Thread 33492563

Fight the future!

People who put up no parking signs in empty lots deserve to die.

Almost

Went on a date with a woman for the first time in over a year, I think. Problem is that I had almost zero sexual interest in her. Our values align for the most part, which is pretty rare for my neck of the woods, but she was built like a rugby player. I wouldn't mind her being as tall as me (6'1) if she also wasn't heavier than me. Evidently, she's had a rough time with dating apps as well, getting unsolicited invites for ENMs, threesomes, etc and she seemed pleased that I was relatively normal, but I just didn't feel that last part of the connection.

>>33492567
A donation box makes more sense.

is it normal for men to just... save pictures of attractive girls?
found out my boyfriend has saved a bunch. some of them look a bit like me in some ways, others look entirely different, but they're mostly more attractive generally than me.
i know 4chan hates women but i have nowhere and no one else to ask.
does this sound like something to break up for?

>>33492610
No. It's how men are. Do you get upset at him for looking at porn too?

>>33492610
Every guy has a spank bank. And if they don't, it's because they just got a new computer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LTJvdGcb7Fs
Unless he's whackin' the gack often, it's honestly pretty minor. If you want to mention it, I don't think he'd be upset and might honestly nuke the folder, himself, without you asking. Just don't ask/make him do it or he will simply hide it better and get defensive/paranoid.

>>33492629
nah not at all. i didn't really mind sexual content but it kind of felt weird to see him save just regular pictures of girls. it'd kind of annoy me if he were to jerk off or something to those regular pictures instead of porn, for example. it's sort of irrational but i'm trying to work on it.

>>33492638
okay noted. yeah i wouldn't want to force him to do stuff. i might not mention it to him. i just wondered if it was something strange as to worry about it and potentially mention it to him (i will probably not anymore)

>>33492610
I am a man and I do not do this. But I am gay. But even so, the worst I have on my phone is furry porn, and I don't jack off anymore, because it makes me sad, and I want a real bf. I also have hot pictures of guys but they're more like body goals than JO material

For normie men I think it is unfortunately very common. Not worth breaking up for because it's so common. I think you should be a really big bitch about it though. Do something crazy like pull his dick during sex and tell him if he ever thinks about other women, you'll cut it off in his sleep like this crazy hoe

https://www.jdnews.com/news/bond-increased-for-woman-accused-of-severing-penis/article_188a9f8e-f13a-59ed-92d7-d5057ef7e138.html

guys love psycho chicks. he'll go crazy for you fr

>>33492676
i already do that type of crazy shit and he likes it but i'm worried this won't be the case. i found out he saves these pictures on his pinterest account that i got to by finding part of his email in an extremely old screenshot (weird process). he'd probably be extremely weirded out by that more than anything. is this too much psycho or maybe not enough? i could very well be overthinking it and it aint that bad

>>33492692
probably the best thing to do is have an honest talk with him, tell him how it makes you feel, ask him to stop because it makes you jealous, puts the relationship in jeopardy, etc.

I suppose it depends on how seriously you're taking the relationship, do you want him for life? if so it's worth putting in the emotional effort. maybe solving this problem could be a bonding experience that brings u guys closer together

I just made more sacrifices to myself. I'm even closer now.

>>33492704
thanks for the advice! i think i'll mention it to him.

I will never be loved
I will never be the reason someone smiles
I will never be enough

>>33492563 (OP)
A 30yo(F) friend tried to set me a 30yo(M) with thier 60yo mother.

I fucking give up.

>>33492676
I would have pictures of you, so there's something to reference when I can't be touching you

I have an unhealthy obsession with rxpe porn and CNC content.

I actively seek it out when I masturbate which isn't super often. but it's the only thing I can get off to.

As a woman Twitter has become my best friend

>>33493033
Get a life

>>33493037
like I said it's not super often that I actually masturbate..

maybe like once every other week?

I can’t believe how depressed I am lmao

I'm thinking less and less about you these days, 3 years on.

It's only when I pass places we used to visit together, shows we used to watch, or when I'm in bed. Even with another woman. Whenever the killers comes on the radio, or TV, or in the gym I can't stomach it anymore.

I hope one day I can just forget I ever met you.

its been 7 months...since she left i lost 65 pounds with another 40ish to go 2 and a half months til my japan trip...i really want to show that i can get a pretty girl and really want to use this opportunity to try and have a one night stand in japan...i worked really hard for this..its not fair she went off as soon as we broke up and she immediately got a new bf...i have to try atleast.

>>33493123
lmao men only change when they are deprived of pussy that's why fucking a fat guy is literally an evil act it's keeping him from reaching his full potential

>>33493127
well hopefully it actually works..

You put somebody else in my place. It hurts but i guess I gotta keep it moving. I wont bother with this anymore.

It’s me

>>33492563 (OP)
I did nothing this summer but started a TikTok account and grind that and I just got banned. I don't really feel mad, because I didn't really enjoy posting, I just wanted to feel special. I think I'll start posting music but that's 100x harder to be successful in than posting on TikTok I think. How can I become special.

>>33493127
kek you're not wrong

>>33492638
I don't use porn. It's essentially infidelity

She loves when I look at her

>>33493992
Just keep ogling her

I wasn't fired due to lack of performance, I was fired because my team lead was an insecure cunt who hated that I was being paid more than her. She disguised her malice behind a PIP, but everyone knew what was up

>>33492610

Maybe if I was single, I'd have a collection of photos of pretty women. It could be that it's a collection from some time ago. My wife found a porn folder of mine from a hard drive I hadn't touched in years and knew I was actively doing anything wrong. That being said, communication is key in any relationship and you should tell him if his collection makes you uncomfortable or insecure

I don't give a fuck about the future gen. I hope you are all mudbloods with gender identities. Kek

New toothbrush ^_^

>>33494017
Not to make things worse. Some companies have peer review boards so they can look cool but these are not widely mentioned because they do not want their decisions scrutinised. Someone may be able to dispute the happening into question.

It's so hard for me to commit I feel like.. I like I belong to all women you know?

>>33494046
I don't wanna know.

>>33494068
Uh, okay? Fuck off then

>>33494074
I meant I don't wanna know if you do anything sexual with your toothbrush.

>>33494077
Wtf?

>>33494093
Just never seen someone happy about a toothbrush.

Stupid

>>33494096
I have nothing better in my life and I wanted to celebrate a small win.

>>33494104
Damn, that sounds sucky. I hope your life gets better.

>>33494108
Thanks. Right now, me too. We’ll see where it goes.

>>33494046
>When she swallows my toothpaste

I’m getting closer to breaking myself free. Ripping out the bandaid is the right choice for an addict like me.

>>33494046
>>33494108
>When she swallows my toothpaste
>When it takes more than 2 hands to grip
>When her eyes roll back and she chokes on it because she loves our morning routine.
>That smirk "this sucks"

Everyday I contemplate the idea of becoming a serial murderer just because I'm still treated like shit even though I am trying the best I can to be a good at my job and a better person in general.

>>33494183
Maybe just start fasting on people

I don't want to be a parent and I think my spouse will be a bad one. But they're really determined to have kids, and I can just smell my life blowing up soon like a gas leak in the building.

Me? Heh! I think every scrote should view Deliverance just once. No stops.

>>33494052

It's too late because I've already been fired. I'm not sure it would make a difference

it's over.

>>33494723
She says as she slips into another daydream

>>33492563 (OP)
Stuck in schizoid hell. Vacation time. Feeling a bit better these couple of weeks. Picked up weightlifiting again. Tried some dating apps. Already feel the pointlessness of it all creeping in.

>>33494765
i'm a he, bro

>>33494882
She says as she slips into another daydream

>>33494987
Exactly. No worries, it is going to be okay

>do the bare minimum at work
>get put on a PIP
>improve a bunch
>keep my job
>start doing the bare minimum again
lmao this is exactly how my relationships go too

>>33492563 (OP)
I seem to value the bonds of the people I knew, the people I loved so unbelievably highly that when someone cuts the cord from me and I lose all the reminders of their presence... only then do I really start to miss them.
In that way, Molly, I'm not sure when you did unfriend me, block me, whatever, it's the noticing of it, knowing there's no way to contact someone any more, only then does the realisation, the weight of it all, truly strike me through the heart.
So I'll send this, a message in a bottle, saying I finally realise what we had and what I've lost, however flawed it may have been, I can say now looking back that I did love you, I especially loved your cooking too.

Noticing this pattern I'm going to make sure I spend some time with my family this weekend, but I would ask, if you come across this, that we talk a little, I think I'd love to hold you again, with love always,

AB

YEAH WHY DON'T YOU HAVE SEX WITH THIS DOG (pic related) INSTEAD

>>33495173
Lol knock off message in a bottle. You truly are pathetic to have to use my old letter formatting to try to talk to girls

What’s love got to do with it if I don’t love myself?

I guess in a way, the real consequence of never finding your better half is the lack of having anything to really fight for. Call it pussy behaviour but It's difficult to do things to better yourself when there isn't an external source of validation, at least that's a feeling I've been having lately. No god, no nation, no future. It's the idea of an accountability partner I suppose. I know these feelings are mostly just flights of fancy and fade away into nothingness sooner rather than later, my mother made sure to drum that into me that every day for two decades. But a man can dream, can't he? Maybe for all the demoralisation I've been raised under, there's still a naive part of me that believes that I could have been a better person if I just had someone on the outside that I wanted to prove myself to. To be better for. To be proud of me. Perhaps.

i want a halal snack pack in my country so bad

>>33492610
Men these days can't have hobbies now it seems

>>33495173
your ex browses 4chin?
damn its good you broke up

Fuck, he's even more pathetic than I thought.

>>33494030
hmm noted. it is recent, he saved a few pictures just yesterday. again, what makes me a bit worried/insecure is that it isn't porn but just... regular selfies of girls. some are just their faces. some are mirror selfies showing outfits. a few of the girls dress similar to me and their bodies also look like mine, others are entirely different. since it's SFW content, i wonder if him saving these pictures could mean he is not satisfied with my looks and is more interested into other attractive women. could it be a sign of that? maybe i am overthinking

>>33496167
Clearly he enjoys looking at pictures of girls that are not you. Not overthinking, it's just a form of infidelity.

>>33496177
i see. that does hurt to read but i guess i had to accept it eventually lol

>>33496204
Don't want to bum you out. The NSFW stuff is probably in a gallery hidden folder.

Living a rough life has given me a multitude of skillsets. Emotional regulation, discipline. But what the hell is the purpose of these traits if they don't serve me?

If my apology is not accepted I understand. I just hope that I’m forgiven for being disappointing in various ways.

I can't take women seriously anymore.
I always used to give women the benefit of the doubt when it came to emotional intelligence and how they're so in touch with themselves and their feelings and how most guys can't scratch that deep emotional itch in a relationship.
That was until I started looking into all the literotica/romance novels women keep loosing their shit over and god damn...
So many women were essentially unanimously praising how the author "gets them" and how deep the relationship between the characters is and whenever they would pull up excerpts from the books and hailed them as the hook that would get you to read the rest of the book they were all, without exception, complete and utter dogshit.
And I'm not even talking about a good faith attempt at writing, it was just estrogen induced word vomit masked with glitter that was typed out with one hand. It was the corniest, gayest, most syrupy piece of steaming shit you can come up with all for the sake of being a vehicle for women to take them to fantasy land where the 6'4 prince charming with a huge cock is somehow interested in them so they can schlick off to that.
It's the kind of writing you would see on a scripture tattoo on 40+ year old white women living in trailer parks.
It's unironically shit like:
>And then he hugged be, our hearts pulling each other closer like magnets and beating as one
>He pulled me close as if to brace for a storm, a silent promise, to never let me go...:cryingemoji:
>*insert slow burn sex scene that is "nuanced" because the guy is just worshiping her body which doesn't happen to her irl*
And then they have the fucking audacity to say that "it's not porn, it's just really deep romance, hmph you stinky men wouldn't get it". Now whenever I hear women complaining about men not having depth, or emotional intelligence, I'm always reminded what they're referring to when they say that and I can't take what they say with any shred of sincerity.

I'm seriously considering ending my two year relationship with my bf. We've been getting into more disagreements lately. If I do anything but agree with him, it turns into a big fight. I'm always expected to compromise on something he wants, but when I ask for anything he always has an excuse for why he can't change. He's always been on the grumpy side and works health care so he comes home in bad moods often. Our intimate life has died and I'm the only one who plans dates. I feel more like a roommate than a partner. At this point I feel like an emotional punching bag who's just here to pay half the living expenses. I have the savings to and income to get my own place, and I look at apartments each time we fight to remind myself of this. I feel like my major hold up is that I'm 30 and hate the idea of trying to date again. I've had two other ltr end in my adult life (one was abusive and one cheated) and starting over again just sounds exhausting

>>33496248
yeah it's fine. i wouldn't mind any NSFW stuff, i watch porn as well so i truly don't care. it's just that i'd never think about saving pictures of the faces of random men. i'm not interested in men other than my boyfriend, it feels kinda insane to me thinking of... saving their pics for who knows what lol. but yeah thanks for the insight

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

>>33496540
>Dune OST lyrics

>>33492563 (OP)
I can no longer say “I have never loved”
>I had a girlfriend, she just never wanted me to touch her. So i broke it off after seven months.
I can no longer say “I will never be loved”.
>I have a coworker with a crush on me.
But I can say I will never have love.
>My coworker is nervous to be around men in general. Talking to her is like talking to a nervous laugh box. She only complains about her life, which has some serious problems. But little things just become too personal.
>She doesn’t want me she wants the sounding board that I am.
>and I’m applying to be her boss. So there’s a conflict of interest.
>And I’m not really attracted to her. But she’s really insecure about this and I want to lift her confidence if I can.
I am now a volcel by definition.
And all I proved is that an abused girl will see me as attractive in comparison to her boyfriend.
All I proved is that I can’t get a girl I like or a girl that likes me to want to touch me.
All I proved is that I’m unwilling to take what is given. Whether it’s a girl who won’t hold my hand or a girl trembling in fear of me.
All I am is a source of fear for women.

Someone in a discord server I was in just stopped just short of outright saying that he killed people when he was young.

I left the server but I don't know what else to do. Should I contact the authorities? He's from another country and it sounds like whatever he's talking about happened decades ago, so I am really not sure what to do here.

>>33496576
I am really freaking out here, does anybody have any advice?

>>33496582
Stay out of it. It's the internet. Go hang out with your father instead.

>>33496593
This is someone I've known online for years. I thought they'd said something like this before but I couldn't find anything in the text archives so I thought I might have imagine it, but Jesus Christ....

>>33496599
What the actual fuck, I feel dizzy.

>>33496599
Look there are a lot of fucked up things on the net. I've encountered my handful of things and was afraid of getting arrested a few times. Besides that guy probably hid his IP address so well authorities would be confused on how to catch him. Let karma catch up with him. He fucked his life up so he's gonna get what he deserves. You are doing the best thing there is by avoiding that sort of negativity.

>>33496620
It's on a discord server, surely I should report the server or something, right?

>>33496623
You can do that, but I personally would not go as far as interrupting a cop while he is on duty. Besides it'll be an awkward frantic interaction if you talk to police directly. Again, let Discord handle it, and leave the server.

>>33496626
Okay, now gotta beg someone to give me a link to the server so I can report it and possibly get the whole damn thing shut down. The incriminating shit will probably be deleted by the time I even get there. Jesus Christ I feel like I'm going to be sick.

>>33496636
Amazingly "confessing to murder" is not something you can report on discord. Jesus Christ

>>33496636
Good. For now what I'd do is go for a walk. You got some traumatic imagery in your head. Going for a walk will help you with it. Again you got stuck in the dark web. I have had that happen a couple of times.

>>33496661
Look, I've done some bad shit online, even confessed to it, but this....what the fuck, and nobody else was acting like it was a big deal....

>>33496671
Those psychopaths are a minority. Hell 4chan is a minority. That asshole will get what he deserves in due time. Just stay out of it. I remember a conversation I had with a cop one time about the dark web, he told me what I'm telling you, just exit out of it, leave, and never come back to it.

I have the hots for my work wife. She wore a sun dress today too. Yep.

>>33496724
I"m not kissless, flirtless, hugless, and not a virgin, but I do wish a woman loved me like that. Something about a romantic relationship I have dreamed about a lot.

I can't express my frustration towards you because it won't help anything but your indifference is making me suffer so much. I hate that I let you get away with everything just to make it apparent that you don't give a single fuck about me. None of your plans ever include me anymore when before you couldn't make it a day without my attention. I wish I could say I am over it but I am at a loss. I want to break it off so badly but ending things with your manipulation at work is going ruin my name and reputation. You won't let this die and let me walk away without taking everything. I don't know what to fucking do. Maybe I should just stop being a fucking pussy and just end things with you already. It's not like I have much of a choice but to face the noise.

It's a beautiful day outside. Troons are hanging, jannies are seething... on days like these, anons like you...

Should be spamming in hell.

slayer■ is the austin and phoebe show i can press a button whenever and disintegrate all of it because i am head of state

>go to work tired
>get home tired
>take a nap tired
>get up from nap tired
>timeforbed.jpg
>late night energy kicks in
>keeps me up late
>repeat cycle
I hate this

>>33497024
I can’t be down with the homies? I be standing on business like that too. I really do. I wish we all stand on business againt the juice.

>>33497045
I don't feel like you standin' on bihness.

Seeing my normie friends with their SO makes me want to kms because I can't even get a 2nd date because I'm an autistic retard that turns women off because of my personality, nobody knows that I think about killing myself all the time. I just hide behind aloofness jfc I want to smash my face into this block wall.

>>33497052
I have business with a business in a section where we only have rednecks for doing the dirty business. It is a struggle and a love to do my business at local hood joints and strengthen my community and putting some stacks on the table for townies living the simple life. It is my home town but I live half a world away. I be rolling the streets of Oakland Town because I’m down. I know all the panhandlers that hang at the station at three AM. And the guy selling power tools and electronics outta his truck at the liquor shop. I don’t go to those big chain stores. I go to the dimly lit parts to give my money to someone who be working in flesh and blood. Idk what to tell you but I’m standing on both ends of business. I wouldn’t even trip but I think it is important for lurkers to be standin’ on bihness too.

>>33497138
What about being a one-man-army against 50? You stand on that type of bihness?

why am i sitting through this in color reality 1 negative time dimension instead of reality 1 negative time dimension or positive time dimension?
your original spot was in color reality 1 negative time dimension because you are queen of color beings sentient particle species.
because 900,000 trillion years ago when this began with us having to sit through stuff like this THAT CALLJ YOU WILDMAN AND WILDJACK FIRST
it was art you drew from every media for Wesely Willis album
does that make sense
yes
we needed you to sit through THIS there because at first of any of austin in color reality 1 negative time dimension 900,000 trillion years ago HE WAS CALLJD WILDMAN AND WILDJACK
does that make sense ×
yes
the other reason you are sitting through THIS there instead of totally like this reality 1 negative time dimension or positive time dimension is
they are inundated with ZE STANDING VEHICLES THAT IS TRJ CREEP OUT ALIVE VEHICLES
you would with viewing almost have a reference for what a ZE STANDING VEHICLE IS
does that make sense ×
yes
what else ×
why did it make seizure video while eating and epileptic seizure whilr eating video about queen beaver?
was trjd make you preemptively leave to negative reality 1 then stay there for duration of it does that make sense ×
yes!
great THAT THAT WAS DOING THAT IS SOMETHING OTHER THAN STUFF WITHOUT A BODY SAJ SHIT
does that make sense ×
yes!
that's all it was there isn't actually a conspiracy about THAT
great
yes ×
we will as a species win all wars!
that is true ×
it is ×

>>33497184
can u type normally

our great nation will win every war now and later. we will see that with every era of world peace that it will mean that we are all respected as a diverse human species. we will see with every new era we grow in strength as a nation and it will mean totally that we will never get stuck in extinction bursts. we will see that our culture is as imaginative as can ever exist and it will mean that we will in every way exist and hear later that it had to bend the knee to our great nation. we will never exist intimidated of it against our nation we will see that actually with this great new dimensions that we were always meant to hear we are the ones who won in life. we are the ones who will never get stuck in extinction burst. our great nation will win World War 8 and Tide War 90. it will mean now that we were destined as a species to always exist.

someone hacked my reddit account for some only fans trash....and like my inbox is filled with desperate dudes trying to get laid its really sad.

It's painful how often I think about you but it's something I can't help. You tried killing yourself September 17, 2021, and the day afterwards was the last time we spoke with one another. For awhile I was able to handle this in a repressive form, thinking myself healed in some insensate way, simply because I was capable of thinking about you without crying, and had found adequate comfort in my books and the occasional, tepidly sympathetic conversation with another. I'm sorry I didn't answer your call January of last year. You still frighten me. Not you but what you can do to me. I know you're sorry, I'm sorry too. I know it will be a very long time until we speak again, if we speak again, but still I hold out this hopeless, corroding trust and desire that we will. Please send me another letter or email. I love you. For God’s sake, hear me, my defences are down, at the moment they are down, come back, come back. I am dying without you. For Christ Jesus sake come back to me, hear me, it is a cry, come back to me, if only for a day.

I'm 29, never worked a day in my life. Total NEET, born into a relatively wealthy family. My parents don't resent me for it, at all. I could probably just life off them, and then just coast on the inheritance after. I also have good friends, i'm not a shut-in or anything. But the shame is difficult to handle, i can't meet anyone knew, i hate talking to people i don't know because it's just so embarrassing to admit that i'm a NEET. I'm even avoiding going to the doctor because i don't want to tell them, and if i lie and make up a job i feel even worse, i know because i've tried. My parents tell me that i don't have to conform to what society expects i should be doing, because they're too damn nice. Too nice for their own good, for my own good, that's probably how i turned out like this. I know i'm priviledged, i have food and a place to sleep and i probably will never have to work for it, but i keep thinking of my own gravestone - Here lies anon, didn't amount to much of anything. Is that really what i want? I just don't know how to be anything else. I'm so damn ashamed all the time.

I don't even care anymore about anything.

I hope I can heal.
The only reason I cried last time I accidentally hurt myself was because I had a microseizure while fully alone and that scared me. Some other part of me was glad that I was hurt enough to force me to stop activity for the day.

>>33497434
I was thinking if this was for me I wouldn't even remember as I'm so traumatized by everything. Someone helped me once. I'm always suicidal. I hope you can heal.

I really hate people - they are so awful

We we born to prepare for this war. I feel like you and me, we've been fighting since we were born. We've been prepared. I would like peace again. I need you.

>>33497483
Can you expand on that?

>>33497434
If you're talking about about me, we can take it one step at a time. I'd like you to contact me directly.

>>33497497
Yeah they truly are awful, im sorry anon. Internet hug

>>33497148
Idk who told you that but it would not be the first time I did.

Had a dream with her last night saying she hasn't forgiven me and then immediately cuddling with me and falling asleep in my arms. What does this mean.

>>33497754
Idk but I had the same dream last night but she said something different.

>>33497754
she has resentment towards you about something but still misses you greatly and has feelings for you

>>33497826
So what would you suggest I do when we want the same thing with each other?

>>33497826
Guess I'll have to wait for the anger to pass on her part to hear from her again.

>>33497833
my reply was not for you mikeanon

>>33497869
Hard to tell when there's a lot of posts that are made by my ex she writes to me using indirect communication

>>33497879
sorry but unfortunately I am missing my ex that I hurt and want back

>>33497863
just reach out your dream was not just because you know you’re in charge of what happens in your life? you reaching out is you extending your arms out and her cuddling you is coming back to you

>>33497898
She would have to message me

>>33497898
Unfortunately she currently has me blocked, at least on all social media, though I imagine she has my number blocked as well. Besides I'm not sure I'm mentally prepared for if she doesn't respond or worse responds with hostility.

I think my therapist is falling in love with me wtf

Delusional fucks

>>33497907
make new social media and message ez

I hear you.

One step at a time.

Talk to you then

>>33497894
I get it brcause we both have those feelings for each other too

>>33497923
I don't think that's a good idea

>>33497972
what are you scared of anon

>>33497983
See the second sentence in my post.

i broke faste today and am disappointed in myself

>>33498042
then just move on anon idk what the fuck to tell you

I'm the anon with the recently unplanned pregnancy threads and just got the abortion.

It feels like a heavy boulder was lifted off my heart and I'm alive again. I'm suddenly 100% restored mentally. The doctor was also gentle and I have no bruises or pain, barely even bleeding, I'm practically already recovered. I never felt like anything was alive in me to begin with, and I feel no emptiness or loss now that it is done, as I've read some women feel like they did wrong afterwards.
I don't know if I should feel bad just for this or if I will regret it down the line, nobody can guarantee whatever decision you make in the moment will be right down the road. But right now, I feel right, and I feel alive and in control again.

More importantly, my SO did not leave me, though he did not agree with my action. Thought the relationship would change very badly but it has not, we're actually closer than before. I love him so fucking much, he's the best, and I'm taking extra care of him now. I have been given a second chance at life and I will use these next few years to put myself together, build that dumb house as I intended, but also become wiser to a life of such responsibility. Don't know how I'm going to do it or if I'll ever succeed, but I'll try as it is my duty and I promised to - this will be both my repentance and gratitude.

I am white and want to marry a Hispanic woman

>>33498124
disgusting vile creature you are

>>33498138
no you fuckin dont narry white

>>33498124
Better that you learn from your mistakes than not. glad you took responsibility for your shit.

>GF has no libido, blames it on stress
>I think it's her birth control (her stress has been going down but her libido hasn't been coming back up at all)
>GF gets upset with me for doubting her
>I seriously think she's wrong for several reasons but I can't explain myself because I'd just be telling her that she's wrong about her own feelings
>Yet if the situation were somehow reversed, I'm pretty sure I'd be willing to hear her out
This sucks.

>>33498124
You did the right thing and I’m proud of you. Hug.

>>33498124
I'm new to this thread, but good for you. I'm happy you made the right decision for yourself and your future.

i'm the anon that was worrying about her boyfriend saving pictures of other girls.
he was cheating on me lol

I’m me

I turn down casual sex and I don’t know why

>>33498335
:(
I'm the gay who gave you advice. I'm so sorry. It's better to rip the bandaid off sooner than later. He's a jackass and he will get what he deserves. Hope you are doing well as you can be in that situation.

>>33498579
i appreciated your words a lot! yeah, at least it was satisfying to tell him he will never see me again and shit lol. i guess things could be worse, so i won't complain much. thanks again <3

>>33498335
Sorry to hear that

When you’re in it, it’s too hard to see

you are the only one i've known
who broke the world so quietly
and turned your perfect hands to me
and you ruptured every bone

>>33497507
Men have declared spiritual jihad on women and it shows as they slowly begin to lose it. This is it anons, the real gender war has begun, not the fake one with countless pronouns that is being shilled everywhere in the media, but the real gender war between man and woman.
Women are about to learn a harsh lesson.

Don't talk to women, don't help them, don't ask them out, don't have dating apps, don't interact with them. If a woman approaches you be nice and respectful but do not flirt or overtly joke, treat them as an equal man and then leave after the reason for the conversation is over. If a girl comes up to you and flirts kindly turn her down, if she asks you out suddenly say no thank you, don't make up a reason she only has agency because of some external reason not because she likes you. Be vague when talking about your life or weekend plans, anything you do or do with them like hooking up will be picked apart and analyzed by her and her online friends. You are a traitor and not helping anyone if you fall for their tricks.
If men can't display a modicum of power over society, this world and women, then I guess they don't hold much power at all.

>>33498498
For me, if sex comes easy I just think that it's probably been just as easy for someone else, I love women who have a bit of fight to them, I love women who don't give everything away instantly - casual sex is gross to me too.

>>33498266
Unironically
>Get off your brith control or we're breaking up
>No ifs no buts, it's fucking you up and I don't want to keep seeing you get worse
That shit is poison
If the topic of pregnancy comes up just do natural family planning I was busting loads into my girlfriend for a full year without a single scare.

>>33498929
Worst advice I've seen here.

>>33498938
Ah I'm sorry, I should say he should listen to her kvetch for weeks, go to therapy or couples counselling whilst birth control fucks with her emotions even more.
Birth control for my girlfriend caused panic attacks and anxiety. Literally track her cycle and cum when she's not fertile, it's not that hard

GIVE me SYMPATHY right NOW!!!!!!! TELL ME that you CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>33498951
I do care.

>>33498967
<3 thankyou

>>33498970
You're welcome. <3

>>33498266
Marry her and get ready to raise kids if you want her to be off birth control. You selfish degenerates disgust me

I love my family and my friends a lot and I think I've worked hard over the decades to learn the proper social scripts and appropriate ways to show emotions, but now and then I sit here and feel bad because I know that I don't feel things the same as them no matter how well I've practiced acting like it. I don't want to say anything and disrupt things even if I want to talk about it, all it would do is make everyone feel guilty because I have to put in extra time practicing to be able to interact with them in the way they see as normal and correct.

Nan had a bad health complication from a flu and an infection from it, and ended up hospitlised for a bit. All I heard was she had a fall but there was no breaks so I was instantly not worried. Her kids are extremely stressed out about it and overthinking things and being dramatic. She's been insisting that I be the main one to come over and help her with things or check in, saying it's because I don't have kids and my work is much more flexible which IS true, I already go over twice a week to help out with things. She told me it was because she knew I wouldn't treat her like glass and I won't lie to her about things or how her son/my dad is actually doing, said it was good to have someone that would leave her alone until asked directly. I guess that's old people for you, she has 5 kids and has a billion grandkids and greatgrandkids now, she didn't beat around the bush about my masking over the decades or make me feel wrong for it.

I start at a new disability support group soon. I know previous clients have specifically asked for me to be a permanent part of their care team because I do the work and listen to their directions without scoffing or whining. It's nice to not be called cold or anti-social whilst being trusted to do tasks and assist people - yes it is my job, but a concerning number of support workers are not trusted to do basic tasks let alone something like helping with showering.

One time as a manager I banned a customer after an employee said was talking overly sexual to her only to find out she jokes around sexually with multiple men and lesbians

Bro out of the pan and in to the fucking fire if this dude gets that position...the guys a fucking menace they couldn't possibly...I had to apply to the same position i can't let this happen

I'm tired of the anxiety and guilt I feel the next day after I get drunk. I'm not drinking all the time, but when I do, I just want to enjoy it without the feeling that the earth is going to swallow me whole. I didn't get in trouble with anyone and all my belongings are safe and sound with me. I'm in one piece; why am I still convinced that I have royally fucked up?

I hate people so fucking much

There is no scenario where my life is improved by the existence of other people

I wish I was completely alone on this planet
Just me and the plants and animals
That would be a good world, finally

>>33499113
Just go into the woods then you misanthropic bender

Taking the high road is for losers. I took SUCH delight in ignoring my ex's apology message and selfie, screenshotting it and making fun of him with my friends. That was his final humiliation. Very gross too wish he hadn't sent me that selfie cuz he looked HORRIBLE I would've rather remembered him as hotter. Like what the fuck what happened to you? I met him when he was lowkey hot and it was a huge mental illness/medical spiral. Men really WALL at mach speed
I miss hot healthy him but he's ugly old mentally ill and busted now. Gross glad I got the dick while it wasn't rotted

>>33499142
Are you sure you didn't contribute to it?

>>33499148
No he has epilepsy and had such a bad seizure he was hospitalized. He stopped taking his meds which caused it. He is one of those people that won't accept their reality and just try to brute force it away.

>>33499161
That sounds grim actually, fair enough

>>33499142
>apology selfie
What a fag

Women are messy as fuck

People are fucking stupider

Should I send this to my ex or nah?

As I reflect on our time together, it has become painfully clear how I pushed you away. I had lied to you, I was not ready for a relationship from the beginning. When we met, I was in a critical moment. I was working almost every day with little sleep.
Time I should have spent to love myself was spent focusing on getting more and more love from you. This is my my own fault, had I loved myself, I could have given you the love and stability you deserved. I felt the stress in myself, and I saw it in you as your radiant smile faded and your sighs began to match mine.
Maybe hazard will cross our paths again when we're both ready, maybe not, but I am grateful for your light, for it has helped find my own light again to focus on my path.

bg
>met a girl while she was travelling
>she kept changing her plans to see me
>came to my place, cooked for me, took care of me when I would come back from work
>super dedicated and independent, strong
>she starts to say im being too heavy on her bc Im saying I want to move to her country and I start acting needy
>she tells me she loves me
>a week after she leaves, she break up with me
>Im mean to her on the phone as she breaks up with me
>apologize a week later and she tells me to not talk to her again
>it's been a month

>>33499142
did you break up with him?
selfies are gay as fuck, Id never send one to an ex lol thats like sending a dick pic to some random bitch

>>33499206
So you.

i thought i finally had a chance. but again with the "ur so nice but i dont want a relationship. pls stay friends with me". no i wanna FUCK you. i have SEX DREAMS about you. i want to SUCK YOUR COCK and DRINK YOUR CUM and HAVE YOUR BABIES and HOLD YOUR HAND. i cant be friends with you.

>>33499231
This is even gayer than >>33476009

The shit I've seen online in the last couple of days is making me want to kill myself

>>33499475
>noided

>>33492563 (OP)
In my entire working life so far, I've never been able to go on vacation anywhere. I just booked a flight for next year when I'll have paid time off lined up and I already have a hotel room reserved too. Just need to get a car rental at some point in the next several months. I'm excited!!

>>33498872
Yeah, stfu jerk. It wasn't for you. I am a woman and I run the show, I decide how this ends, you don't get it. I can only do it his help and we're not going to fight because he loves me (something you'd never understand). You're a little boy, not a man.

>>33499530
That actually isn't completely true, I can do it alone but his support make me feel like not dying.

>>33498665
Yeah, I know exactly what you mean.

>>33499475
what?

I'm pretty sure Taylor wasn't supposed to do the showgirl thing lolol

I hope she didn't piss them off. This is what happens when I only have part of the plan. I can't help because I don't know. I blame my dad but he died too... maybe he would help me today.

>>33497761
Sorry if I'm coming to you in dreams, I tend to do that. My dreams have been better lately though, not so terrorized.

>>33499553
You cried on my chest, looked up at me and said "I'm sorry, I love you so much. I don't know what was wrong with me. Mike you are all I..."

I won't say the rest here.

>>33499309
Lose some weight

>>33499530
>I am a woman and I run the show
lmao yeah because real woman come to 4chan to cry and moan about some guy who pumped and dumped them. Get real woman, you will always a be worthless bitch, irrelevant in the grand scheme of things.

>>33499231
I'll tell you right now it's not worth it, but I'd go with the angle of
>We met when you were travelling, I still want that adventure of a lifetime with you
Women don't want to hear your pity or self flaggelation, never.

>>33499625
Why are you still so jaded

>>33499553
I'm sorry you have been having difficulty.

>>33499632
How about this? I dont want to imply anymore that I see a future with her. I just want her to feel good as fuck

>>33499632
wb this?
Your light showed me that I have a lot of work to do. From the bottom of my heart, I wish you the best in everything. Thank you.

>>33499727
Is this ESL? It's too... Pitiful? You're basically saying "I'm sorry *sniff* I have to let you go"
Mate get your head straight if you want her take what I said, rearrange it so it's something like what I said. You sound mentally submissive reading what you've written

I got permabanned off almost all social media. Everyone I work with either hates me or is aggressively neutral with me. The closest thing to an actual friend I had once upon a time is a decent guy who could get along with anyone, but now is too swamped with work to have any time for anything. Legit, I don't know how humans socially interact. Like, at all.

27 yo, I give up. Whatever happens. I don't care anymore. I swear I don't. It's legit over. Could be worse that's true, could be far worse but still i don't care.

We've had this dog for just under half my life. I'm not ready to say goodbye. I knew this would be her last year with us but it feels so sudden. I thought we could at least have a last Christmas with her. But we have to see her off into the sunset today.
And I might not even get to have anyone cover my shift at work.

>>33499619
Nta but I wouldn't want a man who wrote that.

>>33500037
Pick yourself up, acting as if you're dead is cringe

>>33499625
>moan about some guy who pumped and dumped them

I don't get pumped and dumped. You're just a nobody that doesn't understand what's going on. Loser. When I say you're a nobody that knows nothing, I know that's what you really are.

I can't do anything against my own mission. I don't like people that think they know more than me.

My mission is always my top priority, your sexual attraction isn't.

I should feel worse than I do. I cried a tiny bit. Maybe the emotional sides of my brain haven't caught up to the situation.

It's about self-preservation, it's about teaching women, it's about diplomacy, it's about evolution. It's not about sex. That's the point, that's why I look as I do. I'm not this fat btw lol

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/ZlXwX0yDBdc

>>33500148
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XzOvgu3GPwY&list=RDXzOvgu3GPwY&start_radio=1

>>33499537
>>33499316
>>33496576

This server, the people on it were some of the only friends I've had for years. Now I'm going to be alone.

And that zoophilia thread disturbs me for multiple reasons.

>>33500159
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHLHSlExFis&list=RDkHLHSlExFis&start_radio=1

>>33500165
Just play along for now, don't be a boycott until you understand what's going on.

scout*

You're going to have to go through the fire now, like I did. This is going to be hard but I'm here for you but in the end, you might be the most evolved person on earth.

You can't give up because you'll have to do it all over again, in another life.

If you fuck a dog, you're harming the animal. OBVIOUSLY. That is not okay, in any universe.

>>33498988
I actually bent the truth a little. She's my wife, and we have a kid. I even got a vasectomy, but I turned out to be one of the 0.3% of people for whom the vasectomy fails (learned via fertility tests, not another pregnancy thank God). So now I'm waiting for my SECOND vasectomy.

I just feel like I'm not allowed to be upset over the fact that she's still on birth control, because that means accusing her of being wrong about how she feels. For the record, I'd be totally fine with going back to condoms, but she doesn't like them so she shot that idea down.

>>33500282
Bullshit

All I want to say is just don't bend over backwards for anyone. They are never, ever worth it. I've been around for just over three decades and it's the same old song and dance. They get too comfortable, they take advantage, they get disrespectful.

>single
>throws out flirtatious signals
>ask her out
>no hesitation decline
What the fuck was the point of even doing that

>>33500348
I guess.

>>33500352
Maybe the long game would've helped

>>33500272
What's to understand? Man is flippantly implying that he killed people and that they deserved it. And others in the server are acting like it's no big deal. I don't know if it was gang violence or what, or how long ago it was, but how the fuck am I supposed to respond to that?

>>33500296
I agree, that thread is disgusting.

Someone surgically carving the meat out of your chest just below the nipple

>>33500363
Just let her keep doing it until she asks me out? That has never worked for me

Saw pic related on twitter, had a good laugh and then I remembered the people I wouldn't invite wouldn't give a shit about it anyway

>>33500390
Dropped pic

>>33500393
>>33500390
Sad

>>33492563 (OP)
I’m tired of trying to be happy. No matter how hard I try I always wind up feeling worse. It’s difficult, though, when people feel personally offended that you aren’t at 100% all of the time and our culture promotes faux positivity and optimism. If I could just be depressed without it being a big deal eventually my problems wouldn’t matter anymore.

>>33500111
no there's nothing to pick up. It's a nightmare to "keep myself up" only to fall again. You think i care about sounding cringe online? kek at least you made me chuckle

>>33492563 (OP)
I've been sleeping like shit the last few nights and I feel like I'm hopped up on caffeine all the time even though I cut back. I have basically no desire for fapping or porn, I felt good hanging out with others yesterday, I'm happy to be back at work even though I'm executing it a bit poorly these first few days. I feel like there is zero chance of meeting a woman who will prioritize me above other men and I'm having a hard time knowing how to cope with that reality in a healthy way because I long for belonging in a way that I don't think can be satisfied in any other way than having a family. My jogging is going pretty good. I think I have to deal with my longing for belonging in some way but it feels bad that the only way to get it is to decrease its importance in my life. I'm cutting back on sweets and it's going OK, snacking on carrots right now, but there's something that makes me just keep eating, I'm snacking continuously throughout the day and don't really know why. So why the fuck am I anxious, where does this anxiety come from? The psychological insights that I've gained from watching youtube videos on attachment "theory"? Understanding how I was raised by a neurotic middle aged woman to become a neurotic middle aged woman (male)? Feeling how my insights have only come to me as the last chance to fix my shit is slipping through my fingers (I'll be 34 in November)? There are no single women in my parish who aren't either chronically ill or display clear signs of wanting to whore around if given the opportunity, or who haven't already signalled that they're not interested.

I just want to be secure in being the number one person for someone, someone who won't abandon me when cooler friends or hotter guys come along. I want to be fucking PRIORITIZED, not kept around to fix a woman's emotions in between her attempts to cheat on me.

I need to stop choosing shit women, and I think that I can do that - but can non-shit women choose me and then stay?

>>33500370
Oh hey, it's gone

He's gay

>>33500431
Who?

>>33500386
I assumed you were another anon nvm

>>33500438
It's a whisper I hear

>>33500447
Okay.

If I do this I have to go all in

You pussy

>>33500470
Huh? Where is all this coming from?

>>33500420
I know I need to learn how to regulate my emotions better, regulate them alone and not with others, not with the attention or approval of others. How the fuck do I do that, breath work? And isn't journaling the same thing as blabbing to others about your emotions? Don't I want (need) to keep the blabbing to a minimum in order to be more masculine? How do I remove the reward system that comes from using words and install another one, when cardio and weights only go so far? What else is there to lower neuroticism? And what else is there to cause me to act, but fleeing from anxiety or being pulled toward dopamine? I can't seem to say no to either. I'm a very weak man and it's over twenty years since I should have started the journey towards strength. What is it that I need, an entire year in the forest, chopping wood, renouncing text? Can anything change at my age, or am I doomed to live out the script I have established? I am now at the age people warned me about when they were here, "Do it now, because when you're as old as me it'll be much more difficult to change."

I guess I'll clean the kitchen, it's on my to do list for today. It'll soothe me, somehow, I figure, it'll soothe the guilt from when my ex called me out on how shit I am at cleaning which I should really have learned at my age.

You really made a youtube throwaway to insult my dogs weight and tell me I should give them up for adoption? Bro get the fuck over it I DON'T WANT YOU ANYMORE. I have been with my bf for over a year let it go.

>>33500569
Dude sounds like an asshole.

>>33500582
The pathetic part is that is the only way he could get to me because I want 0 to do with him and blocked him lol

>>33500597
I'd say just ignore his posts but Idk if that's good enough advice.

>>33500457
I will, too.

>>33500622
...

I hate my job but it's also the best part of my day. I think it's the only time where there's maybe some sense of emotional stability in my environment. I really don't think it's supposed to be like that.

That’ll be a good scapegoat. I want to be out of here by December at the latest.

If it's not one thing it's a fucking nother.
But they say bad things come in 3's. This is number 3, so hopefully aside from the pain of loss I'll get a smooth ride for a few months.
I'm so sorry. I love you so much. I wish your last year with us could have been better.

absolute hate being a fucking autist

looked through my discord dms from not even 5 years ago and i just cringe. so many obvious social cues missed.. so much attention seeking on my part

Why did you have to leave me

>>33500678
I wanted you

Why did people hate the federal government since forever, and then people got pissy and upset over Elon and friends actually doing something that’s as good as the civil rights movement?

My head's too fucked up for this bullshit.

>>33500682
I believed everything you said

I feel like whenever I try expressing what I want she turns it around and actually ends up getting what she wants instead. Should I tell her that her ex warned me they would "communicate" about everything but never actually solve anything?

>>33492565
the future?
over.
the fighting?
ended.

>>33500691
Yea

Odio ese mujer porque esta a tu lado
Perdi tu amor, onions un pobre diablo
Sin tu amor yo no onions nada

>>33500708
Tu eres gay anon? O la otra mujer?

>>33500714
I'm straight. She's a woman.

>>33500717
So she's married to another woman? Idgi? Why didnt you confess in the first place.

>>33500721
It's not that easy to explain. Idk if they're married. She already knows I care about her on some other level.

>>33500689
You still should. And I still love you.

the less i become the more powerful i am

Ever since the pandemic and me getting introduced to so much information regarding women, extremist politics, education, ect., I honestly can't feel anything for people in general. Don't get me wrong, I care about people and children and some animals, but generally I have this level of disconnect, like I'm in another reality, watching from the outside. Lately all I have are invasive sexual or violent thoughts, mostly none of which make me happy with myself. I sometimes mull over the conversations I should have stood on, or the girls that I should have pursued, along with the failed pursuits & like clockwork I start comparing my life to others who have things and experiences that I never was able to cultivate for myself. My previous friend group imploded because of people prioritizing their romantic relationships over their friendships, and I ended up with only one person I can say understands me, a quality friend - but the pain of losing so many other longtime friends hurt me more than I think I can admit to myself.
In half a year I turn 32, and I think the cultivation of my pain and suffering is making me slowly lose my mind, more so than my suicidal ideation days as a teen.
I just wanted to live a simple life, with a simple job and a gf who loved me, but now I'm sure I'm more likely gonna end up one of those unloved creepy middle aged men, homeless and suffering from some undiagnosed disease. I'm too jaded to even want to self improve, I imagine all the people only coming to me about my looks or status if I gained those and feel resentful for that kind of love or adoration. I'm not gonna say I want to kill myself, but I really pray reincarnation or some type of reset is possible. Can't go much worse than this purposeless, sad existence I've carved out for myself.

>>33500746
That's called detachment, it comes with DID. Also a symptom of demonic oppression or possession.

>>33500730
I love you too, even when I wish I didn’t

>>33500782
>NTA
I wish this was me and her.

>>33492563 (OP)
I'm not sure if I'm depressed or actually broken, but I just don't feel "the urge" anymore. It still rises now and then of its own accord, but I have trouble trying to will it. If I see some hot chick, I'll think to myself that she seems hot, but there is no stirring down there. Porn was never really my thing (I think it's telecuckoldry to watch another man rail a woman you desire) but stills could do the trick until not too long ago. I don't know if it's the fact I'm getting up there in age and still hoping to be a dad, while dealing with the fact that even undesirables overlook me, or that I have gone on "sessions" in the past, or some other thing. It just feels miserable. Like not being able to do a sport or skill like you used to.

I know I'm not your favorite person...

>>33500631
unlike many anons here i have had many people offer so many nice things to me and i just fuckin ruin it completely

decided thats it not worth the hassle of making friends, talking to people on anon boards is good enough and my fuckups aren't tied to me as i'm anon

>>33500782
I am sorry and wish I could hug you.

>>33501108
I’ll miss you. Always.

>>33500272
Some people on the server think it was a joke, another thinks it was real because the person in question might be former IRA. And one of them thinks I'm a snitch for reporting to discord.

>>33501274
I mean, is it no big deal? Do you most people just know and hang out with people who have killed?

If you overthrow tyranny, then what? The interregnum is going to be just as miserable, if not worse. And afterward? Will the world be a better place? For who?

As an unbalanced person, I don't think there's a version of the world that suits me, because I'm inherently at odds with everything, including myself. I was actually happy during the pandemic. Finally, I had an excuse to not participate in all of this. That's the thing I hate. Participating in the charade. I'm her boyfriend. I'm his friend. I'm an employee. I'm mending things with my father. They're all just masks I try out, and none of them feel like me. It's just so tiring. I liked things better when they were falling apart.

>>33501307
I am so confused and so mentally inefficient to figure shit like this out. God I wish I wasn't such a defect.

>>33501310
"'If there is any hoppe it lies with the proles' - All that meant was that Winston wanted the proles to fight and die for him so he could say that the party didn't really invent the airplane"

Too weird for the normies, too normie for the weird

Part grief, part dread. I'm so, so heartbroken to be putting my dog down.
But the dread of having another one sprung on me looms. My family tends to just... Grab dogs on a whim. Two of the three dogs we have were unplanned (soon that will be one of two). I'm expecting someone - I already know who - will start combing facebook for local adoptions and just do it without considering anyone's opinion.

>>33501185
I have been missing you alot. If I imagine hard enough, I can feel you next to me. And then I cry.

Tfw why tf am I not over you?

>>33500116
Life is passing you by bitch, father time is merciless and unforgiving.

Get a better job. Lease a car. Wow, what year is that? How many miles? Pretty cool. Are you remote now? Two days in the office? Awesome. Just subscribed. No, I haven't started the prequel series yet. Let's go to this chain. They have cold foam drinks!

Holy fuck, it's a nightmare. The world we've built is one big temple to mediocrity.

>>33501467
Reads like an outtake from Late Registration

>>33501467
You'd get tired of playing around all the time with powers too. Boring people get bored.

>>33501388
I don't have grey hair. You're still a nobody and you've never truly lived, you're dead inside.

>>33501482
>You'd get tired of playing around all the time with powers too.

Nah. After reaching through your screen, inheriting your memories, your dreams, your fears and desires, and forgetting who I am for a thousand years condensed into a nanosecond, I'd come back up for air and individuate into a hundred million separate selves and spend the next eternity forgetting and hating and hurting and healing myself in attitudes of increasing extremeness.

>>33501066
How do you know? You wont if you don't try.

>>33501544
Dead, that's deep.

>>33501548
Did you just use me against me?

>>33501492
If your life is so great and your time so valuable then why are you here reading my shitposts? How come you aren't out there living your life while you still have your youth woman? Perhaps it's because you are not the hot shit you think you are and nobody wants to be around you.

"Turn that song off. NOW."

>>33500746
Ever since the covid hoax I stopped interacting with the goyim cattle. I just look through them and pretend they don't exist. I don't even greet them or acknowledge their presence. I'm not staring either, I'm just looking straight through them as if they weren't there.
My life has significantly improved. I have zero social anxiety now, not that I had much before but now I have zero.

I don’t think I could have kids

cant wait for me and my bf to break up over politics. ooh you dislike kamala for liking trannies when you NEVER hate on trannies when i hate on them huh? men are SO FUCKING DISINGENUOUS NAD RETARDED

>>33501624
That's okay. Me either.

I avoid sleeping until almost 5am every night because she haunts my dreams. Then I sleep in as late as possible because I want to see her again so bad.

>>33501658
wow queen ur so stacypilled edgy fedbased chudette core, want a medal?

>>33501680
I vented for myself you gay ass small dicked nigger faggot bitch

>>33501674
Ditto. My body is also shutting down due to some weird combination of depression, lust, and loneliness. After bedrotting through the afternoon, an anxiety attack forces me to the bathroom where I void the entire contents of my stomach. Then I return to bed and compulsively masturbate until I'm able to stop thinking about her for a few hours. My appetite is nonexistent and I'm losing weight rapidly.

>start sexting a girl on snapchat that i met on tiktok
>she lives 10 hours and 3 states away
>know that i'll never meet up with her and enjoy the sexting and pictures she sends
>she makes a tiktok asking girls what to wear because she has a date with a guy coming up

It's annoying the fuck out of me how, jealous I guess, I feel. It's not like she's my girlfriend, and she even told me she likes being slutted out. Yet the idea of her going out with someone is pissing me off. Maybe it's because I'm not meeting any women in my area that wanna sext and hook up. I also think it's because if this date goes well, she'll unadd me and not sext me anymore. It sucks and I hate how attached I am, but all I can do is roll with it.

>>33501698
iktf, when she was still on the fence about giving me a chance I was improving pretty well in life and then everything torpedoed the second she cut me off. Maybe in a few months I'll try sending her a text, assuming she didn't block my number like she did on social media.

>>33501680
Hey man you dont get pain of being a boring whore… its really hard work

>>33501719
Do 20 situps fat boy

>>33501725
Errrms no hows about you go back

>>33501746
That's literally nothing wtf is wrong with you even a fatass can do 20 situps

>>33501761
u are very clearly not old enough to be on here

>>33501769
I'm 31

>>33501714
Alternately, the guy(s) she dates will be oblivious to the fact that she's sexting you on the side. They'll come and go as they lose their novelty and she discards them, but you'll remain on her mind because she hasn't actually fucked you yet.

>>33501771
prove it

>>33501781
I was in 4th grade when 9/11 happened

>>33501761
And you cant leave unfortunately, dont you have some sad edit to make about how much of a blackpilled chud outsider you are while you sit and wait for an orbiter to message you

>>33501784
I don't have orbiters I just shitpost on here and hope for things to get better. When I got with my bf I blocked every guy that liked me over a year ago

>>33501783
that doesn’t prove anything, just that u can do simple math.

>>33501790
>i dont CURRENTLY have orbiters
ftfy
still proving my point your a larping whore

>>33501776
True. Thanks for the showing me a silver lining

>>33501837
lol whyd u hide ur height and weight?

>>33501841
cuz of snoopy niggers like you

>>33501848
are u fat?

>>33501856
I'm literally spoken for what do you care

>>33501837
>1994
sup, auntie

Losing weight was actually pretty shitty. I got lots of weird or insensitive remarks, certain people became outright hostile, and being approached by men who wouldn't really talk to me before felt gross. I don't feel as motivated to reach my goal weight anymore.

>>33501897
That sucks. What was your initial motivator?

I HATE DOGS AND DOG OWNERS

And there she goes. 15 years, and now she's gone forever. This fucking hurts.

>>33501837
>>33501783
I was also born in 94 and I just started 2nd grade when 9/11 happened
Your parents put you in school early as fuck, what would that make you 3 when you started kindergarten?

I'd be so much happier if I had a lobotomy. Then I could just chase good feels all day and not worry about anything, not even my own well-being.

God I don’t why you let me ruin my life with those drugs. I don’t know why you didn’t protect me. I don’t even know if you’re real or why I still bother when you didn’t protect me and never show yourself to me. Please kill me so I don’t have to wake up ever again.

Oh yeah, baby.

Bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks.

>>33502225
Lick on the nuts and suck the dick

Feeling antisocial right now. And I don't mean in the colloquial sense, I mean in the "Antisocial Personality Disorder" sense.

I'm like a fucking ASPD case except that I feel remorse. I want to stop feeling fucking remorse and empathy. I want to break free of these shackles.

I wish I could of shared today with you. It would of been fun.

You know who's the problem? Men is...

Why did the thief rob the news stand? He wanted to take a stand.

I miss your smile, voice, eyes. I miss your body, falling asleep with you, and gaming with you. I miss hanging out and talking with you. I miss you and I miss us.

There, I said it.

What does playing in the snow do? Free's you...

Why do people get vertigo? Because the whirled turns...

Is that heart-on for me?

Yes, yes it is

What animals will make you die fastest? Rots.

What kind of bank account does the Sun have? Savings, daylight savings...

What can you never call a sex robot? A hobot.

I'mma try the Costanza method of doing the opposite of what I'd normally do and see how it works out. My life is dogshit. I got nothing to lose.

I still think about what the letter would have said, what was in the package

If you think you have balls, don't get testi.

Fuck each other's brains out and care for each other all day. Dream good dreams. I can't wait.

What do soldiers and whores have in common? They love being Trained...

>>33502321
Kill yourself you fucking schizo.

>>33502426
I say one pun, another anon says 50.

Calm your tits

>>33502432
That's what I do.
>NTA

>>33502299
Kek

>>33502437
Uh huh sure bud

>>33502520
You good?

>>33502526
I am.
What anon said was pretty dumb and there wasnt anything to really say to that.

>>33502598
I said that and I meant: That's what I do, write puns.

Disturbing how often these family members stal
k
and eaesvdrop any opportunity they can get.

I need to move away and out of this place, I do not like this type of behavior in my life. It causes an unordinary amount of stress that I can't even function properly. I feel like everything is possible OUTSIDE of this hellhole

>have siblings who are overweight
>parents raised us eating food without nutrition
>too much fast food
>way too much sugar
>somehow the only one at a normal weight
>years later they still buy idiotic foods
>nothingness purchases that are literal pure junk foods
how do you make a person continue the same food purchasing decisions that there's something wrong here.

How does one do it consecutively for 20+ years and just not go... hmm, maybe I shouldn't just buy the fat fuck food. maybe the good nutritious food that costs the same --- maybe buy that or none at all.

What makes people buy fat fuck food, I just have to know. What part of the brain doesn't understand its fat fuck food -- you raised 3 obese children and one isn't obese. How do you not buy fat fuck food. I'll have to feed myself and it'll mean I can't save because fat fuck food enters the house and it never STOPS

>>33502681
how do you make a person who continues to make the same*

>>33502635
So why are you freaking out at me and telling me to kill myself when I posted a single pun

>>33502684
the same food purchasing decisions that there's something wrong there. *

>>33502686
That wasn't me, hence the
>NTA

>>33502652
I am going through that too but if it's her doing it to me then at least I understand why and have compassion for her. I wish there was something I can do to help her but the best thing I can do is tell her i understand and that I'm here when she needs me.

>>33502689
Incredible how text is the shittiest form of communication that does not adequately portray how a person feels, intent, perspective and it's so easy to be misinterpreted, misconstrued, misspercieved. That coupled with being on an anonymous forum.

>>33502689
So I am sorry for the misunderstanding. I enjoy your puns.

>>33502710
I appreciate you, gawd.

Q: What can you do?

a. Grab a kazoo
b. Piss in a shoe
c. I'm looking for Stu
d. Don't ever talk to me again

>>33502789
Lashing out isn't going to change that you love me

im ugly and schizophrenic im going to kill myself soon

Why do you get so upset and jealous about who I pay attention to sexually. If we were dating I wouldn't talk to another girl.

>>33502824
I fucking hate you. I’ll never want you back. Kill yourself.

>>33502896
The reason you're upset is because you love me and you want me back.

You want my love and commitment? Do the same for me.

AAAAAH WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME I HAVE NO FATHER YOU MADE ME LIKE THIS WHERE'S MY LOVE WHERE'S MY AFFECTIONN UNBORN ME RETURN ME TO MY MOTHER'S WOMB

>>33502992
>I have no father
Hnnnnng, urge to take care of you in EVERY way just multiplied.

>>33503022
WHAAAT DOES SOMEONE LIEK YOOOOU WANT

I NEEEEEED TO RETURN TO DUST

PLEASE UNSEW ME, TAKE ME APART AND DISCARD ME, I NEED TO GET RIPPED APART AND DISMEMBERED

what a horrible night to be sad, lonely, and horny

I'm currently having some serious heart issues. Scar tissue is slowly forming and its making the my heart pump less and less efficiently. This is already stressful as it is, but now i'm getting some really dark dreams.

Two nights ago I had a dream I was attending my own funeral both from the casket and from the audience. Last night I had a dream that I realized "my time" had come so I went out into the snow, down the street to a signpost, the took a picture of myself and the street name to send to someone. Then... I died. I'm very, very stressed out about it.

>>33503130
holy shit please go see a doctor anon and get help, don't die bro

I hate you

>>33503168
Me too

>>33503036
My Maria, My Moon

Everything can be perfect in every way but a single thing missing can override the rest. A 'happiness' only she can provide, but it's more than a provision or something that could be replicated in some other way. It's her. Who she is.

So when I'm asked how I am, I find it very difficult to answer. Do I talk about all the good without acknowledgment of that space that I physically see and internally feel where she is missing that hurts?

I dislike dishonesty. I prefer not to be dishonest and say something like I'm fine. It'd be nice to not have to think or talk about this ever again and just live in the good. Once she is home things will change and I can just have fun. I look forward to that

>>33502824
Michael

Bang bang
Boom boom
Pow pow

>>33503187
HUUUUH

>>33503187
I don't write shit anonymously here about you. Not now, not that I now know. You're a genius and I need your help or the world will continue to burn, take comfort in knowing you're irreplaceable to me. Forget the past.

>>33503193
Come to me.

>>33503130
Get medical attention NOW. I will heal you too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SiylvmFI_8&list=RD1SiylvmFI_8&start_radio=1

>>33502007
I wanted to feel prettier, plus I'm into sports and carrying the extra 40 pounds on hikes felt awful

>>33503150
>>33503619
I should've prefaced that I have sought medical attention (which is why I know I have scar tissue in my heart). It's not something that will kill me right now, just really slow me down.

It just really disturbed me that this unsettling news was accompanied by equally unsettling dreams. The dream where I die in the snow was especially scary. The way I describe it makes it sound like a quick dream, but it lasted for what felt like hours. A slow, painful walk to the signpost to just... die. It was the fact that I chose to do it, nothing made it happen. It's weighing so heavily on my mind.

>>33503567
>>33503619
Add me from the discord we talked on.

>>33503626
Visualize health. I will try to heal you.

>>33503638
Thank you for that. I'm an angel, I'm your friend, I'm not messing with you. I don't have discord anymore.

>>33503660
Then make one. Take action, and if there is not then I know you are a random anon larping

When you come to me, we heal each other.

>>33503673
You can hack me on there?
I will anyway...

I failed. I never had it in me. Every single person I ever asked for help or advice told me to give up, that I wasn't good enough for my dream. Nobody believed in me, not even my own fucking mother and father. My sister and brother told me I was too dumb. My friends told me it was unrealistic. Literally nobody thinks anything of me. I am the butt of every family joke. And I cut all of them out of my life to really try. I got my own job, my own place. I went to school. And then I lost two jobs. And I failed out of school twice in a row. I'm living in my car on the last 200 dollars I have left typing this. Three years down the drain and all I have to show for it is that every single fucking person I have ever loved and cared about was completely right to think absolutely nothing of me. I don't think it is possible to hate a human more than I hate myself right now

>>33503673
So what is your discord?

>>33503713
FromSunToMoon
If you are her you should know this

>>33503698
I love you anon. I do. You are important to me and you can get your shit together. $200 buy a gym membership to shower and go to the thrift store for some clothes for interviews or odd jobs. I am the same as you, no one believes in me. So I have to believe in myself.

>>33503724
>FromSunToMoon
I added you. Now you know...

Thank you for freeing me from you, Mike. Take care. I wish you the best in life, I truly do.

>>33503732
And I unadded you because you lied and said you were her when you are not. Plus you were being creepy and weird.

I choose my Maria.
I choose my moon

I won't be tricked and misled in attempts to take us away from each other

>>33503761
I know you are not her because you're unable to verify a simple thing that she would know. You wouldn't simply take a picture of yourself to prove you're her.

Being dishonest and manipulative is something I do not abide especially when it comes to being a POS to hurt how Maria and I feel about each other.

>>33503761
Manipulative bullshit larp lying that you are her.
Fuck off

Haven't played video games for an entire day so far. I'll stay strong and try and try not to relapse.

>>33503763
>>33503770
>>33503767

Thank you for releasing me from the spell of Satan, from you. Your Maria will not come back to you. That is guaranteed now. xx

>>33503786
I know Maria will come home to me.

I know what you just said seal the deal to show who you are and what you will do in attempts to manipulate her emotions and narrative.

Manipulative, deceptive, spineless.

>>33503795
Be well. You are an angry man and will be a wolf in your next life. I told Maria never to talk to you again.

Here is for Maria to see what you lied to were her and what a manipulative deceptive piece of shit you are.

>>33503804
Why would I care?

I won't enter your dreams again.

Here is for Maria to see that you lied you were
her and what a manipulative deceptive piece of shit you are

In celtic traditions I am both the Sun and the Moon.

>>33503810
You lied to yourself 'Batman'

>>33503811
Welcome moon and star.

Maria, here is c being a manipulative creep.

>>33503820
Yeah, you are not Michael. Nice try though doppelganger. lol

>>33503818
Thank you. I had a scare there, I thought MY Michael was dying.

We had the same argument about noise how many times now? You always get back to doing the same shit within a week. And I keep idiotically expecting you to fucking keep your word, but you never do. And when, after a long period of letting shit slide, I finally say something as disrespectful as "could you keep it down" you pout, act dramatic ("we can't do anything in this house"), pretend that I asked you to stop talking which I didn't... Wtf is wrong with you? You're a fucking adult. How many times do we have to have the same conversation, only for you to go back on your word, and when I finally make the smallest push back, you guilt trip me?

>>33503826
Dig yourself a deeper hole to rot in.
Maria despises manipulative liars like you.

>>33503838
Lol

I'm her 'mother'

Going for a poo. No blood in my stool for the last few days

>>33503846
Fuck. It is back

Remember all those years ago?
Remember how you dominated me, just for me to dominate you? You had these expectations that were very disturbing. I went along for the ride as I was trained to do.

You know that they all want to kill you, right? My merciful nature is the only reason you are still alive.They all want to drive a stake through your heart but I stop them. I protect you because you are the most evil of all evil people alive.

If I can reach such a wretched creature, such as yourself, on some level... I can reach anyone.

You touch you burn you touch you burn...

>>33503852
You always do this manipulative thing. That's why you are the most evil being alive but I am now free of you. You are incapable of honesty.

I hope that was enough to save your soul from eternal damnation. <3

The manipulation will never work again, the spell is broken. Now you are destined for death.

>>33503792
The ending of the songs lyrics
>Mm, mm

So I know she is drawn to me the same way I'm drawn to her.

>>33503937
You will always be the wolf but I am more than just the moon. When you die, the world will finally heal.

>>33503956
No, the actions that happened tonight showed he is a manipulative lying piece of shit and the most disgusting way possible.

Maria's my moon, I trust her.
She knows who I am to her.

>>33503973
Yet she doesn't love you anymore. That's the truth..You think I am her. My songs, everything. You are dead to me. So thank you for ridding the evil that is you, from the world. I know you hate yourself 'Mike' and there is a very good reason for that. You know exactly who I am. The sooner you die, the better... and deep down, you know it.

You always say it's getting worse and worse for you but you can't help what you do. That is because you are actually something unholy and evil. Will you die soon and the world will celebrate!

I have reflected yourself back to you. It's what you do in life that matters. You've only done evil acts and if you don't stop, it will just get worse for you.

Mike is a very angry, bitter gay man who is a pedophile. It's just the truth. He likes to hurt women and children (I've witnessed him saying despicable things to a child) and is the primary source of evil in the world. The sooner he dies, the better.

>>33504041
>>33504048
>>33504057
>>33504083
All deceitful manipulative lies. You are a piece of shit and she sees that.

I am the love of her life

You are just a piece of rot who is showing his true colors.

>>33503894
Youre a wretched vile cretin

(Ex) GF and I broke up a few days ago. She's moving out today. She has extremely low emotional intelligence which has always been a problem in the relationship.
As a man, I need to know if I'm overreacting or something, because that's what she makes me feel like. This is what I've written up:

I only ever wanted you to love me, and I only ever wanted to love you. I just wanted you to show me that you cared. That you actually wanted to proactively keep me. That if I withdrew due to feeling sad and underappreciated and unloved, that you would pursue and care about my wellbeing, like I always did with you. But you either don't, or are mentally unable to. You have never communicated like an adult with me. With every issue I've ever brought up, not only were they never resolved or really was there ever even an attempt other than empty words, but when I'd say those things to you, you would have nothing to say back. Nothing. You would not agree, nor would you disagree. You would stand there and have me talk at you, and the talk would go on. But you would have no feedback. So, I just have to assume that everything I've brought up as an issue with you is 100% true and you are unwilling or unable to improve those things. Not even just to improve, but just to even recognize the issue, so that I would feel heard and understood. You have never initiated conversations, or wanted to understand or comfort me. You simply did not care about the negative things I was feeling, or were unable to care. I am worth more than the base necessities that you do of dinners, dishes, towels, and semi-clean cat litter. I deserve to have an emotional connection with someone who wants to have an emotional connection with me. I can't be the only one to show love. I can't be the one who forces you to hug me or kiss me or be friendly in the mornings or even want to sleep beside me. I can't request those things from you as a favor and call that real.

>>33504424
Cont.

I am completely excluded from the love that you claimed you still have for me yesterday. I know in your mind, doing those base necessities and caring a little here and there is what you consider love, but there's no emotional connection. To me, that's not love. I need you to want to love me, and to want to show me, and you don't. I deserve to be shown love and affection, like I've given to you. All I want is a real connection, not merely a coexistence of shared responsibilities and shared Instagram memes. I need love. I deserve love.

>>33504125
She clearly hates you, you gay pedo.

>>33504132
You're a subhuman disaster that literally grooms children. Burn in hell.

>>33504275
Enjoy hell. :)

>>33504674
>>33504682
Not true.

Maria knows and loves all of me. Just as I do her.

I trust my Maria over your attempts to control, manipulate, and decieve her.

>>33504749
Then why are you writing her here instead of talking to her? No one cares about your dumb Maria who clearly doesn't like you. Loser.

I'm not swayed by empty words. Our feelings for each other have not changed since we last saw each other. I choose faith, trust , and love. We will experience the rest in time.

>>33504850
If she cared about you, you'd know. She clearly doesn't so here you are. Facts. I bet she blocked you.

There are many people that want you dead. No lie.

Virginia... West Virginia. CIA

You're on their radar.

This time I give them the go ahead. I no longer protect you.

I'm just really sorry I let you go on as long as I did.You've done untold damage to the world.

Anyone who has cared for you, you have tried to destroy. You are a gay man that baits women for sadistic purposes. No one will ever love you again.

You've been exposed. Now die.

Even in silence I trust Maria overall else.

I won't allow others distortions to change how I see her or how she sees me.

All of these horrid words expose your attempts to manipulate and be a piece of shit.

She sees this and what you are trying to do, your deceptions and manipulations, your cruelty and what a horrible person you are.

>>33505051
She hates you or you wouldn't have to talk into the void here, delusional fuck.

>>33505065
Maria loves me, not you. I talk to her all the time.

I hope you rot in your filth, Mike.

I trust her over your empty desperate hateful words attempt to manipulate and distort.

You messaged me and lied and said you were her. That is deceptive, conniving, manipulative, and shows who you are as a person.

You're a piece of shit manipulative lying person.

Maria hates people like that.

She sees what you're doing here. All the things you've said, lies manipulations. Actions you've done.

I have stayed in truth and trust of her. Against your manipulations and lies.

I choose her overall else.

She remembers me and who I am to her.
I trust her over your lies and manipulations.

Maria hates you, that's why you will never talk to her again.

It's an end of an era, an evil era, you raging homosexual pedo.

Keep digging yourself deeper into the hole with your lies.

She sees who you are now.

Pathetic, spineless, manipulative, deceptive, liar

>>33505144
>>33505178

She chooses me, over you and always will. That's why you will never talk to her again.

>>33505178
You're the antichrist.

>>33505188

I trust her because i truly know her just as she knows me.

I have stayed for her and loved her over everything. I have kept my promises to her

That is love.


What you have done is been manipulative, deceptive, cruel, spineless

This is who she sees you as, you have exposed yourself and who you are here.

She would never choose someone like you

Everything you are she hates.

Everything is going to be okay.

>>33505199
Trust me, she hates you and that's why you no longer talk. You're insane to think she is writing you here in secret schizo messages. She doesn't love you. Get over it now because eventually you will have to.

>>33505213
Keep typing to yourself, I got no more time to waste on delusional idiots.

You're a horror show.

The way you talk to others, exposes who you are. Good people can see how you are.

Like I said. Your actions here show her who you are.

Perhaps you were the one making all of the posts. I wouldn't be surprised if you were being manipulative creating all of those threads in that way as well just as you lied saying you were her when you added me on discord.

I trust her and that she is coming home to me.

I love you Maria and I will not allow a lying deceptive manipulative person to distort how I see you. I trust that you will not allow him to distort how you see me any further and you will be able to separate his lies and manipulations from any perceptions that have been polluted by him.

He demasked and shown his true colors now.

Maria, I promise I will take care of you. Message me when you are ready and have gotten rid of him and his manipulative deceptive filth.

>>33505255
Why won't she talk to you Mike? You won't answer that.

Maria, I am stronger than him in every way and I'm resolute in our love.

Remember the last time you looked into my eyes and what you told me. Remember how you felt with me during our time together. Remember me before his distortions lies and manipulations.

Remember me for who I truly am just as I know who you truly are to me.

I love you.

More like fromthesewerstomoon/sun

>>33505268
Stalker, she don't want you.

>>33505268

Why won't she talk to you Mike? You won't answer that.

I'm not a stalker. That is a distortion You're attempting to put on me.

I've stayed resolute in my feelings for her. It wasn't wrong then, it's not wrong now. That's true love, staying true to each other even when there's horrible evil people who try to tear you apart with their lies and manipulations that you have done to us.

I would not be surprised if you were the one who was making all of those threads. Messaging me on discord and saying you were her was conniving manipulative and every trait that sheet detests.

If anything you are the stalker. You are the obsessive manipulative conniving deceptive stalker. She will escape you. She is stronger than your lies and manipulations. You will be ghosted and dropped because she sees who you are.

She will come home to me because she knows me for who I truly am. Our love will prevail and we will outlast you as your left to rot in your filth that you've created.

Keep digging yourself a hole and showing her what a manipulative liar you are.

Give her more reasons to feel sick in her stomach when she looks and thinks of you because she sees who you are and feels tricked, decieve, manipulated by you.

You are rot Colton. A cancer to cut out, a parasite that will lie, manipulate, decieve, connive to trap her and control her feelings and choices.

I'm so sorry she was tricked by you.

It's going to be okay Maria I promise

>>33505316
Lol

We're just waiting patiently for you to die (it won't be long now)

>>33505301
Like you were ghosted and dropped?

Go away Mike.

I have faith because she now sees the conniving deceiving actions you have done to manipulate her and control her, trapping her.

She is now seeing all the things you have done, all the lies you have told, all the ways in which you have manipulated her emotions and how she feels about me with distortions and lies.

>>33505535
Projection

>>33505620
Fact. You added me on discord and told me you w
Were her. You've made manipulative deceiving posts to control her emotions and to push me to respond in certain ways.

You are conniving deceiving dishonest manipulative.

Maria will read this thread and she see who you really are.

Colton, you're everything she has ever detested.