Maybe I am an inept, anti-social, downer of a person that just cannot seem to get it down, but people feel so much harder to talk to and connect with now. Why does it feel that everyone has an ulterior motive? Yeah, I know, 'its always been like that'. I just feel like everyone has to get something out of a friendship, or even relationship, beyond the required parameters (i.e money, drugs, to just not be lonely, etc...). It is absolutely so soul sucking and crushing to have to interact with most people outside of horrible small talk and I feel with the advent of both the 'vid and the weird warped social media we're in that people are stuck in a bubble of sorts.

I post this on /x/ because I have to know how does one combat this spiritually? It has been this way since 2020 for me and I low key feel a piercing, shrieking, and anxiety-ridden siren of loneliness that I haven't felt in some time. I had gotten used to it, but with everything feeling so fabricated, synthetic, and ultra corporate in every aspect of our society I yearn for the simpleness the internet once provided, the familiarity of the people who have changed into personas once unimageable, the authentic connection that people no longer seem to crave, and in general the way everything used to be. It feels like everyone is in their own cliques and refusing to expand outwards, from uni, to the workplace, to even every day social environments. Not to be a total doomer, I do think things might get better but I feel like this is something a lot of people don't really discuss. I just also think we need to talk about the spiritual effects from covid and how it has drained our world into a purge. How can we fix this? Do I just need to touch grass? Am I crazy, or can anyone else relate? What are the implications of this since I feel like I cannot escape this social and spiritual rut.

It has been a very busy and kind of shit 2 weeks. I rewrote this 3 times and tried to polish it after between work and life. Sorry.


General Jenn Activated! Overprotective Activated! Bitch Mode fully engaged! Tiny Sadist (narrative version) Activated!

“If he did? If God cared? He never would have sent them here so they could hurt people and get them hurt by just being alive. He would have killed them in the womb, ha. Two monsters, one stone. Maybe take their mother with them. Their dad. The little one as a bonus. Five for one, heh. Add you as get buy five, get one free deal, Aubrey; you delusional fucking lunatic, since you seem to best buddies now. Ha!.”

And in an instant your fist was tossed into Ash’s gut as hard as you could possibly manage, your entire body weight behind the blow. Then? She was throwing up off the edge of her bed, groaning, crying.

“Never say something like that about my twin again! Daddy! Mom! Littler little sis! My toughest little sister! ‘Brey is not[/b crazy! She might just be the only thing between Ilvermorny and destruction in a few years! b]Never speak of them like that again you self-centered bitch! I willl fucking kill you and make what that abomination did look pleasant when I do. Never say they should be dead. Any of them! Say anything you want about me but never them! Not a single one. No one in my family, Coven, which will include you soon! No one like you just did.”, before another blow.

“Jenn!!! You can’t stop!“

“Sis! Calm down! It is okay!”

“No, Emmy; ‘Brey. And? You know how I am, ‘Brey. I can[/]. I will not allow you two or anybody I love to be hurt. Not let Em be told she should have died, not that the greatest, strongest woman and man I know should be in a grave; not when they saved Merlin knows how many kids in the War. Fought and killed to do it. Not the smartest, kindest girl in the world. The best little twin ever made, my other half. A girl as caring and strong as you, ‘Brey because I do love you too. No. Not by some hateful, self-pitying bitch. But?”, you said while pulling the girl back into the middle of the bed after Evanesco-ing her puke.

“Get up, or I am getting you up, Ashley. ‘Brey? Get ready to help me hold her when walking around the infirmary after she cleans her plate. Emmy, Transfigure a temporary cane for her, please. I am going to show you to be ruthless and use all your tools to survive. You are learning to fly again from Emmy. We will be finding someone to help you learn to cast with your left hand; the girl whose hand I broke on that side or the cowboy, Cory, maybe. Macy will teach you how she fights; you can still know more than an enemy and brew a good potion with a steel arm. ‘Brey will teach you how she fights; that you can still pull a trigger and train. Her dad slayed a fucking dragon with no magic at all for Merlin’s sake!

>>281658021
It truly is winter for lolibros.

>>5033998
he killed himself there's a hole at my return box but clearly it was too big so he jumped out last night and I found him on the floor. he cost me about 500 dollars.

>>534956004
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DypG0349cUU

>Dragon
>Loss streak from Sapphire to Topaz again
>First match in Topaz is another Dragon
>Guy concedes after mulligan before either of us plays a single card
I feel you kungfuman

>>280259628
>therapy classes
>classes
Even in therapy, you cannot get away from Academy...

I think I am bipolar or something its all fucking shit then it starts look bright and then DOWN again, hard. I cant have nice things.

>>126799660
>>126797718
>>126796373
Great 10/10 choices but im partial to
https://youtu.be/WaetkdaNrp8?si=zO7fSD2XJi5B1ifK