>>82166024
>just use the online resources bro it's easy, here: [REDACTED]
>>82166036
>>82166095
i'll entertain your premise, if i'm narcissistic then how tf do i get out of there? how come everyone else can learn anything off of the internet but i somehow keep self-sabotaging myself into not even seeing the resources that are so out in the open? i keep following tutorials, trying to learn, but nothing ever comes through. so am i doomed because i'm two digit iq retard, or am i doomed because i'm a narcissist self-sabotaging retard? making the excuses is only a symptom of the disease, but how do you cure it?
>>82166045
i tried to follow this course:
>https://github.com/ossu/computer-science
did the intro and half of the core lessons. still can't do the first thing when it comes to gamedev or programming simple shit. if self-discipline and accountability is the problem, how come that's not an issue at all when i was being taught by a teacher? am i incapable of self-drive? do i require to be spoonfed because i'm incapable of acting of my own volition? because the moment i'm being taught, i'm the most disciplined student in the room and i respect accountability harder than anyone. but the moment i'm trying to learn alone it's as if these things don't exist at all and i have to force these things upon myself. wtf is wrong with me?
>>82166049
i'll keep that in mind but i can't help but feel like someone guiding you through the drawing from reference thing would speed up your learning tenfold, but thx