Thread 40620836

Fire of the Mind Edition

Welcome to the Semen Retention General!

>What is Semen Retention?
Semen retention is the practice of completely abstaining from masturbation and ejaculation, often with the intention of preserving and redirecting vital and sexual energy to oneself.

>Why do it?
Reported benefits include: increased vitality, mental clarity, reduced stress, increased motivation, increased energy, improved focus, healthier hair/skin/eyes, deeper meditation, improved AP/Lucid Dreams, deeper voice, improved mood, greatly improved testosterone, improved physical strength and many more.

>Wet Dreams?
They happen because you had a sexual dream and you coomed. Learn to be conscious on your dreams and stop the succubus.

>What causes wet dreams?
The causes are many: Illnesses, telepathic bad actors fucking with your dreams, excess energy build up, watching too much sexually-inducing stuff, lusting during the day, lack of an adequate transmutation activity, eating too late at night, excess nutrients overall, stimulants like maca, ginseng, ginger, excess protein, excess carbs, tight clothes (pajamas) for bedtime, bad sleeping posture (this varies, find the one that suits you best), going to bed with full bladder, exposure to hormonal disruptors via food (pesticides...) or body care products (soap, deodorant etc)...

>>40620836 (OP)
>In case of urges:
- https://imgur.com/gallery/g4eGH
- Don't peek and Hold your breath for as long as you possibly can. The urge usually pass after that. If not, repeat.
- Horse stance or chair pose: Do it while clenching the abdomen and all legs' muscles, raise arms for extra blood flow redirection. Works both for killing erections or urges.
- Any physical activity.

On long clean streaks many report benefits that transcend current science like a sort of "magnetism" or higher "vibration/aura" that attracts/appeals to other living beings, a higher perception, a stronger and intimidating "aura/presence", a deeper connection with nature, an attractive BO (people usually report it as "pheromones") and more.

>Advices:
- Mental Purity 1.1: Semen Retention acts as a bio-electromagnetic amplifier. Watch the quality of your thoughts because your inner state will get amplified and manifested. Lust is the Ojas killer. Do not engage with Lust.
- Mental Purity 1.2: Keep a journal as a tool for introspection.
- NEVER watch porn of any kind.
- Remove triggers from your life. Masturbation is a bad habit. Break that bad habit.
- Focus on achieving a goal. An art, a craft, competing, etc.
- Meditate and/or Pray Daily. Try a minimum of 5 minutes to start off.
- Exercise/Gym/Sports/Martial Arts. If it is something social even better.
- Good habits like healthy eating, water fasting, dry fasting, sun exposure and cold showers do seem to speed up the process.
- Sublimation: literally using the energy.
- Transmutation: changing the quality of energy to something different. (Surya Namaskara, 8 brocades, Tibetan rites)

>>40620839
Keep in mind that the efferent nerves attached to your testes necessarily means that any lustful thought, image, or sound is necessarily a command to your junk to produce sexual fluids and this is the reason why celibacy is first and foremost of the mind
The root of this entire matter is the mind - without conquering the mind, celibacy is a futile effort
The signals from the brain happen on the subconscious autonomic level
This is why any lustful thought, image, or sound is necessarily a command to the sexual organs to produce sexual fluids (the more intently you look, the higher amplitude of a signal gets sent: body > afferent nerves > brain > efferent nerves > body)
Therefore "Conversion of sexual energy to something" is necessarily a HORRIBLY inefficient process (Not to confuse with Sexual Transmutation)
Fluids will be reabsorbed, but the energy and materials cost to make it vs how much is "taken back" via reabsorption is SEVERELY unbalanced and super net negative
Sexual fluids are made from the cream of the crop of the body's resources - constantly generating them means that you are constantly draining away the cream of the crop of your resources.
Taoist writings said that the sexual organs will even take primacy over nourishing your other internal organs at some point. (Thus, doing a spiritual practice as a coomer is a surefire way to die faster).

>/SRG/ interesting reads
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>>40620844
Scientific evidence:

Periodic changes in serum testosterone levels after ejaculation in men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12506329/

Influence of abstinence and ejaculation-to-analysis delay on semen analysis parameters of suspected infertile men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7114956/

Improved sperm kinematics in semen samples collected after 2 h versus 4-7 days of ejaculation abstinence
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28531319/

Influence of a short or long abstinence period on semen parameters in the ejaculate of patients with nonobstructive azoospermia
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11532469/

Seasonal changes in breeding activity, testicular size, testosterone concentration and seminal characteristics in rams with long or short breeding season
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/6706874/

Shorter abstinence decreases sperm deoxyribonucleic acid fragmentation in ejaculate
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/21924714/

Endocrine response to masturbation-induced orgasm in healthy men following a 3-week sexual abstinence
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11760788/

Relationship between sexual satiety and brain androgen receptors
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/17268169/

A research on the relationship between ejaculation and serum testosterone level in men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12659241/

>>40620852
It’s always good to remember why /x/ is the most accurate place for this topic: semen retention is one of the clearest paranormal inducing thing of all the other topics discussed on /x/. It’s a sacred practice that has been the one of the main focuses in every major religion or spiritual practices. The mystical side of it is what we try to focus on in here.

Semen retention can be political issue too and it would then belong to /pol/. The porn industry is a tool made by the jews to deterioate the societies and corrupt the people. The porn works in ways that program new sets of behaviour in its audience and the audience is hooked to it because of its strong addictive qualities. The most important goal for porn’s male audience was and is the releasing of their semen. As we now know, the disadvantages of cooming are heavy: a man becomes less of a man, he gets sick and weak, his mind numbed, he will have impotence issues etc. Also his spirit almost dies.

Semen retention is beneficial to make one healthier and stronger, more fit, if you will. So the topic could be discussed on /fit/. Anyone looking for more ways to get fitness gains would benefit hugely from the SR.

Also the SR has so many other benefits that it could be discussed in the /adv/ board. These would be topics how it improves one’s social life, mental state, makes more time to be more productive etc.

But I think the biggest benefits of SR are something mystical in nature and the whole practice is fundamentally something very close to spiritual side of things. All the other topics in here /x/ are left far behind and SR actually makes this board of any relevancy. This is also known by the enemy and they make strong efforts to suppress, hijack, twist and end this discussion.

>>40620858
# # # THREAD HYGIENE PSA # # #

Starve the shillery.
No attention for them.
No replies.
Focus.
On.
The.
Prize.

(Pro tip > Hide shill posts: Click on the arrow next to the post number, click 'Hide', Comfy.)

>>40620863
*tink tink tink*
AHEM

>>40620896
very much so, we have been under attack for the last few threads

>Day 0
>Went on a Bender
>not even enjoyable
>*sigh* to Confession I must go
>Suddenly getting attacked with all kinds of things
>Why bother, if you can't make Confession just skip Mass, it will happen again anyway, Don't pray, you enjoyed it just keep going
>Give a very good Confession
>Now I am clean my triggers are MUCH MUCH more clear
>Holy Spirit blesses me with this constant feeling of joy lasting more then 4 hours more then any orgasm could give me
>Also the fall off exposed the next group of Demons I have to fight
Come to me Holy Spirit. Never leave me.

>>40620839
>- Sublimation: literally using the energy.
>- Transmutation: changing the quality of energy to something different. (Surya Namaskara, 8 brocades, Tibetan rites)

explain these in more detail please

>>40620836 (OP)
I am the only one noticed most porn starts look weird?

>>40620896
I only started SR about last week, I failed after 4 days but I am back on the streak and I feel a lot better, After failing on the 4th Day and waking up I noticed I felt awful, I wasn't as happy as I was the day before or Motivated as much as the day before, even though it was 4 Days it was the first break I had in over 10 Years where the intention was to stop and focus that energy else where, I had breaks before but they were always indirect and I always couldn't wait to get home and coom.

Seeing how I felt post coom it has made me realise that I have been wasting my body's resources and that SR actual does work as long as you put in effort at the same time.

I hope this is the start of something truly life changing.

>>40621256
Elaborate please ffs

>>40621256
they are either on drugs, possessed or demons themselves, sometimes all of these combined

>>40621274
>>40621276
imagine alien that like the looks of beautiful humans so he kidnap beautiful humans kill them and use their bodies in hops of making something as them but he never was successful in this endeavor something is always wrong about it.
porn stars look like this

>>40621276
A lot of them are victims of childhood sexual abuse.

>>40620836 (OP)

Prolacin blocks the effect and production of male and female hormones.

A man loses erection after ejaculation.

A woman does not ovulate during conception and a little afterward, and produces milk.

Prolacin also blocks the effect of dopamine... but dopamine blocks the production of prolacin.

The solution is to have a lot of dopamine.

Dopamine in reserve, not like you're playing a video game and you have dopamine... you need dopamine in reserve... The solution is not to waste it.

Dopamine production:
Vitamin B6
L-Tyrosine
Mucuna pruriens

Testosterone production:
Zinc
Magnesium
Selenium
Copper

50% of zinc is lost in one ejaculation...
30% of certain vitamins
10% of selenium

>>40621337
Not sure why I thought you were not schizophrenic

>>40621271
It's one of those things that is insanely hit and miss. I went 46 Days without any issues and then had slight relapse and then 3 days later I had a worse relapse and fap binge.

I've been doing this for almost 3 months. Does anyone have any advice on how to actually transmute this energy?

>>40621514
Have you tried to make any other improvements in your day to day life?

>>40620836 (OP)
This doesn’t really do anything when you’re gangstalked. Im still doing retention i just don’t see the affects

>>40621529
gangstalking is not real

Relapsed, is it any different if I looked at some porn then went and jacked off to my imagination? Neither feels good mind you

>>40621271
The difference is like night and day. Night and day. However one accustomed to cooming since capable of it how would they know? How could they compare the two, being a coomer or being a person of discipline trying to have power over the lust and not go with it and let it rule? And this day and age the situation for letting the lust take over, just wank and coom, it’s like one of those pictures where a man is surrounded by multiple all kinds of weapons pointed at him. ”Everyone does it, it’s good, it’s no big deal, it’s natural, just do it, yada yada” those messages are the strong majority. So no wonder an average man grows up to be a coomer these days and the alternative, not being a bitch of the lust aka coomer, chances are like a lightning hitting one to experience the alternative.

Even few days doing retentioning with mind put to it, it’s like seeing behind the curtains where another realm, something much better, it’s there giving its scenery. An unknown world that will cause dread also and make the man fall back to the old ways that give the feeling of security. If only it would be a matter of courage to succeed, this would be a simple path to walk… there are other things that need to be considered. Walking this path, having the streak, it should be like a flow that rejuvenates along the way. A choice based on wanting it more than the alternative.

Uhhh semenbros? Why do we keep taking Ls?

I've noticed that when I do stretches, the endorphins feel better than they usually do. Is that related?

>>40621689
Yes steroids do increase sex drive.

>>40621689
This proves nothing, SR doesn't mean you can't be successful without it you fucking inbred

>>40621689
>Arnie keeps tanking his health
This is somehow an L for us? Where is the logic.

>>40621689
yeah, I wouldn't take seriously anything that redditman on the right says.

>>40620836 (OP)
I've done it for 5 weeks now, it would have been 8 if I didn't give in in May

I'm not addicted to jerking off or porn but release sometimes randomly. Google told me jerking off few times is considered healthy reducing stress, getting good sleep and other benefits. So being a celibate really even possible for normal male? Sooner or later your so called streak is going to break it's just matter of time unless you are completely eunuch.

>>40622091
>Sooner or later your so called streak is going to break it's just matter of time unless you are completely eunuch.
People before the internet could do it for ages and it's about self-control and not debasing the value of your own reproductive substance

Just want to say to all the bros lurking that once you conquer the lust semen demon you'll never go back to being a gooner because you will a) have your strength of will restored and b) not want to goon to begin with. It actually becomes pretty easy and isn't this constant struggle you have to endure all the time as they try to make you believe.

Don't listen to the shills that try to make it sound like you have to have a raging sexual drive all the time and if you don't you are somehow low test or impotent or whatever. They want to make you afraid of getting rid of the sexual lust that keeps you mentally and spiritually enslaved and weak.

>>40622117
You're replying to a shill my friend.

>>40620836 (OP)
Bless you. You are doing God's work!

porn is poison for the body and the mind. Maybe even for the soul.

Will this practice make people more kind to me or hateful? I'm not talking about sexual attraction. I would like to be adored and receive gifts.

>hit 1 month
>go into permanent flatline
Does anyone else get this? Any advice?
This usually didn't happen before, but now it does and I'm clueless as to what to do
I want that drive and lust for life from before the flatline back, it was amazing

>>40622245
>Don't listen to the shills that try to make it sound like you have to have a raging sexual drive all the time and if you don't you are somehow low test or impotent or whatever. They want to make you afraid of getting rid of the sexual lust that keeps you mentally and spiritually enslaved and weak.
It ironically did give me a massive sexual drive that I didn't ask for except it's something that can be turned on and off like a lighter. I heard that this was what the ancients saw as chastity, sexuality directed properly, and not the modern conception of chastity which is just virginity.

>>40622367
It will make more people kind to you. You will also actually be more adored and receive gifts. This is just my personal observation though. Good social interactions and good things happening to you are much more common on SR. Seems like it takes me 5-12 days most often. Would like to go much longer.

Been doing semen retention for 3 years now. When will the big butted culo bitches with 0 sexual history come into my life?

>>40622676
>0 sexual history
May as well wish for the ability to fly, breathe fire and materialize 100 dollar bills out of thin air on demand
Think of it as a "tips odds in your favour, no matter how unfavourable they were at the beginning" thing, not a "makes an utterly impossible scenario/object real" thing

>>40622687
Why is that i stayed a good Christian boy and didn’t have sex with these bitches all throughout middle and highschool so now im forced to go out with these whores who have been dicked down ever since then? I don’t want used goods they disgust me. I won a lot of money off a lawsuit so i know i can afford a girl even though i have all the qualities of a weak man they don’t want to have sex with, but i don’t want them i want a pure girl with 0 sexual history thats what protects me and filters whore demon bitches from using and draining my resources thank god for that at least

anyone else remember methuselah? the indian guy that kept relapsing to BBC porn? i wonder where he is now

There is no strong scientific evidence to support broad or long-term health benefits of semen retention—a practice popularized in some wellness and spiritual circles (and more recently in online movements like "NoFap"). While people often report subjective benefits (like more energy or motivation), clinical research does not confirm most of these claims in a reliable, reproducible way.

>>40623933

I've never seen a more AI generated response in my life. Lmao

>>40623933
thanks chatgpt

can women sense your semen reserves?

>>40621689
Arnold is/was a retainer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jChoj2-POus&pp=ygUmYXJub2xkIHNjaHdhcnplbmVnZ2VyIHNlbWVuIHJldGVudGlvbiA%3D
this is just classic arnold misdirection to tirck the plebs into wasting their energy

>>40620896
Thank you anon

It's worth it. It increases all your stats slowly. Everything from cold resistance to no depression. Literally 100s of stats you don't even think of.

Keep trying until you succeed. It helps if you realize you are weakening yourself and will never achieve super Saiyan by draining your ki everytime you ejaculate.

Oh yeah you also dominate women easier and theya re more attracted to you.

No wonder society is so hypersexualized. It's literally a war against men's vitality and potential.

Satan is a woman or a tranny who hates men. There is no doubt

Forgot to ad.
Do kegel and there's various penis stretching bands with carabineers on aliexpress.
This is very important and will keep your energy from blocking in that area.

RETENTION COMES NATURALLY WITH A STRETCHED PENIS AND GROIN AREA.

It's like 3x easier to retain and you feel lighter.

Careful not to damage your dick, start slowly and feel profoundly

Sorry forgot pic.
Search for kegel on aliexpress. Thank me l8r

>it's his first day at the IDF
>He keeps making errors
It's ok buddy, everybody is nervous on his first day

>>40623933
Fuck your science. I'm telling you it works. I've been doing 11month retention records a few times. Idgaf about science anymore.
Real science is purely subjective. Jews will say it's objective but that's a materialistic lie

>>40624485
Satan if its really just one individual, is a 4th dimensional being who can larp as man or woman. Its a 4th dimensional being who hates humans thats for sure both men and women. With that being said, the reason why we hate women is because we see first hand how easily manipulated and impressionable they are to these evil assholes propaganda. When they’re given the freedom, they use it so much they regret it afterwards and bitch whine and moan about how unfair everything after being a used up whore. Middle east does not have this problem with women because they know what their freedom entails: the destruction of their race and a downward spiral in ethics, culture , intelligence and morals. The devil more so works in “democracy” and countries that are “free” as we can so evidently see what these 4th dimensional faggots have been capable of in poisoning culture in Hollywood and other jewish bullshit.

back at day 0, had a nocturnal emission (but no wet dream)

>>40624495
can you share some resources where I can read more about kegels? Also what is the purpose of kegel exercies? Will it increase my penis size and circulation? I'm on finasteride and find my penis to be erect at about 80%, although that is not an issue for me for now

I'm also a gigacoomer that might explain the erection problem to a degree.

>>40623933
Then pray tell, what are the clinical benefits of being a coomer with no self-control?

>>40620836 (OP)
Is this from a real episode? Bobby meditates? I'm gonna pretend he smoked a doob. But I still want to see that episode.

>>40621908
LOL, keep denying yourself for "powers", incel.

I used to be all about Science, everything had to be backed by Science but it was in front of my face this whole time, or well behind my face.

The brain is the most complex thing in the universe, we have no understanding of how the brain creates consciousness, Science can't explain it yet it exists so it stands to reason there are more things Science is yet to explain and the more you look the more you find.

SR might be one of those things, Personally I have felt a massive difference in stopping constantly cooming, my energy levels are higher, my motivation to do things is higher, my motivation to talk to friends and family is higher, I can approach any woman when I couldn't before. I'm not going to lie my urges are strong right now but some self talk and meditation can help drastically remove those urges from the front of my mind.

What I'm doing along side SR.
Working out every other day with 25 Push ups 25 Sit ups 25 Pull ups 25 Squats 3 Km run, this will increase in 3 months to 75 then to 100 etc etc, Strength training 1/2 a week if I feel like I need it (I lift shit at work)

Supplements, now I can't stress this enough that your body is a machine that needs certain things to work at max efficiency, I take Multivitamin (Everything), Omega-3 Fish oil, Biotin, Creatine, Magnesium Glycinate, Lions Mane, Vit D3 + K3, Ashwaganda and Collagen.

MENTALITY, it is important, maybe the most important if you're not doing anything else than focus on this, you need to have a hunger, you need to want to improve, it's all good saying you're doing it to improve but you need to have the hunger to improve to change who you are, disregard your old self, be disgusted with your old self become someone you always wanted to be.

>>40622367
It's both. Like a magnet regaining polarization you attract or repel, as opposed to strictly nothing at all. I dunno if you will receive gifts but I suppose it's not impossible, around day 40 my landlord sent a cake to my place.

>>40622387
Is everything else going okay? A nap or a meal turns around a bad day for me.

>>40624917
Put together an actual gym routine, the pushup pullup thing is the tier of lifting I would expect a 12 year old to come up with. Also are you really doing it? 25 pullups is more than most peoples' max by a wide margin, and 25 pushups are fuck all, same with 25 squats. And guessing by the routine you're a skinny bastard so after you've got the routine nailed track your calories and nail down some recipes for a proper measured diet. You won't need any of the supplements if your diet, exercise, and sleep is on point.

>>40624950
I meant to say in there to put together a real routine at a gym

>>40624952
oh fuck I did at the start lmao

>>40624950
I don't like being big it restricts too much movement, 25 25 25 3km is just to keep my limbs mobile and me active.

>tier of lifting I would expect a 12 year old to come up with

There is no lifting involved it's all calisthenics, I do rock climbing as a hobby so 25 pull ups is not really much also is it really more than most peoples max? I could get massive again but It was really too much work for no practical uses, couldn't even use my own swimming pool effectively

I eat whatever I want I don't count calories and I stay a healthy weight

>>40620836 (OP)
I feel like I can see a women's glow or lack there of depending on how long my streak is. Starting to notice this grey like energy or just dull neutral energy from a lot of people. It's not even an attraction thing as the girl might be conventionally attractive but I just look at her and see grey, if that makes any sense. When there is energy or a glow they seem to automatically lock on me like a connection is made. I can literally feel the pull sometimes.

Anyone have any experience with this?

I just had a dream where all of the celebrities I used to Goon over were watching me Pee like intensely and fighting over who gets to be in front of me

>>40624975
That's all well and good man. If in the future you become more serious about getting into good shape you will feel like the time you are spending currently was time spent spinning your wheels, but that's probably part of a life arc later on that becomes a lesson on the value of time. Rock climbing is fun as hell too and being bulky doesn't lend well to that, but get a hanging board at least. Training grip will take you up a couple tiers in a few months.

>>40625152
lol

>>40625183
I think you've miss understood what I’m on about, I've been a gym rat and it's for faggots

>>40624516
Not all nocturnal emissions are streak breakers.
Some are just prostate fluid without sperm, and without the negative hormonal response that comes with ejaculation from stimulation.

>>40620836 (OP)
>Day 25
>Hardest urges were in 15-20. Now that i passed them, i feel indestructible. Full of energy too.
Can someone give more scientific evidence than the baker provided. Some gooners i still not convinced.

I’m approaching day 50 and still feel like shit. I’ve replaced porn with working more and youtube, which I suppose is better. I was watching 3 hours of porn a day and 4 hours of youtube, now I’m watching about 5 hours of youtube. This also makes me feel like shit although not as much. I’m going for a two hour screentime this week. Overconsumption of all kind is spiritually damning. I now need to face my second biggest addiction and I do not think I could do so if I was still a gooner.

>>40625312
The problem with 'scientific' evidence is that to be published you need funding. The (((people))) funding studies have an agenda and that agenda is both anti-male and depopulation so you will seldom if ever have pro-retention 'scientific' studies.
Now realistically speaking science as it should be is any investigation carried out through the scientific method. Create a hypothesis and carry it out in an controlled environment and an unbiased fashion. See if the results confirm or deny the hypothesis.
You're already a successful case study
and there are many more successful case studies in this thread. Encourage them to do their own study (try it themselves for a week) instead of unironically 'trusting the science'. If they're not willing to try it themselves without seeing a scientific peer reviewed double blind study then they're basedboys who never would have made it anyways.

>>40625404
Good job bro. When I was first reading your message I was going to mention 5 hours of YouTube will make anyone feel like shit, but you seemed to catch on yourself. I'm not sure how physically active you are but going for runs (or walls if your body can't handle runs yet) daily will help immensely. The fresh air and exercise does wonders.

>Day 1
>no major issue
>had a few 4chan binges but snapped out of it
>this morning everything is wrong
>frustrated
>get really frustrated
>have a rather personal conversation with God
>Ask God to silence, blind and deafen any demon near me
>suddenly it breaks
>Realize how dumb I was being and how I was overreacting
Demons man. You take something away and they lash out like wild animals.

>>40625294
well I had an orgasm, which woke me up and i dont know why. I wasnt peeking at porn, am physicaly active etc

>>40620836 (OP)
WTF BOYS....

I'm 7 months SR and now I'm asexual? wtf do I do now that I don't care about women...
I'm getting a motorbike and just enjoying life now? lets go boys lock in I guess?

Also please some serious advice? I'm actually concerned if it's healthy to become asexual?

>>40624935
>Is everything else going okay?
Yeah everything feels normal. I track my nutrition and I sleep as much as I can in this bloody heat, it's just that I've been flatlining hard, to the point where I'm wondering if something is actually wrong.

>>40625670
They’re like chimps

>>40625993
Being asexual is not a thing, find the reason why you don't care about women.

Do lustful thoughts and fantasies count as a relapse?

>>40626235
pop quiz

>>40626195
I found myself and love for myself and had an awakening and now I love life all equally that I could not love a single women for I love the larger soul body of all women, the soul of feminine energy.

It's not asexual, I still desire and lust for a woman but I have conscious body mind and body ability to chose to ignore this without issue. If I want to be asexual I am now asexual. I control the switch of desire itself and it has freed me these self imposed shackles.

>>40626235
Depends, intrusive thoughts are impossible to control, it's what you do after with the thought that matters, do you engage with the thought? if so why, what do you get out of it? What are you getting out of these fantasies?

>>40626287
>I love life all equally that I could not love a single women for I love the larger soul body of all women

Loving one woman deeply is a devotion to the divine feminine energy, through her you honour and experience the essence of all women in one sacred form.

>>40626235
Depends on how you recieve them. If you are sitting their going full on fantasy mode getting a super boner? Then yes.

But don't get over scrupalous about it. It's about Will and Action otherwise you'll go insane walking into a Target and seeing the walls covered in women in lingerie.

>>40626305
why should I believe this?
Feminine energy exist outside the body. To experience it isn't required by a female. I've found a way to tap into the soul into myself and capture both masculine and feminine energy.

Why devote myself to a false god (women)
When I can devote to self and the true god? God of creation. As written in Enoch

>>40626710
>As written in Enoch
I urge you to read the teachings again and you will find the error in your ways

>>40625993
AHAHAHAHHAHAHA YOU FELL FOR A MEME THAT MADE YOU A LITERAL EUNUCH, THEY LITERALLY USED TO MAKE SLAVES EUNUCH TO DESTROY THEIR WILL , WHICH WOULD MAKE THEY STOP REVOLTING AND MAKE THEM BETA KEKS LMAOOOOOOO THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR NOT COOMING. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA IMAGINE FALLIGN FOR THIS MEME INSTEAD OF GETTING FREE DOPAMINE AND RELAXATION AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

40626855
<-pic related

>>40626710
>>40626287
>>40626305
NTA but you're both right, you're splitting hairs here. you can be with a woman or not, and still be devoted to yourself and god.

I always fail after 3-4 days.
I now realize all addiction is a chain of actions. The first step is I usually open reddit or 4chan gif to find webms to goon to and It's a slippery slope from there.
I'll actively focus on breaking the first link from today. Lustful thoughts make their way into my head without a trigger so I can't really stop them and the mere act of trying to stop them makes then even stronger.
But the opening of reddit / 4chan is the real trigger. I'll not visit reddit or 4chan gif again.
Also another thing I've noticed is that this happens during night when I cannot sleep so I'll actively try to sleep earlier than usual.

>>40626855
>INSTEAD OF GETTING FREE DOPAMINE AND RELAXATION
This makes you a weak person

>>40624629
>coomer
>on hormone altering drugs
it's over

>>40626958
>You will own nothing and be happy
>No dopamine and relaxation is actually a good thing
>you will work your entire life and be productive! You will own nothing! This is a good thing

>>40626990
>You will own nothing and be happy
Nobody is saying this but carry on in your own coomer delusions
>No dopamine and relaxation is actually a good thing
I get dopamine from being creative and productive and I relax by doing whatever I want
>you will work your entire life and be productive! You will own nothing! This is a good thing
I can retire whenever I want

This is the last time I reply to a coomer shill, please get up out of your chair and go to the mirror and look at yourself in the eyes.

>>40623039
>i want a pure girl with 0 sexual history thats what protects me and filters whore demon bitches from using and draining my resources
Someone tell him

>>40627114
i will
>>40623039
you will die a virgin

>>40621186
based catholic
>>40621557
>Even few days doing retentioning with mind put to it, it’s like seeing behind the curtains where another realm
okay i'm likve 5 months in please teach me this because clearly i'm doing something wrong. i meditate, iv'e done breath work...

>>40627178
How man, i'm 4 Days in and feel like a completely different person, how much did you coom before?
The question is what are you not doing, are you redirecting the energy in to something positive that will positively effect your life or you just sitting around waiting for shit to happen to you

>>40623933
>chatgpt
>saving the same image twice
you don't deserve oxygen

6 days clean, broke my streak a second ago. Had some trouble sleeping, thought it would help. Welp, youve guessed it - it did not and now Im so fucking ashamed of mysel bros, but Im going to make it next time for sure

>>40623039
that's a nice goal, anon.
do you know what a passport bro is?

>>40621689
>2013
and how he looks now?

>>40624485
I just want to be a friend to women now though and also protect children and mothers and animals I hate low-T coomers who don't respect life just like they don't respect their own seed and destroy it for 30 seconds of pleasure

>>40627728
You're a fag.

>>40627736
I want to have sex with a decent woman retard

>>40626895
Based, Semen Retention is one secrets to Aura farming

whats the point? how to find love? I've used SR to get that but after 5 months I just get laid with 2 different woman and it was terrible both times. just couldn't do it and cum while flaccid also got candidiasis. Why am I cursed to not be loved?

good luck anons.

day 11. few nights ago i had a dream I was sitting under a tree talking and laughing with a gorgeous girl. like it was some 1940s romance movie shit. pure wholesome happiness. woke up feeling more energy than I have in a while. went on a date with a friend (who has rejected me before) and she cuddled me on the couch while we watched TV

bros. how can I chalk this up to coincidence? there is something to semen retention/no porn. i feel i have unlocked a door i always had the key to… this is the only thing i have ever tried to make myself happier that has worked. holy shit.

I hereby vow to never masturbate again for the rest of my life.

>>40627232
i'm doing a ton, definitely directing it into positive things etc. i was maybe 5-7 times per week before

however i'm also directing a lot of my SR energies into something very big that likely wasn't going to happen overnight which i think explains why i feel like i do

>>40627728
based precious fluids respecter

>have good streak
>relapse
>starting new streak
>Fine all day
>See a trigger and prain goes into panic mode demanding Dopamine
Ah... ahhhhhhhh... ah okay yeah this is actual addiction. I have been addicted to gambling before and this is that same feeling of my brain working itself into knots to justify doing the thing.

kill all gooners

I did a 3-month streak earlier this year, relying solely on willpower. The benefits have been substantial, one of the improvements I thought I had lost was my ability to memorize. As a child, I was quite adept at memorization, often needing no more than three attempts to memorize something. I believe I've regained about 40% of that ability, and with practice and a year of abstaining, I might fully restore it. Additionally, I've noticed a renewed interest in exploring topics that interest me, and I can sustain that interest for longer periods. I've also started having dreams where I'm aware and can influence the direction of the dream, rather than just observing what unfolds. However, after that streak, I went through a loop of 3–5 days for several months, which shows that my willpower approach wasn't as effective as I had hoped, and I have some fundamental issues to address. I plan to start a new 3-month streak, but this time I will follow a structured schedule instead of going with the flow. The first streak was tough, and the struggle was real, likely because I had a lot of free time that exposed me to various triggers. On the days when I was occupied, I found it much more enjoyable, and the benefits I experienced were undoubtedly encouraging.

man this has to be the hardest thing a young man can do...hardcore pornography blasted at an early age, society normalizing whores and sex...IMAGINE WHEN IM FREE BY THE POWER OF JESUS AFTER 12 YEARS OF THIS OOooOOOOOOOOOOO COME ON FIGHT ME JEWS IM COMING FOR YOU ALL VICE PROMOTERS TO CHILDREN

>day 7
>mfw made it through the weekend with 0 issues
>mfw pure mental clarity after a week of pure chaos
What does the general timeline look like?

>>40629830
Basically if you had never masturbated after the age of 12 your life would've gone way better

>>40628230
quit whining
quit crying
man up
stop looking for love and love yourself

Day 5, I feel a lot more energy and less depressed. But I feel like something tries to attack me and make me more stressed out which then makes me feel like I need to fap to release stress.

I try to look at nudes and hot girls but then immediately feel disgust and sadness by their whorish ways and regain control of myself. I believe disgust and sadness may be the key to overcoming this demonic force of lust, stay strong and remember that you are powerful byyourself and they are trying to take that power from you, don't let them!

>>40624950
Prisoners can get jacked purely off calisthenics, fuck the gym
>inb4 some prisoners have weights
Yeah but many just angrily do pushups in their cell, pullups wherever, run in the yard, and get into incredible shape

>>40628230
Because you're chasing too hard

Once you stop needing it, what's meant for you will come

>>40630147
They do hundreds of reps tho, and they have all the time and reason to do it in prison. Are you really prepared to do your bunk ass high volume bodyweight routine for mid gains the rest of your life? You'll consistently crank out hundreds of reps 5x a week to maintain your gains? That shit is so retarded. Just do weighted calisthenics instead with a dip belt and weight vest. I used to do calisthenics, i didn't get big until I started lifting weights and doing weighted pullups and dips on a regular basis. You're one of those dudes who watches fight club and thinks Tyler Durden is yoked.

>>40624715
You don't have to be one or the other, Anon...

>>40630147
Do calisthenics if you want nigger idgaf.

>>40630032
Based. I am on a building up dayb2 day 3 day 4 cycle. Just held out another day 3 and I notice it too. I am PROUD to be in control of my drive. Proud of you too

>>40626913
my issue is I find myself being overwhelmed by an actual women. I find if I do engage this side I might lose sight of my spiritual goals.

I suppose this is the answer to my own questions.

I shall not settle for any women but one that is in equal life belief? For this would be desire of union instead of desire of lust?

>>40627178
>>40629307
Maybe it’s about noticing what’s going on around you, some pay more attention while others are not so conscious. For example one thinks more the social situations while some people are not so much bothered about them, like thinking what’s going on with other people. Another thing is the hormones and retentioning directly has an effect to them. If there are imbalances in hormones, retentioning stabilizes them. In hormones for others the levels are stronger or their effects are stronger. Someone has high libido, heals fast and is very healthy for example and they are just born like that, of course these things can be affected by nutrition, exercising, lifestyle and so on.

Five months on retentioning, would you say it has been easy or hard? Getting it going for so long either needs strong understanding what one is doing and what it’s about or then it could be that the sexual side of things were not out of ordinary like causing addiction kind of like behavior. But hard to tell, try to be more present in your everyday life happening. Sounds like you’re focused on something in the future. It’s hoping that one day you have made it but once that day comes you still have your mind set to the magical future day when you have made it. The goal is needed so a path can be walked but pay attention to your steps then.

>>40626235
Well, where do they lead you?

i used to retain with intention all the time before learning it was a popular or even a magic practice and finding these threads and now i've become a doubter kek

>>40620836 (OP)
Semen retention like going vegan except with added belief that god is looking at you through a snowglobe

>>40631005
i'm just doing it just to do it atp, i see no benefits (day 20) but i said to myself that it's embarrasing to fuck my hand with all this lifting and i might aswell cum inside my wife (if i ever meet her)

>>40631038
it seems like a benefit you already feel is that you're not embarrasing yourself. that'll be good for your self-esteem and self-image

Any tips for someone who as been at it for almost a year but relapsed bad and was failing for a couple of years?
So far i have had a clean day yesterday with not even triggers breaking my will and i feel no urges today either. How do i keep it this way?

>>40629944
>>40630188
yeah yeah, I heard it many times, didn't change shit. I'm just frustrated and damaged about nobody cared about me all my life.

>>40621256
They have that "Hollywood Beauty" look. Very tanned skin, way too skinny, bony, looks older than they are. Most of these things are masculine traits.

If you haven't already figured it out, Hollywood and the porn industry is trying to make men attracted to masculine features, they want them to be gay (so they'll commit sodomistic acts)

>>40621529
GS'ers hate retention. If you retain, you're more motivated and creative; you come out of slumps and excell at things easier. They hate this because they like you to not only be in misery, but also in a constant feedback loop of low energy activities (cooming, petty anger, anything else hedonistic). Most GS'ers are actually just regular people who have been overtaken by a demonic spirit, so them provoking you into behaving this way is the reason behind it, it's a demon causing it, so that you'll give up your precious loosh (and seed).

>>40621256
9/10 times they simply aren't conventionally attractive or beautiful. if they were they'd get a free-ride being supported by rich handsome men. when you stop watching porn for an extended time you realize this quickly. i'm not saying that they're all ugly and they can't get your dick hard but you start seeing it eventually.

>>40631222
you're not damaged, you've just made up a reason to feel sorry about yourself. drop this narrative of "nobody cares about me", or else you'll just keep making it a reality

>>40628067
I've noticed if you want to aura farm, you just match the girls energy. If a girl is a baddie you act like the bad boy that doesn't give a fuck about her.
If you meet a kind and sweet girl you better suit up and give her flowers.

Is this the power of unlocking the full self through SR? You realise you are all of nature and life and you are not the self or identity so you can pick and chose and be anyone at any time for you are apart of everyone?

>>40630935
there are side benefits i've noticed, but nothing incredibly life-changing. although i suppose that life-changing is relative; i said hi to two beautiful women on the street the other day, and doing that as an extreme introvert sounds like a lot. i just keep going because i believe pretty deeply that this is what God wants me to do

>>40631653
i don't think this i true, "good girls" fall for bad boys all the time

>>40631330
You are not gonna be teleported to gensyokyo by pretending you don't have semen

>>40631894
>pretending you don't have semen
Is kinda the crux, this entire thread is feminine for the fact that they don't expect semen doesn't drain unless you blue ball yourself which can be trained and tolerated as seen with starcraft players

>>40621553
Porn enticing you is still bad. Had a close call the other day. If youre that susceptible it's not good you will probably full relapse.

>>40621689
He was constantly roided and weightlifting to compensate. Sex isn't as bad as just busting for nothing.

It’s been a hard day today, friends house burnt down and I got put down to 2 days a week at work but that makes me eligible for benefits, probably going to now make more than I was working more days lol


Usually I would have lost my shit and became very depressed but now I’m just thinking about how I can fix the situation and move on SR is powerful

i wasn't even thinking i just went to look at some lewd images without even processing what i was doing now im sitting here leaking ffs
24 days

>Reported benefits include: healthier hair/skin/eyes

why ? how ? i genuinely want to know

I've had this feeling of.. it's not lust, but for the past 5hrs, I've felt the need to peek at porn. I've worked out, played videogames, folded clothes. Done lots of stuff but the feeling is still there, it's like every thought is followed by thinking of pornography, wtf is this.

>>40632429
addiction

>>40632456
It has never been this strong, I quit for much longer before, idk why it's this strong. For some reason whenever something goes wrong with my workout such as my performance being worse than usual. The feeling becomes very strong. I've struggled with this shit for 11 years now, feels ridiculous when I think about it. It's literally two rules "don't peek" and "don't touch it". How can one keep messing up like this

>>40624495
>>40624629
Unless you are into some heavy and arcane energy cultivation, CHI weights are a dangerous advise that will give you more trouble than not.
Stick to normal kegels, which is OT to nofap semen retention anywa, or, just be smart about it all and do some pelvic floor focused yoga.

>>40625993
>>40626287
You are not becoming asexual, you are reaching a point of normalcy...lacking a better word rn...modern world is so fucked up and has made all folks to be so sex focused that a neutral point can seem odd.

>>40626305
>>40626710
NTA either, nor the other one which has a more balanced view >>40626913
but be very careful with that shit, extremes are never healthy, it's equally as bad to idealize women into divinity as is bad to condemn women into lust demons.

I'm limiting myself to coom once a month or better have real sex but that doesn't seem to be possible right now.
I understand cooming everyday is unhealthy.
I'll never watch porn again.
If I see something on a 4chan thread I'll quickly close it instead.

>>40631157
>How do i keep it this way?
Breaking a long streak is not bad, and it's kinda normal to fall back to life long patterns. A thing I've learned recently and before delving into these threads is that It's important to identify what are the triggers and avoid them. Keep in mind some triggers can be internal, like some specific types of fantasies.
Remember, it's a learned habit, so it's expected to meet resistance when trying to change it.

>>40632788
i cum on full moons, but i've only done this on one moon so far

>>40632754
I have gone through all these phases with SR and women. I put them in divinity, I put them as demons but I settled on the witch archetype. This applies to all women imo.
Some traits all women have are an inner creativity, a captivating mind for the imagination and intuition man fails to see often. A women is a witch as in she will create a positive mood via her aura, she will know how to brew you beverage and food that is healthy for your heart and soul.
Yet she is dangerous enough to explore the dark arts. but usually with pet cats, witches are humble and kind at heart even if they lash out at times.

tldr; women are multi layered creatures as are men. not demons or angels.

>>40631598
>you're not damaged
so why I can't fuck?

>>40632804
>Breaking a long streak is not bad
dunno man. I feel like it was worse after the streak than before in some ways. The relapse hit me like a truck.
>It's important to identify what are the triggers and avoid them
Looks like either i became immune or what i thought my triggers were actually weren't triggers. I can look at random porn people post here and i feel nothing. I just don't want to be hard so im not. I really don't know where this came from but i really really want to keep this power. Its really weird.

I've been seriously struggling with controlling my addictions (obv masturbation and porn usage, weed, sugar, social media, etc.) but recently have had a few breakthroughs that have completely changed my attitude towards retaining and living a virtuous life as whole.

1.) I used to have a victim mindset about beginning adulthood (just graduated uni) when the world seems to be tearing itself apart. I thought "what's even the point" about trying to do good when so many people are rewarded for doing wrong. I realized recently that I should feel lucky that shit is falling apart, because it's in moments of crisis when EVERYTHING MATTERS. I want to be the best version of myself so I can do my part in spreading a little bit of light in a dark time.

2.) I've dropped the goal of perfectionism, and it has freed me from guilt. I used to be so concerned about hitting every goal and making every checkpoint. When I inevitably fail to reach the high bar I set for myself, I would just go back to square one and start jackin off, whether I wanted to or not. Theres a quote along the lines of "It's better to do something halfway than to do nothing at all" and its true.

I'm only on Day 6 right now which I know is not a lot, but typically i'm feining by Day 3 but I've been so at peace this week it really feels like something has changed inside me. Some benefits I've experienced so far:

- Acquaintences that don't usually reach out are contacting me
- Conversations flowing smoother with strangers
- More people notice me and turn to look at me when I enter the room
- More motivation to do things that benefit me, less motivation to do things that I know will harm me
- More positive outlook about myself and my life

I hope some of this can help you out on your journey.

SR + Fish = GOD

>>40633182
what type of fish? and eating fish or what? lol

Do you want to know what is one of the best ways to control your sexual urges? The answer is: Reading. Try to read something that is very intellectually demanding. It will change your mindset from base desires (sex) to a more mental and spiritual states. After reading and actually thinking what you have read, you feel less urges to masturbate.

It seems like many people have it completely upside-down;they try to their control their base desires just by not doing it but before you even begin SR you will also need to first DO something mentally stimulating, so you can move from the base desires to a higher aspect of self.

I'm speaking from my own personal experiences.

>>40633003
>The relapse hit me like a truck
I've been there man, for real, the less I kept giving into shame, the less important the truck became and the easier it was to start another long streak, if you find it in you to do so, just keep going.

SR is the way. Fuck you all

>>40632788
>I'm limiting myself to coom once a month or better have real sex
Cooming with a partner initiates relationship self-destruct sequence. Don't do this if you want to keep her.
Everyone in this thread needs to read "Cupid's Poisoned Arrow"
It's on libgen

>>40633743
>women
>sex
Get behind me Satan! Your game ain't nuthin special!

>>40632867
>This applies to all women imo
It's totally subjective, fully respectable as it is your POV, and way beyond the scope of the subject of the thread.
For the type of man that is just starting to raise the question of nofap/abstinence/retention in his life it is better to understand that women are plain human beings, nothing more and nothing less, people, like men but not quite like men because they respond to a different polarity of energy and conscience.
No man that intends to improve themselves will have real success in doing so if it's just to better relate to women, or just to get pussy.
The reason for that is because women come and go and the *success* to get pussy will go with them, as the illusion *it* was.
Just my POV, and again, way beyond the scope of this thread

>>40633198
merely holding them should be enough

30 days super clean pure streak. Then yesterday I started edging, today and yesterday hard 2 hour + edge sessions, and ontop of that started drinking a lot of caffeine and bought a bunch of packs of cigarrettes

Reflecting on that, I won't be smoking more cigs as they completely drain my energy and "vibe" feel almost no energy these past 2 days smoking cigs, and the edging is terrible also. Went from feeling on fire and hyped up for life to feeling like a dumpster.

Didn't nut but felt that "over the line" type of feeling twice now so I'm guessing I maybe internally nutted or whatever.

Won't be drinking caffeine or smoking cigs, going back to exercising a lot in the morning. Hopefully I dont fall like this again this streak has been amazing

Any advicers when you end up like this mid streak?

so many of you are just repressionmaxxing

>>40631835
It’s like you could always move like walk but not fly. Before retention you could walk and still, you can only walk. But it didn’t change things so that you could fly now. And you’re disappointed. I sense impatientience which causes the state of mind being focused on getting the results fast and the results need to be the same as the strongest and craziest stories other practioners have told. For example such a magnetism that it can be manifested the desired people to make contact like sending messages and wanting to meet (been there).

This all starts to sound like ”what’s the point if the results are not superb”, like if one is not getting everything they hope and want, what’s the point exactly? But what are you looking for? You mention God. Can’t you let Him show you how everything is and let all of them illusions dispel?

>>40634037
yeah for sure. but while i feel impatient, my faith is strong enough to wait 5 months.

I have a very specific thing I am praying for, and it's a big thing, which is why I can think in terms of months and not days

>>40634004
Have a think at what triggered you to start those behaviours and go from there.

>>40634004
You just had a long dopamine high. For every high there is a corresponding low.
Not nearly as bad as ejaculative orgasm - you will recover quickly if you cease the edging and lay off the cigs/caffeine (which are also an addiction i.e. dopamine source).

wasn't worth it
all the anxieties i managed to get over the past 2 weeks are hitting hard in the post nut clarity
i honestly feel that avoiding sexual thoughts and porn and masturbating just makes me distract myself from it, but as collateral i avoid absolutely everything else. there must be a way past this

Bros don't do it, you'll see how taxing it is for your body to lose semen
T. Sir coomed again

How do I stop? I can't go one day without fapping. I didn't have the internet at my house for a year and I managed to really taper it down, but ever since I got a phone again it's game over. I'm the most addicted I've ever been. I can't get rid of internet or phone because I need them for work but it's destroying me, its been four months nonstop. I can't go one day without it. The environment I'm in right now is making it impossible to find a gf, I'm in a dead end town

>>40635743
The problem I'm having is that when I seem to abstain right now, my body is so addicted that it starts like overproducing sperm and I get like animalistically horny. When I wasn't watching porn so much my libido was way more normal

The only time I ever managed to be really successful with nofap was when I went to a 9 to 5 job, because I just didn't have enough time by myself. I have no idea how to conquer this when you wfh and are single with an internet connection

>>40635743
I personally find that the phrase: "Idle hands are the Devils workshop." is very accurate to this situation. You MUST fill your own routine with things your enjoy doing and are passionate about or negative un-productive/lazy things will take the place of it.

Not passionate about anything because gooning destroyed that ambition? Try the basics:

1. Excercise, it sucks and it's painful but you start feeling much better because the endorphin rush.

2. Artwork, you might feel embarassed that you can't draw at first but the positive feeling of seeing your art improve slowly over time might inspire you to keep improving.

3. Music, Play an intrument you like or go online and rediscover your favorite songs from mainstream music or your favorite video game OSTs. Buy a nice pair of bluetooth headphones and listen while excercising or drawing.

4. Cooking etc...

Fill your life with something meaning OR the devil will take your time from you...

>>40635869
Here's the thing... I'm already a musician. In fact that's my job. Its actually a really big stressor and trigger I've found because it's work

>>40635878
You may be burnt-out on that hobby because it's something that dominates your life, it may be time to slowly wiggle your way out of that lifestyle and start finding new things.

I'm not saying quit your job or anything but it may be time to find a temporary replacement while you switch out your routine. Might want to start looking for another job and/or start learning a new skill to find new work.

If things in your schedule do not allow you to find time for those things then it's to start compacting and compressing things in your free-time that make room for new hobbies/activites.

What's something that you feel takes up too much of your time and can remove from your schedule that will give you more freedom?

>>40635974
Oh my god if I could be free of music production I think it would be the root cause of a lot of my addictive cycles. No clue what to fill that void with, would love to do something non screen based. Tried IT already, wasn't right. I don't know where to start, I've become one dimensional in my pursuits

>>40631914
>semen doesn't drain
It reabsorbs. That's one of the whole points of SR

>>40635994
Honestly I find that putting on my headphones while listening to music and going for walks is like the most simple form of filler, and sometimes it just needs to be in baby-steps; if you can't last one day then record how many hours you usually feel susceptable. For example: if you can't go longer than 2-3 hours without fa**ing then try to go for 4 or 3 and a half hours and don't feel bad if you fall victim to it.

If you fail then try again and try to beat your record slowly but surely. Meditation and the ability to visualize your brains ability to repel the need to f*p is key.

Here is a mental visualization example: Try imagining a big red (X) mark in front of something you DON'T want in your mind, and put a big green (V) check mark in front of thoughts or images that you want your mind to focus on. It takes practice but the more you do this the more you are training your brain to accept positive values in your mind and body rather than unproductive negative values.

I need good luck and good fortune, and I need to succeed at astral projection. Does SR help with this any, any results from you guys?

>>40636077
Ugh I basically can't listen to music anymore. When you make something your life it just changes things. I associate alot of dread and bad feelings with it now. Its also basically impossible to find new music after the age of 30, your brain just turns to mush and you don't hang out with young kids anymore who are in the know and you don't go to shows anymore and it just doesn't hit the same way anymore, so you end just listening to the same fossilized indie record you loved from when you were 15 on the treadmill every day

>>40636077
(continued) And try this as well: When something bad you don't want in your mind appears alongside the big red (X) think of the most annoying or comprehensive sound to go along with that visualization like a gameshow-buzzer that goes "EEHHHH!" or "BUZZZZ!". For the big green (V) for things you approve of make a pleasant "DING!" like a microwave finished your food type of noise or the sound of an old slot machine making a noise after you land a triple 777 telling your mind that you just "hit the jackpot" (https://youtu.be/Xa2tDZxnm6w?si=Vi26P41RghX6gOUu) with every positive affirmation you allow into your mind.

Experiment with your own mental visuals and see what works.

When I dont retain my semen, I notice the following things:
I can’t divine with tarot, it fucks my readings up.
People say I look sickly
I can’t lose weight.
I get angry over little shit.

>>40624917
Good post

>>40636077
>>40636138

>>40636090
>good luck and good fortune
There is definitely something here, of course I'm talking clean streaks, and it was noticeable every time in my case
>astral projection
This I never managed to do. Probably due to being so tired that I just fall asleep no matter how hard I try to focus

>>40636129
I had to go through the same thing, I'm in my early 30's and I had to ether dig deep or take the plunge and go through annoying new music until I finally found something I like.

It takes work to replace the old with something new, even if you hate the new shit which does sound like werid noise.

>>40636139
https://youtu.be/iZ9Lt0LYiUI?si=ajtIYtAeJOItNqwL

So.. i was reading an old manga and one of the characters was outed as some creep that masturbates.

Just a reminder that the normalization of masturbation is just a current Psy op on the population.

>>40631312
No wonder they’re pissed off. I’m not a easy target, and when they do prepare traps for me i bite it with plans to make it bite them back in the ass instead

Have been tempted to go on a full hooker bender. I can see myself getting remorseful after the first one and wasting money I can't afford to waste. Staying strong against it, you guys can too. Do not give into temptation and focus on what matters.

I would kill to have the strength to really do this. I don't even remember what it was like to not constantly fall into the cycle. I don't want these urges anymore

>>40636496
expel the demon inside of you. stop being a slave. satan laughs every time you give in.

>>40633997
lol wtf do you mean?

>>40632346
>i wasn't even thinking
me at day 7 days clean

>>40636717
Dude I just wanna get past day one. Your doing great. This shit is poison, I can't wait to be seven days clean

I can't wait to get my pre porn brain back.

>>40636742
Hey over a year I’m finally up to 3 days. It’s getting to the point that I’m starting to feel guilty for masturbating. Don’t give up! I believe in you.

>>40636406
Same, the more powerful you get the more they try to attack you I've noticed. They get super irritated when they run out of people to act as a host.

If they can't get someone lustful to get you they get someone to make you angry and stressed which leads to the cycle again. Becareful everyone they're getting desperate.

HIDE if you have to.

>>40636129
>Its also basically impossible to find new music after the a-ACK
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQP4BLnCpws

Is anyone else catching on to the fact that all the Semen Retention content on YouTube, not only is redundant but also masterbatory itself in nature? A lot of the videos if not most, seem to always be preparing you for stuff that hasn't even happened to you yet. Example: video titles like "People will hate you on Semen Retention" or "People see something different in you, on Semen Retention"... "Be careful of Montoring Spirits on Semen Retention"

A lot of this seems to be a grift, and you almost have to be braindead to consume such content. I believe in Semen Retention as a practice being of utmost importance, but all these videos seem to be is noise, a buffer from the real authentic experience that is your birthright as a man.

>>40636878
How can i make these fallen demonic spirit faggots even more angrier than the. Very bane of their existence? Whatever it is they want me to do, i want to do the very opposite to enrage them. Follow god? Sure if it’ll piss them off. My convictions against these demons is to always be a pain in their ass and not let them get what they desire

If I go to rehab for porn how do I make sure that I don't just watch it when I get and get access to my phone again

>>40637149
dude that's like 99% of youtube regarding any topic, it's all repetitive click bait garbage that's watered down

>>40637235
install porn blocker
delete all porn content that's on the phone

>>40635869
I think in the bible right before David goes to spy on Bathsheba bathing he was just hanging out on his couch in the middle of the day. Basically waking up late with nothing to do, and it ultimately leads to his biggest falling out with sin. Keeping busy is one of the best ways for me to retain. When I have no short term or long term goals and im just sitting around bored is when im most likely to relapse.

I should probably pick up cooking again and start working on learning more Japanese again. Just small habits and things to add to my day that take away time from burping the worm.

>>40636129
I had this problem in my late 20's and early 30's. I ride freestyle BMX and have been since 6th grade. It just kind of got boring to me so I mixed in snowboarding and now I travel to different countries with my bike. One of my favorite parts with BMX was just hanging out with friends while doing it. Basically completely died locally, but when I went abroad it was like the old times and even better. My hobby just needed to be reoriented and new hobbies picked up. I spend more time these days doing 3d modeling than bmx for fun and side income. Music started getting a little stale too so I started picking up Jpop and Rpop and would play the songs in VR on beatsaber and started attending Jpop concerts when they are in town.

It sounds like you are just stuck in a rut and need to mix up the stuff you have been doing completely and taper off slightly and add in completely new stuff. A big problem with old age is you just get bored of everything and it seems like you have seen everything there is to see. You aren't going to get those teen years back, but theres tons of new stuff for you to try. Im still making new memories and finding joy in new things. Not as much when I was younger but its not over yet.

What was this?

I had a minor surgery two weeks ago, and the night before I had a wet dream. I’m getting my stitches out today and had a wet dream.

>>40637554
maybe unconcious stress

I know most guys here would be against it but I wanted to experiment a little and try out non ejaculatory orgasms.

The rules were that I can't watch porn and to not masturbate but I'm allowed to fantasize to start the fire/get a boner and then try to simulate an orgasm from memory while doing deep belly breathing, I also tried to keep my pelvic floor muscles relaxed and not tense.

While I don't think I actually had any orgasms there were moments that felt I was on the verge of one and it was pretty nice. However this nice feeling only lasted for like 20 minutes, for the rest of the day I would have a mild migraine, especially the front part of my brain would be really tense and almost sore.

So yeah I'm not sure if it was worth it, did my brain get an overflowing of sexual energy? did I flood it with too much dopamine?

>>40637149
it's oversaturation for the sake of views, you only need to watch a few and you get the general idea.

>>40637750
you just gooned out

the last time i jerked off was like 7 years ago.
ask me anything.

>>40637907
Is it a conscious decision, or lack of libido, side effect of enlightnment?

>>40637927
no idea, im just a normal dude that doesnt jerk off.
soo...... where am i supposed to see the benefits of not jerking off for 7 years?

>>40624917
This is a god tier post. I've been doing the same thing as you. Just keep making sure you are hitting failure regularly, recovering properly to avoid injury, listen to your body, don't lift more than you can but lift enough that you feel accomplished you did enough. Never end the day questioning if you "did enough" today. You body will tell you when you did enough.

my supplement stack:
Creatine
Magnesium
Zinc
D3 + K2
Ashwaganda
Boron

But ideally you get most of what you need from food so supplements work best with a well balanced diet.

And train at your own pace, I started from zero. 1 minute runs a day. Now I can run forever, it feels like infinite cardio I have to stop myself at this point just to reserve peak energy for lifting.

I think I could hit 1000 pushups a day in sets of 20 but I limit my push days to 200 in variations e.g.
20 normal pushup
20 wide
20 diamond
20 incline/decline
20 explosive

Variation lets you hit more muscles and you don't want to just gas out on maxing 1000 pushups, I also add dumbbells/parallettes/rings/pullup bar/ weighted vest and skill training.

Keep it hard and challenging and you will force yourself to a good amount of failure and not get bored. This is the key for progression to me.

Every time you feel comfortable with a harder variation, keep at it long term. and add it to your workouts.


>I've left a lot of other things I do out but just a grain of advice I follow myself. This works for me so I hope it can help others here too.

>>40624917
>>40637958
>fit posts on /x/
dead board.

>>40633743
I mean only having sex if I want to have kids.

Btw advanced semen retention will slowly make you more immune to the world and energies of others. In other words it will slowly increase your "not caring" stat which is a vital stat in this Maya world. You must do physical exercise for this to work and increase and anchor yourself in your own energy

>>40638028
>increase and anchor yourself in your own energy
but how? meditation?

>>40637941
>normal dude
>doesnt jerk off

Did you used to before 7 years ago? If it feels normal to you maybe you are just asexual.

Is it possible to cause any evil to someone else through MR? I mean an involuntary or conscious evil?

>>40638059
Just didnt feel the need to jerk off, just like i dont feel the need to go smoke a cigarette.
I feel the same as i always did, i didnt develop any superpowers in the last 7 years.

This thread can only possibly visited by men but all of you type like women pretending to and then proceeding to label things like women do

>>40638203
A bunch of losers who never touched a tit think they will become alpha males if they stop jerking off.
Its both funny and sad.

Not being a porn addict is cool i guess but it wont mutate you into an alpha male lmao.

This thread sad af just jerk off already

>>40638308
Quite a homosexual thing to say, demon

I know this is SR thread but what are you thoughts on releasing once a month? I feel like thats the best of both worlds

>Day 15
I've lost 44lbs (20kg) and still feeling like shit every morning, midday and sometimes before sleep. I'll need 1000 days to pay off the turbocooming days. It's over.

>>40638519
Bro that's nothing, im on day 3 of SR and i lost 70lbs (40kg).

>>40638531
Kek, I forgot to mention that weight lost is since February. I'm looking for 77lbs (35kg).

>>40638531
>>40638541
I havent jerked off for 7 years and i gained weight.
Congrats.

>coomed last night
>had a productive day today
>attractive woman came out of nowhere to flirt with me and wouldn't stop touching me
explain this pls

>>40638844
People here saying once you relapse you lost everything and you are the same as in the turbocooming days. Kek. It works best for me retaining for 5 days, cooming, and I'm still 90% full and the same person. The way I see is the same in videogames. You die but you didn't lost any progress because of the save game. You've made some progress and is still better than in the beginning of your journey. But if someone wants to be a monk it's their choice. But these generals act like everyone has to be the same and share the same goal. Porn is trash and should be avoided, but everyone has different ways of living.

>>40637958
Ashwaganda is really good after a week for stress management
>>40637975
>how dare you make posts that make people feel better and less depressed! Nice try shill
>>40638042
You can look for speciific meditation music on youtube to help with this.
>>40638308
>just jork your bork off anons I promise I won't steal your precious white energy from you while you do it uwu ;3 <3 xoxo
get behind me Satan

>>40638904
Yes i'm starting to think the same. The cycle of "relapse" and self-flagellation anons here get into is something I want to avoid. Everyone is extremely dogmatic and into repression which doesn't seem healthy to me, that's why they feel so devastated when they lose their "streak" and very few really seems to turn their sexual frustration into anything meaningful. I learned lessons and used the energy from the cycle and while I had some immediate post-nut regret and anxiety i feel much today than I did the day before i cum. it is what it is

>>40638904
this, you don't have to do monk mode. you can ether jo less or have sex with women. The whole point is to not be a slave to your addiction anymore and learn disipline.

>>40638946
i never understood why a high failure rate would be discouraging to people. if anything it's encouraging. "I'm going to be that rare guy who succeeds." believe in your specialness. then again i'm on 5 months of SR and literally am special

>>40637572
That’s what I was thinking. I saw other anons talk about it here but on long streaks you can really tell a day or two before you’re going to have a wet dream. It’s like this weird pressure in your body.

>>40637873
me on the left

slow but steadily I build up a new high streak. my longest (and first) was three months, since then i never surpassed one week until today, when i relapsed at day 11

>>40638140
ok thanks for your very helpful post

>>40636878
These demons stick their tongues out in coordination to where im going to look in time. I just smile at them, one time i prayed they achieve cleansing or some form of redemption of agony that is their existence. Praying for these things hearts and souls is a good thing or should i not pray for these fags? I rather just smile at them

>>40639170
Using light against darkness is very effective, if these are in fact negative enitities then they must recoil at the sight or pressence of positivity.

Stay strong anon, I too deal with these horrorible lust demons...

>>40637128
okay I like this...
https://youtu.be/4OT7UgAAGZs?si=jI-kZP2WBzGGxM7L

>>40636129
it's so easy to find music now, we have access to pretty much the entirety of all recorded music at an instant.

>>40638364
I’d rather practice self control and fight sin lust and temptation permanently

reflect on if this once a month idea was truly yours or the demon inside you trying to stay alive

“the best of both worlds” is cope for your lack of discipline. There is no “both worlds”. You either stop completely, or you don’t.

>>40638364
i think it's good if you're not religious. most high-level practitioners agree that semen retention is hard and even dangerous since sexual energy is so powerful and hard to control and transmutate. there's powerful things you can do with sexual energy beyond supressing it. you won't find many anons here who agree with this since they're mostly recovering pmo addicts or christians, usually both

>>40620836 (OP)
I need your help, since I started this practice my dick has gotten real sensitive. I can't lay on my stomach without spontaneous orgasm, I have to lie on my side to sleep so I don't get wet dreams, and I can no longer do leg day without risk of wet dreams and guaranteed sexual dreams. I just want to feel nothing down there and be free again, Lord help me.

I always forget that many of you are circumsized
lmao

>>40639456
doesn't really matter at this point if i'm not touching it

>>40637873
The Man is clean before the interaction, but the ear, by extension the woman, sees him as a tool, uses him, covers him in filth and then throws him out when not functional.

>>40639449
same and if a woman touch it, I cum in seconds

WE RETAIN SEMEN.

Ascenders United.

disc inv code
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>>40623933
>can’t sell patented drugs from a field of inquiry
>no scientific research into said field of inquiry
hmm how very perplexing

>>40639449
You sleep on your front? wtf that's so weird

>>40639673
Nah, but I just can't lie down that way anymore.

>>40621689
Having sex with women is better than semen retention.

>reached exactly 180 days
>wet dream

it really makes you think.

>>40639984
should've done a 360 and walked away from that dream

>>40639984
Did you pray before going to bed? This also happened to me when I was attacked by succubi. Pray to Jesus before you sleep and He'll stop them.

is it true that SR will boost confidence and get rid of that perpetual feeling of being a loser? about how long does it take for changes to start happening?

>>40637750
I think "hands free orgasm" is a bad idea. You are basically training yourself to become a premature ejaculator, and based on another anons posts I've read, it gets easier and easier every time.

I have had dry orgams in dreams and actually always felt good after (no prolactin effects) but I'm not relaxing the pelvic floor at those times rather clenching it to prevent spilling seed.

>>40640204
sometimes, for some people.
i can onlny assume that you feel like a loser when cumming because you're using porn and masturbating. cut that out and you'll feel better about yourself, of course.

>>40640204
>about how long does it take for changes to start happening?
2 weeks. See chart here >>40621365

>>40637941
It's not so much gaining benefits as not suffering detriments.
You developed into the person you were supposed to be, while the males spilling their seed throughout their teens / early twenties have stunted their development. Returning to normalcy feels like benefits/superpowers to those who never had normalcy.

>>40640204
unlike what >>40640279 says i want to say it definitely will

semen is your life energy. it has the power to make a baby. it has your dna. by the millions. its literally your unique essence.

of course you feel like a loser when you release it all the time. of course you will feel empty and pathetic. because you are throwing away part of yourself literally.

like >>40640307 said, it takes about 2 weeks for your body to re absorb and you stop feeling like a loser.

>>40640346
>the males spilling their seed throughout their teens / early twenties have stunted their development.
yes, if there's one thing we know it's that the guys who didn't get laid during these formative years turn out to be really well developed!

>>40621337
It's because they are drug addicts

>Day 0
>"Okay this is actual addiction tier I literally hurt my dick from fapping and then fapped again."
>Try to remember how I got over previous addictions like Gacha and Gambling
>"Oh right... by being nowhere near the source."
>Take a walk
>Go for a drive
>buy a Woodworking Book because I need to offset obsessive masturbation with something else
The book is actually pretty cool it works you through the basics how to set up shop, wood and such then you build your own woodworking shop by yourself in the final chapter..

if you are feeling suicidal just know thats just the prolactin in your body wearing off, i wont fap ever again just because of my last relapse almost made me unalive myself

>>40621337
>>40621256
oh they look super weird, indeed.
There's hardly any of them that are arousing, exciting.
I think a lot of why people get psyched about porn is simply cultural brainwashing. "other people find this attractive".

>>40631653
you are just chameleoning yourself
slave to society

>>40640369
The guys not getting laid are more likely to be porn/masturbation addicts, so I'm not sure what your point it.

>>40640973
so cumming ("relapsing") made you wanna kill yourself as does retaining? feels like a no-win situation sometimes desu

>>40640973
what the fuck are you watching me? this post couldn't have come at a more specific time for me

I relapsed anons
And I relapsed on alcohol

I noticed as I worked out my pp got a little bigger, decided to edge for litteraly 5-6 hours. Then ultimately I felt almost possessed where I didnt care about benefits or anything I just needed to relapse.
35 day streak gone.

Never peak never edge trust me anons I feel like a fool and I cant even smile

>>40641019
>so cumming ("relapsing") made you wanna kill yourself as does retaining?
no, from what i experienced retaining it was a total contral, sexual lust is a test and i failed it this time

>>40641117
it was a total contrast*

I'm considering masturbating without pornography and without cumming for 40 minutes daily.

Ive achieved post nut clarity without excreting my fluids

>>40641173
>>40641208
what happened in this 7 minutes?

6 weeks completed
>anxiety lessened
>healthier look (based on comment)
>no lust unless i idle
>easier time talking to strangers
Btw don't care if u see some hoes in dream and get syrup in panties. There is a difference between jacking off like an animal in capture and secreting a drop or two in your sleep.

>>40637386
My porn blocker doesn't work when I turn 5G off
Failed again. I can't go one fucking day. Not sure what to do. I can't watch porn on my home internet but I can on my phone. I tried turning it off / putting it away somewhere but you inevitably need it again and I'm so addicted right now that I basically just instantly watch porn the minute I know I can

>>40641493
I used to be this way. Literally just find something else to focus on, like one of your hobbies, and make it more important in your mind to do that instead. Whenever you'd normally masturbate, do the other thing in it's place. It'll occupy the original "spot" in your daily schedule, replacing it.

>>40641215
kek

>>40641493
use your phone as little as possible. what helps me is being an unironic schizo and being constantly paranoid that apple and by extent the CIA is spying on me and watching me 24/7 through my phone so i'm scared to even do normal things on my phone.

By masturbating without cumming I can have pleasure without bad side-effects.

>>40641601
NTA but i imagine being on trial for something i didn't do, and the prosecutor pulling up my internet search history. this is 10000% possible in this day and age. nothing will sink you faster into a guilty verdict like some cocky boomer waltzing across the court room and reading "you typed in BBC exploding cum on asian with J cups" over 20000 times. doesn't matter what the charges are, you're guilty, and you've been publicly humiliated as your parents sit in the court room and soak this in

>>40642039
This now imagine having to sit infront of the Tribunal of Heaven and listen to Lucifer tells God how many time you masturbated to Astolfo and they know you weren't being ironic.

i fuckin relapsed
oh well im realizing this will be my journey to fix this terrible sin i brought on myself and then to help others

I am scared of Gods wrath since everytime i relapse bad things happen, but it made me wonder about the people actually making porn

Part of me prays that they might wake up

Pray for me anons i feel like shit

>>40642102
Did you start praying for the pornstars? Every time I do I get a hard Demonic retaliation. Say an act of Contrition and get back up soldier.

>>40642102
Its much better to endure Gods wrath than his silence. He is merciful and hes wanting you to change your ways. You are probably going to relapse again, but its better than Gods silence when you just decide you dont care anymore and gooning is not a problem with you.

I have been dealing with the exact same problem as you. I relapse and bad things happen, but I go on longer streaks and good things happen. I feel that God is having me go through a period of sanctification and growth. Basically there are bad things in that direction and good things in this direction so keep on trying and fight.

>>40641969
>masturbating
>without bad side-effects.

>>40642180
>>40642116
I just had the best month of my life, business, employees, 400$ a day. Great month, then I decided I want to venture into something else, I pause my business and then all this stress and shit got on my and I relapsed

And I relapsed to weird 2 hour roleplay shit, probably the most weird shit ive ever watched. I feel disgusted at myself and then I have to remember God watched me during all of that.

Now that my original business is on pause I have to start this new venture

The 1 thing that always comes to me in these relapses is: I must help other people not feel like this, I need to help other people quit this addiction.

Im stuck in a frown hating myself and also the world that its in such a place. I got triggered by loneliness and then the ease of porn just led me to fall into sin.

I can feel God being disappointed

>>40642268
And that peaking/edging grip is extremely powerful I peaked once, edged for 5 minutes and couldnt stop thinking, came back edged for 30 more minutes turned it off couldnt stop imagining what else was online. then an hour, then I took a cold shower thought I had reset, same thing again, another cold shower. And I couldnt stop thinking about it for 1 second.

Completely captured my mind
I was going to do a 10 minute zoom for my business and completely forgot about it over the 8 hour edging/stoping

But my main problem was over these 30 days I kept thinking about porn, remembering what I used to watch and thinking about hiring escorts. Its like a seed of lust grows into a huge root of lust where when Im exercising im thinking of abs for sex, money for sex, status for sex.

I need to find out how to not think like this
good luck all anons

>>40642298
you are learning.

>>40642268
>>40642298
Its just part of the process. An accidental peak or a lustful thought can quickly grow into something you lose to. The demons are always trying to catch you in a moment of weakness. Its best to not feed them in any way if you can prevent it. Sometimes I catch myself looking too long at a hot woman on social media and have to log off before I start to spiral. Almost failed yesterday in fact.

I think its in first or second Corinthians where Paul tells us to take any impure thoughts or actions and make them obedient to Christ. Its not easy, and I still certainly struggle with it, but there are times where im able to stop and just say "what am I doing"

You might have failed this time, but next time if you can pull away before the thoughts start to fester then thats a huge win. You want to stop a couple minutes in, rather than getting to that point you are fighting the entire day. Once you get to that point its much harder to fight.

>>40641969
Even without that it's still bad. It changes the chemistry in your brain to be in a sexually charged state even more-so because it'll constantly be seeking release.

>>40642390
I find that when someone posts something lewd on here and I just say "I will choose to not look at it" and move on, I feel like I overcame a huge hurdle and I gain a stronger immunity to it or something. Avoiding temptation is very massive, it makes a real difference.

>>40642298
>I need to find out how to not think like this
Pray and constantly look at images of Jesus. It sounds like you're not inviting any light into your life, free will is a double edged sword. You have to pray, tell Jesus what's going on, and ask for help or signs to show you the way.
Remember God can do anything he wants to do, including purifying you to be your real self. Think about that

>>40642390
>>40642914
I swear it feels like im being tricked into thinking I can have the best of both worlds, peek and see while also retaining purity for retention. My mind gets tempted and starts making logical bridges to accept it and "not as bad" as what others are doing, until eventually I end up at that stage where I am completely engulfed in it

I saw somewhere that reading the Bible reduces porn watching by 60% but I never read the Bible, yet I preach it to others.

And then randomly after stuff like this I get images of Jesus crying and bleeding. I know God will forgive me but I also take advantage of that forgiveness. Sometimes I pray to die so I dont have to constantly sin against him.

Oh well it already happened 30 day streak gone, now I need to focus more on not opening that door in the first place, those demons are real.

>>40642914
i remember someone saying that literally just thinking about Jesus raises your level of consciousness

day 243 SR.

sex has become a distant memory.
I've found what people in the past here have called "god sight". When you truly detach from sex, I've encountered succubus's that will try take your semen. I struggled against these women that start providing you sex for free... But no longer. Life is so much more divine that this baseless sex drive.

I do not think I am god in anyway nor do I think I've learnt all there is to learn and I am above no one.

I woke up today realising I have a new form of vision and control. I truly feel the self confidence to be still in life and not chase/seek validation from those "below". I will listen to all and pay close attention to those I seem worthy as equals or masters. This is something that took far longer than it should have to realise... During SR I became one with all and loving of all but I also gave my love to all. This was a mistake. You can give you love for all in silence too. Do not over extend your hand to those that don't meet you part way.

Christianity and the plague of oneness are the worst the things that have happened to this world; this thread is proof of it.
We are destined to germinate our seed of divinity and become Gods ourself, not bow down before some psychopathic entity who views human souls as cattle and wants to devour us.

>>40642946
Bro... I'm nearing 90 days and I'm in a situation with a co-worker who's into findom. She basically degrades men physically, spiritually and financially. Like a dumbass, I told her I'm on retention and now she's after me BAD. I kicked it with her in the parking lot at work and we talked about ourselves. She said it's all an act. She's gotten handsy with me a couple times. Grabbed my junk twice. A part of me - the flesh - deeply desires her. This girl is a baddie. Gorgeous. On the other hand, I feel like my soul is ringing the alarm bells and wants me to run. I'm pretty sure this is a real life succubus that the enemy sends your way once it sees that you're not falling for the same old tricks like you used to.

>>40643873
>findom. She basically degrades men physically, spiritually and financially
that shit is the lamest of the lame. of all the fetish shit for people to be into, and I'm into some awful, disgusting shit, that femdom crap is so fucking cringe and stupid. it's like if sex and deranged fetishes were movies, femdom is the D-movie section shot on iphones with actors reading off cue cards and blurry shots. pure brain rot. I'd rather goon to chatting with onlyfans girls knowing it's not really her I'm chatting with but some indian guy making $20/day

NEW BAKE

>>40644527