>>40491242
>so i am killing them and need to die
Absolutely not! While the other Anon is right that being clingily is indeed unattractive, you need to take it slow and learn to not be so clingy, gradually, and not be so worried about your BF leaving you. If the relationship is going well, then you will not have cause to be worried about him leaving you, if it isn't, then well, maybe it wasn't meant to be in the first place? Not everyone in the world is a manipulative PoS so you'd have other opportunities.
Also, never ever beat yourself up and demean yourself over these things, that just creates this horrible loop of constant negative thoughts, rememeber, thinking about something, even negative, causes you to think of it more. So be kind to yourself, if there's something you think is wrong with you, don't say "I suck and should die" instead say "I do not like this part of me, what went wrong and how can work towards fixing this?"
