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3rd percentile 18 year old girl
10th percentile 15.5 year old girl
25th percentile 14 year old girl
50th percentile 12.5 year old girl

>>76343919
It takes up 95-98% of my energy. I don't have hobbies or passions (outside of those that burn calories, which serve as an avenue of listening to podcasts) or the energy to seek them out. Every social call feels like a threat. I'm chronically irritated with others and can't be present because I'm preoccupied with hunger and my calorie budget.

In late November, I let go... gained 11 months of progress back in weeks, fatter than ever and still ravenous despite eating 3,500-5,000 kcal/d. (Granted I have an ED and probably a dash of clinical depression causing anhedonia, but I don't see the constant mental gymnastics, lack of energy and irritability being any different from others).

It's not like I can just give up restricting once I reach my GW. Maintaining will be even more miserable; I'lI lose the motivational effect of linear progress, and my TDEE will be lower (it was this combination that led me to give up in November. I plateu'd over summer, gained from 43 to 44 and remained stuck there as my life fell apart (moved in with my mom).

Anon vasker sengetøj hyppigere end de fleste skifter bukser. Jeg kan ikke tåle at vågne efter en tropenat med røvsved og fedtet hud mod mit pudebetræk og tænke "det er nok bare sån, det er." Det er ikke bare sån det er! Vi er nødt til at have en voksen samtale om hygiejne i Danmark. Det også et problem at vi tørrer røv med papir. Hvis hunden skider på gulvet vill det da ikke være tilfredsstillende bare at tørre det op med køkkenrulle.

I en perfekt verden havde jeg været en fin 2D pige der hverken svedet eller skider. Dette var logikken bag den Bryan Johnson protokol jeg kørte inden det stak af: Oprethold frihed fra død længe nok til overføre min bevidsthed til en computer.

I want to be an anime girl

anime

make anime real