Thread 76601058

It's the start of the week again, take a deep breath in, hold it and exhale

Were you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't. You made it through last week, you'll make it through this one as well

What are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.

Take a deep breath, hold it and exhale, move at your own pace

We're ALL gonna make it

The motivation thread is open

Last week’s thread >>76574615

>>76601058 (OP)
>finally getting mires and interest from some girls at the gym
>almost all of them are high schoolers
>fuckmylife.jpeg

16 is legal around here but I still feel scared shitless of trying to chat up and then hit on any of them. Had a friendly talk with one I thought was 19 and she turned out to be 17.

>>76601080
Where the fuck are the 20s girls at?

>everything men do is for pussy
There are so many people on the on self improvement train the past two decades it's unreal, and I'm not talking about gym because many of them don't even hit the gym but instead do other activities, I'm talking about making money, being social, doing activities, hobbies, just keeping busy in general and making their life as interesting as possible to attract pussy. They are doing all that for pussy, constantly chasing a better looking pussy, younger, fresher, etc. until eventually they find one they are satisfied with so they can fertilize it but even then many of them continue to chase pussy on the side. Some of these boomers are 70+ and still chase pussy, that's right many divorced boomers have girlfriends, just look at that tremendous Eastwood faggot who found a new pussy at 70 or 80 and married for the 6th time. Not to mention famous chads like Julio Iglesias who had thousands of pussies throughout his life.
All that self-improvement, customs, social mores, hobbies, cultural events and other activities people do is to attract pussy so they can breed the next generation of goyim cattle and feel desired, loved and appreciated by their pussy and progeny.

Gonna lift extra hard the coming week, big binge drinking saturday through sunday evening already planned in so gotta work hard to earn it.

booked myself to get a blood test, I suspect I’ve got incredibly low testosterone

>>76601147
When are you transitioning?

>>76601058 (OP)
I finally worked up the courage to ask out my crush last week but she rejected me because she said she liked someone else. She was sweet about it though, said I was "brave" (not in a backhanded way).
This girl was on my mind for weeks and I still find myself imagining scenarios where we somehow end up together anyway. I don't know how much more of this I can take bros. I really thought that maybe she liked me as well sometimes, just by the way she acted. It's so painful that my feelings are never reciprocated. Do anons know any lifts to cope with this feel...?

>>76601270
Be thankful for a girl that honest and polite. What’s the backstory?

>>76601270
Is reciprocated a hip word for ejaculation?

>>76601287
We met at a tennis course, at the start of each lesson we had to pair off and warm up. She often asked me to warm up with her. We also played tennis together outside the course lessons. That's why I thought maybe I had a chance.
You're right, I'm glad she was honest. It doesn't make it any less difficult though, or any easier to get her out of my head.

>>76601323
Midwit detected, forgot I'm on /fit/ and not /lit/ so have to dumb down the vocab a bit.

Today's lifts
>Bench 225x5 235x5 245x3
>DB Incline Bench 4x6 (80s) + DB row 4x12 (105) superset
>lateral raises 3x12
I overdid the weight on the rows desu and as a result in retrospect I feel I didn't quite do enough today. I wanted to do decline pushups after but I was simply out of gas, actually had to close my eyes after the last set and fight off the urge to puke while huffing and puffing
At least 4x12 @ 105 is far and away a PR for db rows, I've only ever done 105 for a top set before and I don't know if I ever took it to 12

>>76601270
went through something very similar very recently inlcuding the wishing that she'll come around some day, you have to take some distance from her for a while and find ways to distract yourself, that can be other women or literally anything else like starting a new hobby or whatever

>>76601058 (OP)
Today is front squat/C&J day, pretty excited to go to the gym

>>76601083
the boomer chasers are honestly the worst, but the women that fuck them are the worst of the worst.

women need to be branded.

>>76601270
>I really thought that maybe she liked me as well sometimes, just by the way she acted.
There was this girl who seems interested in me.
I didn't believe it at first until a mutual female friend told me to go for it.
She ended up ignoring me asking her out.

>Work made life miserable
>Came home
>Worked out and meditated
>Is happy now
I start to wonder if a lot of people are miserable because they don't bother with working out at all after their corporate jobs.

have been eating like shit the past 2-.3ish weeks
ive lost too much strenght on the cut, that mightve lasted too long dunno
but im back at it

>>76601599
>She ended up ignoring me asking her out.
You asked her out over text or she just ignored you in person? You can't ask these things through a phone, gotta ask her to her face (not that it would change the outcome). In any case I feel for you bro.

>>76601631
I tried to ask her out in person, but she avoided me.
The mutual friend probably picked up the wrong signal I guess.

>>76601636
yeah as much as women say that we are bad at picking up signals I've often seeing them also get the wrong idea from how other chicks acted

>>76601599

thought this same thing with a bartender at a place i was a regular at. we ended up passing by each other a lot in the neighborhood. someone mentioned offhand that she seemed interested (wasn't excessive but seemed plausible enough)

ended up getting her number when we ran into each other, asked if she wanted to grab a drink sometime and then she was never able to find a good time. still not sure if she was actually interested or not, whatever i'm married now.

>>76601270
LOL sit faggot
>>76601083
>if the women come to you
congrats you have sex
>if the women don't come to you
congrats you can enjoy life and vibe

there's literally no downside, I don't know why retards stress so much about it. let it happen, it's literally not worth spending active mental energy processing lmfao

>>76601058 (OP)
My girlfriend came from Mexico to my western European country to be an au pair and to be closer to me. She really likes me but gets very emotional, homesick, angry from time to time. She kinda soft choked me twice when she was mad on seperate occasions, she threatened to kill herself on multiple occasions. She broke up with me about 4 times in 4 months, only to immediately regret it and beg for forgiveness within 24hrs.
Usually she's nice, although very unreliable in her actions. She's my first relationship and she's here in europe mostly for me, wasting a year of her life babysitting stupid kids. I do like her but the random bouts of emotional happenings is beyond annoying and makes me dislike her.
For example, i had morning shifts and she was with me those days. Usually I'm very tired those shifts and i told her several times i can't do much those days. She proceeds to want to do a lot, go there and there and my energy levels are 0 so I'm moody and just want to be left alone. She's somehow too autistic to realize I'm actually tired and don't want to do stuff. She flies into a rage and says i make her feel unwelcome and she wants to go back home and then goes on top of me and chokes me a bit. I remain calm but i have to sleep cus of my next morning shift and then she gets vengeful and says she's gonna keep me awake all night etc etc etc.
What shall i do? Is this repairable or waste of time? As it has been going i can't imagine marrying her lol, but i don't want to break up either cus I'm lonely as fuck. Why can't women just fucking behave?

>>76601058 (OP)
Had a busy but fun weekend, doing some work around the house.

Note to self that I gotta stop doing WFH. It’s like fast food in that it always seems very attractive before-hand (less energy spent, comfy) but it always ends up with me being unproductive, behind on deadlines and working through the evenings to make up for it.

Very unhealthy week coming up with drinks, eating out, cake etc. lots of fun things to celebrate, though, looking forward to it. I’ve been in a sizeable calorie deficit over the weekend and I’m going to train a tad harder this week too, both to enjoy the good stuff guilt-free. Going to the gym after posting this, gonna try for a bench PR (which is so low that I’m still too embarassed about it to post here).

>>76601609
yea, first two years out of college and into a job I didn’t go to the gym at all. Glad to have made the decision to get back at it a couple weeks ago. I’ve noticed how it’s improved my sleep, alertness, discipline etc. Lifting really has a sort of ‘uphill avalanche’ effect that makes many many aspects of your life better, I feel.


Thanks for reading, anons

>>76601762
It's not repairable, girl has issues far beyond what a relationship, even with the best guy in the world, could fix. Threatening suicide and breaking up with you for what seems to be attention from you is enough to warrant ending things.

If she can't even take your feelings into consideration when you communicate something to her honestly, like that you're tired after work and don't have the energy to do stuff, she's not worth the effort. A good woman will genuinely listen to you when you speak. It's jarring when you meet a girl like that for the first time. Otherwise you get the resentment building up that you're talking about. Seriously man there are other women out there.

Anyway you're right to say she's not marriage material.

Do what you want in short term, IMO staying with a girl just to use her for sex/company is bad for the soul and will make you see women as objects but if it makes you happy then knock yourself out. But break it off sooner rather than later, you already got everything you can out of that relationship.

All roads lead to hammerhand.

Unofficially weighed in at 205 for the start of my "don't get fat during the Eagles season" challenge. getting a bodyscan Wednesday so I'll have the bf% numbers to make it official. Realistically there's no reason for me to stay at 205 but on the off chance i do, i want the numbers to back it up.

8km boardwalk run on Saturday was nice and my knee wasn't acting up afterwards. Followed that up with a quick gym session to hit arms.

Goals for this week.

>9km interval run on Saturday.
>remove one rest period from my 5k runs
>try a CPAPless night to see if snoring persists
>finish reading this book for cert and register for test

trying hard not to jack it but now on top of being backed up for two weeks i started taking a fertility supplement. that was bad enough and then this sidney sweeney ad with the boots comes out and of course its controversial so its all over my fucking feed which just turns every other ad into women wearing boots. trying to wait out the wife recovery/let her initiate other options for my relief because i'm not begging for a fucking handjob.

>>76601858
It sucks man. I do feel she really likes me and my emotional distance is also to blame. She sometimes has the emotional maturity of a 12 year old or something like that. Kinda like a dog that can't be left alone. Yea she got some issues and her dad spoiled her terribly, like most latinas I've found out. Last time she broke up with me, one day later she was begging me not to leave her and sucked my cock in the car to make up for it (i didn't ask). It's such a shame cus all she had to do was behave, and I'd have married her but it's just too much to ask i guess.

>>76601781
find a coworking space if you can, that keeps me disciplined

>>76601884
I know the feeling man, I've been there. My ex was like this, albeit maybe less overtly mentally ill than your girl but I also had the exact same feeling like I was dealing with a 12 year old sometimes. Or like an anxious dog like you said. Made the thought of fucking her really uncomfortable because I often acted more like a father figure or therapist for her than an actual boyfriend. Also felt like I was doing the emotional labor for 2 people and felt totally suffocated. But you're actually pretty close on the mark, she technically does have the emotional maturity of a 12 year old roughly.

I'm not a psych but sounds like she's codependent (and so are you to an extent) and has an anxious attachment style and maybe at a stretch some kind of mental illness like BPD on top, or could just be trauma. You probably do have some issues you need to work on regarding emotional distance, that said don't kick the shit out of yourself for her problems. You're not responsible for her. You should read up on attachment styles in general, it'll give you a better idea of what's probably happening.

Give yourself some time to process things and keep in mind it won't be easy even if you know it's the right thing to do, trust me I speak from experience. It gets much better though.

A non-retarded therapist (lol) might be a good idea too, the problem is most will basically just have you vent then say what they think you want to hear so you keep coming back. A good one will try and actually dig through things that bother you and make real progress.

Anyway best of luck anon-san. If you have friends to talk to about it that'll also help.

>>76601888
Luckily I can just go to my employer’s office, it’s actually quite a short commute. It’s just me telling myself “let’s work from home today, it’ll be efficient and less of an energy drain”, while my lived experience clearly tells me WFH is actually a net negative for me when it comes to mood, energy etc.

I feel like this is the most ‘controversial’ opinion I have compared to my peer group. Whenever I say that I kinda like going to the office, friends look at me like I’m crazy. If they’d get the offer to work from home 5d/week, they’d all take it.

>>76602098
Yeah if you're that close just keep going in. I snuck into my last company's office during COVID because I couldn't stand it.

Your peers are just fucking lazy and fuck off during working hours. My wife does this and its annoying because you can tell she only thinks its work if its a meeting. Which is fine for her but I have actual shit to do.

Don't get me wrong, it's nice to have the flexibility but I almost always abuse it unless I'm in a coworking space. The fact that we let our Indians WFH in a third world country is fucking suicide.

also i need to have grok put that sweeney pic as her in an ss uniform

>>76602098
>WFH is actually a net negative for me when it comes to mood, energy etc.
same

>>76602098
Don't worry, same here.
I am at the office in 15 minute by bike or bus but I still don't want to do WFH.

Home is home, peace from everything else.
I don't want work associate with home. Stupid shit making me mad or angry while being at home.
"Clocking out" in the same chair and then be at peace? No.

I work in the office and then fuck off home in peace.

>>76601884
Be kind and compassionate *while* putting in some firm boundaries to teach her to behave. It's like training a dog.
If she doesn't submit, the good thing is she's not your child nor your pet, so she's free to take time off, get her "revenge" by getting a few STDs and being used as a fucktoy by some random opportunist and DQ herself from long term prospects with you or anyone with self-respect and options.
Spoiled children need the right environment to learn how to be real humans.

>>76601493
Congrats! You worked hard and made good gains

bought enough hydrocodones to last me 6 weeks : )
im thinking im going to have a great month buds : )

>>76601058 (OP)
Repost
>got called a bitchass nigga by female associates at work the other day(I'm security at a warehouse)
>I write it up and send it to my manager instead of saying shit back in the moment
>get regularly ignored or cussed at by people
>keep to myself, just doing my job, but no one gives a shit if they think you're some mute autist
How fucked am I at nearly 30? It's like getting bullied in middle school all over again, but way worse since we're all "adults"
/fit/ and life wise, I've stagnated on weight loss, looking to lose at least 15lbs before end of the year. Also spent most of my day off job hunting and car shopping

Stomach getting smaller. Hoping to be comfortable enough to be shirtless when I travel this winter.

>>76601270
Become better than the man she picked over you in ever conceivable way

>>76601610
What exactly do you want? If you know what you want to accomplish, stick to that goal

>>76601058 (OP)
I WILL make it to waterpolo twice a week
I WILL heal my minor rotator cuff injury
I WILL lift twice a week
I WILL run 10-12k once per week

WAGMI

>>76601882
and yes i am excited for boot season but i better bust a nut before the ladies start busting them out

>>76601143
Don't work out the day before your drinking, you need that recovery period. Drinking deletes your gains.

>>76601270
For starters, she respects you. If she didn't she'd have just dismissed you.
How old are you anon?
You can still keep talking to her and have her as a trusted friend.
If you guys are college or younger, she's actually going to go places in life with that one move. That's a person worth keeping in your social circle because she can help you out in the future.
Now it's going to suck and it's going to take time, but you need to accept that it's not going to work out right now romantically, but you have a really good platonic friendship going.
Soon you're going to get out of school and you want to avoid winding up like most people realizing they spent so much time chasing romance that they have no real friends.
Romance is temporary and fickle.
Friends are better.
What humans really thrive on is trust and connection. It generates oxytocin in the brain which makes you feel more trust and connection and you get a much healthier mind from that.
If you can master that, she's going to see an insanely mature and experience man in you.
Maybe she'll look at whatever guys he's currently ogling and realize that he's still a child. Then maybe by that point, you'll be the one rejecting her.
Dunno.
But I would not let a good social connection go to waste.
But also compound lifts.

>>76602946
>How fucked am I at nearly 30?
>Also spent most of my day off job hunting
Doing better than most who start job hunting at 45
good on ya anon
I'm on that stage now and I'm 35.
WAGMI

>>76601882
Good luck on your goals vegeta! You're being considerate by not pestering your wife, but make sure she doesn't catch you ogling

>>76601058 (OP)
Gains are coming back from being crippled. 7 months of no upper body, due to a broken humerus. Arms are finally getting symmetrical after a month back.

I WILL MEET ALL MY DEADLINES IN WORK
I WILL STUDY HARD
I WILL MAKE IT OVER THIS MOUNTAIN

New challenges are piling up at work. But I must remain steadfast and commit to solving them. I’ve been at this job for 7 months and am starting to understand it. I’ll continue to apply myself and improve. But I still dream of moving to a better job after I’ve put in a year.

I’m starting to see massive progress in my studies. I’m only in the first third, but I’m growing more confident. I’ll move forward with optimism. I’m still at the beginning, so I have a lot more to learn. I need to continue studying carefully and consistently. This time I will pass.

Keep pushing forward frens! The summit awaits us but we must inch forward day by day. WAGMI!

>>76601781
Who cares how weak your bench is? What matters is that you keep on going to the gym and keep improving regularly. Good luck

>>76601781
>Going to the gym after posting this, gonna try for a bench PR (which is so low that I’m still too embarassed about it to post here).
I moved up to 3x10 bench of 80lbs sunday for my best.
don't know what my one rep max is, it's pretty useless when you think about it.

I'm doing a retard cycle no matter what, i.e. no test base. Something like 8-12 weeks.

Anavar or Rad-140?
Enclo or HCG?
Doses?

Fine with a lil liver fuckery.

>>76603082
Inshallah I shall try to.

>>76603351
We're in uni yeah. This is actually a very good perspective that I hadn't thought of before. Thank you for this anon.

>>76604279
don't listen to this guy. been there, done that.

treat her like anyone else from now on but do not expect women to do anything beneficial for you.

>>76602836
Based I hope you get better :)

Today's lifts
>Squat 335x3, 345x2, 345x4
>Front squat 4x5
>Decline situps 3x12
>Weighted back extensions 5x10
Another squat PR although I can feel the wall approaching, maybe I'll start belting if/when it stalls but belt messed up my dl form so idk
Decline situps were kind of a bust today, don't think I felt my abs working once, wtf did I even accomplish then

Went on my first date ever, went well. Going out with a different girl this weekend as well. Grinding social reps and getting in shape helped a lot.

>>76602986
Congrats on your progress! You’ve worked hard and can see their results! What’s your biggest tip for cutting?

>saw dad slowly lose all of his friends because he went from riches to rags with no bright future ahead
>mfw experienced the same shit even though I never become rich in the first place
Lifting is the only thing keep me going nowadays.
That and I don't want my parents to kill themselves. They seem to be holding on to help support their children, but they don't look forward to living that much either.

>>76605278
shit, this was supposed to be posted on sunday bar thread

>>76603198
All of those are great goals, but make sure to prioritize recovery. There’s no point in breaking yourself even further.

WAGMI

>>76605278
Sorry anon, hang in there

>took a week off
>gained 1kg (after shedding water weight again)
>Hit PRs for row and pull up today
God it feels good, I feel like I didn't lose any momentum and got to rest and enjoy, gotta crush these 4 months before the holidays and enjoy rest then again.

>>76603555
Welcome back fren! Your digits prove that you’ll be stronger before you know it :)

Hello my frens <3

I gove you one important tool everyone should at least somehow master:
>self-reflection
self-reflection, sitting by yourself with only your thoughts, thinking about what you did, what you do, what you will do, why and how
debating with yourself, being honest with yourself, no lying, the honest truth, there is no one else except you, so there is no need to bullshit
you know what this needs? an inner monologue
You may not have it, yet, but start sitting by yourself and critically think about yourself and what you do

write down your thoughts
even if it is just in some notebook and you will see it the next time in 1-2 months by chance
this is enough to bring your thoughts and behavior back on track, at least a little bit, hopefully

love you guys
you will all make it if you believe it <3
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>>76605036
That’s some good lifting. Keep on pushing do you can hit a pr :)

>>76605278
Retarded nigger some of us were born in rags and will die in rags at least you had a taste of good life

>>76605050
Congrats on going on your first date! I bet she was impressed with you! What did you learn from the experience?

>>76605217
>What’s your biggest tip for cutting?
Cold turkey didn't work for me. If anything it made relapsing so much worse. I instead cut out things one at a time. Soda to diet soda, whole milk to skimmed milk etc. It made it easier without being too extreme and makes me feel like I am accomplishing more every time I do it.

>>76605459
You’re so back and stronger than ever! Retain the momentum and you’ll reach new heights!

>>76605459
The trick is you can take up to two weeks off without any muscle loss at all if you keep your protein up.
And even then, it's going to be minor muscle loss that rebounds really quickly.
You spent that entire week properly recovering and building muscle to be quite honest with you senpai.

>>76601058 (OP)
In last weeks thread my goal was to hear back that I'm being invited to interview. I got invited to interview next Tuesday!

>>76601080
I think if you're under 25 and not predatory most people will be fine with you dating a 17 year old. Just treat her nice and don't force her to do anything she's not ready for. No hookups!

>>76606659
A guy i knew in his 60s hooked up with teenage girls and he told me stories like
>so i'm balls deep in this girl who's the same age as my granddaugther and then she calls me "mister"
followed by guttural laugh

>>76605700
Thanks so much for the files, sigAnon. I’ll try reflecting on my life more often. I already journal daily, but I can include that task in my routine. I need to reform myself

>be me
>salesfag, answering the 24/7 line because >could be a client
>old voice on the other end
>opens with "my disabled brother…"
>we sell medical equipment so I think it's legit
>nope, dude just wants a job
>doesn’t have the certs, doesn’t have the experience
>instead tells me his whole life story
>72 years old
>divorced for years but still lives with his ex-wife
>trying to get any work at all
>nice guy but I can’t do anything for him except >point him elsewhere
>hang up phone
>mfw

Anons, it is brutal out there.
It only gets colder and darker as you age. Do something now.
Lift. Save. Learn. Build.
Insulate your twilight years from that misery.You are not too old. You can still be strong, useful, and good.
Don’t end up a broke 70yo living with your ex-wife begging strangers for work.

>>76607231
>sells medical equipment
faggot scum

>>76606626
Good luck on your interview! Make sure to research questions and give specific examples

>>76607324
first and last time I'm doing it, money isn't worth dealing with my peers

>>76607231
Maybe those tribes where the old guy would suddenly get up and walk off never to be seen again had the right idea.

I’m struggling but I need to lock in and stay strong

>>76607388
tomorrow night before bed come back to this thread and spill anon
that way you get good rest and can recover better and do well

>>76606114
Nigga, I was born in rag.
He only had me when his life went down to shit and became an alcoholic.

I hope today is a little better

>>76608516
It will be better, anon.

Does anybody have advice on compartmentalizing stress? I work a terrible job but need to focus on life outside of it (school). I need to pass my exams in order to escape my workplace. But I keep on letting work affect my outside life

>>76608536
Thanks, anon

Trying to figure out what's going on here
I found that lifting gives me this weird brain fog, can't focus, become emotionless don't care about stuff, low libido, low motivation. Clears up if I take a break for two weeks but then after another 2 weeks it comes back. Anyone know what it could be? Im hitting protein tried 0.75-1gg/lb and fat to ensure hormones. I go until 2-1 RIR so i question if ti's evenn fatigue and I havent hadd any issuewith my sleep

>>76602357
>an amalgam of multiple unrelated memes into forced talking point
its rage comics all over again

>>76608625
write down your work-related stress on a piece of paper.
You are basically channeling the stress out, so it wouldn't affect you that much

>>76601427
>>>76601323
>Midwit detected, forgot I'm on /fit/ and not /lit/ so have to dumb down the vocab a bit.
reddit is down the hall and to the left

>>76608692
That’s good advice. I’ll make sure to write down everything work related that’s stressing me out. Just getting it out there might help me. Thanks

>>76608823
you check out Marcus Aurelius book.
Some of the texts there are just him channeling his annoyance with his emperor job. A proven method since ancient time kek

>>76597511
>>any program marketed towards natties or sub advanced tier lifters recommending this is probably trash
yes
>>most of the info we have about lifting, including this max amount of volume type routine scheme, comes from the top level guys on gear but retards are marketing it towards natties
kind of but it's not like we don't know what works for natties (we do)
watch this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vznlObtD2Dw

>>76601081
Universities and big cities. Good luck if you stayed in your home area, it's dire

>been 24-36hr fasting since Friday
>when I have eaten it's just been cottage cheese, tuna, and almonds, counting calories to make sure not to go over 1000kcal in a day
>drinking nothing but coffee, propel, and water
>have put on 5 fucking pounds
I know it's impossible for it to be anything other than water weight or a broken scale, but goddamn this is still frustrating. Brain want to see number go down.

>>76608903
I don't even weigh myself, too much stress. If it's not a change I can see in the mirror I don't care about it anyway

>>76608903
nigga i got bad news for you.
The only way you gain water weight is with water filling the muscles for recovery and eating carbs, which require water to store.
So if you've been doing as you say, your scale is malfunctioning.
Part of self reflection is being honest with yourself and no excuses.

started taking vitamin pills and I feel so full of energy that I can't believe it.
I must have been deficient in something, I suspect iron or zinc but idk
It's working though and I feel like a bit of a twat for not doing it sooner

>>76607231
need to figure out what I want to do
It's not cute any more to be so directionless
I need a profession

>>76608683
We must remember our history :)

Got invisible aligners put on today, and I felt a little nervous over the level of discipline it will take to maintain them and not fuck them up for the next year (and then another 6 months of all-day retainer use). It's a commitment to hygiene and follow-through.
But that's also the good thing I guess, in a dumb way it feels like getting orthodontic treatment is like making a vow, and by the end my appearance will have improved.
At any rate this means a period of being heads down, continuing to lift, work, save money.
It's not really exciting, but I am looking forward to where I'll be in a year.

Little manic, in between some life path changes at 28.
>Pursue coporate big city career, fuck away my entire 30s in new york
>Pursue meaningful work and starting a family, will I regret this? My body count is 50-100 already and sometimes I dont feel cut out for standard things but I think as humans we all long for this
>vagabond max, get into creative work and put myself out there, high risk maybe high reward

idk bros i feel lost sometimes, i know this rant is gay but its where im at

>>76609204
That is kinda the addictive nature of self improvement
>nerve wracking at first and your identity is against it
>over time, patterns and follow through restructure your identity in your head
>you get addicted to the incremental progression, knowing you have control in those areas

>boss is angry about some fuck up
>randomly lashes out at work, I got most of the blame since I do most of the work and have most of the responsibilities but it wasnt even my work or my mistake this time around.
>he storms out
>I go back into his office and demand a conversation right now
>he says no
>I gave him two options on the spot. either I walk out this very second or he solves the problem like a regular human because I dont give a fuck about this job.
it was liberating to see how he got quite all of a sudden. he even tried making some jokes at the end of the day. its nice not having to depend financially on a fucking job. the other guy is probably getting fire, not that its my concern.

>>76608829
Time is a flat fucking circle. I’ll look into the guy

>>76609258
>I gave him two options on the spot. either I walk out this very second or he solves the problem like a regular human because I dont give a fuck about this job.
Kek I did that with a previous retail job, I was hired as a department manager and the boss kept fucking me over. One day I had enough and did what you did but he just shrugged it off. 45 minutes later he starts calling me but I just ignored him.

>>76609015
I’m glad you’re feeling better :) for me it’s taking magnesium every night

145kg Zerchers done. Maybe 150kg next week.
I feel like I may have to start wearing a belt sooner or later though but we'll see.
WAGMI bros.

>>76609212
There’s nothing wrong with wanting to change or start over. You won’t regret starting a family, but you need to decide what you want in all categories.

>>76609212
I'm kind of in the same boat as you, but I vagabond/bummaxxed early on in life so I'd have the freedom to pursue my art. Spent all my money, got laid a bunch, racked up life experiences. Now, I've got a name, but I'm broke and wondering if a guy like me can even commit to having a "normal" life with a family and all that, having seen the things I have. Plus, I tend to attract manic/insane women, so the thought of creating a new life with one of them is, at times, harrowing, as much fun as it might be in spots. I think I'm gonna bite the bullet and just do it, because it's selfish to live for your art for years on end and go from relationship to relationship. My advice: bum around for a bit, but find a way to pursue a serious relationship while also fulfilling your creative goals. Life becomes quite shallow when you live only for yourself. Godspeed.

>>76609720
Congrats on your strength! You’re insanely buff. WAGMI

>>76601058 (OP)
Anon who mentioned seeing the chick who made false accusations in his dream job (fire fighting).
That lieutenant came back with a different FFer. They came right up to me at my job and pretended to be shopping. They started trying to passive aggressively shit talk me. Saying stuff like “yeah that’s a lil boy” (foot taller than both btw) pretending to talk about the food. It was super cringe forced machismo wannabe tough guy shit. One of them whispers “try not to engage too much” and then they walked off.
Took a moment to process, but I stood up walked right up to them and said “engage the back of these nuts”
Nothing else happened. They did nothing. I will next time they come near me say even worse. I’m already fucked there’s nothing wrong with me retaliating. Idgaf about the job anymore. It’s clear she talked about me.
>bitch tried to ruin my life at some retail job
>got into the job I wanted as a DEI hire looking for a do nothing job where she’ll be held to a lower standard only working 10 days a month
>has slandered me and made the firefighters dislike me
>all departments know each other and talk would almost certainly have to move away to get the job at this point
Just wow

>>76601058 (OP)
Got a job advancement recently. It's basically the same shit I'm all ready doing on the meat wagon, but patients will have a much higher chance of dying while transporting from hospital to hospital. Type of thing where we preemptively apply the AED pads before leaving the hospital room. After 8-12 months I can get my employer to pay for paramedic school; which will get me a much better pay raise and tons of different job options.

One of the biggest reasons I won’t an hero is that I’ve reconnected with my old man and promised to call him biweekly. I’ll live on

>>76610379
Do it bro. I believe in u.
>>76601058 (OP)
I'm the one tard that always doomer posts about how I'm too schizoid. But I love you all. I love. I'm fucked six ways to Sunday of all my dopamine and serotonin, but last night showed me mystical vibrational love. And I wish dearly I could emancipate you lovely fuckers of all your anguish. I can see it. I can feel it. From across the world. From behind you guyses keyboards. But everyone last night, everyone whose soul I saw. They accepted. And they love. And maybe not everyone can always get along. But even if it's me against the world beating me down and yelling at us all about how fucked everything is. I'd still probably find that little voice inside me saying I love you outwardly. Because I do. I know it's just 4chan banter, but you guys have made me laugh during some of my darkest moments. And I hope you guys laugh too at my silly zaniness. Man, I'm glad. Forget about bullshit like sex money and status, I just love you guys. I'm here to experience. A cat rubbed against me after days of trying to get it to warm up to me. A hornet landed on my hand as I was typing and just sort of sat and did as a hornet does. Strong trip last night guys. But life affirming. I know there's often a lot of cutthroat thinking amongst guys for a lot of things but if it's only today, I'm so glad that so many of you have things I often envied. I'm glad that some of you have a beautiful loving home life that treats you well, I'm glad you guys have a girlfriend or wife that supports you when needed. Maybe some or many things are missing for you. But I love Man. I love and I Am. And I so hope that through whatever my vibrational abilities can muster, I can send something good your way. Because fuck taking, giving is what matters. I wish I could give you all everything. You are everything. You're everything to me and those around you. I could type hundreds of words and never express my love for you all in full, so please just accept it as is.

>>76608367
I’m working hard at my job but I’m constantly making mistakes. I’m almost always the last to leave, but I feel like I’m falling behind. I’m trying to balance work and school, but it’s difficult. I know that I can’t get a better job until I finish my program. So I need to stay strong and day my best, even if I struggle

job interview
it didn't go bad
it went better than last time
but I wouldn't say it went well
I could have and should have prepared better

I'll get a response within two days

I just DL'd 410lbs
feels good mayne
now i just need to get squatting up to 3pl8, then pull ups into double digits and i'll officially allow myself to feel good

>>76610321
People suck. Just move on from the experience and don’t let it rot you

>>76610632
Wuv u too mane

>>76610912
Brother I am in almost a similar position except I have the grace of working in a place nobody wants to work and doing a job nobody else wants to do.
I'm on a 6-month naughty list called a "Performance Improvement Plan" where they nitpick every single mistake I make formally and minimize my obvious successes through informal recognition.
Nonetheless, I continue to strive to do well.
Not for my corpo company, but for me. The work I do is great and my particular way of doing things creates more benefits with mistakes than the standard way of doing things.
I too and learning and going through a program to leave for another job. It's not school, just a Coursera course but between work, learning, lifting, doing social stuff, and other exercise time is getting sparse.
I am however building a gigantic amount of character and am learning a lot about myself. I'm returning to the gusto and confidence of college-age me that got deflated when I entered the real world.
But I refuse to be beaten down and I refuse to grow up. I'm still a young and spry 35. I've seen what the other adults have. I don't want it.
WAGMI

>>76610632
I love you too <3. I’ll keep on living and searching for happiness

>>76611670
if you're 35 and on a PIP they're just going through the motions to fire you and replace you.

Been getting up early for the last two weeks and I have to say it feels like I have so much time in the world by the evening.

>>76611445
I’m sorry about your interview. But the fact that you’re landing interviews proves that you’re qualified. Keep applying and keep improving! Next time make sure to prepare and address your prior mistakes

>>76610326
You went from stable transport to advanced? I assume you’re an AEMT? I hated IFT. Brain dead patients who staff didn’t bathe and smelled like shit. My company also didn’t train properly, they had me shadow a medic and do only advanced vent patients and I had to just sit in the corner and watch because it was all out of my scope. Medic was a retard I’m pretty sure coked out. Kept eagerly taking vent PT after vent PT just rushing knowing I can’t do shit with vent patients. They literally never trained me and wanted me to go out on my own with some black chick driver who couldn’t follow GPS (drivers didn’t have medical certs so meant I’d have been on my own totally). I’d have been working with stable patients but god forbid I was out solo and a stable PT turned critical.dumb cunt manager also forced OT so a 12 hour shift was an automatic 18 and I was scudded 3 hours after get off time, HQ had no beds or anything either so it meant drive home sleep rush back in. Pay was so shit even with OT I wasn’t breaking a livable wage. Manager seemed doped up on pills. Every other company was taking maybe 5 patients in a 12 hour shift. Part of me wonders what would have happened if I stayed in that field and just went with a different company.


I hope you like it man, I hated it (clearly). I’m sure your dep is very different from the one I was with. Get medic and go fire get your pension.

>>76601058 (OP)
I will never hang my head for a foid again. I will pass my theory test and then my driving test. I will bang women hotter and kinder than her. I will write this novella and it will be published. I will continue to write short stories and send them off to literary magazines. I will make it.

>>76611466
That’s a ton of weight, congrats! You’ve become strong

>>76611736
>to fire you and replace you.
They're already confirming plans and projects with me three months after my PiP ends
They already have someone that could replace me.
They're just going through the motions because my work order updates weren't up to par and now they are.
There's zero good reason to get rid of me.
The most important thing in a job is that your superiors and clients like you, that matters more than work competence as work competence is much easier to train.
If I were to be gone, my clients would be highly upset.
I'll report back in 3 months, but I plan to move on by then anywho.
WAGMI

>>76612006
You are giving corporations and management too much credit. You could be the piece that holds everything together and some HR roasting will fire you because you gave her the ick. "Being liked" is nothing more than figuring out what side of the political spectrum your company is and pretending to be that. That or you sell drugs. I'd seriously consider polishing off that resume and/or make sure you have enough money saved up for this dogshit job economy.

>6 months on new routine
>multiple chest striations now suddenly visible
>stranger mires "looking good bro" while I'm discovering this in the locker room mirror
Yeahboyos I'm thinking we're all gonna actually make it

I'M GETTIN' EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>76612017
There's simply no one better suited for my job.
I've been here for 6 years with too much institutional knowledge.
The HR ladies also like me.
They've invested too much into me to let be go because..... Reasons????
You gotta look at the reality of the situation.
There's not one good reason to let me go. It's a hire-at-will state. It'd be nothing to have already terminated me with no chance of unemployment. Now I've shown considerable willingness to work with them during my PIP which would only strengthen my position and weaken there's.
WAGMI.

>>76612055
>There's simply no one better suited for my job.
They can find a million Indians to do so. I won't argue with your digits but I would still play it safe. Again, you really give companies too much credit for thinking things through.

>>76612070
It's a very physical and on-site job. No Indian is taking this one. Code monkeys and data entry know next to nothing about layer 1 and 2.

It's been one of the hardest weeks of my life but I went to the gym every single morning so far.

>>76611821
>proves that you’re qualified
[spoiler]I lied in the CV :)[/spoiler]
>Next time make sure to prepare and address your prior mistakes
with each interview I get better
thanks for the encouraging words

Hospice just alerted me that my father's status has been changed to "imminent"

In some way its a relief because of his condition, but it still feels pretty rough bros...

>>76612093
Mexicans*

>>76612116
well done anon, it's easy to be disciplined when things are going well, this is the real test, and you're passing.
>>76611815
It's an addictive feeling isn't it? Also the feeling of having extra time before work (and after the gym) to do chores or errands and therefore have totally free evening to putz around is intoxicating. My life is 10x better when I wake at 6am vs like 8:30 am
>>76612140
I feel you anon, that 'well he was very sick' doesn't make it easier to lose someone

>>76611850
She can only dream of getting a guy like you. She’s gonna regret not marrying you. What type of stories do you write?

Weight going down
WAGMI

>>76612029
Everyone’s Mirin’ you these days. You’re gonna make it!

>>76612342
melodrama type slice of life stuff, ironically enough usually about turbulent relationships

define "make it" because i think you guys are not nearly disillusioned enough with potential outcomes. unless my end result is doing literally nothing while getting jacked off in a stress free all expenses paid home then there is no reason to put the effort forth. since actually letting people have what i want would completely ruin how society functions i will never get what i want, and therefore i do not see the point in putting forth all the effort any more. the only thing you get for working out is other people telling you you're doing it wrong and gay guys wanting to have sex with you.

>>76612035
FUCK IT WE BALL!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>76612636
>unless my end result is doing literally nothing while getting jacked off in a stress free all expenses paid home then there is no reason to put the effort forth
some people crave meaningful work anon
I've never imagined 'making it' means I stop working, I intend to keep doing my work (which is different from doing my job) until I'm literally physically incapable of doing it. It just means being debt free, having people I love in my life, having plenty of time for the work I love, feeling good about my appearance and athletic performance, and when I'm older feeling content with my choices and lovely memories.

>>76612470
Your weight keeps on falling down! Congrats on your progress! WAGMI!

>>76611830
>You went from stable transport to advanced? I assume you’re an AEMT? I hated IFT.
Yeah, I just got my AEMT license a couple weeks ago so now I get to do all the limited ALS stuff that's basically just EMT-B but with IVs. Work paid for the schooling and require I work for them as an an AEMT for at least 6 months before they'll consider paying for paramedic school.
>I hope you like it man, I hated it (clearly). I’m sure your dep is very different from the one I was with.
I really enjoy the work despite all the bullshit. I used to be a paralegal and fucking hated it. Lawyers are assholes and writing boilerplate filing after boilerplate filing just became too much for me. I was doing all the actual work (researching cases, writing and responding to all the filings), but because I never passed the bar I got shit pay while the lawyers rubber stamped everything I did without reading it.

>>76612470
What app is this anon?

>>76612601
The older I get the more I appreciate slice of life. There’s something necessary about enjoying the mundane parts of living

I don't mind jorking it once in a while but I'm starting to really let the fact porn is a HUGE time waste sink it. I do browse it from time to time out of habit but I just stop after 10mins.

>>76615538
Weight Logger. Found it on F-droid.

>>76612140
Please appreciate whatever time you have left with your father

>>76615986
It's pretty hard with how fucked up his right now. But I've been by his side the last 2 days.

>>76615813
Porn is bad for you, try to cut it out before you fall further into the rabbit hole

>>76609258
when i told my first boss (this was like 4 years ago now) that I was ready to move on in my career because the job was getting boring, she started panicking and offering me more projects or asked if she could adjust compensation.

she was almost crying during the call. hope they learned to give people promotions and more responsibility when they ask for it.

>>76616206
I know it’s rough but stay strong for him

>>76601762
Run..as fast u can.

I’m getting beat up by this world but I need to stand firm. I know that if I’m strong, I can reach paradise in a year

Good fucking morning, siggers. What are your plans for today?
Today is yard work day and I have to get it done before it starts raining later today.

>>76618274
trying not to lose it

I'll bake the meat I bought on sale, apply to some more jobs and uhhhhhh maybe clean up
good luck with the yard work

>>76618274
Taking it easy since I was exposed to Covid on Wednesday.
Been getting good nutrition and sleep in and I'm not even sure I'm going to be infected at this point. I'm prepped for biological warfare but it looks like the bitchass virus can't secure a base.
Disappointing.
So if I'm still feeling normal past lunch I'll get some house cleaning done.

>>76601058 (OP)
this board is fo sucking dead that a thread from cunting monday is still up!?!

>>76618450
you mean the flu

>>76618451
half low traffic
half half the board being retarded non-whites and doomer crabs

>>76618274
Study, hit the gym, clean my apartment, and drop off my dry cleaning

>>76618274
>Pull day + stationary bike cardio in the afternoon
Today is a great day. Yesterday I won 2 client projects at work that I had to pull together SoWs for in a miracle amount of time, and I'm the only one who can lead both projects, so I'm basically priceless and have job security for at least a year. No job anxiety is a great way to end Friday.
>Garden day
The ultimate hobby, I have a lot of stuff to pull to get ready for fall gardening. Have peppers, eggplant, tomatillos, and cherry/regular tomatoes to harvest. Need to feed my blueberry plants before fall gets along too long. Strawberry propagation went well this year, from 2 plants to 6.
Pulling up all my tomato plants to plant carrots and lettuce mostly. Excited for my potato harvest, as they grew quite a lot this year.
Making hummingbird food for their migration (we get a ton here in NC). Also feeding the songbirds; have a nice window to the feeders and love watching them.
Very sad I didn't plant pumpkins and other winter squash in time; was super busy during July/August and was away a lot.
Today is also cleaning day. Finished bathroom + kitchen last weekend, excited to tackle the bedroom today. Nothing better than having a hard workout, showering, and climbing into clean sheets, absolutely nothing.
Planning a nice hike tomorrow morning at a close by state park.
Weight loss is going incredibly well, I meant for a 500 calorie deficit, but doing OMAD, I end up on a 1000 calorie deficit and its been 100% fine, even with working out 2x/day, just making sure to keep up my salts since I sweat like a motherfucker.
Hope you anons have a good weekend.

>>76618451
>>76618480
>half half the board being retarded non-whites and doomer crabs
Yeah this board is fairly low quality these days. There are some bastions of old /fit/ (/fat/, /fraud/, /cbt/, a few others), but so many threads are either arguing about random youtubers (I don't watch youtube so I don't know all these random dudes who apparently are defined as "experts" because they have a lot of viewers???) and relationship threads for some god aweful reason. What' worse is the relationship threads have more posts in them than pretty much any other fit thread, telling you most people on this board don't care about fitness. Those threads get removed, so what is left are the "stable" threads. If more actual quality fitness threads were created/commented on, threads like this would be gone after half a week.

>>76618666
>and relationship threads for some god aweful reason. What' worse is the relationship threads have more posts in them than pretty much any other fit thread,
/r9k/ niggers unfortunately won, satan

>If more actual quality fitness threads were created/commented on,
I sit in qtdd and answet questions

> threads like this would be gone after half a week.
you leave the monday threads fucking alone
tranny jannies fought against /sig/ so now we have these

>>76618450
Take it easy. There’s point in pushing yourself if you’re not feeling well. A lot of people are getting covid again

>>76618783
flu infections are more common in the colder months, yes

>>76601762
Show pics of her and then I will decide.

>>76618657
Sounds like you’re really keeping yourself busy! Congrats on your harvest and weight loss! Have a great weekend as well

>>76618783
Took a test and it's negative.
Though I've had three dry coughs and a sneeze.
Got some cleaning done.
If you feel it in your head, you're okay for like activity.
But once it goes below the neck is when the body needs to chill.

>>76618695
/fit/ will only return to making it when /sig/, /mis/, and whitepill all exist and thrive

my fat brother officially became more fit than me. almost 2 years ago i initially encouraged him to lift and run with me then last week i suddenly noticed he has surpassed me in everything. lift more, runs faster. i feel something but not sure what

>>76618657
Sounds comfy

I came to realize I have two addictions: exercising and playing music live. They both improve my mood better than the antidepressants I used to take, but I need both. Any two week hiatus of one or the other and I start to feel like shit, even with proper sleep hygiene and balanced diet. Oh, well, better this than meds. Better side effects, also.

>>76601083
The pursuit and the grind is fun desu.
>so they can breed the next generation
And I hope all of them do it too.

I WILL SURVIVE THIS JOB
I WILL STUDY HARD
I WILL PASS MY LEVEL 3 CFA EXAM IN JANUARY
I WILL MAKE IT OVER THE MOUNTAIN

Work continues to be rough, I really hate this position. I’ve learned that my coworkers also dislike my boss, which gives me comfort. This week the regulatory body could delay the potential regulatory change. I pray for them to push the change back further so I can actually learn this job. I need to remain strong. I can’t snap or get angry. I need to endure this job for at least a year.

Studying can be great or terrible. But what’s important is that I’m moving up the mountain. Most of the time while studying for CFA exams, I’ve watched the days tick down, feeling a sense of dread. But this time I view the decline with joy. One less day until I finish this program, one less day until I get out of this job, one less day until I make it.

Every day gives us a new opportunity to become stronger and move closer to our goals! Take advantage of every chance on your path to making it! WAGMI

>>76624732
We all need something to keep us alive. Bs glad that you have two excellent hobbies. I wish I knew how to play music

>finally got a good night sleep since weeks
>started doing a compound exercise
>I can do double the reps of what I used to do
Holy shit, lack of sleep is a such a big gain goblin

>>76624922
>I wish I knew how to play music
it's never too late to start, anon, even if you can only practice 15 minutes a day pick an instrument and start ASAP you won't regret it

>>76625019
nta, but I seriously need to be consistent with my ukulele lessons

today's lifts
>bench 245x3, 245x3, 245x4
>db incline bench 4x7 @ 80s + db row 4x10 @ 110
>incline front raises 4x15
Honestly a fantastic day with great productive sets. I was dreading 245 because I've never been able to muster it for more than one low-rep set (3 max) with really shitty form, not sure why today went so well but I won't complain. Benching 275 before the end of the year might be possible.
My left hand grip failed on the last set of db rows, had to drop then quickly pick it back up for the last two reps, still counts right?
First time doing seated front raises, they were tough but also lit my front delts on fire (first time I can recall) to the point of barely being able to carry my shit out of the gym. Also therapeutic feeling in some of the spots that tend to feel pinched with excessive pressing. I might have found the right fit for that last lifting slot, I've tried a bunch of things but nothing clicks.
WAGMI

>>76624978
Sleep is insanely important. The older I get, the more vital it is. Which sucks since I can no longer sleep continuously for 9-12 hours

>>76625178
insomnia or having a baby?

>>76625091
>incline front raises
nigga please

>>76625350
Problem?

>>76618274
Train again because i stop for one week.
Trying to process my feelings about my ex (she was kinda crazy but my feelings for her were real).
Play vidya.
See possibilites of entrepreneurship to stop being a wagie.

>>76625226
Former. I had hard insomnia for 6-9 months a couple of years ago. I’ve mostly recovered but I still struggle with sleeping. Stress and growing up have fucked me up

>>76625091
Congrats on your strength! 275 is definitely possible if you commit to building strength.
WAGMI

Wife and I got into an argument Friday which messed up my sleep and I decided against my 9k long run on Saturday. Made up for it today though. Subtracting one of the rest periods for my 5k runs worked well, so that's shaving a few minutes off those workouts.

Did my Evolt body scan and it gave me a bio age that's three years older than my actual age. Which is honestly bullshit. Regardless, it shows that I have about 12 pounds of abdominal fat to lose before I'm in the optimal range, which feels about right. I got as low as 203 last week, my target weight is 195. Need to do a snore check this week but I have a strong feeling that if I keep up this cardio regimen and get below 200 I'm going to be golden.

Goals this week are to finally finish reading that cert book and schedule the exam. And extend my long run to 10k on Saturday.

>>76624922
>>76625043
The 15min a day guy is right. At start I'd advise lessons for technique and not to catch bad habits, tho. But on the long run, it's far better to play in bands. Even better: bands that perform live in front of an audience. Here, every small town has a music school and associated harmony ensemble, even rock or jazz bands sometimes. Also, there are many brass bands and percussion ensembles, some of which open to beginners. Performing in a marching band is not unlike team sports, but without the opponent team. It's my favorite: a hybrid artistic/social/physical activity.
t. the addict

>>76625625
Sorry about your argument. Try to make up with her, life is too short to be angry at someone you love. You’re making insane progress on your cut, so keep up the great work! Good luck on your exam! You’ll escape your current job eventually

I'm glad this general survived a week. WAGMI

>>76625761
Thanks for the advice. Learning to play an instrument would probably help me make adult friends as well

>>76625965
socializing would help you make friends
not using an excuse of "I don't have x skill"

>>76601929
Listen to this anon. I've dated a few girls with this particular combination of neuroses, and it's just untenable in the long-term. I actually loved one very deeply and wrote a novel about her that got published, but in the end, I knew she was simply too unstable for her own good. I went to great efforts to help her sort herself out, but nothing worked, so I had to walk away. I'm much healthier in general now, and I feel like I'm in control of my life again. That said, I'll be damned if I don't think about her from time to time. The right ones will spoil you for normal relationships if you're not careful.

>>76625350
Ayo this nigga lifting science based

>>76626213
no, I'm lifting based

>>76625763
oh yeah we're good just typical woman shit

Today was not a good day at the gym

This was my 14th time at the gym (started late August) and it was the first time the trainer had to give up on an exercise and move on.
He asked me to squat down on one leg and I could not stop putting weight on the other one too. He said I'm not ready yet and we moved on. I cannot believe I am not "ready" to do a bodyweight exercise, I'm not even fat. But it is what it is.