Thread 82304315

I'll listen to your troubles! Even if I'm not of much use, I can at least listen and I'll try to give you a response. Please be patient, I've little energy so I'm kind of slow.

>>82304315 (OP)
I've been dissociated for days now and I think I have ptsd but the people involved are adamant that the events never happened. It was all so long ago that I have no idea what the believe and what happened is completely mundane and not even worth denying.

I try to tell my problems to my e-gf and all she ever does is say im imagining it

>>82304315 (OP)
make me a sandwich and suck my dick

>>82304315 (OP)
What inspired you to post this today anon

>>82304315 (OP)
I hate college school

>>82304315 (OP)
I feel agitated and i don't know why. I can't tell if i feel lonely. I don't think that's it. I'm feeling some kind of nihilism and i think i want either reassurance or some epiphany and i think i want to talk to someone, but to be honest i don't think it's possible for them to say what I think i'm looking to hear.

>>82304315 (OP)
A lot of things just suck right now. I graduated and haven't found a job related to my degree, which sucks. I'm stuck working retail.

It's my fault for fucking around too much in uni, but I didn't know it was going to be this BAD post grad. The market is absolutely horrible. I should have went try hard attempting to get an internship holy fuck. Add to shit job, I have no friends or gf, living in bumfuck place with my parents. I was so sad that I stopped looking for a job for about year and told my parents I was doing some funemployment shit/finding myself. Now, I'm angry (good) about my situation and have started finally living again and fixing myself,mass applying to jobs across the country. A few interviews, but again, no success. Holy shit man, I don't want to do a masters. Maybe military once I cross 2 years underemployed shit.

>>82304333
What do you believe had happened? What does it feel like to 'dissociate'? I've only a vague idea of what this means.
>>82304339
What are your problems Anon? I'm sorry she doesn't seem to take it very seriously! That's honestly very rude of her!
>>82304350
It just makes me feel better when I feel unwell, and makes me feel useful. I'm not looking to vent though since that seems kind of selfish of me! How are you though Anon? Are you feeling alright?
>>82304351
Hug!! Why do you hate it?
>>82304356
Squeeze! Sorry to hear that! Are you getting enough sleep at all? It does make you more agitated and have less patient when you're constantly getting bad sleep! It's something you don't notice being the cause of it - but it really does effect you a lot! What is it that you're looking to hear from people? I hope I can help in some way!

>>82304391
>It just makes me feel better when I feel unwell, and makes me feel useful. I'm not looking to vent though since that seems kind of selfish of me! How are you though Anon? Are you feeling alright?
Very interesting. Building a mental profile of what kind of person you are is an interesting exercise.

Anyways, I'm not doing all right but I don't really feel like talking about it with a stranger

>>82304391
It's not fun :(

>>82304391
>What do you believe had happened?
Typical boring abuse
>What does it feel like to 'dissociate'?
Like watching a movie. My body moves but it doesn't feel like I'm doing it. My hands don't look like my own and the sensations I feel seem like they're received slower than they should be. If you've ever had a bad fever it might be similar to that. If I bite myself hard enough I come back for a while.

>>82304412
are you kiritofag!58MG/plV/2?

>>82304315 (OP)
My dad won't let me drive his truck even though I'm 22. He's mad because I missed the first day of college because I wrote the wrong day down in my schedule. but the teacher didn't but the date in the syllabus. I cannot see my friends because of this nigger.

>>82304401
>but I don't really feel like talking about it with a stranger
Worried now... especially when I can't help in any way. I really hope you feel better soon!
>Building a mental profile of what kind of person you are is an interesting exercise.
Curious as to why you would want to do that? I'm not a very interesting person.
>>82304412
College sounds very stressful honestly! I hope you can get through it!
>>82304422
That actually sounds very scary!! I am inclined to believe it happened if you're experiencing such scary symptoms like this!

>>82304333
>>82304422
Why do they not believe your side of the story? What do they say?

>>82304470
>Curious as to why you would want to do that? I'm not a very interesting person.
My mental model of the world doesn't have a default slot for "person who just enjoys listening to rants". Basically I can't stereotype you because I've never really seen behavior like this. Are you a sweet disney-princess like girl who just loves helping others? An empathetic guy who reaches out to strangers because he knows it's what he needed in the past? Just someone who likes studying psychology? Unlike most people I interact with on this site, you're a mystery
>Worried now... especially when I can't help in any way. I really hope you feel better soon!
Doubtful but we'll see

>>82304451
I can't prove it

>>82304478
They deny having done it to me and then deflected saying that I made them angry a lot because I was a destructive and combative child which admittedly I was. I remember the events clearly I think it must have happened but refusing to acknowledge it is just so strange to me. They've acknowledged worse and they haven't been abusive in a long time.
>>82304470
>That actually sounds very scary
It's nice if anything because all the anxiety melts away and I just feel like I'm floating

>>82304315 (OP)
I'm in my midlife crisis stage and I want to date 20 year old girls now even though I'm old enough to be their father. They say I'm too old but that's only if I tell them my age. I'm going to start saying I'm much younger.

>>82304315 (OP)
>I've little energy so I'm kind of slow.
Me too. That's my vent actually.
Why do you think this is the case for you?

>>82304315 (OP)
I have a small dick. I'm afraid I'll never have a woman, let alone keep one.

my life sucks because i was lazy and its literally my fault, now i dont have much of a personality cuz i didnt really do anything

>>82304529
Honestly what's the point of having a woman if you don't fulfill the 676 rule?

jannies keep banning me and I keep coming back. My problem will always be jannies fuck em

>>82304470
>Curious as to why you would want to do that? I'm not a very interesting person.
NTA but I do it as a matter of course as well.
Firstly I was always interested in psychology and then I followed it up by getting a degree in it. Then I learned just enough to realize I despise most people and thus the degree became almost useless lol.

>>82304422
Do you get the thing where it feels like "you" are looking at yourself from a little to the side?
Weird stuff man.
Anyway, sometimes people really do misremember stuff. It's happened to me before. But unlike you I know I have a bad memory so I just shrug it off.
It won't help past recurrences but I recommend keeping a diary. It can be therapeutic to just write stuff down. For that purpose physical > digital due to the way the brain works. Writing engages the brain in a way that typing does not due to hand movements.

>>82304529
I had a girl complain I was too big before.
Feelsbadman.
Anyway if you don't care about race just date an asian if you're small.

>>82304315 (OP)
I want a hug from a cute anime girl

>>82304315 (OP)
my dog died and i dont think ill ever have a friend ever again

>>82304391
>Squeeze!
Thank you for the hug. I feel detached and alienated in general.
>Are you getting enough sleep at all?
Yes, i will sleep after this reply.
> What is it that you're looking to hear from people?
I suppose acknowledgement, encouragement and useful actionable advice particularly to improve my career. I'm floundering in a labor job despite a renowned cs education. I think i'm also feeling both hungry for intimacy and cut off from it due to outside pressures making all my feelings towards the opposite sex feel inherently predatory and unwanted despite my tame boring behavior. I feel both vilified for having feelings and any self interest at all, and belittled for not partaking in socialite behavior that i feel i avoided for i thought a moral reason, and now feel alienated from overall. In a sense i feel a betrayal, unfairly castigated, ill advised and then belittled and undervalued for listening. Because of this, i feel a nihilism, a sense that all morality is an unsolvable wad of deceptive contradictions. The only way for those contradictions to make sense is for the ones that invented them to be demeaned and defenestrated as moral arbiters. Unless I can see a serious acknowledgement and a punishment rendered, i am stuck in an anxious limbo where nothing could ever justifiably make sense. I think this is at the heart of what disturbes me about women and feminism. That it is this wad of contradictions to the point where nothing could ever make sense, and it renders its dogmatic adherents to these intimidating fleshpuppets that you can't speak to or reason with or understand. You can only pretend around them while the world dies and life loses meaning, and only find respite away from them.
>I hope I can help in some way!
I appreciate your intent, even if you may not know how to help me. I am off to rest. If you respond to this while I am asleep I shall still be able to read it, even if it is well after the thread has died.

I'm sick of working
I wish I was at home drawing
or learning 3D stuff
or learning animation
There's so much stuff I want to do but I have so little time and energy after work to actually do it

I'm just a bit sick of having to min-max my time just to have time to practice my interests...

i feel like because im stupid and slow on the uptake and not good at dealing with other people im easy to fuck over and so im constantly used and discarded for the next best thing that pops up. i could accept it if i werent always being kept around as a backup or lesser option afterward too

>>82304557
>Do you get the thing where it feels like "you" are looking at yourself from a little to the side?
Sort of, I get the feeling of being in a different spot of my head like my consciousness has moved closer to the outside of my skull and my field of view has shrunk somehow.
>sometimes people really do misremember stuff
I could be but these are such specific memories and I've spoken of them to other people throughout the years. Unless you mean they forgot, they might have. I think none of these things would have stood out to them and it all just stuck with me for no reason.
>I recommend keeping a diary
I used to keep a coded diary but I got paranoid that someone would read it and understand it. It does seem therapeutic though.

>>82304315 (OP)
hmmm...
I've been staying up late at night again when I should be sleeping. I spend most of the time visiting all the scenic views where I live, and I imagine what it would be like to have a lover by my side while I lurk. I'm still discontent with who I am, and I still feel frustration. I seem to feel it more than most. There's this role I want to fulfill, a role of being a man among men. I keep it as a goal, and most days I feel so far away from it that I feel foolish to keep it. However, in this goal, I see my salvation. I don't know what it will look like, but it will be there, at the peak of the mountain. Despite having a path, I still lament about the haves and have nots. I see others having what they seek without seeming to have worked as hard as I endeavor to. It's discouraging at times. It makes me question my goals. I don't know who I am. I don't exactly know what I want to be. I don't know if I'm right or wrong. All of these garbled, entangled, and desperate thoughts, all because of tfw no gf. I wish I could surgically remove that caustic sadness. Thanks for reading.

>>82304583
>>82304391
Rational thought and postmodern ethics has failed me. My institutions have failed me, my communities have failed me, my instructurs and media have failed me, my peers God bless them, have been failed equally as I have, some even worse and I weep for them. And I feel women have failed me, not just the beautiful and attractive ones, but all of them, and even moreso the women who were my elders, they have even more blame deserved upon them. A random woman owes me little, politeness and adherence to a set of agreed upon moral principles in which she swears not to be a hypocrite. Perhaps also friendly mundane conversation if we are acquaintances and a general distant goodwill. But women who wish to instruct younger men owe much more goodwill to them than they have recieved. Mothers teachers nurses therapists etc. they are depraved and deserving of the most deep and harshest of hell. They are the traitorous whores of babylon who sold their children to slavery and their sons especially. Not a single good thing good thing could be said about the elder generation of women now. The arrogant cunts. Young women today are a mess and awful and no doubt intend to supersede their mothers in their arrogant narcissism but I can't help but feel the elder feminists of my society deserve more hate and punishment than they will ever get in life. Do you believe in hell? I certainly hope it exists. Not just because I hate and resent people, but because I don't think i can justify any morality at all if all my morality does is validate their hubris. I I need to believe that taking advantage is duly punished or my mind can only be compelled to think of punishment and judgement. Nothing can make sense without it. Without an adjuducator to delegate it to, I am only a tool and accessory to evil with my kindness.

hungry but no food

>>82304628
>Unless you mean they forgot, they might have.
I didn't mean that, but SOMEHOW I entirely forgot that that's a legitimate possibility too lol.
Idk about you, but if I think about my past week, I barely remember anything. Let alone stuff from further back.

>>82304625
Every group has a dumbest member of the group. All this means is you just need to find a good person (romantic) or group (friends), which, really, is what a smart person needs to do as well. So I wouldn't worry about it anymore than the average person worries about such things.
Smart people, in theory, can have it 'worse' in that they think they're smart so they're on top of the game and then get completely blindsided by their own hubris.

>>82304576
The next dog will love you just as much as the previous one, if you're so inclined. I myself stay away from pets because I know I wouldn't want to suffer their loss though.

>>82304496
I just want to be useful to people, I'm not really sure how beyond just being an emotional punching bag for people. I want to feel needed so I can talk to people without feeling like I'm wasting their time mainly.
>>82304518
Sounds like you had a very rough life honestly! Want to hug you! Maybe they're gaslighting you perhaps, considering their abusive nature it seems possible!
>>82304526
I'm terrified of being your age honestly
>>82304527
Squeeze! I'm sorry to hear that. I've always been like that. Everything feels heavy. It's just something I've always struggled with. I'm not really sure why. Perhaps it's my diet, I don't eat much since it's such a chore which perhaps contributes to it. How about yourself?

I'm so sorry I'm taking so long to respond! I'm sorry!!

>>82304750
>I just want to be useful to people, I'm not really sure how beyond just being an emotional punching bag for people. I want to feel needed so I can talk to people without feeling like I'm wasting their time mainly.
Interesting. I'm curious but I'll refrain from asking any personal questions beyond this one; what region of the world are you from? SEA, anglosphere...?
Also, do you talk like this IRL/on social media or just here?

I looked at a photo of me then. I was happy. I was pretty. I was hopeful.

I look in the mirror now. I am sad. I am stressed. I am anxious. I am upset. I am mentally distressed. I am tired. I am physically unhealthy. I look ugly. I look fat.

What happened that turned me into what I am now. The people that are physically around me, the place I am and choices I have made home make me look like this, I'll have made me visually worse. When I look at myself I feel that.

How do I escape when I'm constantly surrounded. Being in a room with you is radiation sickness I understand why I've become this way.

>>82304720
>I barely remember anything.
I'm the same way. Most of my life is a blank.
>>82304750
>Maybe they're gaslighting you
I think they just forgot it happened I don't know. I'm hoping this just recedes and I can go back to normal again soon.

It's very kind of you to make a thread here to help others. Do you have a discord?

>>82304780
posts yours instead creepy stalker

i really like this girl ive been talking to on occasions for the past 4 months. she is a cute asian girl that never had a boyfriend before, she is very sweet, diligent and hardworking when it comes to school and work, and i find that about her to be very attractive. we have only been on 3 dates so far, but we had a great time and i could tell she is kinda into me. recently she started uni so she is really busy rn with school and work, thats why she cant find the time to go on dates in the meantime. im a neet so im not doing much with my life and she was the practically the only thing in my life that gives me happiness. i know it's very egoistical and psychotic of me, but i just wish she would put less importance into her education and work, just so she can have more free time for my sake, and do stuff together. istg ill do anything, ill even get a job and do my best to support her financially just so she can stop working and studying so goddam much!!!!!!

she is virgin too (assuming she didnt get raped when she was younger) so im desperate to make love to her, take her virginity and make her the happiest girl in the world

>>82304834
You'll have to go to college yourself too nigga

>>82304854
im a college dropout

>>82304860
Drop back in

>>82304879
i dont have money to pay tuition, and financial aid stopped giving me money years ago. id rather kill myself than ask for more money from my parents. and ive lost interest in my major a long time ago anyways.

>>82304536
Are you sure it was genuine laziness? How was your homelife? Not having a personality does suck! I have little to talk because of it. Why does your life suck?
>>82304557
Why did it make you despise most people? I'm sorry to hear that!
>>82304573
Wish I could give you a hug
>>82304576
I'm so sorry to hear that! That must be horrible! What were they like? Losing a pet is pretty awful I imagine!
>>82304583
That all sounds extremely rough to be dealing with such feelings! I unfortunately know next to nothing about women I'm afraid so I can't say anything about that, but it does seem as though you're very lonely. I hope you can at least find a close friend of some kind! I wish I knew what to say!
>>82304624
That's cute you have interests like that! It does kind of suck though to have little energy for your hobbies!
>>82304625
I am too Anon, it sucks!
>im easy to fuck over and so im constantly used and discarded for the next best thing that pops up. i could accept it if i werent always being kept around as a backup or lesser option afterward too
How do they fuck you over? What do they do to you? I'm sorry that is happening to you!

>>82304834
at the same time i hate myself for thinking this way. i should be happy for her and supporting her in her endeavors and goals instead, but im more concerned with my own selfishness and needs.

>>82304795
Lol someone's crabby. Mine is : ravencordance

>>82304834
Women don't feel similarly when it comes to long term investment in a partner, they are more fleeting and prone to just say screw it and go with someone else.

It's not worth crippling your own life just to make time for a woman that can easily leave you and invalidate your sacrifice, if she cares she will stay anyway.

>>82304315 (OP)
I'm a fucking piece of shit, I'll be filth forever and let me tell you OP, you're very kind but there's some beautiful kind of reassurance and tranquility in hopelessness and indulging into all that most around you deem deeply wrong

Lol bro I was just teasing you. Add me again If you are chill and want to have some fun.

>>82304315 (OP)
nothing feels like it matters anymore, sorrow and grief are the only things i feel 95% of the time, and i think im getting really close to the point where im going to kill myself soon unless i manage to survive until someone gives me meds or puts me in a ward

>>82304315 (OP)
i enjoy the idea of sex with children but lots of people pretend they don't

I'm sorry I couldn't get to most of you - I've little energy at all. I'm sorry for being so useless!!

>>82304563
What's so bad about a girl feeling like your cock is too big for her? You can work on it until she fits you. I, on the other hand, physically have no option but to be sexless forever.

>>82305278
Is this a bit or are you genuinely this insecure

>>82305278
cute people are allowed to be useless

>>82305278
fuck you cunt you're only here for the attention

Last time I felt like someone knew me for me and accepted me for me, I was happy.

Feel like I'm almost out of here, drop all the weight, and lies he trapped me here to live with at the door and go home.

It will be better once I'm home

>>82305422
no, i need the real talk

I'm in a holding pattern, waiting for better things. Really I'm feeling pretty good compared to how I normally feel but I still have plenty of doubts and anxieties and such.

Passed my PAT and written exam for the police, which is neat but it just puts my foot in the door. I need to impress the Merit Commission to actually get in, and that's gonna be a couple months down the line.

My leg is finally healing, hence me being able to pass the PAT but I am in a constant state of low grade pain and it takes me longer to recover from runs and especially sprints. I'm concerned about trying to start up martial arts again but I know I need to otherwise I'm giving up on one of my favorite hobbies. I need to lose some weight too.

And unfortunately I am not immune to loneliness, though I wish I were. I feel like in most areas I'm not a bad "catch." I have an okay job. I have a car and a house. I'm physically healthy aside from the leg issues. I'm not super ugly and I'm tall-ish. But being a divorced dad just means that romance is dead in the water. No girl is interested in me, and the ones that are tend to be trailer park whores or something like that. I guess it's what I deserve.

I don't have any friends, online or irl. I'm ostracized from every internet community because people are offended by my cold calculated demeaner. I jerk off everyday to the point of sobbing into my anime body pillow. My mom keeps trying to get me out of the house but if I'm away from my pillow for over 5 hours I literally get twitchy. I don't really care if things change, change just creates anxiety. I don't want to die either. Not bc I'm scared I just don't really care it's low-key funny how fucked my life is kinda like God playing Sims and just doing whatever the fuck to make my life his divine comedy. Sometime I just stare into the mirror and laugh for minutes on end. I at least have my imaginary girl friend Yoshiko and my harem of over 40 women. I have about 11 imaginary children. They all have their own identities and personalities, I think about them every day and they're the only reason I can fall asleep without staying up for hours thinking about stuff that makes me anxious

[Spoiler] help /spoiler

>>82306257
I think you may have didded it wrong anon. But here is something to help you

I keep saying weird shit for attention and i do get attention. I get told to go to a mental ward.

>>82304315 (OP)
My two closest friends I known for half our lives forgot my birthday. Wasn't expecting gifts or anything, just a call or text. Didn't even get that. Also earlier this summer one of my best friends decided it was a good idea to introduce us to the "new" sus ass drunkard neighbor who I managed to ignore and not interact with for a year. Like fuck I didn't need to know this ghetto ass drunk Ahole's half fake back story to know he's suspicious. Now I got this fucker drunkenly thinking I'm his friend, trying to sit his ass on the bushes and flowers on my yard(I just him not to and he complied), and he's finger banging my friend's car(which is all honesty is funny seeing some ghetto ass mofo in Naruto tattoos doing it). So now the drunk thinks we're all friends. Best friends(the fucks that forgot my birthday) are like "YO THIS DUDE IS SUS AS FUCK MAN, WE GOT TO CHECK HIS RECORDS" to me and one of their's gf. Like I never invited this prick into our lives. I was minding my own business. So yeah this was my early birthday gift from them. A drunkard. In reality the drunkard doesn't bother me much and is peaceful, tries to say hi to me and/or fist bump me when we pass by each other in town. My other other friend also forgot my birthday but at least he called to just hang out and see how I was doing that day.
Plus things didn't work out with the chick my best friend's gf set me up with. You know, whatever I guess. I miss army bro and the one girl who I used to be friends with before she went schizo(was a most likely cutter so it was inevitable but she used to me so nice to be).

>>82306444
>EYE fanart
Fuckin sick. Patrician taste.

Sorry to hear about your problems man, but I did feel the need to gush about EYE. I hope things get better. How old are you now?

>>82306505
It's fine man. E.Y.E. makes things better. Even if I am bad at it. Game has a lot of personality.

>>82306505
Oh yeah
>How old are you now?
Early 20s
Sister baked me a cake and mom's side of the family got me the darkness 1, the second best bacon cheese burger I ate in my life, some fine ass popcorn, 600 page spawn manga, and a cool skeleton snow globe(and some clothes but the other stuff are the stand outs). I am a simple man.

>>82304391
Stop flirting with everyone whore

>>82306558
>Game has a lot of personality.
Absolutely. I'm hoping against hope we can get more of it.

>>82306610
Sounds tight as Hell. For my birthday I got my car registration renewed. Being an isolated weirdo fuckin blows.

For what it's worth, happy birthday man. I hope it was good in spite of your friends being shitheads

>>82304315 (OP)
I'll be turning 40 next year and I'll likely never find a decent woman to start a family with. I have my life extremely together (generational wealth plus six figure income), am tall, white, green eyes, but I don't want to pretend to be someone I'm not to find her. I just want someone to either share some of my interests, or at least be alright with them.

>>82306666
>Absolutely. I'm hoping against hope we can get more of it.
The EYE devs made Necromunda hired gun and space hulk deathwing(both 40k fps with some rpg elements). Those are kind of similar to EYE. Also I recommend the darkness 1 n 2
>I hope it was good in spite of your friends being shitheads
It was. I was only upset cause well I at least made sure to get them birthday cards or wish them a happy birthday. That and also I had to take care of one of them multiple times this year since he kept getting sick.

>>82306742
My dad was able to get remarried to a 20/30 something year old in his late 40s and have a family/kid with her.

>>82304315 (OP)
I like to take benzodiazepines, but they're not as good as they used to be, :(

>>82304315 (OP)
(18, m) I fucking hate, HATE being a virgin, it destroys me. It's feminizing. Every guy my age already got laid. I don't even give a shit about intimacy or love, I just don't want to be a virgin, but I'm too much of a pussy to go to a brothel. I also hate my apprenticeship, industrial engineering is fucking miserable. I get paid peanuts and my GenX parents would never allow me to become a NEET. Everything was cool from May 2022 to July 2023, WHY COULDN'T IT STAY THAT WAY.

>>82306966
I hear good things about Hired Gun, not so much about Space Hulk. I do love my early 00s shooters.

>at least made sure to get them birthday cards or wish them a happy birthday
That's fair. I try to remember my friends birthdays but I kinda suck with dates, makes me feel bad.

Also, check my quads and your dubs, negro

>>82304750
>I'm so sorry I'm taking so long to respond! I'm sorry!!
No worries I passed out anyway lol.

>always something I've struggled with
There are three things that have helped me with "low energy", and they have changed various small details of it. "low energy" is not a simple thing after all.
1. Adderall. Obvious as to how this would 'help', and also obvious why I wouldn't recommend it for a normal everyday affair. I had a prescription for it since I was a child, and it definitely helped, though you should take barely any for obvious reasons if you go this route. I wouldn't recommend it for most people due to the effects it has on the brain, but it -can- help now and then.
2. Caffeine. Similar reasons to the above, though different chemical mechanisms of action. People don't mind drinking coffee though. Though caffeine gives me small amounts of anxiety that scale when I drink more of it. I can maybe do 100mg / one cup of coffee a day.
3. And here's the main reason I made this list: Iodine. When I take it regularly, I feel... "normal". When I don't, I feel very depressed, and it's so subtle I don't even realize it until it's one week in and I lose any and all motivation to change. All I have to do is put in a few drops on bread/water/whatever , yet the depression often stops me from it. Your thyroid needs it to work properly, and if you don't get enough depression and melancholy are known side effects not unlike how dehydration occurs due to lacking water. It's grim. For me ~20mg is a good amount, which is funny if you look at the RDA because it's like 100x the suggested amount lol.
4. Exercise. If your problem is solely energy and not at all related to depression / motivation, then adding exercise to your regime will improve base energy levels, after the obvious adjustment period.
I know you weren't asking for advice but I just woke up after a (bad) sleep and had a shower + morning caffeine so I have some energy to burn lol. Seriously consider iodine tho

>>82304315 (OP)
are you taking care of your health, anon?
i told you, this place can be very draining, so please be careful with that

>>82304834
>ill even get a job and do my best to support her financially just so she can stop working and studying so goddam much!!!!!!
She's in college to do one of three things:
1. Get a job to support herself
2. Make her parents happy
3. Uncertain of what else to do with her life so she's fretting away her youth after being told that it's what she has to do.

If it's 1, you can help that by getting a job for obvious reasons. If it's 2, you really think asian parents will want their daughter dating some NEET?
If it's 3 then there's nothing you can do about her inexperience but it's likely she will listen to society instead and leave you because she doesn't have the self assurance to continue dating a (from society's perspective) low value male.

Good luck fren.

>>82304954
.Why did it make you despise most people? I'm sorry to hear that!
I hold myself and others to high standards, is the simplest way to put it without going too into details at the moment. I'll come back and answer that question tonight when my energy's gone and I'm feeling more introspective if the thread's still up. I can make an entire post about people littering that you may find fun.

>>82304985
It's normal and natural for man to desire to cling to another. If you were a perfectly satisfied person with yourself, with zero desire to cling to another, then you would not bother with relationships for the most part as you would be self fulfilled already. At least that's how I see it.
A beam that stands upright only needs itself. A beam that leans against another rests against another. It takes a lot of effort to right a leaning beam.

>>82304315 (OP)
am high on pills cause im sad but at least its my weekend no work for two days woo

>>82304954
>Wish I could give you a hug
What a sweet anon you are. Hope everything nice in the world happens to you. Love <3

>>82305278
BTW, OP. I used to do divination reads on /x/ for people. It was pretty common for readers to read for people as a way to dispel negative energy / thoughts / whatever.
Not suggesting this, just saying that I'm reminded that this sort of thing you're doing isn't actually that uncommon.

>>82305406
>feeling like
There are actual upper size limits. I'm not saying I'm as big as a horse, but most women wouldn't be able to take a horse cock regardless of how much they work themselves up to it.
I'm just upset by it because I slept with a girl I loved, who was a virgin, and I was painful for her beyond the initial virginity loss. She never got used to me before she broke up with me.
Ideally, once a girl decides to sleep with you the size of your cock doesn't really matter anymore. It makes it more or less nice for the experience itself, but it doesn't help longevity of the relationship unless you're on the extreme of either end.
>>82305422
When I would read on /x/ I would say something like "doing up to 10 queries" and then feel pretty bad when I would get like 20 replies and not get to them. Insecurity's a bitch.

>>82306444
>In reality the drunkard doesn't bother me much and is peaceful, tries to say hi to me and/or fist bump me when we pass by each other in town. My other other friend also forgot my birthday but at least he called to just hang out and see how I was doing that day.
Looking at it from the drunk's perspective, that's probably him trying to put forth the effort to be friends. It's pretty hard to start friendships when you're not a kid anymore. I'm aware my own social skills are low enough I'd be doing basically the same thing. Saying hi now and then, trying to start small interactions, etc.

>>82307757
>Looking at it from the drunk's perspective, that's probably him trying to put forth the effort to be friends. It's pretty hard to start friendships when you're not a kid anymore.
I get that but it's still odd to get wasted at 10 in the morning nor talk about having millions of dollars while living in some else's house. I try to be nice whenever we cross paths and I can sympathize with wanting to make new friends but the dude needs to clean up his act. Also it just felt weird that he kept asking me to sell my car and my family members' cars to him(same morning he almost sat on my house flowers) after I told him repeatedly that I was not willing to sell my car non that it was not in my right to sell him cars I do not own. One of my friends used to work with him and said he was weird with customers.

>>82307736
It's Tuesday idiot you took too many pills

>>82304315 (OP)
I got lost for 6 hours in my neighborhood because I dont go out that much and my phone was dead.

>>82307835
>I get that but it's still odd to get wasted at 10 in the morning nor talk about having millions of dollars while living in some else's house.
Oh yeah. There were two points there:
1. Trying to make friends as an adult and being awkward at it.
2. Being a drunkard.
I was saying to have sympathy towards the first, not the second. I know addicts, and consider drunkards just as bad. I have sympathy for them in a removed fashion because life sucks sometimes (and they're making theirs worse in a misguided attempt), but I don't want to interact with them personally.

>>82308593
that's perfectly fine i just wanted the company
what is your opinion of the people that claim themselves to be god

>>82309801
Usually schizophrenic, sometimes narcissists having a psychotic moment. We're all impotent short lived creatures, not even able to be god within our own minds.