>>212860938(second part of my novel)
It was scary and stressful and my dad didn't speak to me for months, I couldn't stay there anymore so to not be homeless I had to find a housed job in a restaurant in a completely unfamiliar place in another region, when I never ever was on my own before
I ate shit for a while in chef man purgatory but then I got my own place and the lil tf2 buddy I met in austria even came back to visit again and now more than 3 years later we're living together happily ever after
Hell even with my dad yesterday when we were hiking he was telling me not to wait too long if I'm gonna adopt little chinese niggas for his grandkids bc he's getting old
I'm genuinely so happy nowadays
There are things that are beyond our control but loneliness isn't one of them
Being different from normies doesn't doom you to a life of loneliness but you gotta fight harder than normies go through life obviously
My point is just that if I could talk to 2020 baby breizhcel I'd just tell to him to man up and follow his heart and wildest daydreams
You might eat shit for a while and it'll be scary you'll be out your comfort zone but you won't get anything if you don't do anything, and in the end the struggles are not for nothing
You always have your own strength and willpower to rely on and it goes far as you want it to go
The greatest adventure is there if you're bold...
And I feel the same thing applies to you too
You just gotta do something, don't let pessimism and doubt waste your youth away I beg of you
Anything is possible when you set your heart to it
And at least you're not full gay so you're not stuck dating 0.1% of the world population so you might not end up crossing 3000kms to find someone you love
I just hope you take the time to read this and realize you're not alone feeling so disconnected from everything and stuck in your own head and find a bit of comfort in that
I hope it helps a bit idk
I wish you the best my little soldier