Thread 76694340

>Sunday
Another weekend another drink anon, how has your weekend been?

>>76694340 (OP)
>Saturday
>Wake up
>Go play football for 1h with the lads
>Come home have lunch and lay on the bed all day

>Sunday
>Wake up
>Go for 1h run
>Come home have lunch and lay on the bed all day

I burned all the bridges and I'm too ugly to get a gf so it's pretty over.

>>76694457
>I burned all the bridges
I know this feel. I'm in my 30's and i have no friends left.

it's sunday already? jesus, gimme a cuba libre I suppose

I don't know where I'm headed, got no cause to fight for

>>76694340 (OP)
Tomorrow I'm going back to my old electrician company to ask/beg/plead for a job. This market is so fucking shit right now and until HR roasties get pimp slapped back into reality and drop the whole "le gurl boss" mentality the hiring process will forever be shit. I cannot take it anymore. Just last week I had a phone interview where I knew within the first 2 questions this cunt was wasting my time and was going to ghost me and sure as shit pic related happened.

If they deny me IDK WTF I'm going to except just keep applying and clowning myself. I might even go to several older company and beg and grovel for a job. GIVE ME A JOB ALREADY. I KEEP GETTING INTERVIEWS AND MAKING IT PAST THE ROUNDS. JUST LET ME SPEAK TO A FUCKING MAN ALREADY. FUCK WOMEN SO GODDAMN MUCH.

>>76694340 (OP)
Fingered my wife's asshole again. Life is good.

>>76694475
Same. In my teens and twenties people were always inviting me to do shit and I was always rejecting. Same shit with women, met a few and had others interested but I was always looking for a "10", couldn't stand commitment or responsibility (still can't) and had that I want to see the world idea. Fast forward 10 years I lived in 3 countries but did not develop any relationships, in fact got more jaded and the friendships I had at home are now gone too because mates were not retards and actually got wives and kids.

Considering moving abroad again because why not.

I thought I was sorting things out with this girl I'm interested in but she's too spotty in her replies, maybe I need to take time away from her and write back in my own time like she does to me.
I'm up a couple lbs from when I last weighed myself, fell off the wagon drinking and snacking a bit too hard the past few weeks cos I've just been a bit stressed.
Shouldn't take too long to sort out and finally lose my gut once I start rucking and biking most days on top of my boxing training.
So, not too bad I guess

>>76694457
>I burned all the bridges
Same. Best part is realizing what made you like that and knowing there's no going back.

Chilling out in the sun smoking a cigar, got steak to cook, and a Zoids model to build. Got a new mattress yesterday and my back hurts less already so that's cool. Good weekend.

The girl who friendzoned my a while back is still giving me mad attention again after a week. Still can't figure her out but I guess some female attention is nice.

>>76694660
Is that a Zoid dildo?

>>76694666
No it's a Command Wolf

Working on guilt for drinking. I marked my calendar in September with days I drank and the ratio was 16 days sober, 14 not. I made a soft commitment to sober October but already broke it this past Friday. From emotion to money to weight, removing alcohol would fix a lot of me. But I'm struggling with avoiding it.

>>76694681
You can't drink it if you don't buy it.

>>76694622
It doesn't make it that much better, it won't give you someone to go to a fancy restaurant with, to go to go concert, to visit a new country etc.

The gyms are ruined here now. How do I cope? I'm thinking of just dropping weightlifting and doing calisthentics because THOSE people have plagued my gym. I can only go before work too because I have the commute.

>>76694690
Idk anon, I think you should be able to enjoy those things on your own and not need somebody else. The other person is just a bonus

>>76694692
All gyms, are you sure?

>>76694660
>Zoids model to build
Shit's for fucking 8-year-olds. Says so on the box.

>>76694671
Sounds like a dildo brand name.

>>76694340 (OP)

Saturday was pretty good.
>woke to find my wife nekkid in bed next to me - excellent fuck right off the bat
>kids sports games - always nice
>progressed a home improvement project
>nice family dinner
>drinks around the fire pit with the neighborhood dads after dark

Sunday thus far
>hanging out with the family
>wife currently working in steaks and potatoes for lunch
>more progress on home improvement
>probably play some vidya with one of the kids later
>may get the project car out for a drive around the block

Pretty good weekend, bros.

>>76694340 (OP)
Last session was on Tuesday. In Tuscany with the missus for a holiday, then on to Spain for a wedding.

Want to find a gym in Spain so I can get some work in but happy to have a week off because I was getting a few aches and pains that needed time to recover.

Enjoy lads.

>>76694700
Ask me how I know you're brown and/or a manlet?

>>76694700
Nah that's the old motorized walking ones. These are posable and more complicated. Ages 14+
>>76694707
Why do you think about dildos so much, anon?

>>76694712
6 foot and white. Nice try, loser.

>>76694695
Going to a new country alone isn't bad but going to a nice restaurant alone has to be depressing as fuck. Imagine all the smartly dressed good looking women there and then there's your loner self incapable of even enjoying the meal.

Either I need to goon more and I've got precum leaking all the time lately or I have some sort of an infection. It's not even from sex :(

>>76694699
Yeah. THEY've invaded man. I thought I'd get used to it but nah I'm starting to really start skipping the gym because I don't want to deal with them anymore.
>Uses the squat rack /bench for stretching despite designated stretching area
>never washing after themselves
>never reracking
>taking weights from my rack
>taking weights from my rack MIDFUCKINGLIFT
>it's always fucking crowded now even in the morning
>their fucking body odor.
Me having to always search for a fucking 5/10/25/45 in the morning too is fucking annoying because the weights are never organized anymore either.

>>76694340 (OP)
Good, good. Did some active recovery and played a bunch of video games

>>76694708
>>76694710
What are you normalfags even doing in this site?

>>76694726
Only place left I can call people nigger faggots

>>76694584
I fuck a married guy who likes to play with my asshole. It's been a few weeks, I need to hit that up again

>>76694726
As >>76694731 said.
Also, you can check out, but you can never leave.

>>76694340 (OP)
I am very reluctantly not deadlifting today. Some scam called a 'rest day'.

My grandma is 92 and her brain stopped working some months ago, went from 100% fine to 100% dementia overnight. Been visiting her lately and although she recognizes me she doesn't remember too much. Today we had a pleasant chat where she wanted to form a new political party and appointed me to Minister of Beating Up Slavic Peoples. Last week she also told me I am very big and strong and made to beat up people.
It's strange seeing her like this but she gets in a good mood whenever I visit so I hope she at least recognizes me on a subconscious level. That's really the only noteworthy thing I did this weekend.

>>76694726
I'm a refugee from /b - I mellowed with age, but I'm still too much for normie consumption. Gotta let the crazy out somewhere. Plus, I don't have anyone irl to talk about fitness with. Double plus, the coomerbait threads - nothing motivates me to lift more than a good coomerbait thread.

weekend has been alright but my monday is gonna be ass. there's already so many annoying things planned lol

>girl asked me when I'm coming up to see her
fuckfuckfuck bros where do I go from here I've never been in this situation

>>76694340 (OP)
My biceps hurt from overtraining. I'm debating paying the gym owner to train me for a day to get my form and routine ready.

>>76694912
>where do I go from here
you get down

>>76694893
no you didn't

>>76694960
you called him out on his bullshit and he deleted his larp
KWAB

>>76694340 (OP)
Pretty mid. Bars were pretty slow this weekend, nothing exciting but nothing terrible.

I'm starting to realize that the Navy Body Fat calculator I've been using is full of shit. According to the calculator, at 195 pounds at 6'0", I'm at a body fat percentage of 15% and a lean mass of 167 lbs. However, I still look like I'm at 30-40% body fat percentage and hardly look different from when I was at 250 lbs earlier this year. I think it's because my frame is so tiny that it throws the calculations off. I'm going to go down from 700-800 calories per day to 500-600 calories per day and adding some more at-home workouts until I get back down to my high school wrestling weight of 138 lbs. I'm starting to purge a little bit too on the weekends in order to get rid of all the excess alcohol carbs from drinking. (I'm not going overboard though because I don't want to fuck up my throat or teeth). I know my methods are extreme, but my body is holding up so far and I'll pull back if I start feeling ill.

I feel like I'm invisible unless my body is absolutely perfect. I'm so mediocre and average looking that nobody, men or women, likes me or even notices I exist unless I look attractive. Of the few women who do notice me, I almost immediately drive them away due to my autism and social anxiety from childhood abuse. People only like me for my thin physique (and sometimes my intelligence, but that's rarely useful once you're out of high school and college), so I need to framemax by hitting at least 6% body fat.

>>76694912
Go nigga

>>76694340 (OP)
Got sick from taking some cold wind to the chest after gym, lost all energy to study. Gf has been helping a lot so I don't do chores around the house in order to rest. Made the stupid decision to go to the gym while I should be resting, I just don't want to lose the good rhythm that I got going. Sometimes we just have to rest though, so I'm playing Silksong all weekend.

>>76694973
The only body fat calculator worth using is the mirror.

>>76694584
Ah, if only my wife was more interested in her own butthole. She'll tolerate my playing with it so long as I'm also working on her clit, but she says she's not interested in anal. I just want to ballsdeep creampie her ass once in a while - seems like a reasonable request!

Gave a girl my number 3 days ago now, haven't heard anything. Still possible I will or nah?

>>76695045
Nah but at least you tried. Don't let it discourage you

>>76695055
Sucks but yeah I'm glad I did it, took a big effort and now it'll be easier next time

god can you fuckers shut up about relationship shit

>>76695069
No because I'm 30 and never had one

Drunk 10 shots, 1 liter beer and 2 cocktails at a goth pub in bruxelles with my long time friends from d&d group. Incredibly kino they had megadeth and killswitch engage as background music and I really wish to find a similar place in italy.
I need to cut again tho i lost my abs veins

And i need a arthoe gf. I fucking love alt girls but i attract just normies

>>76694340 (OP)
I think I’ve identified an issue with my lack of productivity in life. Most things I’ve liked or taken an interest in I’ve never gone super far. Like never past surface level. Every now and again something will just click and I’ll run deep but it’s rare that that happens.
>sports as a kid
Did Tball for like 3 practices. Swam for a few years never graduated out of the beginner group begged parents to let me quit.
>airsoft and paintball as a kid
Got a cheap $20 airsoft pistol and that’s it, went paintballing like twice in adulthood (using this as example because there’s fags who go and do the entire larp cosplay shit, they’ve maxed it out)
>fishing
Done it whole life, not that great at it don’t have the best gear have had some cool catches but nothing amazing
>school
Was smart enough to just get by without doing work or leaning anything. Literally skipped basic math shit from like 3rd grade through 8th. Would only ever put in just enough effort to pass the class. Towards the end of highschool began trying and started getting As and Bs, but even then I never TRIED all that hard. I never studied for example.
>fitness
Managed to lose over 100lbs, then build up from skeleton to in shape. Then got fat again. Was never able to run past 1.5 miles without stopping, could do like 5 if I run walked, was never that strong bench max was like 280, squat 315, OHP 180, deadlift 460.
Was never 10% bodyfat while I was lifting.


I need just once to go all in on something where that’s my thing and I maximize it in full. Way too often I give up on shit before I even start and if I do start I don’t go far. If I do make genuine progress even then it’s never anything insane. I feel like a perpetual C student who occasionally pulls out a low B. I want to be more successful and productive instead of this surface level bullshit

>>76694340 (OP)
Acorns on the ground here so fall is about to begin and all I can think about is how I was in the same spot as last year, looking out the window and wondering what my direction is in life. I'm 27, been with my girlfriend for 2.5 years and she moved away a few months ago for a job opportunity she couldn't turn down. I have an interview on Wednesday for a job in my state that I can't turn down. Feels like I'm just along for the ride most of the time. What do I want, and how do I know if I really want it? It just seems like one of those times in life that paths inevitably separate and call me a faggot but man I have never cried this much. It comes and goes but I feel like no matter what I do I should be doing something else that moves me towards a goal but I don't know what the goal is. Idk about everyone else but being late 20s fucking blows

>>76694457
>>76694475
I hung out as much as I could with my friends in high school, then went to college and saw how they really were.
Some went to college but spent five years getting a two year degree. Others did nothing for a year or two then joined the military.
In my major I felt like I had nothing in common with my classmates or there was a huge age gap.

Ups and downs over the past week.
Won $25 and installed a new radio in my car.
Girls I chatted up seem they don't want anything to do with other people or are too busy with life and school.
I figure I'll keep busy focusing on my classes and hobbies while I build up dating app profiles just to see how those go.
Sleep is still fucked and I haven't worked out in two weeks, which should help with stress, anxiety, and being jittery.

>pros
Cleaned my apartment
Learned to groom my beard so I can keep a short full beard
>cons
I’m fucking stuck in life and I have hit the point I’m contemplating joining the navy to get out of my current circumstances. It fucking sucks. No degree no skills no trades will even hire me I’ve legit bought groups of electricians waters and begged for a job as a helper and it went no where. I’m at the point I will gladly go work for zog doing whatever pogged job I qualify for get an associates while I do that then come out and get a bachelors degree/master with the GI bill.


My attention span is shot. It’s worse than it was at 14. Like forget the struggles with getting a degree, how the fuck would I even go into the military when I can’t stay on task past 20 minutes?

>>76695150
>navy
Don't. Unless you wanna be cramped with a bunch of double digits IQ retards undersea for months at a time. Go Air Force.
>nobody will hire me
Yup. The "join a trades" meme is dead as even they aren't spending money on new people and half the time now want a tech school degree because FUCK YOU and FUCK ON-THE-JOB-TRAINING.

Help, I never did any exercise cause I'm a lazy retard but recently I started with daily 30 min walks and after a few days I'm feeling tired as shit, is this normal? Is it just because my body is not used to the exercise and it'll go away eventually or is there something wrong with me? How do people do this every day?

>>76695308
no, a 30min walk isn't remotely supposed to tire you out. Malnourished and weak humans are still supposed to be able to walk for days.
got enough water? got enough electrolytes? Is this a purely mental weariness? Are you getting some specific ache?
People do it every day by putting one foot in front of the other. One winter my toilet was clogged for 10 days and I walked 20k steps every single day to take a shit, and as annoying as that was, it was not because the walking tired me out at all.

>>76694340 (OP)
https://youtu.be/R4xWbRBLj2I?si=O-9fCJfH1Y5xDnHw

>>76695315
Nothing hurts, I just feel extremely tired afterwards, like right now I'm lying on the bed and struggling to get up. I do take a shit-ton of meds for health related issues but they shouldn't be making me tired, at least acording to my doc. Isn't it possible I'm just out of form? Keep in mind I haven't done any form of exercise for 10 years

>>76695323
does it improve if you eat a fruit afterwards? Do you have a fitness watch to track your heart rate during the walk? You might have low blood sugar afterwards. Try a more relaxed walk, and not some speedwalking.

>>76694340 (OP)
Spent most of the weekend resting and reading after a strenous week, both in terms of lifting (good) and personal life (bad).
It would have been pretty chill were not for a massive cramp on my left abductor on saturday that left me in terrible pain for half and hour. Still a bit sore and I got squats scheduled on monday, we'll see how it goes.

>>76695322
RIP anon.

>>76694340 (OP)
I have mid terms Thursday + Friday, and I've spent the entire weekend rotting instead of studying.
I guess I gotta start taking my aderall again. I hate that it make me feel like a tweaker schizo, but it works.

>>76695329
I'll try the fruit afterwards. Maybe the meds are making me dehydrated without me realizing? Can I be dehydrated even if I'm not thirsty? I should also mention I look like a zombie when I return from the walks

>>76695345
Iktf, I also need stimulants for studying. I hate having to take them but they make me learn stuff so much faster

I've given up on relationships with women so intensely I start to feel gay

>>76694973
Anon, you have serious body dismorphia and are developing an eating disorder. Seek help, for your wellbeing.

>>76695361
I feel like my brain is too autistic/broken to socialize with women. I don't relate to them, have nothing to talk about, and find them overall boring.
I'd try getting with a twink or something, but they're probably all out of my league and only want hookups anyways.

>>76695385
I just couldn't do it with a dude honestly. Like I start to think about the BO, and the lack of pussy. I can recognize pretty easy if a guy is attractive, I'm autistic enough to be like Wow look at that guys canthal tilt, I bet he's a hit, but they sure don't get my dick hard

>>76695361
Khv status?

Don't know how much I got left in me. I'm so tired of everything that I dipped into my PTO to take the next day off. Sick of my job and just spinning my wheels. Don't feel like I'm going anywhere and don't even know what I want next. What I do want feels way out of reach.

>>76695410
Technically at least kv. Girls liked me in highschool, but I always turned them down. Sometimes it was because they were dating my one of my friends, and I didn't want to hurt them, other times I just didn't like her. I can't even call myself a real incel. I feel kinda like Dexter, in the sense that I know quite well how to be charismatic, but I certainly have hidden power levels. I never really wanted to pump and dump girls, I want someone I could pour my heart into, which it seems most girls aren't into.

>>76695294
The last ones I spoke to literally said
>we need a ton of new guys we hire helpers with no experience all the time, I got all the tools you need and I’ll even gift you some around Christmas
He gave me an interview with his wife secretary on the phone. I followed up via email like she asked and nothing. They all but told me I would start within 2 weeks
>Air Force not navy
It’s what I’ve been told. Big part of my decision is I want to spend time on a ship.
I just looked through airforce and I don’t know what job I would do. Literally nothing looks like something I can do.
Honestly man I feel like I’m just putting off killing myself. Searching for anything to work towards so that’s not the road I come to.


Idk why this is so hard. I just need to find something that
>have some level of natural competency at
Inb4 blaming others, but why the fuck didn’t my parents push me to try stuff when I was young. Why did they let me sit on video games all day.
If I ever fix my life and I do have kids, I’m gonna destroy any electronics they have if they start neglecting health and rotting inside too much.

>>76695427
I take autism tests every now and then, but I do not have it. I wish I could just explain all my hang ups with a label like that, but nooo it has to be some mysterious other thing

>>76695385
Bro it's not you it's women. The modern foid does literally nothing but sit in her room all day scrolling tiktok, maybe she attends college, maybe she goes to the gym, maybe she has a job, but outside those three potentialities she has absolutely nothing going for her, no hobbies, no genuine interests outside of farming male attention online. It's especially bad because women are already subjective and emotional creatures, they are literally neurologically incapable of ascertaining a grasp on objective reality. Tough pill to swallow but women literally actually believe that whatever they SEE, whatever APPEARS to be true, IS the actual literal truth, that's how fucking shallow and vapid they are. And since they have no grounding in reality outside their childish toddler bitch la-la land they are literally incapable of processing or grasping any subject of substance (since all things of substance definitionally exist only in objective reality).

TL;DR ignore foids and do something that actually matters

>sleeping time and start waggieing all over again tomorrow
Pls tell me a country where I can retire to at 35 and 30k in savings. I don't mind eating beans and rice for the rest of my life.

>>76695453
Nta but thank you for saying this. I’ve been suspecting for a while bitches literally think like this
>but the TV person said so so it has to be true
Or even
>*dumb cunt has stupid fucking thought or misinterpretation of something I said*
>rather than attempt to FUCKING COMMUNICATE LIKE A HUMAN just snowballs into an assumption of bullshit and gets herself pissy, literally believes it’s truth because she sees it as such in her head and possesses no hire thinking ability of any critical thought, seeks out some kind of revenge for something that never actually happened
>excuses her abhorrent behavior
They’re fucking retarded. It can even be as simple as you say something that can be construed in multiple ways, one which is very clearly the way you meant and normal and the other could be “well that could be a Freudian slip and he’s talking to other women” and because it COULD be the latter they just run with that as the absolute truth. They’re so damn annoying and dumb. I envy the dudes who have found women who are fun to interact with outside of sex. They exist but they’re rare

>>76695039
Buy a small buttplug and some relaxing serum. I recommend this:
https://a.co/d/2OuBwYP
Put the serum in the butt/buttplug, stick it in and let it sit for 10-15 minutes while you do other things, like eating her out or fucking her. Then remove it, use lots of astroglide (the original thin watery lube is the best, gel doesn't work as well), and give it a whirl. Go slow and let her push back on you rather than pressing into her. That relaxing serum makes a huge difference.
>t. Anal enjoyer

Why is the /fit/ catalog all messed up for me? Been like this since the party hats were plastered everywhere. Only on this forum it looks like picrel, nowhere else.

I caught a cold again. It's like the 5th time this year. I used to never get sick, I have no idea what's going on with me.
Lately we've been talking about our marriage with the fiancee and the other day I was unable to sleep thinking about how about I have no one to invite. I have some family I guess but she's got so many people. I'm going to have like 3 friends there versus her what 30? 50? Honestly it's limited to budget she could invite 100 people she knows who know her and deal on personal terms. And if I'm lucky all of my 5 friends will be there.
In a way it's silly like we'll be done with it and then we'll keep doing whatever we were doing and we're all gonna have fun and it's all good, but it sounds like a shitty ass time for me to be at my wedding and have to deal with a bunch of people idgaf about just because my friends are no longer part of my life. It's gonna fucking suck and I'm going to spend a lot of money on it.

>>76695429
>interview with his wife secretary on the phone.
Should've told him to pound sand right then. The fuck does his dumbcunt wife know about a trade and who is qualified?
>wanna be on a ship
>gay buttsex seamen
>all the women will be whores that put pornstars to shame
I'm warning ya, dude. Don't do it.
>something i can do
They'll teach you. Just be willing to learn and make sure you do you research in terms of how bad it will suck (like crew chief)

>>76694660
It needs some panel lines done and maybe some bits painted

>>76695558
That's all well and good. The issue is the part where I have to get her consent before I shove things up her butt. We're at a record of 1" diameter vibrator so far, which she took with no discomfort. She's loudly disinclined towards having my dick up her ass, though. She also gets annoyed if I play with her asshole too frequently.

I pretty much just have to keep working on that hole periodically and hope one day she'll give it up, I guess.

>>76694340 (OP)
I had an interview a few days ago with a dental school I really want to get into, and I feel like I totally bombed it and torpedoed my chances of getting in. It’s the only interview I’ve been offered so far this cycle and this is my second go-around at applying. I’m starting to wonder if this dentistry thing is ever really going to happen or if I should just give up.

I also made the mistake of thinking back to the only girl I ever really loved, who is married now, and thought about how she’s most likely had sex multiple times already and yet here I am all these years later still never having achieved a relationship, let alone lost my virginity.

I get attention from other girls all the time, but it’s never the kind of girls I actually want so I just ignore them, but then I wonder if I should just use them to “scratch the itch” of loneliness, but can’t bring myself to use them like that.

I just feel like a total loser, like my life has amounted to nothing despite my efforts, which were not even the best I could’ve given because I didn’t believe anything good would happen to begin with.

>>76694538
you do know the HR foids don't make the call, the hiring manager (me) does.

Gin and Tonic on the rocks, please.

I've had a real bad sciatica problem the last couple of weeks. Made an appointment to have it addressed, as it's never lasted more than a day or two. I can barely put my socks on without having to grit my teeth. This really sucks and I hope it's over soon.

>>76695844
Well my advice still stands when she gets to point of letting you put a plug. Just a little one! A tiny dainty one with s gemstone on it! Tell her it's cute

>>76696010
So get better women and ask better questions, you fucking nigger. Why the fuck are you asking for all this shit now out of nowhere? You mean to tell me your dumbass is asking for a degree and 5+ years experience for a job that pays for $15/hr? Fuckass nigger.

>>76694340 (OP)
>in a detox center/rehab for alcohol last week
>still hit 165 OHP in the gym loaded up on valium on the second day being there

It's been a rough few months anons

A friend of mine is going away for a bit and told everyone except me. I’m not really sure what to make of it, perhaps I’m trying to read into it too much. I know I’ve went away on short notice and hadn’t had the chance to tell certain people, but something feels off. I guess I’ll give them the benefit of doubt for now.

>>76695931
If you scratch the itch once, you will do it again--at least probably. However, it's up to you to weigh which is worse on your own soul in your circumstance. I don't know how old you are, but I failed to get into PhD programs two years in a row, and am now a candidate after finally making it stick the third year.

>>76694597
I live in a small city and hang out with people that go to the same bars. When I go around town, people know me and say hi and we catch up. My girlfriend is impressed how many people I run into who want to talk to me. My life is infinitely better than yours, where you list the number of exotic places you lived but lament that you don't have any friends

Having a toddler and a pregnant wife makes me appreciate the hour at the gym more than anything on earth

>>76696285
I don't what's more pathetic, that you think what you just described is a flex, or that you felt the need to flex on >>76694597.

>>76696291
pussy

>>76694340 (OP)
It's been a year since I stopped working out.
>Hacksquat PR
>Load weight
>It was too much, went straight down
>Ruptured both testicles immediately

>>76694973
>purging
>6% body fat
Mate fucking sort it out

HOW DO I STOP ALCOHOL
GOD FUCKING DAAAAAMN

>>76697106
You just stop and realise it is a cancer killing you. Im 18 months sober and never felt better.

How the fuck do you make friends in your 30s? I have a job but I only condier them work colleagues at best. They also all have partners or kids so they aren't avaliable on weekends.

Broke my collarbone playing rugby and my gains are melting away. Graduated last summer and still haven’t found a corporate job to justify this fucking degree. A deep apathy permeates all areas of my life. I haven’t found my “purpose” yet, frankly I don’t think I have any passions, let alone a profitable one. Suicidal thoughts are resurfacing.

kinda running a 531 custom thing any input if this looks alright?

https://hardy.app/routine/my-531-routine-21812

inb4

>>76697272
you need to join a sport club

>>76697106
Your first and strongest line of defense is not buying it. Once that line is breached, you have little that will help you.
>>76697121
Congrats, man. Very nice.

I'll have a large bottle of Smirnoff Ice.
Start of a new week, back on track to lose the last 10lbs or so I need to be lean. Money issues slowly solving themselves, even if I had to buy a new phone since my old one got fucked up from falling out my pocket when I was getting out my car a few weeks back.
Might do something light today, maybe a bit of shadowboxing and decline diamond pushups, it's meant to be a rest day but I always feel better for doing something.
WAGMI

>>76697106
when I quit I was drinking so much carbonated water then I fell off the wagon and started drinking and smoking again.
if you want to truly quit you need 2 things. dont hang with people who drink, get something you can drink as a replacement for a while like herbal tea, carb water, or lemon water. something healthy you can consume a lot of and easily without punishment.

>>76694340 (OP)
I was forced to resign from my fifth job this Friday after only being there for two months. It was a mailman position from USPS. And while I was bummed about it, I knew that job was never going to last long-term because 1. I'm not a good driver and 2. it's a dead-end job. I could go into more detail if anyone cares, but TLDR is don't work for the post office as a carrier, it's awful.

Idk what I'll do now, maybe do some Door Dash/UberEats/Grubhub stuff while looking for a job more related to my degree.

>>76697353
Sports are gay

>>76697272
>partners

>>76697517
Yes? I don't know if they are all dating, engaged, married, whatever.

>long distance foid best friend no longer mentally ill and found 20+ new irl friends
>I thought we had perfect chemistry but now only wants to hang out when the other activities are not available (didn't say it and doesn't make it obvious but I'm not retarded)
>I have some irl friends too but the chemistry just isn't that great + they're busy at least 5 days a week
how do I cope and how do I find new people?
>inb4 talking to people my age at the gym, running/sports/fitness groups, "board game nights", going back to uni for a masters, gaming platforms, etc
tried and got disappointing results

>>76697910
You don't, you take the lonely pill and live a life without others. It ain't all that bad.

>>76697938
>take the lonely pill
tried it for around 2 years and it unironically made me dumber and just ruined my conversation skills kek
>It ain't all that bad
it's not that bad but I definitely wouldn't call it good. having people around added more unexpected experiences to my life and they introduced me to things I wouldn't have given a chance otherwise; despite being pretty open to trying new stuff and looking for it
+ some activities just don't work (that well) solo

>>76697272
>>76697938
>>76697938
This isn't a fix but maybe will help- i sometimes tune in to live streams online. I live alone and am sort of in the same lonelypill situation. Live streams actually do help with that. I'll put one on while I'm doing whatever around the house, chime in every so often, and it's sort of like hanging out with (virtual) friends.

This is my favorite one, come hang out, especially on Thursday nights.

https://rumble.com/c/CancelThisPodcast?e9s=src_v1_clr

Haven't worked out in 4 days because I got hemmroids acting up. I lifted 3 days in a row with them but felt lile my insides were going to become outsides if I continued. As of today I'm taking fiber powder to helpfully fix the issue and to keep it from coming back. The only thing I've done that could have caused them to pop up is my extremely protein forward diet

>>76694973
are you retarded

>>76698537
Yes

>lived through another week
>have to face another week of living

>>76694340 (OP)
I feel as though I have 1000 things to accomplish and the overwhelming feelings causes me to do none.
>get tattoo removed
>get eye surgery (strabismus)
>a dozen doctor appointments I’m overdue for
>replace bed + get an on the floor mattress
>replace couch
>re do flooring
>paint walls
>get other new furniture
>service car /take it in to get serviced
The list just keeps going on and on, and then this causes me to neglect even other stuff like getting my hair cut, exercising, meal prep, etc


Lack of productivity is what’s wrong with my life. I’m not sure what all the reasons are. I’ve worked hard to get passed the anxiety and depression, and I believe at this point the remaining anxiety and depression would be fixed by fixing the tangible things (getting old physique back stating on top of shit getting through the above list etc). I just can’t seem to get with it and DO anything.

>>76699699
The longer you hold off the longer the lost gets.

>asked a coworker out
>over text because I'm autistic and couldn't muster the nerve to do it in person
>she responds enthusiastically saying she would love to
>next morning she texts she had plans to do something else she forgot about
>casually text her no worries lol and haven't texted since
What now? Did she actually want to hang out and actually forget she had something else? Seems unlikely. Was she just being nice initially so it wouldn't be awkward to just say flat out no since we work together? Was this one of those secret woman tests where I have to find the secret answer? I'm so confused. What do I do now? Do I ask her again or should I just forget about it?

>>76694584
>>76695039
>put my finger in gf's butt while fucking her doggy
>she yells at me to stop and pulls it out
>now fucking with my dirty finger up in the air because I don't know where to put it
>go soft
>go to the bathroom to wash my finger

>>76700597
You quit your job and move to another town and start a new life.

>>76694622
For me it was deep rooted insecurity feeling I didn't deserve anyone liking me or being kind to me. Glad I somehow salvaged a few friends even after everything went up in flames.

>>76700597
See how she acts in person. Maybe cuff your balls and ask her IRL

>>76694912
>where do I go
To her house? She literally told you

>>76695045
>girl
>do anything ever first
It was over before it even began

>>76695361
Last night I had a dream I was about to have sex with a guy, Luckily I stopped and told him last second I'm not gay and don't want to

>>76700625
Bruh, you gay.

>>76700636
It was really weird dream. First I was dreaming I was making out with this really hot girl, but it turned out she was this twinks gf. So he comes in and she leaves and now I'm thinking I might have to have sex with him in order to have sex with her. We're about to kiss and finally I'm like nah, not worth it

I've split logs and cut trees with a chainsaw for winter wood and now I have hands/thumbs doms. Upper middle back legs doms too. Hopefully it won't be as bad next weekend when I do it again. As for the drink, I'd like a Stout with Conté cheese to snack on.

lads, my semen has officially touched a pussy, I could not be more proud of me
>go to massage parlor
>at some point the girl lets me put my penis between her asscheecks and I rub it between her delicious buns
>instead of blowing my load on her back I just let it spill on her ass crack and it reaches her vagina opening

the girl panicked and was angry first but somehow she still chilled out and we had enough pillow talk and the hour timer ran out

>>76701213
Peak cringe

>>76701213
I was about to be jealous but then I read your entire post and now all I feel is disgust and pity.

Getting older is a curse. Nothing fills me with joy anymore. The days fly by, weeks feel like they last for minutes. Everyday I have to devote 8+ hours of my time to wagie for some jew who only wants to pay me the bare minimum so I can survive. This is hell.

>>76700622
Iol maybe so, I've read this more than a few times now where girls say they won't text/call if a guy gives them his number because they don't like initiating. Here I am thinking that giving my number and saying maybe we could do something this weekend counted as initiating and her texting would be a response to that.

>>76701882
Just send her a message you sperg

>>76701892
I don't have her number retard she has mine but hasn't texted. I think I'm going to try again in person and be a bit more direct. I feel like I can do it now after making that initial move

>>76701896
Why would you not get her number when you are giving your number to her? Are you retarded?

>>76701901
Socially a bit yeah. I've never done something like that before and had to make it quick in order to do it at all because I was too nervous. Had to rehearse the damn lines in my head for days prior so I could kinda autopilot spit them out. Now that I've done it though I feel much more confident

>>76697325
If it makes you feel better anon, I had a pair of corporate jobs using my degree and realized that both companies were grifts ran by conmen. I've since quit and also feel a similar apathy, but have started going to a therapist and engaging in the one passion I have which is drawing. Sometimes what you're good at, what your passion is, and what can making you a living, are all different from one another and coming to that realization has gone a long way in helping me.

These days, I'm lifting and applying to jobs in different industries with the hope I'll find a passion elsewhere.

Gin, neat, something not on the rail
Another year older, today, and another night of drinking alone. I don't want to get too bemoaning, but I can't help but feel a little bit bad about things. In some ways, I've made a lot of gains over this past year. Lifts have been good, body looks better, been finding new friend groups, all good things. Yet, I'm still in the habit of completely avoiding my friends when I get in a funk (like I am now.) Like, I freaked out and started avoiding them, and then got in my mind that I can't reach out to them again unless I've somehow improved. I know I could just say "Hi" again, but it just doesn't feel right. They probablly think I've off and killed myself since I haven't made any contact in a couple weeks now.
I don't know, bartender, just one of those nights. At least I only have 2 more years until my wizard powers mature

>>76699699
If you got too many things on your plate, tackle them one at a time. Eyes on the prey, not the horizon.

>>76700597
If she says no but doesn't suggest an alternative date, she's not interested.

I love my gf but if we were to break up i dont think I'd have another normie larp in me, id just give up on employment, focus on my hobbies and have sex with girls with daddy issues

>>76698454
Update; taking fiber power fixed my asshole after one day when nothing else would after a week

Time to go for a OHP PB to celebrate

>>76702425
Damn bruh

I hate women but i also want to sex them

>>76700597
>how to get SP
she's interested, she's yours, your relationship is perfect
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1mnpZIkUjc

>>76704254
TLDR on this video?

>>76704349
when you watch the lord of the rings do you shit and piss yourself wondering whether they're going to beat sauron or do you just know what happens and enjoy the movie, well it's like that but with whatever you want

>>76704387
Sounds kinda based

I hate my life and I want to die.

>>76704254
Not to sound like a dunce, but what is SP?

>>76704443
Uhh bases?

I am going to kill the nigger that goes to my gym. Having to listen to this coon shit over the speakers.
https://voca.ro/1cT2uFeidczs
Literally the only nigger that comes to my gym, and they're the only one that blasts music or talks openly on their phone. Then it meanders all over the gym just touching things while being in the way. I hate them so fucking much. Coon, coon, coon, nigger, nigger, jogger, porch monkey, coon. Fuck.

>>76705261
He's literally smacking the walls now. Is he fucking autistic?

>>76705392
It left. Silence.

>>76701958
> I had a pair of corporate jobs using my degree and realized that both companies were grifts ran by conmen.
Almost all companies are con man grifts. Was yours a tech job? Those are the king of con man grifts

>spend many of my weeknights in the fall doing a hobby activity where I usually don’t get home until after 8, sometimes not until 930, biking home from it in the 7-8 mile range
>pretty much just get home, shower, eat, then go to bed
>some nights I don’t have it to do, like tonight
>get home 630
>have to spend rest of the night in my house doing jack shit unable to distract myself from my miserable Existence

The two terabyte external hard drive I have for my fap folder is nearly full. I have no idea how I fell this far.

>>76705847
That is really sad. Delete that shit right now and start working on improving yourself.

>>76705881
Im deleting a lot of stuff now but I can't bring myself to delete the whole thing

>>76705890
It is porn, delete it you degenerate.

>>76705898
Oh fuck, is that what it was? Since you put it that way it's gone

>saving porn
lmao
what a jewish thing to do

>>76694681
AA worked for me and now I’ve got tons of friends who also don’t drink but are still fun

>>76695931
Oh dude, don’t worry, women ONLY use men like that. They are so self absorbed and selfish that you’re doing the world a favor by using them selfishly.

Unconditional love only exists for men. Thats why we are able to put up with all of a woman’s bullshit. But a woman’s love for a man is completely surface level and completely conditional. Quit checking afew boxes and they are done before you can get the wheels turning again. Don’t ever fool yourself or feel bad about using a woman. They only look pretty and care about pretty things.

And the girl you were in love with absolutely has been railed backwards and forwards by way more than just one dude and done things you would never dream of doing with her, with multiple different dudes.

Women are fake and care about fake things. It’s what consumes their lives.

>>76696515
What does life look like after that injury?

I giggled, but is this something you can recover from without just going full troon or ladyboy? Prosthetic nuts and prescribed test? Full recovery?

>>76705261
>>76705392
>>76705421
Funniest par is if you ask it to turn it down the interaction would go like
>ignores you knowing damn well you’re talking to him
>you repeat
>goes wide eyed and immediately starts chimping
>AYO WHO THE FUCK IS YOU YOU AIN EEN KNOW WHADDA MUFUCKA GOT GOIN ON RASIS ASS whine whine whine
And just whole interaction like you walked up busted a load on his upper lip and said “now smile with the same mustache I left on your mom nigger boy”
Lmao

WAKE ME UP
WAKE ME UP INSIDE

>>76695347
Check for a B12 deficiency. You may need Methlycobalamin

Anybody knows how to deal with fear of public speaking?
I used to have pretty bad social anxiety. Got over it mostly, but every time I have to speak in front of people I completely freak out. Thought I got it under control during university. But I got my first full time job recently and had a couple of really bad incidents of completely choking basic speaking. The weird thing is I have no problem talking in an open discussion, but as soon as it turns to "everybody introduce themselves" my brain short circuits

>>76707508
Take drugs before you do it

Everything feels so pointless. But i will march on.

at least the week is over me. I am 38 and life still feels like an uphill battle. this cant go on like that, this cant be it.

Asked my parents point blank if I'm going to inherit the house. They started laughing, said "worry about your own life". I'm an only child.

Other than that got a mire from the delivery girl, nice.

>>76708199
>I'm an only child
That's more their fault than yours.

>>76707508
look for a toastmasters near you
only way to get better is to practice

>>76708193
But anon, this is it.

>>76694893
>fucked a whore
very cool

>>76697106
If you really want to stop you have to be okay with the truth that your life is going to become insanely less social, and quite boring when you begin your sobriety journey. You're going to feel tired, sad, unmotivated and just overall shitty. But all that will fade, and that's the important thing to remember. It WILL fade. You WILL find motivation and normal things will excite you. You WILL find friends to do sober things with, although your socialization will still not be as high as it was when you were drinking. This a choice you have to make, anon. Do you want to keep drinking, and with it keep some of your social circles? Or do you want to give up drinking, lose some of your socialization, but gain all there is to gain that comes with sobriety? The first two weeks are the hardest. Start there. Go two weeks without drinking.

>>76708426
Taking the soberpill is the truth in life. An 'unfun' sober life is better than a 'fun' drunk one.

>>76708426
>>76708596
Haven't had alcohol in over 2 years, have only slipped up on other drugs a handful of times in that two years.
I miss being a deadbeat sometimes, but I know things are on a general upward trend. It's just shocking how long a day is now. Thinking back when I was a daily pot smoker and years would blend into one.

>>76694340 (OP)
Whisky
>dad and mom came for a visit
>dad thought I am a lazy cunt that don't appreciate work
>mfw I work a minimum wage job even on the weekend
At this point, I only dedicate my life to lifting. Fuck everything else.
It's the only thing that make me proud of who I am.

>>76694340 (OP)
Club soda, with a lemon slice.
I don't even know how to feel about life. It's like I'm in a hurry to get nowhere, or someplace I don't even want to be.

>>76707508
My advice is to be study the topics that you'll discuss until you know the material like the back of your hand. Do not make a script.

Life is hell

>>76708199
They probably laughed due to the discomfort of the question. You have to remember your parents are just people too man. They may not have known why you asked that, could have assumed it was some kind of greed or something rather than you just trying to know how to plan for your future. Could be as simple as they understand the current financial state of society and already plan on having to sell it for their retirement and didn’t know how to/ aren’t ready to have that awkward conversation with you.
Idk man, could be a ton of stuff idk your parents or you.
My father only recently finally admitted how fucked up the cost of everything is compared to just 20 years ago. Like when he was my age he already had his first child had been married had been living out of his parents house for 12 years had bought a house. On a $50k salary. He admitted to me how fucked things are now, how wages have moved minimally compared to the cost of things. It took him retiring and seeing both of his kids finally move out to realize it though. He was previously in the boomer mindset of it’s normal you just gotta be loyal to an employer bust your ass over many years and you’ll be rewarded with a better pay and all that.
But yeah your parents response was retarded. They should at the very least help you plan for building your future. If nothing tangible or monetary wisdom and guidance is the next best, if not the best anyways, thing parents can leave behind. Mine weren’t perfect but they for example have opened up a stocks portfolio for me so I can build.

>>76707508
repeat the speech several time, hours before
yeah it sucks and it is time consuming but I primise it will get better
voice
body posture
hand gestures
eyes

use all 4

t. university teacher that improved a lot

I went hiking on Monday and ended up with moderate hypothermia and altitude sickness. The rest of the night felt like being sick and hungover simultaneously. Awful experience.
Since then I've been constantly tired and sleeping like 12 hours a day. I am unemployed so my schedule doesn't really matter, but I am doing school and holy shit I feel like all these words I'm reading are just slipping through my mind unprocessed. Starting to think I got some temporary brain damage lol.

>>76694340 (OP)
Just give me cola
I miss my fucking hair man
Each time a girl is interessted in me I take my hat off and they ghost me
I feel like I could've had it all but my shit fucking Genes made me go bald before I hit 20

>>76711583
If you're really going bald, then shave it off and stop wearing hats. Own it. They're ghosting you because they sense your insecurity.

>>76707456
I THOUGHT
I WAS
A DINOSAUR

>>76705261
Niggers in the gym are the worst.
>loud
>no etiquette
>black

>>76694340 (OP)
Anyone wanna help me fix these health issues
>quads get super tight and sore close to the knee
It sucks. Used a can of soup to roll them out the other day and it helped a lot but today it hurts even more. It’s always at the end of the muscle by the knee, sometimes I’ll feel like I have way more in the tank but this area just hurts too bad to keep going. It’s like the muscle is overly pumped and too tight or something.
>sleep issues
Does a box spring make a difference vs having a bed frame with slats and would I be better off getting a Japanese on the floor mattress and using that while my normal bed just sits and waits for the nights when I get laid?
>posture
Paul Bryson mentioned he has a routine where he does rear delt work to keep his posture correct otherwise he begins slouching, anyone have any movements that are best for that goal?
>when I get nervous I puff my chest out
I can’t help it. My body automatically does it. I learned at 18 to stand up straight and puff chest out to look more confident and I ended up getting laid so I just did it all the time now it’s a bad habit and people definitely notice. It just happens like a twitch and I struggle to resume my normal posture. How the fuck do I unlearn this sort of thing? It was so effective when I was faking confidence. It would make aggressors back off, it seemed to get attention from girls. Now I get slightly defensive or nervous and I puff my chest out like a retard

I just learned from linkedin that one of the popular older chads from high school is a marketing manager at nike. meanwhile I'm just a wagie at a bank. I hate linkedin so much

>>76695039
>>76694597
I've done benis in butt both with my ex and my wife and it was pretty underwhelming both times. It feels tighter than a pussy right around the entrance, but it doesn't feel nearly as good past the entrance, plus it takes a far bigger toll on her body too since the asshole wasn't designed with penetrative sex in mind.

Both of them liked getting their assholes fingered or rimmed, on the other hand, as did I.

>>76712289
Meant to reply to
>>76694584
rather than
>>76694597

>walked up to waitress
>just want to ask about ordering
>she took 3 steps back as I walked towards her
>mfw

Missed my Workout last Friday, and it made me have to move my schedule.

Last Saturday - Gym
Last Sunday - Run
Monday - Gym
Tuesday -Run
Wednesday - Gym
Thursday -Break
Friday - Gym

Today I go for a Run and then get a break until Monday. Feels good to get a nice break in.

Around this time a year ago, I wanted nothing more to kill myself. I think it was finally going to a rub and tug that did me in. It's foolish now, but at the time, I felt as though the good man I was meant to be died by my hands. I think it was the guilt, as after I went, I read all the human trafficking rumors, and wanted to throw up. It took a long time to learn to still accept myself, and sometimes, I still want to go back. I never do, but it nags me. There's also the idea, that I'll probably never get to be fully transparent in future relationships now. That I too was someone with skeleton's in the closet.

Im almost 40 now. Can I still make it or is it over?

>>76712989
If it were over what would you change?
Would you cash out, buy a fast car and ride into the sunset? Is that what 'over' looks like?

This week has been sorta bad overall. Nothing of great importance happened, but lots of small shits went wrong and hardly anything went right on all fields: work, personal life and gym.
I feel like an useless idiot who can't get anything right even if objetively speaking most of what went wrong was beyond my control.
I guess it's the small pebblein your shoe rather than the mountain ahead what's wearing you down.
Anyway, there'll be another day and we'll be again at the trenches. Moving forward and keeping on until ot works out. Guess that's what life is about.

>>76711647
seen a rolfer?

>>76712989
It is never too late

>>76713006
if it were over, he would welcome not having to try and put some effort

>>76694340 (OP)
>go to Home Depot with dad, go to elf checkout
>item needs id approval girl running self checkout is busy doing that same exact thing with another customer
>dad starts calling for her, not even 2 seconds later starts snapping and goes to the register right next to her
>other employee comes he snaps “too late you took too long”
>first girl says something to the effect of “sir you need to calm down you’re acting like a 5 year old” to him he doesn’t notice though
>stand there humiliated
. . .
>car having issues
>dad helps me because I’m broke
>could 100% fix it myself just by buying the parts and tools required, dad doesn’t want to try that even though would save a few hundred bucks and give me something to do which I have interest in and would enjoy and even potentially open doors for better employment than I have now
>first place we go to is run by sketchy Indians, don’t trust them
>next place we go to hare totally normal non sketchy
>dad starts getting passive aggressive with them and rude like he preemptively thought they were going to try and take advantage, again humiliated
>totally shifts the vibe they were friendly and trustworthy now there’s a rude vibe and they would have incentive to fuck me over by way of over tightening a bolt or whatever


Seriously what the fuck. I’m terrified of ending up like this. I love my dad but he’s getting himself stressed about nothing. He just retired. He’s spent most of his life like this, it’s rubbed off onto me so I walk around stressed and anxious at all times, I have a short temper now too. But if there was any time he should just fucking slow down and relax and go with the flow it’s now that he’s retired. I now have an urgency to fix this about myself too. He’s literally creating stressful conflicts by not just being calm. I’m not as bad as him but I know if I don’t keep myself in check I’ll end up like this.

>>76713439
Another thing
>asks about discounts after talking to the car shop manager
>tells them I’m an EMT so I should get the 10% first responder discount
>I speak up and let them know I WAS an emt but my license expired
>they don’t believe and insinuate we’re lying so we need to bring my license to prove it
I’m a former EMT, and it’s ridiculous for him to try and lie because A.) I have a beard now there’s no way I’m working as an EMT. B.) could have been honest and told them I’m a former EMT and quit because I didn’t like seeing people die and that would have gotten the discount without the weird rude vibes. The manager wants me to bring my license to prove it, which says it expired years ago. My dad said he was going to try and photoshop a new expiration date on it. I’m not comfortable with that I don’t even like claiming to be a former EMT for fucks same, it just doesn’t feel right. I only worked for a couple years. I got into a little argument with him about it

>>76713442
>>76713439
Okay so he was right they did try to fuck us. I didn’t get any vibe of that whatsoever. They acted totally normal the priced made sense, idk how he knew. They “forgot” to include some of the labor prices so when the remembered to add it the price came out way more than what we agreed on. We got it fixed, got the first responders discount, and they discounted it more for lying so came out cheaper

>>76694340 (OP)

I met Up with the girl who broke up with her fiance for me,if anyone remembers i mentioned we met in online game.

So after 4 months of talking we spent few days together in foreign country,had a lot of sex which was ok i guess. She is very unexperienced,only had two guys before me. Also for someone who is 30 years ols she was to damn shy all the time,and only time she could really open up is when we spoke about games,anime,comics or shows..

Now she wants me to come to her country for a week and idk what to do. On other hand i set my life in motion of progress. Im advancing my IT career abd im in best shape of my life. She is cute abd pretty hot for someone who never did any sport activities but her legs were damn to soft..im not used to it i only fucked fit girls last 12 years.

But the biggest problem is she is under achiever who wants to change for better but currently it seems like she is only sayong things no effort in doing or changing bas habits. A lot of the time she stays up at night till 3-5 am .. she onlt wartch anime ans play games and helps at familys store..

Overall my gut is telling me run as far as you can haha,but ar the same time i feel bad for her.

>Hate dating apps because I dont feel anything when using them.
>Try speed dating, you sit and talk for 4 minutes and then go on to the next, talked to 16 girls.
>After the event you're suppoused to mark on paper which ones you think you clicked with, and hand it to the organizers to then get email the following day about your matches.
>Think "damn 4 minutes if short, there are quite a few I'd like to talk to longer to reach a conclusion"
>Take that thought that I should then mark them, ended up doing for 7 of the girls.
>Day after get email that I got no matches.
At least I got what I asked for and felt something. Fuck what a punch to the ego.

>>76713885
I don't understand modern dating, i get no matches on dating apps. Yet guys in work get dozens and are pounding a different girl every weekend. I don't get it.

>>76713975
Skill issue

>>76694768
I'm sorry anon.

>>76694340 (OP)
Got toasted last night. Trying to reset sleep schedule after a week of 13 hour night shifts cutting and throwing steel.
Women are a pain in the ass.
Probably going to go for a long bike ride tonight, aim for 24 miles minimum.
WAGMI, bros.

>>76713732
Apologize to your dad you ungrateful pussy fuck ass

I just came to the conclusion that I'm not ugly, just short (5'6). I'm bummed but at the same time relieved? I'm not sure how to explain it but I won't stop lifting.

>>76700613
>>76700619
>>76702694
>>76704254
I'm back. So she missed a work meeting Wednesday and randomly called me after work asking what she missed. We ended up having a good hour long conversation just about work and stuff. That's never happened before. At the end I grew some balls and asked her of she was free this weekend and she said she had a wedding to attend. I guess I'll try again when I see her in person and hope she's not busy every weekend forever

>>76694340 (OP)
Straight tequila please with a sprite zero on the side.
Something's happened. Its changed. I'm not interested in sex. I realize that while throughout the day I think about sexual things now and again that would be no good if I was supposed to be celibate, I don't actually want to have sex or masturbate. I just don't actually want it. I may think about him during the day, I go hehehe when I see pictures of him in by camera roll, but then when the kids are in bed and we have the night to ourselves... Nothing happens. He was upset last night asking if I'd at all planned on having sex, and... I don't know. I realize now that in thought yes, but in terms of getting there... No. I really don't like him just deadpan "so you wanna go to our room and fuck?" No I don't want duty sex I cantjust instance drip and be fully engaged I'm not an F1 I've gotta warm up. But too much foreplay that actually does have ne extremely into it means quick actual sex. Either way, I don't really know his to organically initiate anymore. I don't like initiating anymore.
We used to be ne the hypersexual and him the prude who didn't like trying much and wasn't passionate and often turned down my advances. He was fine fucking once every two or three weeks. I wanted it daily. I was aggressive in my pursuits. But I gave up after a while, I sought help for my hypersexuality, and we evened out at once a week generally. Now, I'm frankly tired its beaten out of me to make advances. I associate it with rejection. But now that hes worked in His psychological issues and got /fit/ he wants to fuck multiple times a week? Now you don't want duty sex you want passionate fucking? I'm happy just enjoying your company.
>well I sat next to you on the couch but you just scrolled your phone
THATS NOT INITIATIVE THAT DOESN'T TURN ME ON. And honestly, yes I do remember how furiously sexually frustrated I was, but Idk I just dont feel that passion. For the sake if our marriage I spent 3 years killing it.

>>76713795
>30 and childless
You have 5 years to impregnate her before its a geriatric pregnancy. Are you willing to do that? Is she just riding your success? Was this ex fiance her only partner or what? She sounds like a loser.

>>76715909
Is this truly the fate of all men? Get stuck with a foid that decides she just doesn't wanna fuck anymore?

>>76713439
>>76713442
You are a pussy fuck and your Dad is based.

>>76716079
That's when you rape her sister.

>>76715650
thanks for the update, anon. usaully if a girl really wants to go out with you she'd come up with a time that she'll be available. but I say you give it another shot before moving on, regardless how it will go down, I hope it all works out, and you'll find the right woman for you and you'll be the right guy for your right woman.

>>76713732
I get the annoyance at him causing scenes over nothing since my father does the same. Having an angry chronically pissed off at the world dad sucks. Hopefully you learned the takeaway from this is to not cause scenes preemptively like that because it IS insufferable, but to be ready to defend yourself from pricks trying to screw you over one. I also kind of understand not wanting to pull the first responder thing, it’s how I feel calling myself a veteran since I was a POG in the AF. But in that instance it was right to do so they tried to take advantage and your dad saw through it in advance.
>>76714870
>>76716230
You guys sound like little bitches who grew up with great childhoods and normal dads. Like it’s very clear you have absolutely no idea what he was actually whining about here

trying to decide for the winter clothes shopping.
I can't decide, need help and yes I'm autistic

>another terrible weekend with dumb shits like work and family
>can't even lift because I am sick
One of the few things that make me truly happy, and I have to take a week break.

>>76716818
this is what I'd chose, but it's based on my (also autistic) personal taste

almost at two weeks cutting out energy drinks (I was drinking two to three monsters a day, down to one diet dr. pepper a day), two months of consistent training and calorie counting, and trying to cut myself off from taking zzzquil. I was taking a double dose every night after years of insomnia and going cold turkey is fucking me up big time on that one. My sleep is absolutely wrecked but I'm still feeling better than I have in years.

>>76717097
Good on you. You're doing good work.

>come into contact with zero women in my daily life
>only interactions I have feel completely inorganic and contrived
>honestly quite discouraged
>hit new ohp and squat pr
all and all not a bad weekend

walked 6500 steps today,
4 eggs breakfast
Veggie balls and 200g broccoli for lunch,
one shake with oats one banana some protein.
Not eating enough and no heavy lifting for some days now....
need someone to kick me in the ass. anyone? I weigh 61kg at 1,79 m.....

>>76717023
>>76716818
thanks bro, bought another one now, hope its good

walked 6500 steps today,
4 eggs breakfast
Veggie balls and 200g broccoli for lunch,
one shake with oats one banana some protein.
Not eating enough and no heavy lifting for some days now....
need someone to kick me in the ass. anyone? I weigh 61kg at 1,79 m.....pic is me not long ago

>coworker says im in good shape after seeing me without t-shirt (actually lanky dyel newb)
>can't approach her cuz she deadlifts more than me

IM SO FUCKING LONELY

>>76718219
you need to get laid

One fucking roidhead at my gym keeps looking at me with the intent of kill. I stare back and he doesn't break eye contact, what's his problem? I haven't interacted with him once.

>>76718230
Stop staring at strangers you weirdo.

>>76718235
I'm not the one staring but when I'm mid break I look around and I see that guy looking at me deep in the eyes for no reason. Usually when I make eye contact with someone we both break it after 2 seconds like normal people. I literally don't interact with anyone besides greeting each other.

>>76718237
Seek help

>>76715286
mind if i steal this pic it goes hard

>>76718247
why? unless there will be some sort of confrontation I'm not making a clown out of myself

>>76718253
Nevermind, you're beyond saving. Get yourself some Candian healthcare.

>>76718258
good ragebait

you
>>76718230
need
>>76718237
to
>>76718253
get
>>76718260
laid

>went to the gym today instead of Monday since dentist
>got cloud certified by Oracle
>went for drinks with the ex who brought a friend and bailed 30 minutes after
>realized I can't talk to new people I haven't met in my 20s
Fuck

>>76718230
If he's a roidhead, he's probably not seeing you, he's working out hard enough to see nothing but blackness, his eyes just reflexively focus on whatever is in front of him.

>>76718331
not really, he's training other people and turning his way to me

>>76718343
Well then you're getting laid the second you and him meet in the showers. Congrats. I haven't had sex in a month.

>>76718346
that's funny as shit but I'm really just trying to understand what made me his nemesis

>>76718351
There's this old roider boomer at my gym that gives me constant deathstares whenever I set foot on the weights area. Even overheard him shit-talking me with his boomer friends more than once. I don't know why I trigger him so much.

>>76718463
something to do with marking your own terrain or some shit. I really can't fathom what's going on in their mentally ill skulls

>>76718230
Probably gay and cruising

>>76694340 (OP)
Did my deadlifts right before I went to bed last night. Had dream where somebody in a group of people asked me how I got so huge and I was like "heavy ass deadlifts, bro" and walked away laughing. Then I looked in the mirror and I had giant purple bruising all over my shoulders and pecs and I said out loud to myself, "that's just what it takes, bro" except I wasn't some muscle giant like everyone was treating me like, it was just my regular body.
I think /fit/ memes are poisoning my mind.

I'm never able to feel my back during rows. I always think that I've got bad form. It's so tiresome.
I think I'm just going to become a pull-ups fag to get over it.

>>76694340 (OP)
Pretty decent, honestly. Ate some pie and ice cream, can't complain.

>>76694340 (OP)
some foid in my apartment complex closed the elevator door on me yesterday. wasn't even one of those "they're just too far away and holding the door would be awkward" moments, we were both waiting for the door... like what the fuck

>>76694340 (OP)
>Friday
Work, have a minir argument bc tired and she pissed me off
>Saturday
Woke up early and set up a Valheim dedicated server, took a while since you have to add three random packages including sound ones for some reason in a headless environment.
Play a bit with my autistic buddy in the evening, funniest man alive. Make up w missus.
>Sunday
Broke til I get paid, so we have a little coffee and brekkie date at Paneras and just chat for two hours. Its her birthday soon so im gonna buy her a macbook. I got promoted and can afford it easily.

Nobody had time to play Valheim today but maybe another day. Feels a bit weird to get ghosted by people with zero social life. I got a guy at work into the game and invited him to my secret dicksores but he never showed up and just plays some fps thing. Everybody at work is like this except one person that I cant talk to anymore bc she caughts feels for me and im married.

>>76694681
brother I had a powerful craving on friday but literally sat with it and did nothing for an hour until my brain fully processed why I was reaching for alcohol. It was just basic anxiety/loneliness, which isnt made any better by being drunk or hungover. It just makes me look like shit as well as feel like shit.

>>76694973
>my frame is so tiny

>>76716079
not if you control her diet and social media usage. Dont let her take the pill either it fucks them up, something to do with oxytocin. Been married 21 years and still ride every other day. The secret to a happy marriage nobody talks about is a big dicked man with a big titted woman. Its that simple since we are apes.Ask around and it will become apparent to you. If one or the other isnt big enough, the marriage dies.

>depressed
>want to lift heavy and often
>feel a bit better
>don't want to lift at all, just want to eat junk food and watch comedies

>>76694340 (OP)
I went back to my alma mater this weekend for homecoming. It was pretty fun.

Friday I got super stoned before hitting the bars and banged this kind of cute, but fat chick that was all over me all night.

Saturday I went to the football game, but left after five minutes because I knew we were going to get BTFO and spent the rest of the time playing gachapon games. I then hit the bars again and hooked up with this cute skinny blonde chick.

Sunday I bought some blind boxes and played more gachapon before coming back home.

The good news is that women are starting to notice me a lot more after losing 60 pounds. Not only am I getting more confident, but I'm even getting better at making eye contact and noticing IOIs. The bad news is that I ate way too much food this weekend and will need to fast hard in order to get back on track.

Tempting

>>76694660
>The girl who friendzoned my a while back is still giving me mad attention again after a week
Now she straight up says she wants to fuck but just needs to trust me a little more

>>76695489
Probably something like rural Uzbekistan

I signed for volunteering work to talk with poor people ask about their needs, write it down etc
I supposedly passed the "interview", then I drove 40 km and had to spend night at hostel to be at training for that role.
Then some local girl called me to ask if I am free. Obviously she asked some "autist-filter" questions like "did you thought about applying to volunteering together with your friends?" Or "perhaps you had chance to interact with people with cancers?"
Apparently after just 5minutes phone talk she decided I am too much of an sperg incel to help because I got no people assigned to me for which I can help...
Some normie girl 10 years my junior is "morality guard" who can detect psycho muh sperg sociopath in me and reject me from helping people because of my recently acquired wizard status... Normies will gatekeep everything from me, all I wanted to help people to feel better about myself and to feel like part of community - no, NOT POSSIBLE.
Feeling so blackpilled right now ...

>>76719920
Lmao bruh....

>>76694340 (OP)
I have no goals or ambitions, I spend my time waiting for the time to pass. I really am just waiting to die.

>>76718477
Approach him while looking him square in the eye and start peeing on his leg.

>>76719644
Nothing said before the word but matters. Ask her for nudes.

>>76720011
She also said she likes being dominated and needs to really trust me to "let go". I'll try for nudes though

>>76720057
Post them here later

>>76713795
>But the biggest problem is she is under achiever who wants to change for better but currently it seems like she is only sayong things no effort in doing or changing bas habits. A lot of the time she stays up at night till 3-5 am .. she onlt wartch anime ans play games and helps at familys store
Well she is a WOMAN so she is allowed to do that ... Think how forgiving she would be if this was you with those bad habit and not at "best shape of your life". She is cheating hypergamic, disgusting whore and will dump you as well first thing someone "in better shape" shows up

>>76720075
Found a brownoid incel

the psychiatrist described me as a non-functioning adult

>>76720088
So what do you do to fix that?

>>76720088
You'll fit right in here.

Terrible workout today. It's coming to a point that after finishing my main lifts I barely have any energy left for the accesories. I had to end my workouts early twice or thrice in two weeks.
I haven't been sleeping properly and that might had played a role on this, but I rarely sleep well anyway.
I think I need a change of program, fullbody 3xweek is becoming too gruelling. Maybe upper/lower/upper to focus on torso gains, or maybe upper/lower/upper and lower/upper/lower alternating weeks. I had some success in the past with the last split and recovery was OK.
My idea was to focus on strength for the remainder of the year, then do hypettrophy/recomp jan-march and then cut until june or july.
Or I can just start hypertrophy recomp next week for the remainder of the year and then sloely cut until summer.
I don't know what to do, really.

>>76694660
based Zoids chad. gonna watch the anime after I finish DBZ

>>76719627
Really not a good idea. You're literally killing your kidneys. Water has zero calories and your body needs it to survive. The weight you're losing is water, not fat. It's what MMA fighters do before a fight to lose 10 lbs in a day. Do not recommend

>>76720125
Chaotic Century/Guardian Force or New Century?

>>76720229
idk I haven't watched it since it came out on cheez tv when I was a kid. But I remember there was a little white t Rex organoid thing. I want to watch all of them regardless

>>76720291
Nice. Yeah thats Chaotic Century, start with that first

>30
Living on my own finally but only because family inherited my apartment and lets me rent it for cheap. I make min wage in a job that’s going nowhere.
>out of shape
My health / physique was the most important thing to me at one point. I can explain and make all the excuses I want but at the end of the day I let myself go and it’s my own responsibility. Life is seriously a total contrast between being fit and fat down to the smallest details.
>no friends
Closest friend I had was a shitbag who I foolishly kept giving chances just to get backstabbed and fucked over again and again. Burned the bridge so that little fucker will never try to reach out to me again. Brought him into a new group of friends he’s been turning them against me and is already running up a scheme to finesse money out of them.
>no attention span
I feel like I cant just chill out ever. Always swarming thoughts and this nervous restless energy, can’t focus, can only focus best if physically doing a task. Can’t even read a page of a book these days I used to read cover to cover. This is affecting my ability to stay consistent with fitness too.
>no bitches
I can at least say I’ve never lowered my standards for the sake of not being alone like most normies do for fat hoes. Closest I have is a semi crazy chick I used to fuck/date and a fat literal BPD chick I find repulsive who keeps trying to reach out despite me ignoring her.
>job
Found out I can do car shit and it’s fucking fun. Contemplating going navy as a seabee CM and after the contract being a diesel mechanic. Only issue is getting back in shape and then the fact I’m old plus the fact as a Seabee I would most likely get shore duty in California (fuck cali, I wanna be sent to another country).
This would fix a few of my problems.
>vices
Have all but quit nicotine via pouches. Can go without any for entire days now. Caffeine is still around 400mg. I suspect when I’ve quit caffeine my attention span will normalize

>>76720538
>inherited my apartment and lets me rent it for cheap
Nice, look at that shit as a blessing and take advantage of it. Try a different job without worrying about being evicted if you get fired and have no income. Bring bitches over. Do whatever you want

>>76720538
Kinda based

>>76708199
Don't repeat that mistake. Live with them rent free until you decide to start a family. Once you move out, cut them out completely and never invite them to your wedding or show them your children, unless they write their entire wealth on you in their will.
>>76712989
Consider yourself lucky for being born a male. Now don't stop until you are chiseled. Consider TRT if you have low test. At 40s you can stil date 30-35 year olds and hopefully father some children.

i know the song became popular (or was made?) for that shitty netflix show, but Lord Huron's The Night We Met is the most gut wrenching song for anyone going through a breakup with someone they've truly, truly loved.
i wish she capable of any sort of self-reflection or accountability. we were so good together. we were so good and she gave us up.

>>76708199
Always assume you'll inherit nothing. It would be nice to think your parents understand the power of generational wealth, but more likely they're going to blow everything on themselves and stupid shit - as is their right! It's not your money, it's theirs. They can choose to use it to help you or not, as they see fit.

Anything they leave you should only be a bonus to your own accomplishments.

>t. grew up trailer trash, watched my father build a business worth millions after I moved out, he's trying to sell out to retire and enjoy the money, and I expect to see exactly zero of that upon the death of both parents, and I expect my broke-ass bottom-feeder siblings to fight tooth and nail over that nothing. No, I'm not salty, why would you say that, you're salty, not me.

>feel depressed for no obvious reasons
>shrink tells me to look for environmental micro-aggressions as triggers
>all I can see is the gf's bullshit
I don't think dumping her would cure me. I was already like that before her.

>>76721100
>environmental micro-aggressions
Lmao

>>76721105
I'm >>76721058. There are things m'y consciousness doesn't register. What would you advise?

>>76721170
Damn

got randomly ghosted by gf today (we're both pretty religious so i feel like its weird to not even get a goodbye)

>>76694340 (OP)
>decided to freeball while getting back into doing swings Sunday before last
>DOMS out the ass for two days
>on day three, as the soreness fades, I realize my balls fucking hurt for some reason
>balls still hurting today
Either I speedbagged my nuts really fucking hard without realizing it or I have ball cancer. Pretty stressed about it desu.

>>76722090
One time I was worried I randomly hurt my balls or had ball cancer, than I coomed in my sleep one night and it went away

>>76694340 (OP)
I've been binge eating every single day for the past week

>>76722138
Unfortunately I'm a coomer so it can't be that for me. Although I'm probably not helping myself with that habit atm

>>76694457
>>76694475
>>76694597
>>76695117
I know it sounds autistic, but find a Doungeons & Dragons party to play with. You don't have to "role play" or do anything retarded, altough some people like to and that's ok.
In the end you can play almost like a normal table game, and you will find that other players usually have interesting lifes and large group of friends you will become part of.
There are a lot of rules and it can feel overwhelming at first, but if you play some Baldurs Gate you will learn them easily.
Don't be a faggot asking how I know.
Godspeed anons