30+ gamer thread

>>716292421 (OP)
Need OLGF

>>716292421 (OP)

i wasted all my life on video games

>tfw turned 33 this month
>that random jolt of awareness of mortality
>tfw it sinks in once again that you WILL die and there is literally nothing you can do
It makes me feel so fucking depressed. I know eventually I'll forget about it and go back to living my life but at some point again that random jolt of electricity will hit me again and that panic will set in that I have finite amount of time on this planet. I really should get my shit together and call my ex and tell her how I feel instead of ignoring her texts....I know I probably won't though.

>>716294760
Also I forgot to ask: any game for these feels? I've been playing through Dishonored but I've been finding it boring as shit.

>>716294821
majora's mask

>>716294760
You mean that sort of hot feeling you get in your chest?

It happens to everyone sometimes I think

>>716294760
I felt that a ton during 27/28. I found the feeling sticks when my life sucks (stressed from dead end job/depression).
31 and haven't felt it as bad since

>>716295008
Nah it's more like a crazy head rush of light headedness. It's sorta like that feeling you get when you stand up too fast.
>>716295275
Yeah I've had this feeling before...every couple of years that feeling comes flooding back.
>I found the feeling sticks when my life sucks
Yeah I totally get that. When I was working and in a relationship I didn't really get that feeling at all. Maybe it was because I was so distracted by bullshit in life. I just don't know anymore man.

>>716294760
I used to cry myself to sleep when I was 10 because I realized Im gonna die someday.
Now I just fap when the feeling hits me.

>>716295459
do you feel like your life sucks *now*? Do you have anything long term you're striving for, and more importantly, on the road to achieving? That may help.

My last job depressed the fuck out of me and took up all my time and energy. I couldn't pursue hobbies, and didn't have the passion nor energy to climb its ladder and that made every night filled with the feeling you described.

Sometimes, if I fell asleep before I got a panic attack about my own mortality, I would experience night terrors and wake up at like 4am with my body coursing(sp?) adrenaline

We are only allowed to play cracked games and Australian approved games lmao
back to hard drugs i guess

>>716295736
does australia ban good games?

>>716294760
32, felt like this when I was 20. Now I just don't care. Life is not THAT interesting. When I'll die, I'll die. Already seen most of it anyway. Everything is just a repeat. Life doesn't really have that much content when you think about it.

Should I start Bananza or Death Stranding 2 first

>>716295528
The only time that feeling ever made me cry was when I was 10 too. I tried pretending to be dead. I cut everything off in the house. No TV. No lights. No anything. Just laid down in bed and closed my eyes and just tried to imagine being dead and it just made me cry. I don't think I thought about death again until I was in my mid 20s.
>>716295656
Yeah I guess I can say so. I've been NEET for the past 4 months. I haven't even tried finding new work or anything. I can't really say I'm depressed but I just feel nothingness a lot. Just no motivation or purpose.
>>716296424
I mean that's one way to look at it I suppose.

>>716292421 (OP)
>tfw turn 30 this year
>working at KFC

>tfw probably won't live to my 60s
>life is already over half over
it's a weird feeling.

>>716292421 (OP)
34. playing Marvel vs Capcom 2 on Switch. when I get home I will play Tekken 8

>>716293090
I know people in the tech industry who gets jolted whenever they hear a certain ringtone or text message sounds. They've become so fearful of receiving late night calls from their company cellphones that even quitting their previous position, it scarred them so deeply that they can't get rid of the stigma.

>>716294760
Hey at least you survived the gommage

>>716293287
Post your highest play time. I actually did what you claimed to have done.

>>716297048
What's wrong with that? Do you think anyone who orders KFC cares how old the person making their food is? No, and that's why you should never feel bad.

>>716294760
What's scarier, realizing you will die, or realizing that quantum immortality is real and you won't die?

>>716297048
>30 and working fast food
I'm so so sorry anon.
>>716297140
>tfw probably won't live to my 60s
Why? Are you really really fat? Smoker? Abuse drugs? Or just shit genetics and sickly?
>>716299548
I don't even know what that means anon.

>>716292421 (OP)
>currently playing Girls Frontline 2
>the only reason I'm not also playing Blue Archive, ZZZ and Uma Musume is because the wagie life doesn't leave me with enough time to play more than one gacha
How do I make myself stop liking gachaslop so goddamn much?
It's not even a money issue because I've always been 100% F2P

>>716292421 (OP)
>printing BI stuff
nigga how about you share the powerbi link with me instead

>>716299884
>How do I make myself stop liking gachaslop so goddamn much?

You just said you're a wagie, and gacha is the perfect kind of game for you. If you don't want to play a multiplayer game, then gacha is how you game in short bursts. What else are you going to play? Are you going to play this: >>716299705
No, because everyone is a little bitch who doesn't want to get raped and killed, so they don't have many options.

>>716299884
I'm on the opposite end of the spectrum it seems
I tried making myself like gachas because that way I'd have something to play on lunch break.
But I just can't bring myself to stick with it, they just bore me to tears

>>716299847
I just read some posts about "quantum immortality" and the shit these dudes were talking about (mostly nightmares where they wake up screaming or some shit) is hilarious kek realistically though, I think death is more scary. Just for the fact that all I've ever known is my existence. Like I can't even simulate what death is like because all I've ever known is existing. It's literally impossible to me. And to me that's terrifying. I know people just say "well just imagine what you were doing before you born" but that's the thing I can't because I didn't fucking exist...that's the scary part. I can't imagine the ride actually ending but knowing that it will no matter what you do is horrifying. Whether you're a good person, a loving person, a piece of shit, whether you're a drug addict, a sex worker, a preacher, a doctor, it doesn't matter. On the flip side I wouldn't want to be immortal either, which I know that sounds stupid since I'm bitching about death. I guess I just wish we had more time. We always think there's going to be more time until there isn't. You'll have more time to do "X, Y, or Z", you'll have time to spend with your parents, or friends or family. You'll have more time to to read that book or play that game. Until you don't. If we all lived for at least 200-300 years I think I'd be okay with that. Like I feel like you could pretty much do everything you want to accomplish in 2-3 centuries worth of time.

>>716300238
>If we all lived for at least 200-300 years I think I'd be okay with that.

Why do you need 200-300 years of posting on 4chan? Can you even see yourself, or are you like everyone else on this board?

>>716300310
>200-300 years of posting on 4chan
I genuinely hope and pray to whatever is up in the sky that if we lived for 200-300 years, nobody would waste it doing nothing but posting on 4chan for 300 years. And the sad part is that even though I say that, I know there would definitely be people like that out there.

>>716300427
You're on 4chan right now. Why are you better than anyone else who uses 4chan?

>>716295736
...you're too dumb to pirate?

I'm nearly 33 and I've been stuck in the "prefer to be alone, yet I hate being lonely" loop since I was a teenager. Albeit I am far more numb to it now since I hit that mental breakdown in my mid-20s.

>>716293287
>i wasted all my life on video games
How long? I'm 40 this year

>>716292421 (OP)
LONDON

>>716300670
>I'm 40 this year

What's your highest play time in a video game? I've posted mine: >>716299705
Everyone says they played games all their life, but I have no idea what they mean. Do they mean they played some bing bing wahoo when they were a kid or some shit.

I want to get drunk. I don't have work tomorrow but don't know if I should

>>716292421 (OP)
white shirt + pencil skirt + dark pantyhose + heels = perfection

>>716300736
Well I quit WOW when I did /played one time around Cata/Mists and just on my MAIN character it was nearly 2 years of play time. That's when I quit WOW. Obviously I can't evidence it because I haven't played since then. But outside of that I have 2000+ hours in MHFU. I had 1000+ in MH3U, and in Dragons Dogma I probably have over 1000+ in total if I added up all the systems I own the game over. Then add a lifetime of playing games on every system since the NES/Amiga days.

>>716300736
>Everyone says they played games all their life, but I have no idea what they mean.
My first game was Virtua Fighter 2 when I was 3-years-old, it's one of my earliest conscious memories. I've been playing video games daily since then, to the point I don't think there's more than 50-100 days in my life where I haven't touched a PC or console, and most of that was being grounded as a kid.

>>716300908
Thanks for not knowing what the word highest means. It's singular. I have 20k hours of Dota 2, and I played Warcraft 3 Dota too. Even I played WoW, so your WoW time isn't impressive.
Do you know Limewire? I downloaded Vanilla WoW from Limewire. I've been around.

>>716301029
Why does it matter how long I played ONE game? and Limewire? That shit was miles after Napster etc. That's when there was tons of P2P programs like Bearshare etc.

>>716301148
>Why does it matter how long I played ONE game?

Because if someone can play one game all their life like I did, it would also mean they were here on 4chan during that time. I ask for highest time because it's like an oldfag test. I think I'm the only oldfag left. I came here from a Warcraft 3 forum.

>>716294760
same except 34
Daily reminder that you're alive right now. This is it. Life is what you do.
Yesterday I went MIA from work and went swimming in a lake. The water was 20 degrees C. Nobody said anything because nobody cares. It was nice.
YOLO.

>>716301206
Oh well I'm probably a mid-fag. I came around 2009/10 but I'm not really one who plays the same game for 10k hours. If I'm older than you I've definitely played more.

>>716301332
>If I'm older than you I've definitely played more.

Well, I'll believe you when you post a play time. If you can't, then what you have to say doesn't matter. I've posted my Dota 2 play time, and you have your lies.

>>716301448
>Well, I'll believe you when you post a play time.
Hard to do when I'm mainly a console gamer. But it's okay bro you win. Didn't know it was a contest.

>>716301029
>I have 20k hours of Dota 2
what the fuck.

>>716300467
>You're on 4chan right now.
Yes it's 4AM and I'm not in the mood to play anything, so I'm trying to have a meaningful discussion about life.
>Why are you better than anyone else who uses 4chan?
Who said I was?

>>716301623
>it's okay bro you win

No, I don't win. You don't understand at all. When I talk about myself, I'm looking for my people. Guess what? They don't exist. You guys can talk to each other now. Anything I say is just an attempt to get information from others, and I've learned enough.

don't know what to play
everything i want to play is early access or unreleased

>>716301726
Do you not have a backlog? I haven't been playing much shit lately but I at least have been watching a ton of shows/movies that were on my backlog. I think by the end of the year, I will have watched almost all the TV series I have backlogged. My only issue is that I still have a ton of movies/anime I'll need to watch. As well as TV shows currently airing that will eventually need to be watched. The only good thing I can say is that I've been playing less online multiplayer bullshit this year and trying to focus on the backlog. I've finished 24 games so far this year, which doesn't even dent it but I guess it's better than nothing right.

>>716298623
It's the Teams ringtone for me. Good thing I don't use any of that shit outside of work, though sometimes you hear it in modern shows.

Games I've played this year.
>FF7 Rebirth - Shit/forced myself through it
>Kingdom Come 2 - Got around halfway, never went back, but will still complete at some point
>LAD Pirate - Was decent, but very short
>Suikoden - This was a impulse purchase because I'm nostalgia fag, still playing through 2
>Expedition 33 - Probably my GOTY
>Death Stranding 2 - Enjoyed, but worse story than 1.

GAME ON!!

>>716297140
a) you weren't really conscious for your first 5 years so that doesn't count
b) average life expectancy goes up every year and when it's our time to die it will be even higher than today
c) stress is the big killer and NEETs don't stress about anything
In conclusion, my life is totally just getting started and I'm NOT in denial

>>716300619
>yet I hate being lonely
I don't get this part thankfully, but I do sometimes get the feeling I should be ashamed of being this happy being alone. But then I remember my parents' divorce and it goes away instantly.

>>716302235
Assuming you played LAD8, is E33 better than that in terms of gameplay? I hope it's better in terms of story

>>716302603
>But then I remember my parents' divorce
Hm weird. I do wonder if my parents divorce subconciously had a huge effect on my relationship thoughts too. Luckily I went to Uni and had a great 5 years of nightlife, one night stands etc, but then once I got a job and reached mid 20s I've basically been living on my own in limbo for 15+ years. I own my house, car etc and I work from home. Whilst I love my own time I barely socialise now outside of maybe seeing friends on a birthday night out once a year or something.

>>716302668
Completely different games, Yakuza games always have more stuff to do. E33 is a story based turn based RPG, however it does have NG+ which I found is a nice touch.

>>716302845
What do single people do in a house? I'm always confused by that. I once lived alone in a 3 room apartment and I didn't know what to do with 2 rooms. What do you do with an entire house

>>716302995
Same, I have a whole third floor I don't use

30 and a complete loser whos never even kissed a girl
and im bored of video gaems

>>716302995
>What do you do with an entire house
What's that even mean? 3-Bed house. One room is my office/PC room, so work and gaming if I'm playing on PC. Spare room with my cupboards/clothes and a drag out bed if anyone wants to chill over. Bathroom is bathroom. Kitchen is kitchen. Main bedroom is my bedroom. Living room is for console gaming/watching movies etc.

>>716302845
It certainly had a huge impact on me, I think people underestimate not only how bad the divorce itself but also the broken family is. Every divorce is basically a form of child abuse unless it is to save the child from worse abuse.

>>716294760
I’m more terrified of my parents dying

>>716302995
Nothing. My bedroom is big enough to fit the bed, recliner, TV, and computer desk so the rest of my house is empty. I have no furniture whatsoever in any of the other rooms, I only use their closets to store things.

>>716301940
>backlog drone who feels the need to play games just because they exist, regardless of quality
I wish I could have this mentality. You'd never run out of games

>>716302995
Not that anon, my house isn't huge but my bottom floor/1st floor is living room and kitchen where I spend most of my time, my pc is in the living room with a bunch of display cabinets and bookshelves that hold a lot of figures, manga, LNs and games. 2nd floor is bathroom, my own bedroom with even more figures and a bedroom used as storage room. 3rd floor has my laundry room and a completely unused bedroom.

>>716303240
im less afraid of them dying, more afraid of looking after them as I get old.
i'll have to look after them, alone

>>716303173
The whole sleeping in a different room thing is a meme spread by real estate salesmen. And you can put a big screen right next to your PC. And you can have a foldable bed for guests. And you can remember that you are a man and don't need an entire room for storing clothes and accessories. You can still have a bathroom though. I'm torn on kitchen, having a kitchen in the same room is very convenient because you can always hear how your food is doing while you're at your PC. But the smells are invasive so it's a controversial issue.

>>716292421 (OP)
Turned 36 this year. I am enjoying my third play through of elden ring. then I'm going to give Alan Wake 2 a spin.

Gotta a vacation coming up in August, gotta make it count!

>>716302995
i rented this granny flat before, although it was more like a small house with two bedrooms. i stayed there a year and only stepped foot in the other room like 10 times.

>>716303603
based. i have one in october in japan, where are you going?

>>716303206
>Every divorce is basically a form of child abuse
Completely agreed. I cannot comprehend what kind of parents would get a divorce. You're prioritizing your own happiness over the happiness of your kids and potentially the other parent (if the divorce is mostly one-sided). How selfish can you be that you think you deserve happiness at the expense of so many other people?

>>716292421 (OP)
32, only been playing live service kusoge, Shadowverse 2 and fucking around with AI chatbots on Chub because setting up a Python server for handling game logic in SillyTavern's a pain in the ass. Will probably do another Rimworld run when my favourite mods get updated.

>>716303206
I've basically grown up watching nearly every couple, married or not split up. Parents, cousins, aunt/uncle etc divorced, even my friends who are still with their wives complain all the time, and then people still ask me "Why have you never got yourself a Girlfriend" etc. It's hilarious.

>>716303874
A lot of women actually believe that raising kids on their own would be better for the kids. What do you expect, they're delusional

>41
>tfw diabetes

Take care of your health, anon.

>>716304203
im trying i plan to get back in the gym in september but right now im just doing little workouts at home

>>716303206
>>716303874
I was happy that my parents got a divorce. It was better for me and my brother to have them live apart.
They were obviously staying together "for the kids" but we were much happier when everyone seperated.

>have all the time in the world for vidya (wizard, tism, WFH, etc)
>still don't play anything except for the occasional boomer shooter for 15-20 minute sessions
>read through the entire animorphs series instead

>>716304203
How much sugar did you eat every day?

playtime is irrelevant
i started playing games when tha shit wasn't tracked you fraud
i probably have 10k+ in 1.6 alone
what it means to waste one life playing videogames is that when i'm not playing em i'm thinking about em or reading about em or watching videos about em
it never stops
while you were out fucking bitches and friending around i was studying the vidya

>>716304203
I had a gastroscopy done a few days ago and I've had the triple whammy sore throat+nasal congestion+productive cough since, and I can't hit the gym for a week as I had a polyp removed. Shit sucks.

>>716304203
I assume Type 2 if you got it at an older age? I've been drinking every day for maybe the past 3 years, sometimes even a bottle of vodka and still not got it. Apparently you can get it by drinking heavily but clearly I'm somehow immune.

>Gonna be a dad in December
Got nothing vidya game related to say, but I'm excited

>>716292421 (OP)
Just turned 30
does it get any better? Is it too late for me now?

>>716304203
Most baby disease ever. Just stop eating sugar and start eating 90%+ red meat.

>>716298623
>having a stock sound on your phone
bane of the normie, I never heard anyone else use my alert/ringtone and it's not because I use some anime song because I'm not retarded
how is this a thing? tech people are not so low iq to leave stock settings

>>716305192
>dies of kidney failure from too much proteins
fucking do it

>>716304203
just sunk a can of red bull and am about to sink another, fuck you

>>716305349
>dies of kidney failure from too much proteins
Source?

>>716305192
https://www.today.com/health/diet-fitness/carnivore-diet-cholesterol-hands-rcna192565

You're going to fucking die so horribly of arteriosclerosis and heart disease.

>>716305396
>>716305421
>source
>strokes out at 38 and sits in wheelchair
>brain have full of LDL

>>716305421
>The man was eating only animal products, including meat, pounds of cheese and sticks of butter.
>POUNDS OF CHEESE
>STICKS OF BUTTER
There's your problem. Not the meat.

>>716293090
>those speech bubbles
literally "SAAR DO NOT REDEEM" xD

>>716304679
Vidya alone gets boring fast, I've always been seeking other forms of entertainment that synergise well like anime, history related shit on youtube.
Lately for stimulus I've been getting into more RL activities like body building and gunpla/modelling kits which is more fun than I thought.

>>716293090
>>716292421 (OP)
if you're like that in an office environment you're a collosal dunce
i stopped giving a fuck about deadlines and shit and live has never been better
t 42yo

>>716305396
>Consumption of red, white, and processed meat and odds of developing kidney damage and diabetic nephropathy (DN) in women: a case control study
https://www.nature.com/articles/s41598-024-59097-1
>inb4 it was a study on women
there is no such thing as a "female" kidney
fuck around.. find out
besides we both know you cannot afford your baby dream of the all meat diet

animals have very different kidneys from humans, they can eat meats and more
>Their kidneys are specifically adapted to conserve water. They can obtain moisture from the food they eat and by licking the dew that forms in their dens.

>>716292421 (OP)
>29
lmao boomers. I have my whole life ahead of me.

>>716305482
>There's your problem. Not the meat.
>a cow is not an animal
>bovine fat in milk is different from bovine fat in meat
spot. the. retard.

>>716305396
>source
vegan made it up
I have 0 kidney issues and have eaten 100% red meat for the last 2 years. Also lost 100lbs.

>>716305584
But you won't get promoted that way

>>716305252

Most people in tech aren't fifteen years old trying to flex their "personality" with a ringtone. They usually just can't be bothered to change it.

>>716305752
>get promoted
>money stays mostly the same
>now have more work and stress
i see managers at my office and i'd rather be unemployed than go what they go through
fuck promotions nigga

>>716303576
>The whole sleeping in a different room thing is a meme spread by real estate salesmen
There are actual psychological benefits to your bed being in a different, isolated room away from your TV or PC. Your brain is simple to condition, and the simple routine of walking into that solo bedroom is enough to tell your brain "time for sleep." A lot of modern sleep problems stem from people's beds being in close proximity to dopamine-rich entertainment on their phones or handheld gaming devices, so your brain starts associating bed with high stimulation. Casually masturbating in bed also fucks with your sleep pattern too.

>>716305640
>human health studies with absolutely 0 control
>A FUCKING QUESTIONAIRE
>n = 105
>woman only
>processed meat
into the fucking trash it goes
you can't read studies and you're retarded

Am I the only one who is noticing how much your body declines in your 30s? Like when I was in my 20s I could stay up all night playing video games till 3 am in the morning, get up in the afternoon, do zero exercise, eat like shit, and you still feel great. But now I need to exercise every day or Igrt a sore back from sitting down all day.

>>716305702
>bovine fat in milk is different from bovine fat in meat
Correct.

>>716293090
Holy shit that ethernet cable is fucking TINY

>>716305829
Hard work is always rewarded with more work. You won’t be rewarded for going above and beyond. That just becomes your new baseline for performance.

>>716305421
>extremely rare disorder
>CARNIVORE DID THIS
desperate veganoid

>>716305640
>red, white, and processed meat
>processed meat
Notice how they snuck that in there to try and demonize actual food? Of course you didn't, you're an idiot.

>>716305640
I don't want an all meat diet, but that study is bogus. Thanks for confirming it's not trustworthy or valid.

>>716305980
not always anon
in my case, hard work was rewarded with just more retarded work nobody else could do and it got dumped on me simply because i demonstrated that i can learn things

i literally did work of other people simply because they were unable or unwilling to learn basic spreadhseet formulas or some shit. cirtical infrastructure in this company relies on my knowing which fucking formulas do what. i could die tomorrow and they'd have zero knowledge about how any of this works

>>716306126
>not always anon
>*proceeds to decribe how his work led to yet more work*
:/

>>716305702
It's funny you post cats because based on nitrogen isotope testing of the long bones of our human ancestors and immediate ancestors (from 1 million years ago to 15k years ago) humans have been the most carnivorous animals on the planet, even more so that cats, lions, and tigers and even eating said animals.

>>716306207
That's not true.
Humans are omnivores.

>have a nice job and good savings
>still stuck in my turbo jew student days of no money
>refuse to pay more than $20 for a game
>held out on buying a switch until a better price that never came
and now i will wait for a good switch 2 sale

>>716306184
what i wanted to point out was that it was other depts responsibilities, but you're right

>>716306316
same here anon
i finally earn good money and i have a mental block about spending any of it on myself
i'm on 50k+ now

>>716306110
It's a fucking food questionnaire anyway, the "study" should only be used in the emergency that you run out of toilet paper. Human health "science" will never be able to "study" anything because actual Scientific testing on humans with control is completely fucking unethical for obvious reasons. This is why they cling to rat studies, which also can't tell shit about human health and diet because we're not rats.

>>716306293
If humans are omnivores then so are cats, dogs, wolves, tigers, lions etc etc
btw common pets only get "human" diseases when being fed "pet food". Pet food is made of the same plant garbage that we eat.

>>716306316
what games are you getting for the switch 2?

>>716306316
Well I was the same, and honestly it's sensible.
Now I've had kids I am very grateful that I saved instead of spent.

>>716306526
>If humans are omnivores then so are cats, dogs, wolves, tigers, lions etc etc
Correct. They are.
They have specialised teeth etc for hunting, but they eat what they can get.

>>716297048
fuck that rough. hang in there

>>716306696
>everything is a omnivore
well at least you're consistent with your retardation, I can admire that

>>716306316
I grew up poor and I still put half my paycheck into savings because my parents were constantly stressing about something breaking that we couldn’t afford to fix. I fret about buying a new pair of shoes despite having five figures in savings.

>>716306892
Why do you think humans are not omnivores?
Please, elaborate.

>>716292421 (OP)
need to sniff and kiss nylon feet

>>716306316
I'm with you.
I have some money right now but spending 40€ in the Steam Summer Sale felt weird.

>>716306696
are you familiar with the term "Obligate carnivore"?

>>716306684
how do you do fellow channer

>spend my teens and 20s working a shitty retail job and playing videogames
>only barely managed to lose my virginity
>hit 30 and realize how empty my life is
>decide to go back to uni and get an education using my savings
>feel insanely awkward attending lectures and having to hang around 20 year olds
This feels like a mistake.

>>716307091
Yes I am.

>>716305584
She's only 25 years old, she'll learn with time.

>>716307149
could be worse, you could be in the same situation but in a female oriented degree

>>716307520
What degree? I'm doing CS so it's pretty much 95% dudes who play coomer gachas in public.

>>716293090
>woman with massive tits to represent the average man
for what purpose?

>>716307520
not him, but
>tfw education major

>>716307205
No you're not kek. You could argue that humans are not obligate but are facultative, but even that I disagree.
Humans are arguably obligate carnivores too, because cats get the same diseases as humans when fed the same plant slop diet. So our modern plant based diet is afflicting us the same exact way it diseases other obligate carnivores. But that's not a hill I'm going to die on because humans can tolerate plant poisons a bit better than dogs and cats, but then again we tolerate almost all environmental poisons really fucking well. Humans maxed out int/res stats.

>>716303240
>I’m more terrified of my parents dying
Same and it's a really bad feeling.

>>716294760
I get that feeling only because I'm alone and lonely as fuck.

>>716307690
>Not a single source to support his claims
ok

>>716307598
nursing

>>716305520
i have a job and i work out, read a book occasionally, watch old movies and shows
but those are secondary

>>716294760
>>tfw it sinks in once again that you WILL die and there is literally nothing you can do
Repent and read the Bible. He prepared a place for you, anon kun <3

>>716303542
I already do it. It looks worse than it feels.

I turned 50 this year and have been enjoying Donkey Kong Bananza, though my wife says it looks boring. I dont know. I treat it like a Bugs Bunny simulator the way you can burrow and pop out from the ground.

>>716294760
Whenever I feel that way I just remember the classic film Its a Wonderful Life.

>>716292421 (OP)
Today is my birthday. I joined the 30 club. Bros...

>>716307976
Doing anything to celebrate?

>>716307791
It really could always be worse huh........

>>716307762
https://www.semanticscholar.org/paper/The-evolution-of-the-human-trophic-level-during-the-Ben-Dor-Sirtoli/fc6fe716ae7155c99bfd2696608c4dc50d210dbd

>>716307149
Weird, I'm the opposite. As I've got older I literally couldn't care about situations like that anymore.

>>716307612
cute things are cute

>>716308204
Cool, now quote the exact line that proves your claim to be true.
Go ahead. You did read the paper before linking it, right anon?

>>716307612
Big tits are the best thing in the universe.

>>716293090
>25
i'm 27 and never had a job

>>716308353
I'm not spoonfeeding you on stable isotope testing.
If you wanted a "LE SOURCE" on cats getting human diseases from cat food just fucking google it, wild cats and dogs don't get beetus.

>>716308675
>He hasn't read his own "source"
HAHAHAHAHA!

>>716294760
It took you 33 years? Nigga I had this moment as a 5 year old, bawled my eyes out, and it's been smooth sailing since.

>>716308662
Aw hell naw.

>>716308727
>he can't read 4 extremely easy to read graphs
You're dumb as fuck bro. I don't expect you to understand exactly how isotope testing works, but if you can't read those data sets the way they're presented then you're really not capable of having this conversation.

>>716292421 (OP)
35, no social life outside of work acquaintances and immediate family.
I'm almost guaranteed to die alone.

>>716308843
see
>>716308727

>34 khv hikkikomori, never had a job, degree, car, still living with my mom
all i do is playing crpgs and grinding fighting games and online tournaments

at least i'm getting better at it

>>716292421 (OP)
Married anons, how’s your gaming life?
Picrel kinda

>>716309036
fuck off unvirgin

>>716294760
Have children and teach them to hate jews. Fear of mortality is lessened when you know you leave something behind.

>>716308940

>>716309036
Not married, but may as well be.
Shit's good. Don't know why everyone complains about having "no time for video games" when they get hitched.

this year in video games from most invested to least

cs2 - the eternal game which quenches my thirst for combat & competition

dune awakening - 80 hours, really enjoyed it. had low expectations going in was just an impulse buy. glad I did.

kingdom come deliverance 2 - got past the wedding, stopped playing because of real life shit.. got a new pc since I think I may start over because I've lost touch with where I was at and my build sucked ass I was going for some stealth n style but I think ill just go for how the game was designed. 2h sword riposte.

My friendly neighborhood - a good short resident evil like experience. made me call my father. sometimes we need reminders that they too were once children with optimism and hope

titanfall 2 - holy reddit this is just not interesting at all and I love shooting games. why is it so hyped as a single player campaign? at a level with moving platforms and its just so boring. should I continue?

>>716309124
And this proves your claim correct...how?
Please, elaborate for the whole class. Demonstrate that you actually understand what you are reading.
Go ahead.

>>716309202
>titanfall 2
>he disrespects the best shooter ever made
we will never be friends

>>716309036
Its alright. My wife and I play Mario 3D world.

>>716309036
1-4 hours per day on weekdays, since i have my wife and other hobbies to attend to
more on weekends if i'm not focusing on other hobbies or the house
>pic
i only have 1 waifu and it's my eternal love, the softest Kanoe Yuuko

>>716309250
ah I see, they actually got all the Nitrogen isotope testing wrong, the same testing they use on every other animal on the earth to determine what it ate, and when they thought humans were carnivores based on it, it turns out actually we're all hindgut fermenting herbivores and nitrogen isotopes aren't real anyway. Edit: Thanks for the reddit gold!

>>716308081
Probably not today but I'm going to get some wings tomorrow to celebrate.

>>716309495
You haven't proven your claim correct yet.
What's wrong? Scared?

>>716305914
Train for flexibility and supplement collagen.
Don't sit down all day. (You shouldn't have done that to begin with)

>>716292421 (OP)
39 here, didn't play many games in my life until I got way older, now I have the time to play them since I have nothing but time now. Glad I can emulate stuff and play everything I missed out on.

>ITT
Jesus fuck, just kill yourselves already you whiny cunts.

>30
>still no gf

>>716307791
it's a good job though bro, you made a good choice don't sweat it

>>716309598
What part of the studies on nitrogen testing of human trophic level indicating a carniverous diet in our ancestors for millions of years to 30k years ago are you not understanding? Do you think pretending to be retarded is going to win you an argument or something?

>>716309917
>>716309914

>>716307612
AGP, but you already knew that.

>>716294760
i've been yearning for death since i can remember

>>716309914
why does your generation have the gen Z stare and gets terrified and shits their pants and mentally breaks down if someone asks you if they can have a straw?

>>716309914
>anonymous people are posting things about themselves that may or may not be true?
>i must put a stop to this nonsense immediately!
nigger

>>716309948
not really since now my country is being flooded with IEN's and I keep seeing people talk about how they can't find a job after graduation and getting their license. shit degree, no friends, no job after graduation, no gf, and I have seen a vagina in a medical context, but not sexual one. yea, great choice man

>>716305640
>>716305854
>>716306110
I'm so glad anons outside /fit/ can pick up on the obvious bullshit spewed by vegan cuckold studies.

>>716292421 (OP)
turning 39 in a couple months. camera shake has gotten so annoying to me if I can't turn it off I will stop playing and immediately uninstall. I just wanna see whats happening on screen

>>716310157
oh sorry I was thinking of nursing in burgerland, my cousins and friends who do it make good money especially traveling nurses

>>716309917
Why give a shit, I'm more mad I don't have time for hobbies thanks to work

gamings only getting better and i still enjoy gaming. i dont even play that much anymore, still love it though.

>>716309914
>*rapes your mum*
nothing personal kiddo

>>716310157
>I have seen a vagina in a medical context, but not sexual one.

>>716309183
>Not married
That's why
An engagement ring is more corrupting than the One Ring. As soon as she puts it on your woman will start degeneration into a fat, frigid, argumentative psychopath that will erode your hobbies and your friendships while attempting to supplant them with her own.

as i go back and play older games i grew up with i have come to the realization that the OEM controllers for old consoles are typically inferior to the madcatz peripherals. for the price of a single used OEM controller i can get 3 brand new technologically superior madcatz controllers.

>30
>engaged
>moved within 30 mins of the beach
>on contract another 2 years
>while job is boring, it's stable, guaranteed work for 2 years
WAGMI bros. Only problem is anxiety is flaring up due to lack of problems in my life. I feel like I keep trying to invent scenarios to be mad at, and have to stop myself midway.
Also, been playing subnautica for the summer when I have the time. Bought it before all of the attack helicopter shit sadly. Would like to play below zero, but I haven't heard anything good about it, particularly not from the devs, so it's mostly just curiosity.

>>716306430
same here. dunno hwo people run their savings to 0 regularly. i feel like i need to save 200k before buying dumb shit
but idk i grew up in poverty

>>716292421 (OP)
Own:
>PS5, PS4, PSP, 3DS, GBA, Switch OLED, Switch Lite, Atari 2600, NES, SNES, Sega Genesis, Wii, Xbox 360, Xbox One, Xbox Series X, Xbox Series S, Game Cube, PC
Spend all my time on
>PC, PS5, Android with Backbone One

>>716294760
i wish i had an ex who was still texting me lol

>>716302496
>NEETs don't stress
biggest lie of all. Feeling like/being a purposeless leech erodes the human psyche more than most jobs ever could. Like you said, rejecting society requires you to live in a state of constant denial (not healthy).

t. former neet

>>716302496
>c) stress is the big killer and NEETs don't stress about anything
The current NEET posterboy suffers from depression and PTSD from his trolls.

>>716309982
You have yet to quote the exact part of the study that proves your claims to be true.
What are you scared of? Just do it already.

>>716292421 (OP)
Been watching this bri'ish grampa play through CP2077 blind and I imagine most of you guys are just like that.

>>716310574
i feel you anon
i'm gonna convince myself to buy something new and nice for myself
tomorrow for sure

>>716309532
That's fair, Thursday is a hard day to celebrate on for most people.
You meeting up with friends or family or anything?

>>716311000
>bri'ish grampa play through CP2077 blind and I imagine most of you guys are just like that.
Blind, British or Grampa's?

>29
>Never got a job
>Parents are just middle class and getting old

>>716307149
except you're actually learning when the 20 year olds don't give a fuck and are a drain on the college system
98% of them have no idea what they want to do for the rest of their lives
go to any college subreddit and it's retards trying to attend frat parties or complaining about having to self-teach for once because goodness forbid somebody doesn't spoonfeed it to them

>>716293287
>i wasted all my life on video games
Its a life well spent.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I01khLl1uv8

Why is everything shit

Every game, every movie, every tv show is shit. Friends leave you on read. Jerking off doesnt even feel good anymore

>>716311137
>British
Not for long lmao

>>716311921
>Jerking off doesnt even feel good anymore
Genuine advice, then stop. You'll feel like a different person after

>>716311740
>29
so what you're saying is you're still in your 20s
>Never got a job
so what you're saying is you're lazy
>Parents are just middle class and getting old
so what you're saying is your parents are still alive

my vidya is often interrupted to take the dog out, check on my alzheimers mom or do various chores/cooking so now I only play pausable games or turn-based stuff. No more multiplayer

>>716310461
nobody cares faggot

>>716309036
Been in a great relationship 11-12 years, married for 2 of those. I play video games more than ever (making nice progress with backlog, maxed an OSRS account and maxing an iron soon), got a good house which we are renovating, getting a dog very soon. Pretty much living life on ultra easy mode. Firm believer that you choose about 80% of how difficult your life is based on who you associate with.

>>716300846
Do it, anon. Chug-a-lug! Chug-a-lug!

>>716311015
theres nothing to even buy anyway. anything luxury ive bought has been a massive disappointment. only want a house

unironically most enjoyment i get out of buying stuff now is like new clothes and shoes, or buying things for other people. computer hw and games dont give me any satisfaction at all.
i did buy an expensive e-ink reader for manga that was actually worth it tho

>>716312484
some hobby purchases then, maybe?

>>716312592
i work full time and have a wife and kid. i have no hobbies nigga. except lifting early in the morning. i am prescribed TRT+ which is expensive so i guess thats a hobby that i spend money on

>>716312035
I fap like once a week

>33
>first kid on the way
>looking at new houses
>hurt knee jogging
>slowly gaining weight again
>path of exile league "finished"
>playing mrch warrior 5 for the first time
>it's fun. Picrel.

do any of you have a job unrelated to your degree or are waging with GED retards because of your inability to get a job in (You)r field?
it's starting to piss me off
fuck indeed

>>716311740
>29

>>716312760
Since you're playing a bad game your opinion isn't really important or valuable

>>716293090
>fight for rights
>bitch about having to work
I'm tired of women

>30
>dopamine receptors mostly fried
>panic attacks when I go outside
>basically already live my dreams in my 20s no idea what to do now

>>716312713
dunno what to tell you then anon, don't know what you like or how much time do you have or anythign about your life to give you any advice reliably

>>716312340
>getting a dog very soon
I recommend boston terrier, apparently one of the best breeds. Getting one when I settle down so my chihuahua gets a friend

>>716312940
Women didnt want rights

35 as of today
Chick-fil-A app was supposed to give me something free today but I guess it forgot. Probably just gonna nap all day instead of trying to improve my life.

>>716312901
Path of exile or mech5?

Anybody kinda miss COVID? I feel like art was flourishing when everybody was forced to stay inside.
>pilotredsun
>'zellig
>Interface
>pic rel
Now we're lucky to get anything very seldomly

What is the point of life

And dont say kids

>>716312979
advise me to kill myself, as per internet and board tradition

>>716313008
Happy birthday anon.
I also really wanted to stay home all day and nap, but I need to save pto for later.

>>716313070
making sure my high iq 100% hyperborean white bloodline persists through the kali yuga

>>716312823
yes, I studied game dev in college but am working in web dev instead
corporate software engineering is the same shit no matter which company you work for though, and game dev has much less job security and pays less anyway
it just feels like I lost my passion is all

>>716294760
I only feel it if I'm happy. So yeah

>>716294760
I'd give you my years if I could, anon.

>>716313070
to enjoy it
and a lot of people enjoy raising kids

>>716313008
happy birthday anon

>>716311137
Slow and innocent.

>>716306316
>grew up in middle/low class family
>actually struggled with buying food for a few months
>finally realized dream of having my own built PC for games, only a year ago

>>716313052
Only the most boring of faggots could like mech warrior

>>716309917
>still no gf
Believe me you don't want the hassle.

>>716313070
to experience and create beauty, there is nothing else
going out into the middle of the woods and piling up some rocks in a somewhat pleasing fashion is enough
all creation leads to inspiration that echoes forever
pendulum waves synchronising and desynchronising until the monkeys type the correct thing

Which crypto set you guys free?

33, playing a bunch of game like

>sunset overdrive, the dialog is mega cringe and they even explicitly say NeoGaf at the very end of the game, it is near borderlands tier stuff but the gameplay was decent enough and some shit was clearly copy and pasted from ratchet and clunk games, like the weapons and how they upgrade and the ammo boxes. Might play the dlc that came with the purchase
>Brutal Legend is still pretty great and the RTS sections are really not as bad people say, one of the very first missions in the game tell all you really need to know about it.
>Counter Strike 2 because I had an itch to play something with other peop0le. It is ridden with cheaters everywhere though so I usually play in the afternoon because there's much less of them somehow.

I have also been feeling a lot of pain in the left side of my waist. Gonna see a doctor about that. Getting old fucking sucks, Even though I am better than others I feel like I can't progress in life at all no matter how much I try.

I finally found peace by stop forcing myself to play every 9/10 and 10/10 game out there, a lot of them are just not of my taste and the praise doesn't change that at all. I've always been the kind that plays all genres but after almost falling asleep with one of those open world Western AAA slops that was the last straw.
Been playing Super Metroid and DK Bananza lately, it's been super fun. I don't know if I have the willpower to finish a JRPG right now, been exploring other hobbies so I try to keep vidya to not feel like a chore.

>34
I’m grateful to god for everything good that has happened in my life. I don’t fear getting older.
I’ve been playing:
>Ready or Not
Too many giant maps and not enough smaller maps like swat 4 had
>black mesa
I actually bought the game years ago but i never played it. I attempted to play it on steam deck but it ran like shit. Redownloaded to find it runs flawless on Steam deck now so I reckon I’ll play it
>holdfast
When I’m bored of everything else I hop into a game

Games I need to play:
>Condemned
I own the Xbox copy somehow and never played the game even though I had a 360 at launch
>no more heroes 1,2,3
>pic related which is mediocre but feels nostalgic

>>716313060
>Anybody kinda miss COVID?
No because whilst everyone had a year+ off work and also PAID. I was forced to continue working since I was classed as an "essential worker" I'm a mortgage broker

>>716313604
traditional savings and investments + basic financial literacy, if you find it fun playing scratchcards with the indian hordes try crypto

>>716313624
>I finally found peace by stop forcing myself to play every 9/10 and 10/10 game out there

the only thing you should keep an eye on games are the ones with really low scores (aka games so bad that even paid journos couldn't give it a high score) and if the game you are interested in playing has any bugs or settings you should be aware off.
You will find yourself enjoying games a lot more than simply following whatever gets high scores.

>>716313097
kill yourself anon, and good luck

>>716300238
Tech is progressing so fast it wouldn't be surprising if in a handful of decades they'll have some basic life extension and later more advanced methods. Something more fearful is watching everyone you knew go away. Even if you can live forever, the psychological fracturing would be too great for any sane person.

>>716307612
>>716308215
>>716308548
Its not cool knowing you`ll never come close to her ever in existence. She deserves to be fucked inside out by proper cock. It would cheer her up surely then.

>>716311000
What’s the benefit of not playing blind? It’s not Diablo 2 or baldurs gate where it’s critical to allocate points for specific builds or some shit. You can’t make many or any wrong decisions

>>716299910
power bi is gay

t. power platform dev

>>716300709
Yup. Now what?

>>716313902
>Something more fearful is watching everyone you knew go away
Uhh so like, my cashier?

>>716292421 (OP)
>when the gratuitous booba gacha character gets an OL outfit

>>716313902
Tech is progressing, whilst Humanity is regressing.

>>716313604
Not free yet since my parents fucked me financially but I am getting there. If every goes right Ill finish off my apartment and will be able to save a ton of money in the process as well.
>>716307612
because big tits are fucking awesome. I love some big mommy milkers. too bad the bitches carrying those don't love me.

>>716310257
Same. I always hated camera shake even before I knew in most games you can turn it off. Also hate motion blur

>>716294760
Work out anon, it'll make you feel great

>>716313425
With mods it has some number autism and build tinkering.
And I wanted a non-dbz anime bullshit mech/robot game.
I'm enjoying the experience right now.
What games do YOU play?

>35
>only about 30k in savings

It’s alright. I expect to work for the rest of my life. I wouldn’t enjoy my free time if I didn’t work at least 30 hours a week anyway
>>716305914
Alcohol seems to make me feel like shit for days so I might drink 1 day a week now. Besides that I still feel like I’m in my 20s despite being 35

>>716294760
Sometimes I want to run away and do whatever instead of enduring the same old shit every day

>33
>decent amount saved up but can't retire
>getting increasingly annoyed at my job
>manager is starting to harass me about RTO and coworkers are going on extended leave, meaning i have to cover for them
I really want to quit so I have time to try making my own game and study what I've always wanted without distractions. But I'm scared that the moment I do, we're going to enter a bear market and I'll have to come crawling back.

>>716309036
Got in a raid with married man and can hear his kid screaming at fortnite in the background, it wasn't bad just funny. The week after he can't join because his wife won't let him.

>>716313060
>worked security and had entire office complexes to myself for 12+ hours
I no-lifed the fuck out of games during covid, I miss it like hell. Now I have to shave again and I'm back to reading books on my phone, which is honestly better but the unchecked hedonism on company dime was pretty sweet.

>>716313178
>>716313358
Thanks. I think it's just the morning blues, starting to feel less like a depressed fag.

>>716313070
To consoom product

>>716314240
>only 30k savings
Tge average person has 30k debt

>>716314285
It's going to happen. The US is not surviving Trumps economy.

>savings

Underage confirmed. No adult has savings. The savings account at the bank is an accident that diverts funds

>>716294760
At some point we have to stop living on autopilot and do something about our lives. Life can't be just a job you hate and a couple of hours of hobbies each day you know? I have accumulated so much money, but I don't know what's the point anymore.

>>716292421 (OP)
>tfw 31
>no job but trying to find one
>only now decided to go to college since it's free and why fucking not
I still have 2 months until college starts
recommend me some mmo or city builder I can sink some hours in

>>716314240
I don't save, in my head I just use the equity in my house as my savings, which right now is about 60k. I've had this vision of just selling, taking shit tons of loans/cards/debts etc and moving abroad, going off grid, living off it all and dying in some ditch drunk but I don't have the balls to do it.

>>716304203
I'm black. I'm like 80% likely to develop that shit beyond age 40.

Sometimes I wish I was very sick, like a degenerative disease and my family would have to take care of me, as an excuse to not do anything or have any ambitions.
I really should learn to be more grateful but the wageslave life is soul crushing if you're not a woman (for some reason, they love it).

>>716312964
Make new dreams. Duh.
You have to have a goal, or you'll get depressed. I know I do.

>>716314801
Please don't give up on saving money, if you get fired you will be way more at peace.

>>716314995
>(for some reason, they love it)
Hilariously, because they DON'T do shit. Literal daycare

>35
>quit my job a month ago
>signed up for creative writing classes
>have no desire to actually go
>spend my days getting enough of sleep and recovering from shift work
I dread the job market. I am tired, exhausted, and like hell i will do full-time work any time soon.
>why i quit
Because apparently everyone has to do fulltime work, and studies are not a mitigating factor (i planned to do part-time university degree).

>>716292421 (OP)
>31 year old
>gymcel
>will move into my new flat in about 3 weeks
>fully paid in cash
>have 5 years worth of life expenses saved up
>can make decent money online with no work schedule
>fresh wow private server launches tomorrow

i'm basically living what I though would be my dream life but i've never felt worse. 0 social life and mind filled with regret and thinking about missed opportunities. my sex drive is so low i haven't jerked off in 6 months so there's no point in even looking for a gf. probably gonna start antidepressants soon after i move in

>>716315138
In college I dreamed of working less, like only surviving on a part time job as a programmer. But then they offer you more and more money, and here I am having 5 hours free a day and working full time, buying a property is so fucking expensive that it's impossible to do it on a part time job, the system is designed to keep you a slave.

>>716314162
>With mods it has some number autism and build tinkering.
No it doesn't
>non-dbz anime bullshit
If you're trying to sound older by pretending not to know what anime is on a website specifically for otaku you should just leave and not come back.
>I'm enjoying the experience right now.
Video games are made to be won, not experienced.
>What games do YOU play?
Gary Grigby's War In the East 2

>>716315265
How did you make so much money anon? Crypto?

>>716307149
>feel insanely awkward attending lectures and having to hang around 20 year olds
Why? Sure, it's harder to relate to them, but outside of that it shouldn't be that hard to deal with. You just discuss things related to class and go on about your business. You trying to hang around campus or something?

>>716315265
How's your drinking?

>>716313070
to have fun, and for me that's vidya and hookers. Sure life could be better but I try to make do with what cards life has dealt to me.

>>716307149
>>716311897
>>716315420
What these anons are saying. It's never too late to get better education and plenty of older people in college where I live. Just get some night classes or something, since that's when most older people attend classes, due to work.

>>716315265
Use some of that money to help people make stuff you want to see. Artists, programmers, etc. Support people making stuff you enjoy seeing.

>>716315265
This is probably what Jesus warned against, that we expect the world to make us happy when it doesn't last forever. Reminds me of the verse where he says that the world will beat you down in my name but in me there's comfort

>>716314285
>we're going to enter a bear market and I'll have to come crawling back.
Hold onto your current job Anon, once the 2026 tax cuts begin, we're going to see layoffs and massive inflation

Been playing domekeeper. Only 3 guild assignments of challenge mode left. It's been great.

>>716313070
To serve life in the way you think is best.
Single Cell organisms do it by replication. Bees & Ants do it by serving the hive. Animals do it by reproduction. Humans are a bit of a hybrid where reproduction is the answer for most people but given we have the ability to make great change that is more impact on humanity than passing on genes, i'd say it's to live life in a way that we think is meaningful.

why do you think any woman is going to buy this line?

>>716315696
Good luck convincing anybody here of that though.

My dad's 65 and he was about to lose his car so I gave him my old car and bought myself new car and spent like 50k

I feel like I made a poor financial choice as I sperged on my dream car (it's literally just a new golf gti, i blame nsfmw) but I also want to help him and "do the right thing" as I love him and he's a good man

But I dont know really anymore how to feel anymore. I feel like I should feel more but I just feel cold. I think I'm getting old. Everything just gets more confusing as I age. People tell me what I did is great and I made a good decision but I feel nothing. At most a bit of angst as I dont wanna damage it now

Any IT anons ITT? Are you scared of being replaced by AI? Because as a JS codemonkey, I sure am.

>>716315781
haha I know :P However, it reminded me so much of that verse I had to say it

>>716313070
I just read manga and play video games on my free time and i feel totally fine. I have no idea why people make stupid posts like this. If you're depressed just take some vitamin D, it's that easy.

>>716315559
>hookers
Tried them but their barely hidden disgust was too offputting

>>716315830
no because i work in niche engineering technical sales and LLMs literally shit their pants trying to do anything like a series of ODEs for a heat exchange network. Everyone hates coders though, you guys are currently targeted by jewish CEOs who want to obliterate your wages and the average person feels no sympathy for you because of 20 or so years of flaunting salaries and telling people learn to code. nobody cares about my field.

>>716315727
>Single Cell organisms do it by replication.
Chemical reactions are not a purpose, this ascribes intent to something that acts without caring about the end result. You almost realized something important and went in the complete wrong direction.

>>716315812
>and bought myself new car and spent like 50k
What car? I cashed out my ford maverick for like $27k

>>716315759
I'm definitely done with drinking but not the rest, I can't quit porn I'm weak.
Luckily for me I don't have bald genes, my hair is great. I'm currently dating a girl 10 years younger than me, there's a lot of woman cope like "oh you only date younger women because the ones your age don't give you the time of the day!" truth is I have absolutely no interest in women who are 34 years old so I wouldn't know.

>>716315903
it's hard but if you are lucky it's possible to find some that actually enjoy their job and even (like (You).

>>716315347
>pretending not to know what anime
You took that from what I said? I was mostly referring to how armored core just became a very fast paced dbz budokai game instead of it feeling like a heavy mech sim.
>Video games are made to be won, not experienced.
Hey man, if it brings you happiness do whatever. I'll keep enjoying and "winning" at things like roller coaster tycoon.
>Gary Grigby's War In the East 2
Looks cool.

>>716315338
Yup.
Thing is, i dont mind working full-time, except that it needs to be structured, not this hospital lab bullshit. And no, doing 3 night shifts in a row, 12-and-a-half each on my legs, is not conductive to my health.
I honestly started missing my old job in archives. Sure, its 8-4 or 12-8, but atleast you are the master of your own work and you spend half of the time sitting, and half of the time walking around the facility. Or that other lab where it was more sitting, but you still spent like 1/3 of time walking around from lab to lab in the facility. And i dont drive a car, so no work outside of the city because commute.

Right now i just want to get on with writing, and then write novels OR joint an editorial team. Fuck running around/working in the lab, or hospital, or corpo offices.

>keep playing games that are about roaming the open world and doing stuff in the open world
>no companions
>just me and hardware
I think i need a job that is like that - me and equipment and nature and me being my own master. Maybe i should've studied engineering, and should get that driving license.

>>716305252
Why would changing the stock alert sound be any better? You can make it your favorite tone or song like a teenage me from 2005, but you’ll eventually hate it once you hear it 50 times knowing the sound is now associated with work.

I get a basic alert beep that overrides mute function on my phone because if something goes to shit and I’m on call, it’s on me to fix it. Hearing a little jingle of my favorite song isn’t going to make that any better. Fucking uniformed faggot

>>716315978
damn, glad for you anon. I'm kinda scared because I'm a stupid nerd that's only good for computer stuff, don't see myself doing any other job.

>>716315997
>What car?
Read the post.

>>716315347
>Video games are made to be won, not experienced.
nah fuck that. Games are for fun, not a series of checklists you have to beat. Keep going down that slope and you'll end up being one of those faggots that feels like they need to get all the achievements in a game before being able to move on.

>>716316116
Programming is the only major sized upper middle class career left in the US besides jewish money market tomfoolery (yeah there's doctors and other niche stuff but those don't have the gold rush aspect that programming has had) and you better believe the owner class is determined to destroy it. They aren't even hiding their contempt it's crazy.

>>716316171
>golf gti
Y?

>>716315347
>Video games are made to be won, not experienced.
Incorrect. There are video games without win conditions, invalidating your statement.

>>716315997
2025 Golf GTI autobahn
Also I'm in Canada so it'd like 36k American. I wanted a used car buy the market is fucked, a 2020 golf is 5k cheaper with 50k km+ on it by average. It's fucked

>>716316013
>I can't quit porn I'm weak.
Porn is just stronger than all of us. The best strategy, if you really wanna pursue it, is to cut yourself off from the means to access it.
Shit like not charging your phone near your bed, filtering coomer OP's in the catalog, shit like that.
It's not foolproof (I'm still struggling with it), but it'll help to reduce it massively.

>>716292421 (OP)
>>716293090
Made for BWC

>ill be 30 next march
be honest lads, is there still time to be happy one last time before then?

>>716316289
Thread isn't for you.
See you in March.

>>716315812
50k for a new Golf GTI? Hahaha wtf, you could just lease a brand new one every 3 years for less than that.

>>716316289
no, it's already over

>>716316251
NFSMW

>>716316195
If there is no obstacle it's not fun, if you can't enjoy immediately replaying a game then it's a bad game. If you want "experiences" go outside and touch grass.

>>716316274
It's so built inside my brain that it feels like quitting heroine right now, I started at 12 and I'm 34 now, every time I feel so frustrated I browse porn and start jacking off. My longest streak was like 20 days and I felt like I was going insane.

I became friendless this year. All I have left is (You).

>>716316389
Lease is worse then financing in Canada ATM, think it was like 150+ dollars biweekly. The market is fucked

>>716316257
>There are video games without win conditions
They are simulators, not games, then.

>>716316289
30s are way better than 20s since you stop caring about looking like an adult. I play Pokemon cards and go to the arcade with my friends now, no need to get drunk to have a good time.

>>716316502
Yeah just noticed you said Canada. I'm UK and lease here technically works out better, sure I don't own my car but having a brand new one every 3 years and everything covered on warranty etc is far better than ownership costs.

>>716316502
*+150 more then if I financed.
Idk what I'm doing desu. I did 306 biweekly at 6% for 5 years , negotiated down from 345. Also took off 5k on the original price and got free oil and shit. It's just I spent 8k on taxes so it rapes me

>>716316537
Incorrect.

>>716316470
I'll be your fren.

>>716292421 (OP)
Wasted almost 2800 bucks on a gamer pc for a little shit that only wants play Fortnite and Minecraft.
>B-but uncle, you dont understand, these games are really popular, mi friends talk about them all the time.
What I understand is that you have horrible taste in games and you always do what your retard friends told you to do, but happy birthday.
Anyway,Tainted Grail and Stalker 2 are the only games I cared about all this year, my interest in any other new game is practically zero.

>>716315830
in my experience ai does not work on larger projects. like almost never does it actually accomplish something on its own. this is disregarding whether or not it even writes a maintainable solution, which it certainly doesnt.
your worry should be that literally 40% of software engineers in the US are immigrants and the massive amount of h1b fraud.

>>716316469
Rome wasn't built in a day, what's your inspiration for dropping it? Whatever it is, you gotta notice and remind yourself of what you're achieving by stopping.

>>716316470
what games do you play nerd

>>716315830
Nope. I'm a desktop tech and do too much hands-on and face-to-face work to be replaced. I don't know if AI is taking over networking, but that's the next move for me.

>>716316719
>in my experience ai does not work on larger projects. like almost never does it actually accomplish something on its own. this is disregarding whether or not it even writes a maintainable solution, which it certainly doesnt.
That's true, but still the company I work for laid off 15% of the workforce and has started using AI for a lot of stuff. At this rate getting a new job or even just a little raise will be very difficult for the low codemonkeys like me.
>your worry should be that literally 40% of software engineers in the US are immigrants and the massive amount of h1b fraud.
gonna be honest anon, I work at a company as cheap labor from another country, and even I am starting to see the future become darker every day.

>>716316774
Not him but it depends on his priorities. If he's going to work and making his appointments he doesn't really that big of an addiction. If he has to goon everywhere he goes than it's a problem.

>>716316637
Not an argument, games are by definition structured contests designed to be won.

>>716316931
>games are by definition structured contests designed to be won.
Oh yeah? Post the definion. Include a source (such as a dictionary) or your definition isn't valid.

>>716316112
>>716305806

I think anon's idea was that for work you pick a ring tone for work that you'll (almost guaranteed) never encounter elsewhere, thereby avoiding the scenario >>716298623 described where you have a Pavlovian response when you encounter that same ringtone on your day off / when someone else uses it. If you leave it stock, the chance of accidentally hearing it elsewhere is much higher.

>>716292421 (OP)>>716293090
I wish programmer girls would dress like that in the office.

>>716316673
based fren
>>716316837
anything really, only games I don't like are sports games like FIFA or Madden or racing games that go for realism, but I enjoy stuff like Sega Rally on the Saturn or F-Zero X. Last game's I've played were RimWorld, Dragon's Dogma and System Shock 2, since I was too dumb as a kid to play it when it came out. In fact, this happened to me with a lot of games and now I'm living this personal golden age of vidya by rediscovering all the stuff I missed back then when I was a dummy. Played Thief not long ago and thought it was one of the best games I've ever played, and I am quite excited to try out Deus Ex next, or maybe Arx Fatalis.

>>716315830
Current generative AI is only good for shitting out boilerplate code or analyzing existing code that you don't understand. Maybe in the future I can vibe code the next Elder Scrolls or something, but right now it has to be heavily curated.

>>716316990
>a form of play or sport, especially a competitive one played according to rules and decided by skill, strength, or luck
First result on google

>>716315830
>Product manager says some freelancers will start helping us
>first batch of "freelancer code" arrives, it reeks of AI code
>go to chatgpt
>ask it to do the same thing the freelancers have done
>it spits the very same code
>100% chance those freelancers are just chatgpt tabs on the product manager's browser
at least it's quite clear that they still need the actual devs to integrate the AI code, plus seeing how bad the AI code they handed us is is a little comforting.

>>716294760
>turn 30
>lose gf
>lose job
>burn through my savings and retirement to keep up payments on my house
>losing friends every other day either because they are starting families or one of us throwing the other away over teenage drama
>can't hold a wagie job for the life of me because I either quit over how fucking bullshit the people and job is or get fired over some bullshit that shouldn't even matter.
>get new job and fall for coworker
>few friends tell me to go for it
>rejected and fired from job
>have complete mental breakdown and try to off myself
>don't and go to friend for help
>calls me a horrible person for trying to off myself and that I desver it
>tells everyone I also want to rape one of my friends for some reason
>even when I try to talk to them they just shrug and kick me out anyways
>family holds what little charity they gave me as some loan expected to be paid back with interest and claiming I do nothing for my family whatsoever while continuing to dismiss everything going on in my life and my feelings.
>Went from someone climbing the corporate ladder with ambition and a bright future to now probably going to live on the streets in another year or less.
>All over the corse of 4 years.

I really should have just killed myself. Right now the plan is to just save up money to buy and gun and do it. Hopefully I can make it, lately god has been sending me absolute fucking scum bags that have been pushing my buttons. I got really close yesterday to attacking some guy who took the park rules too literally and called the cops on me because my dog wasn't on the track. I don't even know if I want to even keep up with my /fit/ plans because I'm to afraid I'll actually over power the next person and do some real damage and fuck my life up even more or worse.

>>716292421 (OP)
>30
>still a neet
honestly it's over for me dude

>>716317895
Damn failed normalfags are sad beings. You're not welcome in the loser club by the way.

>>716316912
if youre indian no hard feelings bro. we're all just trying to make it on this shithole planet. i dont blame them for hiring their own, its our own governments fault for allowing this bullshit. or more likely theres some sort of geopolitical quid-pro-quo between the US and indian government for doing it.

>>716317895
>fall for coworker
that was your mistake. Never put your cock in the oven dude.

>>716309036
I like to look subtly down on my friends and I can't play something with overly cute looks. Has to be grimdark or spreadsheets only. Bout it

>>716318205
I'm not indian, I'm spanish. But yeah they are hiring lots of indians as well. I had a funny interaction with one of them, he went
>I don't want to be racist, but this dude looks exactly like our boss! (who's white)
only because both are bald, lol.

>>716317509
>No sources
Google is not a source, retard.
Try again.

>>716309036
My son is going to be born in 2 months so I'm just enjoying the vidya time I have before I wake up at 3 am to screaming baby spoiled diaper.

>>716294760
Now count how many more christmas with your parents you'll experience... 20? 25 tops?
Seize the day, anons, go out and live your lives.

>wow anon, you've been playing that game since you were a kid
Oh yeah, it's easily my favorite
>you must be really good at it then

>>716309108
you don't have to teach them that. they'll experience life and understand on their own, the only thing to teach is history and how to look up the 'early life' section

>>716315759
This image is great because a woman made it, which means she sees no difference between making the decision to be a whore vs. genetics making you bald regardless of your decisions. It's the direct admission that being a hoe is part of her genes.

>>716317895
Man your friends fucking suck, ditch them.

>>716318529
Cognitive dissonance is going strong today

>>716305914
I still keep well past people younger than me. Thing is while I still feel 24 and can act 24 I don't look 24 which is what really kills me.

>>716317895
>. I got really close yesterday to attacking some guy who took the park rules too literally and called the cops on me because my dog wasn't on the track
fucking KEK you should've did it
>fall for coworker
kek never ever ever shit where you sleep, rule #1. there were multiple times where i wanted to ask out a coworker but i just didn't do it because i knew how fast shit would go south if they weren't into me. just don't do it.

>>716305914
I never liked going to bed late, but did it a lot in college, also not sleeping at all, but because I was bad at managing my time, I'm happy that I don't have to do that shit anymore.

>>716305914
I'm getting fat, might be time to drop the cheetos and the sodas.
go for a little walk every day or so, it'll do wonders to your body.

>>716314916
Yeah I have a lot of dreams like that that I never realize because I'm fucking terrified of doing anything that isn't the normal life that was set up for me. I would like to buy a van and spent a whole year living on it and traveling but holy shit it terrifies me to do something that adventurous, I don't know how some people do it.

>>716318640
>STILL no sources
What's wrong anon? Can't do it?
What are you scared of? If you're right, it should be easy to prove it.
Go ahead.

>>716319021
>I would like to buy a van and spent a whole year living on it and traveling but holy shit it terrifies me to do something that adventurous, I don't know how some people do it.
I'd love to do this too, the thing that terrifies me is figuring out easy access to a shower while on the road. That's it.

>>716318548
My mom's 70 and I'm 35. Feels bad man. I hope I can get at least another 10. I'm also moving out of state for a new job and I might see her once or twice a year. I've been thinking, it's possible I may see her fewer than 10 or so times left in my life.

>>716305914
I used to be in really good shape. Even though I was NEET in my early 20s, I would literally play basketball all day from like 1PM-2PM to sometimes 9PM or 10PM. Then play videogames all night long. Sleep til like noon and do it all over again. I stopped playing sports because my bitch ex used to complain nonstop about not spending time with her, when literally every waking moment I wasn't working, I was with her. We broke up and I kinda never went back to playing sports or working out and then the pandemic hit: all I did was play videogames, smoke weed, do acid+alcohol, and order UberEats/Doordash nonstop for like 5-6 months straight. I've probably gained like 70lbs in the last 3 years...it's pretty bad. I've kinda given up hope. I'm honestly thinking about just saving up some money and taking the Ozempic pill, so I can at least drop some lbs, so I can get back in the gym because my lower back is completely fucked now.

>>716319090
>Water
>Plastic bag with holes
>Tie bag to something above you
That's the classic.

>>716316470
>part of a group of 5 loser friends
>we stick together after finishing school and play all kinds of shit
>20 years go by
>they all get girls pregnant, only 1 got married first lol
>im the only loser left AND still KHV
I dont know if they are truly happy. I hope they are. Pretty much just been quietly withdrawing myself from their lives to let them be normal in peace. We didnt really get to do anything together anymore anyway so no one has really noticed.

>>716317895
That's what happens when you make friends with women or trannies

>>716319397
>We didnt really get to do anything together anymore
This happened to me as well, just that we are all still losers. Instead of getting a gf they got drug addictions and became dumber with each passing year.

>>716292421 (OP)
>32
>190 pounds
>first day sober
>want to go in a walk
>90° outside
>only have blue jeans
Is it okay to go for a walk in blue jeans?

>>716318294
>>716318826
>don't date your coworker because mister shekelstine doesn't want the drama!

That's how adults are supposed to meet people. The real fact is we let jews take over and they don't want people forming bonds so treating people like an actual family is bad.

>>716320538
Not if you're out of shape

>>716320538
It's gonna suck but it's good to sweat
Stay hydrated

>>716320597
>get into argument with your significat other
>not only you share a house but you also work at the same place
>have to be next to her for the whole damn day
sounds like hell

>>716318640
Where did you go anon?

>>716320769
You're supposed to actually like the person you fall in love with you know

>>716320538
When I lived down south I wore jeans everyday. You eventually just get used to the heat and you don’t think twice. The main thing is just understanding that you’re going to be sweaty and uncomfortable. Especially on 90-100 degree days. At that point there’s no difference imo because you’re going to be hot no matter what and you might as well wear what you want

>27
>licensed attorney but not actually working
>trying to make a game
>usually anxious and stressed every day but now just decided not to care anymore
>gone full Camusian
feels good bros I'll see you when I'm 30+ hopefully you enjoy my game :-)

>>716310858
Nah I did feel like a loser, but I had to ask myself why I felt like a loser. After letting go of society's rules, expectations, and culture, I feel perfectly fine. I reject normalcy completely.

>>716321056
And you think that means you'll never get into an argument? You're delusional.

>>716321056
liking someone doesn't have anything to do with having to agree on everything with that person, anon.

>>716321092
what is this nonsense, it feels a billion times better to wear shorts in hot weather than stuffy jeans

>>716321135
>>716321180
Then living with her shouldn't be a problem. Not sure why you even brought it up in the first place if it's an inevitability anyways.

>>716320538
I haven't wore jeans in like a year. Free yourself from that prison anon, you and your crotch will feel much better afterwards. Plus you'll look less nerdy and more sporty.

>>716321476
Anon, what point are you trying to make?
You sound like a retard.

>>716320668
>>716320708
>>716321092
>>716321512
Guess I need to get a pair of shorts then.
Why must my biggest problems be so trivial? don't worry I know why

>>716303240
32. Mom died from cancer last July. Really sucks.

>>716321540
>"If you get in an argument with your significant other, you have to le.... BE AROUND THEM! The horror!"
Your original point wasn't much better ol boy

>>716321718
You still haven't said what point you were trying to make, retard.
What's the matter?

>>716313070
Cultivate spirit for the afterlife.

>>716313940
It's interesting to see someone who has no idea about the story or the characters trying to piece it together.

>>716321952
No such thing

>>716321804
I said what I meant, I don't know what to tell you. I'm done with this idiotic conversation

>>716321952
What's the point of afterlife

And dont say reincarnation

>>716322019
And aso tries to have a conversation with almost every character that walks by.

>>716322048
>He STILL can't tell us what point he was trying to make
>Runs away crying
Concession accepted.
Thanks for admiting you were too retarded to answer 1 (one) simple question.
Don't reply again, coward.

>>716321952
So do dead babies speedrun the cultivation process or end up in wherever the uncultivated soul end up?

>>716313070
Create something, be happy, enjoying the ride, forget about responsibility.

>>716313070
Why would there be a point?

>>716322123
In cyberpunk the npcs are pretty limited to dialogue though, right?

>>716322229
Not even reading your post man, this shit ain't that important to me, and it shouldn't be to you either. I'll never talk to you (knowingly) after this thread dies. Do you really wanna invest that much of your energy into shit so temporary?

>>716313070
Outlive the state of Israel

>>716322229
No you're just retarded and probably autistic so you can't comprehend or accept a different point of view.

You said don't date a coworker because if you get in to a spat you'll have to be around them at work and at home which is bad, but if you are already around them in general then it's not going to make a difference and having a spat doesn't mean your relationship is not going to work.

>>716315564
>It's never too late to get better education
Nigga there are no jobs in the future i'm graduating into guaranteed permanent unemployment and oblivion from CS. Every other field is following close behind

>>716322524
see
>>716322229

>>716323082
Don't care, didn't ask/read

>>716322997
>Getting a higher education for a good job
Academia should be for people that truly want to improve their field of study rather than just schools to make people for the job market. Society was duped into making college degrees the bare minimum for a high paying job. The average person should be able to afford a good life with just a trade rather than rely on degrees. Degrees are for actual scholars.

>>716323404
Stop crying. You lost.

>>716313902
Brother they can't even cure balding you're tripping if you think we're going to live much past 100...

And that's a good thing because I would HATE HATE HATE to be the last generation with a natural death in frail *ld age

>>716323530
Congrats, you won the internet argument over nothing that we will both forget about in an hour lol

>>716323694
>Congrats, you won
I know.
Keep crying about it, retard.

>>716299884
Get a wagie job where you can sit in front of a computer unmonitored and you can easily fit in 2-3 more. You shouldn't though, 1 is plenty.

>>716294760
Same but me at 35 (as of last week)

>>716322229
>>716322524
Now kiss

>>716292421 (OP)
>>716293090
>>716294760
I'm about to turn 41 very soon and I'm starting to notice all these aging lines even though I don't drink or smoke and I'm trying to work out. Half of my hair turned grey but I couldn't be bothered to dye it because my beard is also half grey now too. How do you beat aging? The realization hit me hard when someone called me uncle. I just want to stay a kid and play vidya forever.

>>716324243
lol manchild

>>716324243
What's the point? Aging comes to us all, I don't understand the obsession of holding onto youth, especially if you're still healthy, strong and virile into your old age. Women prefer older looking men anyways.

>>716297048
>Mfw turn 40
>Never really work fulltime outside the house even once
>Still dragging my body to exams so I can do full time civil servant job
>Still fail exam, this is probably tenth time now

>>716317895
>I got really close yesterday to attacking some guy who took the park rules too literally and called the cops on me because my dog wasn't on the track.
He did nothing wrong, you're a piece of shit no wonder you're alone and can't even hold a job. All that "bullshit that doesn't matter" is probably you stealing or breaking shit and not going a fuck or taking any kind of responsibility.

>>716321049
You realize if you keep posting stupid things there's no reason to reply to you, right?

>>716324697
Why are you so upset? What did I say that was stupid?

>>716307149
I failed uni twice and barely managed to grad after 15 fucking years of doing nothing but wanking, sleeping and playing vidya. It feels so fucking horrible going to outside world and meeting someone way younger who hold the same qualification that I do.

My dad had me print out all the classes I have to pass to get my cs degree and put it on the fridge so I can tick them off as I pass them. Spent the last four months going from algebra 1 to Calculus 1 so at least I'm too far to quit now. It's going to fill really good when I finally finish this damn class and then pass it on sophia learning so I can check off my first box. Intro to nutrition next is going to be so kino. Have to get a part time job to pay for tuition soon though desu.

>>716309917
Gf sounds nice but I want to know what love is first. What does it even feel like? I have been living in the basement for so long that I don't even know how to love someone.

>>716302496
>b) average life expectancy goes up every year and when it's our time to die it will be even higher than today
Not so fast.

>>716325029
>What does it even feel like?
warm and fuzzy

I'm 20. How much did I miss out on

>>716321108
I'm you but 40. Life sucks when you see people are enjoying theirs but you can not.

>30's
>Don't have driver's licence
:(

>>716325258
Everything. Enjoy serving your boomer overlords for the rest of your life :)

>>716324473
If you mean women like that bitch hag caught cheating at Coldplay then no fucking thanks. Where does this "women prefer older men" come from anyway? Most dating couples I saw at dating sites are same age.
>>716324446
Yeah I'd rather stay a child as long as I get to do what I like.

>>716307149
Oh hey this might be me next year. I'm actually doing work experience next week in a local hospital because I'm kind of interested in Radiography. If I like it I'm gonna apply to uni and see how it goes, never went to uni as a teen so it'll be good to get over some past traumas and prove I'm not a complete failure at life.

>>716320538
>first day sober
...not drinking for one day is a notable accomplishment for you?

>>716325286
why can't you enjoy yours?

>>716325379
I live in a big city and have commute - buses, taxis, underground, trains. No need for a car, and like hell i will pay congestion charges. It is simply not feasible to own a car/transportation for me.
>driving license
The good bit about it is that i dont have to use my passport whenever i need to ID.

>>716325543
>women prefer old men
>bitch hag
Bruh, what even are these mental gymnastics lmfao. You're not going senile too by chance, are you?

>>716325131
15 years ago /v/ convinced me I would die from overplaying Vidya before I'm 30. Now I'm 39 and I still can't die. when is the liberation coming?

>>716325597
Loook, man, I'm a 32-year old khhv, I have to take ay small victories.

>>716325597
How else am I supposed to get 2 days sober?

>>716325680
I live extremely rurally and can't drive.
It's expensive to learn where I live and I grew up very poor, so I didn't do it young.
Suddenly, I realised I need to do it.

>>716325693
You actually think that worn out fleshbag who still listen to Coldplay at 50 is attractive then you have a real problem, not me.

>>716325850
Really bewildered as to where you gleaned that suggestion from any of my posts.
Definitely senile, get your head checked

this is us

>>716324593

>>716325768
>>716325805
I'm more shocked you have no health conditions being that weight and drinking that much

>>716325985
Now THAT is some projection.

>>716325902
Learn to write better than, ESL-kun.

38. Should be finishing my fossil fighters playthrough, instead i am going through every single isekai farming manga.

>>716326128
>than

Hulkamaniacs bros...

>>716326128
Better than what?

>>716325597
one day at a time

I've been cumming to my wife on blue archive
she keeps me alive

>>716325567
Did you drop out of uni?
>>716325637
No gf, zero experience with relationship, never even ask someone out, aside from occasional job vidya is all I have. I keep seeing people around me getting married even those who used to treat me badly and I feel jealous. And then there's this question that's always hanging over me if the failure of my youth was the result of me being a lazy asshole or was it because of my aspd or was it my negligent upbringing.

>>716294821
Go play final fantasy X

>>716326012
Always make your kids play sports.

>>716326128
This is typed anon. There is nothing written here.

>>716326702
>take a writing class
>they make you type
wtf???

>>716311740
same but im 32

>>716326496
Got expelled from 6th form, didn't finish my A-levels. Never went back to education because I felt betrayed but now I'm older and want to get some skills so I'm swallowing my pride.

>>716326853
>still writing in the English course
Get with the times gramps.

>>716327041
I don't get it.

>>716327432
Of course you wouldnt, fucking townie lmao.

>>716303820
why are you going to japan?

>30+ year old playing multiplayer arguing with children
how pathetic is this actually?

>>716327485
What's a "townie"?

>>716323536
Dependant on those genes, which if can be edited can cure both. I understand balding is orse than death, but just shave your head for now.

>>716294760
I'm 42 and knowing I'm going to die some day makes me feel relieved, there's no point worrying about it, or worry about it knowing that your anxiety is based around you still being young and not wanting to die which you won't have when you're old. Later on in life you'll probably see death as more of a merciful release.

>>716324243
what kind of lines

>>716326968
Who betrayed you? I failed uni twice but I still can't conclude if it's me being the actual cause or not.

>>716328369
The problem is the release being so delayed makes it not so merciful.

>>716304203
>Got fructose malabsorbtion at the exact moment I turned 40

Sucks, man. It's surprising how much stuff has fructose in it.

>>716305831
>webm
ultra kek

37 and in the UK; with the way this place is becoming a dystopian shithole I can see me necking myself in a few years.

>>716328767
turns out gaming is a waste of time and makes you depressed

>>716314918
it's the cool aid, nigga. Drink water and you'll be fine

bros I want to learn to draw just now

>>716329127
Pick up that pencil and start drawing

>>716328619
Just go to Canada and tell them you're depressed and they'll euthanise you

>>716292421 (OP)
Not much to say
I gave up on modern gaming, the switch 1 will be my latest system
Gonna see if I can get a og xb, dreamcast, and PS2 to begin my new life as a retro gamer

>>716320538
And now I am off!

>>716329127
Just draw now, worry about making it good later on.

>>716329127
That was me 7 months ago, I now upload my drawings to Twitter and have 140 followers, it's not much but feels amazing.

>>716328524
It was a messy situation half a lifetime ago. I had mental health issues, I was no longer in mandatory education, school eventually decided it couldn't support me anymore and expelled me. I felt betrayed and let down as I'd been a model student up to the whole going insane thing, so I held a grudge but honestly I wasn't in the right mental state to learn anything. Now I'm older and saner so I'm forcing myself to get over it and work on getting a better future.

>>716309036
It's fine. I'm lucky enough to be in a situation where we can be single income, so I have a fair amount of time to play between chores. Even more time once our oldest starts school in the fall.
>>716293090
So glad I got out of working in tech.
>all that travel
>having to dress nice every day
>all those late night calls
>the creeping hatred of computers, one of my greatest passions, the longer I had to work with them
>all those dimwit boomers ruining my hard work because they can't go two minutes without sending their password to Ranjeet
>trying to explain tech concepts to non-tech people who think they know more about it than they do
Was in that industry in some capacity for almost 20 years

>>716310959
i can't fucking believe this
I've been watching Cyraxx videos for background noise for months; now i suddenly see this goblin pop up on /v/
Synchronicity is literally real

Bros finding definite integrals as the limit of riemann sums and vice versa isn't too bad. I mean you just got a section of a curve that goes from a to b, you're dividing it into n rectangles as the limit of n approaching infinity so it's all there, the width of the rectangles being the difference of the two points divided by n and and the height of each rectangle just being the output of the function of the curve where the input is x times the width of each rectangle or something.

>>716328767
just leave

>>716324975
is this some wgu shit?

brother, there is almost literally 0% chance you will get a job with an online degree in CS for the foreseeable future. even people with >5yoe dont get interviews right now lol

if you arent in your final semester and actually give a shit about your future at all, switch to something in demand. but if youre just fucking around then who cares i guess

>>716331237
What's he supposed to do?

>>716324975
>2025
>cs degree

>>716331519
not take out tens of thousands of debt for a degree that is already heavily devalued.

if i knew what i do now i would have went into medicine, which is actually in extremely high demand.

i wonder at least once a day whether i even have a future in this career and i have a degree from a real university and 5 yoe

but its just advice you can fuck your life up if you want to

>>716331735
I knew the value of a dollar growing up and knew college was a bad idea if I couldn't pay cash for it. No wonder I've been working at walmart for over 25 years.

>>716324593
>>716325985
Brown people don't care about dogs in parks, that's usually a white woman petpeeve.

>>716331237
Well the neat thing about cs is the overhead for new ventures is like $0 so maybe I'll just start selling my own software or computer service and ADD jobs! Or someone will see me trying really hard and will hire me to keep their computers doing the thing. Cmon there's got to be more cs jobs then people with cs degrees out there right? And I like computers.

>>716331845
is that a sleight? im not saying dont go to college, im saying do not go to college for CS. i can almost promise you that you arent getting an entry level job in CS. IT might be just as bad but thats not my field. moreover, do not go to online schools which literally nobody values.

>>716332129
there arent but if you have infinite free time, learn to make significant contributions to an open source project that people have heard of. its going to be an immense amount of work but you need to network. that is literally the only way someone is getting an entry level job these days.

and i mean you have to put in like literally 40 hrs a week for a couple years on end doing this sort of thing. its not easy. i am telling you right now you should not underestimate how fucked the market is and how hard the job actually is

>>716332129
also everyone thinks theyre gonna come up with some idea. i mean go ahead but if you were someone that had bills and wasnt living with parents its such a bad time investment.

you have no idea how hard the shit actually is lol

>>716332129
>he really doesn't know

>>716322521
Yeah, the usual interaction goes like
>Hello! What are you doing here?
>NPC: Fuck off!
>Why, no reason the be rude. I was just looking around. I'll go now.

>>716294760
just wait until you have your first medical emergency and your shit stops working right