I'll end up killing myself, which I don't want. I keep blaming myself and thinking that if I were to reincarnate into another person with different knowledge, only then would I be able to be happy.

I long for the idea of erasing my memories or losing my current identity just to feel comfortable in my body.

Does anyone know what I should do? I feel unable to live. I feel like I'm being judged and refuted all the time.