used to think i wanted to die, had an incident a few months back where i forgot to take one of my 11 daily meds on a work trip, ended up in ICU interstate for 4 days.

realise now if i just stop taking this one drug i'll die.

i guess i don't want to die. i just want to be happy, i want my old life with my ex back, but it's gone forever. is trying to build something new and just pushing out the past the only way? doesn't feel like it'll work long term, i just lose focus briefly then get pulled back into depression again

any long term cope anons got advice? feel like i'm sitting around waiting to die my entire life

>>1868700
It's true

>>1867721
Learn to plat bro. Your dmg won't be high but your wr and game enjoyment is through the roof. Last session with my triple plat we get over 80% wr with almost no effort.

>>105995871
>Dream Blindness
>Loser beer
What did they mean by this?

If all 4 disappeared it would take me years months to notice