>>41023903
AQ
Should I stay with D. or break up with D. and move back home in a few months?

>>82275683
>Get a free vacation for a bit and get treated for your issues?
that's what i was thinking too it's just that it seems terrifying and it could put me in an even worse situation. i can't know for sure how long they'll hold me in there for, and the meds they give me might just make everything worse. maybe they wont even put me in the ward but rather just give me some xanax and tell me to go fuck myself back home. and what if then no one's going to hire me because i've been to the ward and they think im crazy? i honestly feel so helpless. i mean i don't think i should be allowed near knives and yet the job im trying to be good at basically always uses knives. as im writing this i feel like my mood is constantly changing from awful to normal it's freaking me out. maybe all i need i someone to tell me everything is going to be okay whenever im having an episode. but im scared that won't be enough either and i'll just end up hurting everyone whos trying to help me. perhaps i shouldn't be ranting on the internet.

>>82175912
>I have heard they tend to be underpaid sadly.
well he doesnt get paid at all usually...
>I was still struggling to playing fast/effiecent
thats fair. hopefully one day you'll be able to play faster parts!
>I usually go two ways about it
i was more asking how you'd write them in japanese and make them into vocaloid voices, but all of those are also interesting! dont think ill ever add lyrics to my songs if i make them, unless its miku.
>>82175990
>maybe by some miracle it will in the future?
we dont need a miracle honestly, we jsut need people to stop being so obedient is all
>Being self-aware is already a huge roadblock
hm indeed, and seeing how alcoholics become also does help
>give half of your paycheck to the government
yippe!!! i love living in a post modern society!!!!
>just shizo out in the forest and stop participatin
mah honestly i dont blame anyone who does that. i wanna also do i eventually. get me out of this clown society i just wanna live in da woods.
>>82176022
>Yes. Even too much sleep.
hmm, then perhaps it's the quality that isnt good! i get almsot 7 hours of sleep everyday and yet i wake up always tired.
>When they're not a manace
they're always a menace you just gotta learn to love em anyway!
>>82176031
no clue who this guy is desu
>>82176114
>What's ur UID
714237225
i rarely ever play more than like 10 minutes a day though so good luck finding me online anon
>>82176326
>The idea is that you either break, or you toughen up
i mean i guess it works in that context, but bringing people to suicide is just, yeah.
>At least then I could pretend it meant something
fair enough.
>The existence of things so large and incomprehensible
they do make me feel like im just an ant compared to everything else, in a way it's scary but in a way it's relieving too. i don't matter, and thats pretty cool i guess?
>It's a theory
yeah, i just find it curious how the only rule that always stands no matter what is that everything has to die eventually.

>>81949063
i either care too much about pointless things or im unable to care about things i should care about and its ruining my life and i wish i could just die already

>>81661072
because there's more to life than that. friends, love, vacations, events, nights out, whatever.
not for people like us though ever.

>>81563592
i have been fairly okay lately but i feel like im on very thin ice and everything could go crashing down again at the slightest misstep