>>213581245
>very intense emotions
>very intense no-emotions
>very brutal
Obviously I can't diagnose you anything since I'd have to see how you react in your day to day life to most stimuli, but depending on the severity of your symptoms, then there's the "illness" so to speak.
Kinda sounds like what people with bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, and just people with a lot of stress on their shoulders go through. For something to be a personality disorder you gotta suffer it mostly in socialization.
Do you attach to people too quickly? Do you throw them away just as quick? Do you go from love to hate quickly? How does your mood swing? What is your perception of yourself?
If that's relatively stable throughout time but you still feel like shit it might be something organic like bipolar depression or unipolar depression, aka major depression. Sometimes it can be neurological too, like ADHD. If the outside factors ain't stressing you and you live a relatively comfy life but feel like crap, then...
Tl;dr: Keep track of your emotions and how you interact with people, specially your close ones, and that can give you a clue about what you could have or NOT have.
There's no cure for being french though. That one's permanent.
>>213581313
SHIT do you have her twitter or any page where I could follow her?! I remember finding that pic in beddit but I don't know if her tag changed.