>29 years old
>kissless handholdless virgin unless you count an escort
>no real friends for 11+ years at this point
>wasted 1000s of hours playing games/posting online
>hobbies/interests are all solitary things
>poor social skills
>panic about being exposed as a virgin
>don't have the confidence to talk freely to people out of embarrassment and timidity in case I'm mocked or rejected
>afraid to show my own personality around women
>filled with regrets and humiliation
>only girl I ever confessed my feelings to, who I thought liked me, mocked me
>will never have a family of my own
>relatives similar in age to me are starting families
>assume every women I meet either isn't interested in me or has a BF/husband
>constantly self-conscious and critical of myself
>feel awkward and start panicking whenever I'm in a room and relationships/sex/romance comes up
>given up any hope of ever having a GF
>never had a female friend so I'm clueless about how to interact with women beyond basic conversation
>tried using Bumble, hardly any likes
It's over