>>81795220
i have always been alone and i have always enjoyed my solitude. i read anons posts about being sad or missing something or having dreams of doing something else, but i dont really have dreams or picture myself doing something else than what i am already doing. at one point its like something just descended down over my head and i have been incapable of affect or reacting to my circumstances since. i think i pretty much just became schizoid out of necessity during my teens and never really came back after that. i keep thinking that some sense of regret or sadness will come one day but it never does, that part of my brain just shut down
