>>724508354
He was an alcoholic and a womanizer. My mom got pregnant at 15 and had to run away a few months after I was born because he beat her up.
Her deeply Catholic family rejected her for getting pregnant at such a young age without being married and then for running away so in reality she had to raise me all alone while working part time and doing college.
He continued stalking her until she got a restraining order against him. An order that he broke so he ended up in jail for a while.
Meanwhile I was home alone most of the time so I had to "grow up" fast. That, and the fact that I became my mom's only family and emotional support, means that I got a stunted emotional development, I put everyone's needs before mine to my own detriment and I developed unhealthy incestuous feelings towards my mother.
In other words: I am a sick fuck and a loser without ambitions because I perceive my own needs as unimportant or even harmful.