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I was already an atheist from a young age due to my experience with religion just being around scared and emotionally stunted adults coping with their own mortality and inability to embrace change. Most of my family was Christian in one way or another, and the more I read and researched, the more it just seemed like nonsense. Talked to priests, clerics, etc etc etc over the years and nothing ever convinced me that there was any greater intelligence or divine intervention. I think there's tons of holes in most scientific theories, before anyone jumps at me about that but I don't think that spirituality or the divine closes the gap on any of that either.
Five years ago, I knew for sure. Not going to type it all out here, but I did a large mushroom dose, and it just kind of clicked, how religious thinking starts, I just sort of "got it." There's no god or intelligent creation or any of that, and I'll never belive that there are, but I can understand how we arrived at that conclusion, with hundereds or more variants on the concept. All that said, I think out of all the attempts to explain the human experience/cosmos/energy/what the fuck ever, Gnosticism seems like the one that's closest to whatever the "truth" is.
