>22, born with high functioning autism
>stuck in probably the worst despair in my life for the past month or so
>forced to drop university earlier this year after flopping out and realizing i absolutely hated the major and career field i was about to enter
>forced to practically drift away from all of my few irl friends, had to go through a hard breakup convo with my gf who lived nearby my old uni
>back to my old deadend part-time job that refuses to give me more than 3 shifts per week, parents keep begging me to get a full-time job despite nobody fucking hiring, even if i do go full-time i'll probably just end up losing time on the few things on this earth that bring me happiness
>know that neurodivergent people can reach heights barely accomplishable by human (Satoshi Tajiri, Bill Gates, Tim Burton, etc.), but can also can easily fall into lolcow territory (Chris-Chan, WorldofT-Shirts, MovieBob, etc).

ive genuinely never been more scared about my future until the past month, i know that i need to get back into uni or find some passion back into my life but fuck there's practically nothing that i'm good at in life
im scared to fuck up again