Thread 33504444

WHERES THE GET IT OFF YOUR CHEST THREAD WHEN YOU NEED IT BOYS

This guy might try to kill me this is for the internet to know if i die

>>33504444 (OP)
I need people to invest in my app but nobody cares. It's going to be really successful too. I guess people just hate being rich.

Old head at my job thats suppose to listen to me is insubordant all the fucking time today i had it. I'm cool most of the time fuck that

If i die suddenly it was him

>>33504490
lol classic
he's just bitter he got left behind

Hopefully they don't let him go though lol I'm serious but atleast talk some sense into him

I wish I didnt live in this city and state anymore. I wish people weren't such gossipy rumor spreading bored with their lives type of people and they weren't so fucked up they tried sabatoging me at work. Ffs grow the fuck up ffffuckkkkking hell who the fuck cares if im quiet and genuine and dont like gossiping. Fuckkkkk.

The trick is to make freinds with everyone at work that you can and no rumor will ever effect you

>>33504548
Thats not true, they'll still talk shit behind your back, I've seen it first hand. It's a toxic environment and toxic mentality they have. Even the clients that go there are like that too. I want to quit but other jobs wont pay the same and I'll have to start over, they probably have the same type of environment. Id give anything to just be a housewife, Hikikomori and or work from home

>>33504559
Hit me up I got you

Last day today

It was all a lie. Sleeping with a bunch of different girls didn't make me feel like a chad. I should have tried to find genuine love when I was younger and built something, now all the women my age either have kids or have been ran through more than I've ran through women.

Don't be me. You're better off alone.

>>33504641
You should just get a slut fetish because you are already a slut it would really get rid of your angst

>>33504641
Literally every whore says this but then waxes poetic about how much “fun” they had. Turns out you don’t get to have your cake and eat it too.

>>33504667
I've considered it. I can deal with a slut as long as she didnt fuck negroes.
>>33504681
It was never fun. All of them I tried to build something serious with but it never worked out, and I guess I'm the problem. It's just funny considering I spent my teenage years so anxious that I'd be a loser in my friend group or never live up to my father's reputation (was a model in his youth and got around)

When in reality my dad told me about a year ago he's glad he met my mom before he got too out of control with women and my friends are all in long term relationships and seem relatively happy. Strange world

>>33504708
Kek pretty sure I know who you are

>>33504641
Lol

loser

>>33504724
You absolutely don't but tell me my initials
>>33504727
Seems that way.

>>33504708
Your father is a psychopath, as are you.

>>33504736
You like to lie about your name and have a stalker

>>33504744
Because he was banging chick's in the 80s as a model? Yeah put him in a straight jacket

R&R

>>33504746
First part is partially true but I definitely don't have a stalker. I'm not the kid of someone famous

>>33504574
How

Im a femanon neet and just want a loser like me but I'm so socially awkward that I can't look. I want genuine love but Im socially paralyzed, the last chance I had was another neet who was my only friend for a year. Telling him that I liked him ended in me wanting to die so I never want to do that again, and hes not even my friend anymore so I have no one now besides a couple old friends who are normies and talk to me rarely. I only play games and cant talk to people outside of a shared activity. I made a twitter account to try to get used to being seen and saying things outside of that context. I get so anxious just thinking about it. Anytime I comment something on tiktok and it gets a like, I delete it.

I wanna be different so bad but I can barely handle this

>>33504777
Are you ugly/fat? Not making a joke.

>>33504760
Glad you aren't who I'm thinking of then (asian manwhore with so many bodies he lost count and thinks he's nonbinary)

>>33504791
Lol no. That would have been weird

>>33504789
Not fat. Mid face. Just hate talking to people and I can't even text regularly, only plays games and talk because the game unfreezes my brain

>>33504806
I only ask if you're fat or chopped because usually anxiety stems from lack of confidence, and being chopped definitely destroys confidence.

>>33504846
Wrong. Anxiety stems from worrying about the future.

>>33504753
You are both psychopaths. Just be honest for once in your life.

>>33504449
>>33504495
You're already dead, stupid.

>>33504928
Literally how

>>33504928
And if you lack confidence you are more prone to worry about the future, no?

>>33504951
Everybody knows the truth. It's not complicated.

>>33504961
The state of the world makes everyone anxious. You must be an old guy.

You're not going to like what is coming for you:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyDfgMOUjCI

>>33504966
Worlds always like this

>>33504456
Give us the pitch

>>33504641
>find genuine love
Explain what this is

>>33504963
No I literally have no idea, are you saying everyone who bangs women is a psychopath?

>>33504983
You actually want to be around a girl not just because she has a vagina but because you actually like being around her and feel wanted for more than your dick.

>>33504777
>777
>witnessed

Are you employed or are you a pure NEET?

>>33504975
So yeah, you're an old dumb guy.

>>33504989
Who in your life have you ever felt that about, besides your parents?

>>33504986
Yes, the clue is in the word - bang - bang

>>33504997
>grammar nazi losing thier mind
You are implying everyone who uses slang is a psychopath, you psychopath.

>>33504994
Almost everyone, besides psychopaths.

>>33505002
???

>>33504999
No, I'm saying you detach yourself from the person and that makes you a psychopath.

>>33505003
Psychopath doesn't know he is a psychopath.

>>33505004
>>33505002
Did you just learn the word "psycopath" today? Like unironically, stop being a dumb nigger and just spit out what you're trying to get at

>>33504993
Unironically the world is the safest and richest it has ever been.

>>33505004
It's slang you fucking moron

>>33504994
I've felt that about a couple girls. But one way or another it didn't work out.

I need to accept that I'm a fucking third wheel loser who can't have close friends, and that my friends would rather hang out with their other less-annoying friends. I should embrace my autism and focus on solitary hobbies instead of expecting closeness from other people.

>>33505007
Apparently new for you, you don't even know how to spell it. You are one. Many such cases here, you're a subhuman without a soul.

>>33505015
>you don't even know how to spell it.
Literal grammar nazi
Kys

>>33505009
You don't seem to know much.

The Doomsday Clock is currently set at 89 seconds to midnight. This is the closest it has ever been to midnight since its creation in 1947, according to the Bulletin of the Atomic Scientists.

>>33505015
This nigger is unironically going crazy on 4channel over slang and a misspelling instead of just getting to the point. I want to believe you're trolling but it's not even a good troll if you are

>>33505024
You're trying to school people on words, telling them it's new to them and you can't even spell it.

>>33505030
You're just dumb and bitter that you're stupid.

>>33505034
Dumb nigger can't fathom the idea that multiple people are calling him out for being retarded

>>33505027
Oh shit, I never thought about it like this, yep, we're doomed. I can't believe this.

>>33505014
Try closeness with other people.
Not every group is capable.

>>33505039
Again, you're just stupid and it's only you that is invested in this.

>>33505041
I bet you think you know more than them

>>33505027
What is the difference between a homeless guy holding a cardboard sign saying the end is near and the doomsday clock?

>>33505061
No you blew my mind. You know way more than me. I never even know about any of this stuff til now. You got it all figured out. How'd you get this smart anyhow?

>>33505061
You need to take your meds dude.

>>33505066
>>33505069

An education, which you do not have, sean.

>>33505081
Everyone who points our you're dumb needs meds. We know how you are.

>>33505046
When I do that I end up pushing other people away. I'm too intense for them.

>>33504991

Pure NEET of 5 years. I'm leeching off of my parents now, trying to go for NEETBux but that means talking to people so I haven't worked on it much there.

>>33505091
Why would you bother getting certifications when we're all about to get nuked? You wasted the last of your life, Anonymous.

Can we go back to our regularly scheduled venting now?

I think I like being single better maybe, but God, I wish I was a DINK (Dual Income No Kids), financially speaking.

>>33505109
You've never heard of people getting an education because they love learning? Of course you haven't. Have you ever read a book in your life?

>>33505139
I like learning too. I'm very educated if you mean self-learning counts. I'm basically learning or doing chores whenever I'm not posting here. I know most of the countries.

bruhhhhhhhhhhh

>>33505153
Learning about sex through porn lol

Everybody can see what you are.

>>33505172
>Bruhhhhhhh
What are you a normalfag

Is El short for El O El?

>>33505269
An elevated railroad or section of railroad, especially that in Chicago.

>>33505269
El is a common Semitic root for god, and it is related to the Arabic word Allah. In the Hebrew Bible, El Shaddai (Almighty God) and El Elyon (God Most High) are also ways to refer to Yahweh.

>>33505298
What a narcissistic little hoe.

>>33505306
You asked what it meant and didn't like the answer. You're stupid.

>>33505323
I did like the answer, gave me a boaner

>>33505027
Nothing ever happens, unc.

>>33505091
Shoutout to Sean Ranklin

>>33505139
There's a difference between learning and "education"

School exists as a legal thing, you got there, get the certificate, you leave

Actually learning requires love something which most schooling institutions lack.

Errybody kno Justin bieber is my cousin

>>33504444 (OP)(Checked)
I fumbled a girl at work
Upside is my job overpaid me considerably

>>33505349
Higher learning teaches you to think, despite your uneducated opinion on the matter. You should just go to some homeless person for legal or medical advice though since you know education doesn't matter.

>>33505377
That you raped
>>33505325
faggot

>>33505379
Ed sheeran was never paid.

>>33505403
Your such a freaking hoe…I love it

It's always around day 6 of avoiding porn that I start getting a craving. It's not a need per se, but it's enough to stop me from getting into anything. Do I indulge in anime tiddies or do I veg out to some fucking Dark Age England trivia videos whilst barely being able to pay attention?

My pee smells so good. It smells like a burger with a side of fries

>>33505408
Thankfully I'm not ginger, though I wish my missus was

>>33504444 (OP)
Dear President Trump.

It bothers me that Hunter Biden thinks he has leverage over you. I hope however becomes the MAGA heir is cleansed of that.

Salvador Alvarado.

Men get away with shit cuz they count on us being the bigger person
Fuck you chink I'll give her a full update. Be scared.

>>33505567
Whoa your racist. Not all men are are evil. Just like not all women are evil cunts like you.

>>33505521
Ah yes... the controversy surrounding me.

>>33505518
Your missus? What are you doing fumbling girls at work then?

>>33505420
You wish.

>>33505567
Oh no... a chigga got to her?

pedos stay mad

I'm not trolling for saying the word chink. I just think Asian malesare cringe. Get over it janny

>>33505598
I no longer have a missus or a ginger missus, if it were up to me, I would have married the Ginger missus 3 years ago.
She however went weird and I was too naive to not shut down all the awful shit she conjured in her head immediately and tried to "fix" everything instead of telling her to shut up and literally never say half of what she said to me ever again

>>33505658
faggot

Thanks for inspiring me. By the way, I think I will message her and let her know about everything you did, "Kyle" lmao

>>33505677
No u, fag get your fucking cock out right now

>>33504641
>or have been ran through more than I've ran through women.
>i was a manwhore but n-not like those women who did the exact same thing as me

it's over.

Just remembered a time and I am really not handholdless.

So overall am not a virgin, have kissed a woman, have hugged women, and have held a woman's hand.

Why do people act like they are incels again? If I am autistic and I disqualify as an incel. I have no idea why people freak out about this. I think you all are trying too hard and need to loosen up.

>>33505975
It's not over.

This is just petty but I was thinking about it and it mad me mad and disappointed all over again
>growing up taken to large family parties for graduations
>all my cousins and seconds cousins had these big parties even if they were in the same year
>when you get into college you got a crate filled with things the family put together for you
>get told to study hard i'll get my own crate one day
>years later already accepted into a school and about to graduate
>graduate and nothing happen, no party, no reunion, nothing just a 'good job'

For year I felt like shit like I had done something wrong if a dozen other family members to get this party and crate tradition, I got nothing. I realize now I didn't do anything wrong, It was my fucking faggot ass parents that did this. How would I have set up my own family reunion? That the kinda shit I now know your parent are supposed to facilitate, they had the numbers but never gave me any when we switched from a landline to cells. I wasn't supposed to find and fill my own crate of clothes and stuff I would need for college my faggot ass parents were supposed to do that but just didn't.

I have been dating my girlfriend for four months now, and she complains and gets emotionally upset about her ex (often to the point of tears) almost daily. As context, her ex and her dated for around 3 years and they were engaged for the last yearish. Their engagement broke off in January and we met in March. At first I was accepting and would listen as she vented, but the near daily occurrence of this is getting to be draining and I feel its a strain on our relationship. Its selfish, but it bothers me at this point, and I wish she would focus on our relationship now rather than be consumed by the negative emotions she feels around her past relationship. In all other ways this person is pretty much perfect for me, I just wish she could get past this.

>>33506026
Take her to a psychologist, drop her off. That or spank her hard unironically. She's basically not healed, being retarded and is self sabotaging the relationship.

Hope everything is alright.

>>33506034
In her defense her ex is fairly unhinged and is spiraling. She lost her friend group in the breakup, and one of their (her and her ex's) mutual good friends just died of an overdose. She's been barred from attending the funeral by her ex, and her former friend group has also kind of distanced themselves from her. I get that that is an incredibly hard thing, and I went through a very similar situation about 4 years ago with a break up. Ive tried talking to her about not letting these people (who are honestly pretty shitty and toxic) have so much sway over her life and her emotions. But inevitably we end up in the same space where she's upset and venting to me in the next day or two. I feel selfish for saying im frustrated, but I am. I dont want to leave her because like I said she's amazing outside of this. I just dont know how long I put up with this before I should walk.

>>33504444 (OP)

I got notified about a layoff a couple weeks ago, but my boss connected me with his buddy who wants to hire me at this place 6 hours away. I only have a month to move but it's exciting in a way because I get to start over fresh + my coworker helped me negotiate my salary because he said i was getting gypped before.

Anyway I had an "interview" with the boss's friend and he already wanted me so it was pretty quick and easy. I know it's kind of a yellow flag that he's so eager to have me on but 2bh I will take it because I've heard the job market is abysmal right now. I don't really have a lot of experience and I've just been getting lucky with my jobs the past 2-3 times, all of which were through networking btw.

I've never been "qualified" on paper for any job I've applied to. It's basically all networking. Kind of a blackpill, but it's a blackpill you should be aware of so you don't waste a bunch of time.

I still had to fill out the application, which was hard because I wasn't really qualified for this. Then a recruiter called me telling me just that. I explained, and he said he will talk to my boss. It's just embarrassing and stressful because what is even the point of an application? Just look at my resume. Fuck's sake.

I don't want this back and forth because I have one month to move and I'm already giving up this nice cheap place in a walkable city. I just wish I had more time to look for a job in this area, but I already know that if I leave the company I will never be employed again. It's a bit cynical but I just can't imagine.

>>33505510
I hope you've been using condiments.

broke up with my avoidant girlfriend, she didn't even respond. shit's so weird, I don't even know what to think. never dating someone like her again.
I probably didn't feel secure once throughout the relationship, her behaviors really eroded me. even when stuff seemed to get better and I could call ourselves a normal couple for once, shit started getting bad again. couldn't feel safe with her, always on the lookout that something will go wrong. ironically I feel like I started exhibiting the same behaviors as her by the end. I was trying to protect myself from her usual dismissal by becoming colder and less responsive. I'm guessing that's the same defense mechanism she used throughout the relationship or something, even though unlike her I was always present? oh well, I'll find someone who's not scared of warmth, one day. it doesn't help that this is my first girlfriend ever so I'm almost doubtful of my future relationship now, I'm very scared I'll meet someone like her again. but I'm sure there's someone out there who can reciprocate love. I'll find someone.

>>33506057
I doubt that her ex is unhinged, there's 2 sides to everything. Your gf has unhealed emotional and mental issues. You need to tell her everything you're telling me. Just spank her. If I ruin your relationship not my problem, it was her fault.

>>33505686
You're really retarded. No one cares what a low life says. Whatever you do is only reflective of you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rg18Kf4en2o

>>33505975
Yes it is.

>>33506123
No he is a piece of shit

>>33504444 (OP)
getting rid of shock absorbers is the dumbest thing you can do.
good luck @ me while facing life without those goddamn drawings. dumb dumb self.

Been seeing this girl for almost a couple months after going on lots of dates with other girls and not feeling anything, but we really hit it off, seemed perfect for each other and had a lot in common. Have been seeing each other 3 times a week and had lots of sex. Anways, I asked her to be my girlfriend and she said she needs more time to figure stuff out. Thats not really the issue though, I found out shes seeing other people and I feel like fucking shit now. She said I wasn't clear that I wanted to be exclusive but how could she not see how into her I was, and at the same time act like shes so into me. I feel mad at myself for allowing myself to be vulnerable towards her and I feel duped, and that any connection we had with each other was fraudulent. So sick of being that guy in the picture holding a bouquet of flowers at the end of a train of guys fucking some hoe. Dating is such a miserable fucking shitshow and I will never find love

>>33505399
We both agree higher education exists as a way to get a certificate
If you legitimately want to learn something that being self taught is best for your own love becomes your teacher

>>33506111
Cursed Agni Poca.

I am such a coward

>>33504444 (OP)
I have been off my meds and I’m probably gonna get in trouble with the cops or my family etc.

I’m jobless retarded and just get high or drunk to cope when shit gets bad. Zero friends and a girlfriend who I can’t even bother to initiate sex with anymore.

It’s all going to get worse. I just needed to survive until my script renewed. I have schizophrenia.

>>33504495
I wouldn't kill you. Dummy.

so excited, things are looking good

I've never felt more lonely than I have now.
I've finished college a few months ago, immediately lost touch with those I used to be friends with, at work im kinda seen as the 'weird guy' of the departement, and I mostly keep to myself. I've joined a local social group but it's so full of flakes that nothing ever happens because whenever something is supposed to happen, everyone but one guy suddenly can't make it (or never really intended to come)

I've tried a penpal thing and the person stopped responding a month ago. I tried to contact someone I used to talk with in class two weeks ago and I got ghosted.

Maybe I should get used to loneliness. or jump off a bridge.

Tired, cold, wet, hungry, sleepy, disappointed, and disgusted ; but ready to tackle it again to-morrow

I despise youtube. Its gone from useful to a circle jerk like reddit, vapid content creators mostly who offer nothing except their circle jerk takes and to top it off the sites engaging in not just video but comment censorship. Nolonger is it like this place, even reddits less totalitarians than it. As a content creator who's always tried to offer the people who listen to my stuff something of value to themselves this pisses me off to no end. Big tv child centric trash platform.

>>33506748
I know the feeling fella.
Most social groups today are either niche hobbies eg warhammer or they're single mothers trying to get laid.
Penpals are often a waste of time I wrote to an asshole of a "friend" who got himself jailed for about 2-3 years for doing some truly stupid shit like this guy didn't even have the smarts to rob a bank or something it was just truly stupid.
Wrote to the asshole after he requested I keep him up to date. He hung out with me twice after he got out despite living 10mins from me for a year after.

You just have to find happiness in yourself most people today are truly vapid garbage, look at social media or my other post. That's why I come here sometimes, at least there's still some genuine people here.

I need some advice boys... For context I had family over this last weekend and family members who I have never seen before. My mom told me to greet them but i never did and stayed in my room the whole time they were here. Now that they are gone I know for a fact my mom is super mad and furious right now. How can I even talk to her since I know she'll just yell at me for not greeting them. It's been like a whole week since i've seen my mom...

Each day goes by like a movie i can't stop watching. I feel like a failing lightbulb. I think one day I'll be old and my entire life will feel like no time passed at all

I'm thinking of calling ICE and reporting myself as a illegal immigrant. What do you guys think would happen? I'm not an immigrant, I've never even left the country.

>>33507080
My friend called ICE on her flagrantly illegal neighbors. They never showed. Never did a followup. Nothing.

I think unless you're living in one of the cities where they're coming down hard, it's not really a thing.

>>33506949
Are you 8 years old dude? You didn't want to greet your family. Grown man scared of his mom. You need to be 18 to post on this site. Let her yell at you and don't br a pussy. Need to mimic the energy of the White boi being yodeled at

>>33507319
I'm a failure of a grown ass man. I have no job or future and live with my parents. I have bad social anxiety so that's the reason why I didn't greet them. I guess I should just let her yell at me...

>>33507332
I say live through it. The more often you exposed to social situations, the less anxiety you will get over them. It's a bit like curing phobias: the cure is the last thing you want to do, but it's proven to be effective.

Yeah, let her yell at you. You might find it's not the worst thing in the world. You could try explaining that you didn't want to greet your relatives because you have social anxiety and they were functional strangers. Whether you try being honest with your mom depends on how open she is to listening and how sympathetic she is.

>>33507348
Thanks for the advice anon but my mom is one of those old boomers who don't believe in mental illness and stuff like that. I'll just let her yell at me and tell her I won't do it again. I'll probably be forced to get a job or get kicked out since this meant a lot to her.

I entered my 30s with a STEM degree that I finally managed to finish with average grades and now realize that I am fucked. I have been dicking around most of my adult life, drinking heavily, doing stupid shit. Now nobody needs my dogshit education and I will never be satisfied with flipping burgers for a living. I wish I had the balls to murder myself years ago, now it is very inconvenient with all the people who rely on me.

The most fucked up thing is that I have everything handed to me still. If I eat shit, my family will catch me, my very caring girlfriend will catch me, hell, even my friends who I have been ghosting for a year now will probably catch me. And I fucking hate all of that so much. They all think I have a lot to give, I am just misunderstood, I did not figure things out yet.

Fact is, I am a selfish, lazy asshole and I had all of that coming to me. I do not ask god for more than a quick death, preferably before I manage to fuck over more people.
Although, who knows, this dogshit modern world does not deserve anything better than me

>>33507299
don't you just hate when people say someone/something is desperate but they actually aren't
i figured they were desperate to meet their quota, detain and investigate me right before my parents have a chance to follow up on their threat to kick me out, and then i'd go from there
good thing that was plan E or something

>>33507380
why does God bless those who are undeserving yet turn a blind eye to those who are.

>>33507489
I do not consider myself blessed, I would gladly pass on everything I have if I could just have some peace in my tormented head.
See it from the other side, I will never be happy, you might be

>>33504495
Nope. Its all your karmic debt catching up to you for doing awful things to people who are heavily protected in the spirit. Even after being warned a million times, said person forgiving you without you even having the bravery to ask for forgiveness in the first place, and STILL being shitty. You deserve to die tbqhwyfamalam.

It's going to be okay with us and I'm thankful for that

>>33507332
It can get better. I wanted to blow my head off 12 months ago working a job I hated living with my mom. Now I live in my own level of a property I contribute rent to and I have a job that doesn't want make me want to die every day.

Point being it can get better, get a video game you like or something. It's a start.

>>33507794
Did you just find your job via indeed or did a coworker tell you about the better job?

I still cry about him every day
I should be over him by now
But I guess he pulled me out of my protective shell of solitude and now that he's gone I don't know how to go back to it. I don't want to go back to it. So I guess it's about more than just him, but it's still about him

Too depressed to look outside all day, just noticed it's thundering and pouring rain now, fitting

>>33506306
This happens often with the type of person who is just insanely good at fostering connection with everyone
It feels like one in a million to you but to them it's routine
Sucks major ass, been there

>>33507863
Nope I was able to leverage skills I had.
A key point I tell people is don't just chase money. Moneys good but if you want to end yourself for $10k or $20k more a year there's no point.
You can always get an opportunity at higher pay once "John Smith" offs one self well there's no coming back even if there's a spiritual realm.

Boomers and Older gen X gave us seriously shitty life advice on work.

A) Do what you love- Good luck getting paid
for it. Perhaps 1 in 1,000,000 does.
(doesn't mean you have to have a shit job)

B) Go for the job paying the most- brilliant idea
work yourself to death in a miserable environment- Not doing that again personally.

If I were in your shoes I'd just keep putting your "feelers" out you might pick up something temp or part time and be able to go from there.

>>33507897
Same

>>82188325

>>33507897

Same
>>>82188325

>>33507897
Same raining

>>>/r9k/82188325

I still am messing up on my writing. I'll try again tomorrow. Hopefully, my writing improves to where, making the same mistake, won't happen again.

I fractured my ankle. Walking around on crutches. Can't put any weight on my foot. God this sucks. For the first time in two years i'm actually kind of happy that I live with my parents, because if I was on my own for this i'd probably kill myself. Can't drive, can't fall asleep on my back, my other leg hurts because i'm balancing on it all day, i'm sweaty just from going up the goddamn stairs. This just sucks so goddamn bad. Its only been three days and I feel like i'm about to fucking crack.

But hey at least being cooped up for six weeks will give me a good chance of breaking my weed and nicotine addictions.

how can you even fap to ai porn, it just looks so weird and devoid of any feeling, it's like eating uncooked white rice with your eyes, it's so fucking boring and no I'm not some ax-crazy luddite

>>33508075
howd u fracture it?

>start doing trauma therapy again
>start wetting the bed from the stress

I'm so very, very tired

>>33508075
That sucks dude.
Yeah I've never understood the "don't live with your family bullshit".

Its clearly just greedy fucks trying to mooch of others "oh your living alone, guess I can move in says becky".

You mean don't most people live with people the tolerate or are related to globally?
(Answers yes).

>>33508131
For me it's just unending anxiety returning all day every day
They say it's normal to get worse at first but it's been 2 months

>>33508151
Trauma therapy for me has always been a series of peaks and valleys. I have big successes (like recently) that motivate me enough to say but those valleys are very, very deep. So deep it manifests on the psychological level. I hate that I'm wetting the bed again, i hate it.

I wish you luck on it. with the right therapist, it's amazing what you can accomplish.

>>33508107
At work. Slipped, slid down a package slide, and landed on my ankle funny. So at least i'll have some workers comp coming to me. Except I can't drive, so when they call me back to work to do makework bullshit i'll either still have to rely on my parents or find my own ride somehow. None of my friends or coworkers live near me.

>>33508144
I mean I like my parents and everything, and obviously I like not having most of my paycheck go to some slumlord, but it's like. All my friends, siblings, cousins my age etc all moved out of their parents house ages ago. I feel like I can see the light leave girls eyes when I tell them i'm living with my parents. It just makes me feel kind of pathetic.

I want to be cared for and held and hugged hut it feels bad and forbidden. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about anything and simultaneously I feel like it's never enough for them. I wasn't raped, I'm overreacting to groping, it's my fault if I talk to older people on the internet and become pornbrained over it. I need to rely on fantasies so I don't go out and let myself get violated. I'm scared all the time. I can't be normal ever again. I'm nothing but a crybaby who can't handle anything. She's a sicko for doing that to another kid. I was 11. I repressed it and it came back after she left. I couldn't even report it. I can't report it and get her in trouble. She gets off Scott free for molesting someone else and I'm here feeling like a worthless attention seeker and whore. They tell me to move on and joke about molesting each other like it wasn't the worst thing to happen in my life. It's not enough for them or anyone ever. It will never be enough even if I get Raped somehow, cause it isn't trafficking or csa and therefore not enough. Nothing is ever enough for people. I'm lost and I feel like there's nobody who cares, it's all superficial. Why can't I fucking have what other people have, to be cared for and to be someone's first choice. It's never enough

How long were the people in bed before they got up and said goodbye? So long...

>>33508455
Why can’t male ants sink? They’re buoy-ant.

>>33508465
Good one.

When do most ants get in trouble? When they're resistANT. >>33508465

What do you call it when someone sings in the bath? Soap opera...

Why aren’t you shitstains congratulating OP?
>>33504444 (OP)
>>33504444 (OP)
>>33504444 (OP)
>>33504444 (OP)
Thank

I'd rather the DCU and MCU than the ICU.

What do you call it when girls in your class are disgusted with you? Class-ick...

What did Whoopi Goldberg choose the room in her hotel for? The View...

What do you calla Wyvern that writes? A Pendragon...

>>33508487
Only the punch is good hommie.
>>33508483
Oh shiza, there may be no hope for you.
Hey, you know, I put the cock in caucasian ?

>>33508498
>Hey, you know, I put the cock in caucasian
Oh, are you Kendrick Lamar?

>>33508502
Idk who is that but I have had it since you were knee high to a grasshopper.

>>33508509
Kendrick Lamar is a rapper who said he fucked white girls as revenge for slavery.

>>33508510
That sounds like one based Nword.

>>33508514
I guess he is, if you think him cheating on his fiance is a win...

>>33508510
I was saying that they named cocks after me because I am the epitome of them. I guess I ain’t funny neither.

>>33508519
I know what you were trying to do, I'm not slow.
>Inb4 Could've fooled me

>>33508516
Nah. That ain’t cool if a nigga can’t keep his word.

>>33508523
All RPM and no torque.

>>33508523
Shit. You did fool me. My bad.

>>33508523
That is the closest you are going to get to an apology. Over and out.

>>33508537
<3

Plenty of time for another drink. It counts not when already inebriated.

No one likes me, and I don't like me, but when I try to remove me, no one lets me.

>>33508403
I hate everything. Now I feel like my friends are fake and i need to cut them out. I need therapy so bad and I can't get it fml

Asceticism is based

I wish I wasn't such a fucking ugly dude even when I lose weight, I'm trying to drop to ny lowest weight again but who cares, I can't fix my busted fucking face anyway. I'm gonna fucking die alone because I can't afford plastic surgery and I even have a chest deformity. I just want to fucking kill myself, it's so embarrassing to be the ugliest person everyone knows and never get called anything kinder than "you're not ugly" that only come from awkward politeness. I want to kill myself. I can starve away the problems with my body but not my face, why fucking live. By the time I'd even have enough money for surgery I'd be in my mid 20s, what is even the point? I hate spending my early 20s being alone and not liked by anyone but absolute freaks, I really truly want to shoot myself and I can too

>>33508576
>>33508403
Hey anon I promise that what happened to you wasn’t minuscule, and you aren’t attention-seeking for being traumatized by it. You deserve so much love and a safe and secure connection where you are someone’s first choice. <3

Been experimenting with butt plugs with the gf for 1.5 years or so.
The other day I managed for the first time to take our biggest plug, almost all the way. I got just before the thickest spot, then I couldn't take it anymore. I had never felt so stretched out, and I love that she's the one who's making me feel it. I wanna feel like she can take me completely, stretch me out and fill me up and make me all hers. I wanna be slutty for her. Fuck. I also love how she gets a rad more dominant right after playing with my ass. this time around she made me cum all over my belly while fingering my ass (on my request). I hope one day we get to the point where she can peg me. I wanna give myself to her so bad, fuck.

They are keeping me down and suppressing my power.

it hurts so much. it hurts so much. all the time. i sleep 14 hours a day and im still tired.

my therapist is useless. he gave up on me months ago.

This is the closest thing to heaven that you will see.

>>33508605
>By the time I'd even have enough money for surgery I'd be in my mid 20s, what is even the point?
HAHAHAHAHA. Holy shit dude I read your post expecting you to already be in your mid to late 30s and was feeling sorry for you for a second. You fucking retard. Shut the fuck up and save your money abd get the surgery. Mid 20s is young as fuck you retard. Also start lifting weights. Dont only starve yourself. Being a scrawny skinny fat guy is hardly better than being obese. Trust me. I know. Anyways, calm the fuck down dude. Nothing is over. Mid 20s lmao

The spirit of Christ comes straight out your ass.

>>33508687
KEK

>>33508719
It compels you. I got your shit, Anon. We can do this.

H

>>33508726
<3

>>33508726
Yep

fuck you bitch stop making it all about you when i told you i cant talk to you anymore. you dont have a right to be upset about it. we knew eachother for like 5 days and i poured my drunk heart out to you about how im lonely and unloveable and you told me you could relate and how neither of us had anyone who cared for us but then after that all you ever talked about was all the popular people youre friends with. how youre in discord calls all day with your popular friends and playing games with them and how you were talking about me. how they always talk ABOUT me but none of them ever have ever even talked TO me. im sure its because im a fucked up unapproachable freak and theyre all trying to avoid my horrible aura. and my paranoia got so bad about how you were probably gossiping about me so i had to unfriend you. and now youre crying about how "oh you always get abandoned" SHUT UP YOU DONT KNOW WHAT ITS ACTUALLY LIKE TO BE A FREAK. YOURE A SKINNY WHITE BITCH WITH SOME ANXIETY. THAT'S IT. I'm A CRIPPLED BLACK FAGGOT SCHIZO. YOU WILL NEVER GET IT.

I bet youre telling all your friends about how fucking awful i am. and i am awful. i want to fucking die so bad. please.

women don’t love you they life the idea of you or the you they see in their head when that illusion of you breaks or changes they get the ick. Men love women for who they are acknowledging the good and bad about the partner and accepting them as they are. This is a generalization of course but I think this is largely true and something more people should be aware of.

>>33506157
She will care and she will publish it. Enjoy.

>>33504444 (OP)
I mean you can keep the pics of all your previous girlfriends online for everyone to see, you get jealous but talk about women and to other women so easily without giving me anything back. I would have given you everything that every guy dreams of, but I'm not a placeholder, fuck that.

My brother is a pig who sleeps all day. Hope he dies in his sleep. Fucking animal. Subhuman piece of shit. Manifesting, genuinely. All he does is sit on his filthy ass all day and be coddled for doing nothing. Fucking lowlife pig. Die.

>>33508987
Got a problem, vro?

>>33508730
Oh, wow. Okay.

i hope i die tomorrow. if i'm not dead by tomorrow can someone kill me?

>>33509033
No, I'm not allowed to kill you.

>2 years since I've been with someone
Man...this shit sucks. Fucking time moving and shit.

>>33508623
Thanks. Unfortunately my brain automatically rejects sympathy shown to me and continues minimizing no matter how visceral it feels now. Saying this beyond the irrational fight response, you're right.

>>33508875
"She" will be criminally prosecuted/and or sued if "she" steals my work. I hope that helps! The same will happen to you. Now you can be traced from here.... not that complicated. You do know that everything you write (even under VPNs) can be traced back to you, right? Right?

It's time to bust them. I will talk to my Freemason, /CERN and FBI friends. Take them all down.That will be an order.

>>33508875
I've reported this post now so that 4chan is now legally responsible as well if they don't hand over your info. You aren't allowed to go around threatening people.

>>33509111
Announcing reports is against the rules.

I was already thinking about breaking up with the first gf I've ever had, but she beat me to the punch. I feel sad, but also pretty relieved.
She said she didn't want to pursue a relationship "for now", and maybe we could continue with a platonic relationship and see where things go, but saying it like that puts me off of pursuing it ever again.

The thing about Trump is he is crazy enough to do anything I say. I truly think all of Australia should be a guarded criminal island, no escape. There are just that many criminals out there. She how you love living surrounded with murderers and rapists.

>>33509122
And? I'm supposed to care? That will be a part of the report.

I already got this placed hacked... let's see what other damage I can do.

I don't think you truly understand my authority... my rank.

>>33509140
Your rank doesn't matter to me. You can lose that quickly.

>>33509125
She is just trying to ease the blow.

>>33509145
LMFAO that is hilarious.....beyond hilarious. You have no idea who I am and who I control.

>>33509151
I honestly don't care, because you will never be a rank above me where it matters.

>>33509158
Where it matter... the 4chan troll master. lmfao.

You should care because you're going to prison if you threaten me.

>>33509167
I'm not threatening you. Just because you don't believe in my Divine rank, doesn't mean I don't have one.

They had Jay (highest ranking) removed when I told MI6

>>33509175
Who are you supposed to be? Let me guess, The Nobody?

>>33509173
Divine rank? More like demonic rank if you are threatening to harm people here. Noted.

>>33509178
That would be you.

>>33509179
>>33509184
Yup, that is me. People scramble to find out anything they can about me, I've been places and done jobs you couldn't imagine. If you still think you rank above me, prove it. Dethrone me from my original world.

I got him removed for starters:

https://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/blue-hackle-mafia-army-commander-resigns-1.7595912

>>33509192
>. People scramble to find out anything they can about me

In your imagination. If you threaten people online, you will tracked down and held to account. It's not complicated.

>>33509202
Sure.

>>33509209
You really think you can't be traced online? lmfao

>>33509213
I never said I couldn't be.

I cant stand myself

Why does the janitor never sleep at work? Because he wouldn't dream of it...

I'm being too crazy

Need to get back to base line

>>33509306
You know who else is too crazy.

>>33509324
You

Someone help me

>>33509373
I can't help me either

>>33504444 (OP)
someone out there has a nightmare, which i am living.

It's surreal to be here. Standing... no, basking in victory and achievement. Though I am not unstoppable, yet.

>>33509329
*MY MOM!

>>33509381
You want to fuck?

>>33509390
You sound so cool what do you do?

>>33509448
Are you a girl?

>March
>No job offers
>April
>No job offers
>May, lowered standards
>No job offers
>June
>No job offers
>July lowered standards even more
>No job offers
>April, fixed up resume to be as eyecatching and overly immodest and attractive to bored middle aged female recruiters as possible
> Got offers
>Both are around 1000$ a month which would not even be enough to live in a car on
Wishing I was born as any other animal right about now...

>>33509457
I'm a beggar. But I've been trying to upskill into busking by learning to juggle and mime.

Gonna try to get through the day.

>>33509373
Call the ambulance or police

>>33509564
You got this. Negotiate that budget. Little by little. Net gain life.

Oof

>>33509658
D'oh!

I'm an alcoholic. My girlfriend verbally abuses me and sometimes physically. It's because I physically abused her in the past, but it's been 5 years. I feel so alone. I have one best friend, he's alone too. Thankful for him. But even with that the lonliness is crushing. I love my girlfriend, we've been together 8 years, but sometimes it feels like I'll never be forgiven for past sins and I'm destined to suffer this role reversal. I don't know how to leave, don't know if I want to. I just feel terribly lonely. And I drink, drink, drink

>>33509761
If you can change things at any point, you pay the penance of your self-inflicted karma and are absolved of your sins. The longer you wait the less you can enjoy the outcome of that penance, but salvation is always possible.

>>33509807
Thank you, anon. I have changed. After the last incident (5 years ago) I went to therapy and really really worked on myself. I had been in therapy before, but this time I intensely focused on my triggers and anger responses. Since then I haven't been physically abusive. I forgive myself. I've improved so much in other aspects of my life. Pulled myself out of addiction, have a 6figure job, focus on being empathetic and kind. But I don't think I'll ever have my girlfriend's forgiveness. When I've tried to breakup before she will say things like "you've ruined me and now you're leaving" "your next girlfriend will get the best you and you'll just leave me to suffer." I try and say things like "you chose to stay with me." But internally the guilt is utterly trapping. I may forgive myself, but I also believe I deserve to suffer. I would want anyone who abused their partner to suffer too.

>>33509477
No nvm

>>33509390
Pride before the fall.

>>33509515
Watch your back.They will whack you as you've become a major liability. Best of luck out there against all them coming for you. You are GOD, right? :3

>>33509373
You will be taken out shorty for what you've done.You are a traitor and they really hate traitors.

There are a decent amount of women who are attracted to me sexually and I have a good amount of things in common with, but I simply cannot bring myself to go through the effort of fucking them despite not having sex in a few years. I just dont feel any connection to them, like I know once we fuck ill just kinda be over it and move on from them. Not acting on this makes me feel like some sort of retarded faggot though, like im missing some valuable opportunity or something.

>>33509856
fucking is overrated. emotional connection is lit. you need to get obsessed.

FAFO

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgD2vtRHYlY&list=RDvgD2vtRHYlY&start_radio=1

>>33509873
Yea, the girls i was obsessed with ghosted me and then unfollowed me on everything. My fault for being mentally ill, but ive since been off the internet for 2 months and improving myself (no more drugs for me). She tweeted that she hopes she "haunts me" which means shes thinking about me, but thats probably just delusional. I just hope she'll give me another chance and see ive changed some day, but I still need to accept that it probably wont happen.

At this point, I don't care who it is... a family member, a lover, anyone, if you are messing with this vision, this mission, you will be removed from your devices (physically) IF you are lucky. IF my bad ones get you instead, they will have no problem whacking you. They've done it before many times... not my fault, not my problem. I'm not fucking around. It's the truth. It's up to you, it's your choice at this point.

>>33509893
Dude you are just crazy.

Recently I've been repeatedly having fantasies of being in a MMF threesome in a very casual setting with a pair of swingers. The casual side is emphasised, something about the air of flippancy seems appealing to me. Like, double teaming the girl whilst the other guy is chugging a bev and we're all chatting small talk. Considering my age and KHV status I guess I've all but given up on finding my own love and it's some weird cope situation where I'd be let into the action wtih an existing couple like a leech. I guess it's only 25% gay, so it's a a partial win. It's probably an improvement on the sort of subby wubby uwu anime fantasies I used to have, the people I vaguely imagine in these fantasies are pretty average looking. Sort of makes it hotter that way really.

If I had realized what Tammy and Derek were doing sooner I would have reported it sooner. I didn’t know.

>>33509951
You are just playing with fire. You live in hell.

>>33509973
Yes, please go the authorities. :3
I beg of you.
Let's see how this ends for you.

If I had realized there was an imposter in my home sooner I would have reported it sooner. I didn’t know.

>>33509977
That is not a normal thing to say.

I'm not the problem, fuck you for making me think that I am. Fuck you for taking advantage of my trust. Fuck you for sabotaging every step in my life. Fuck you for pretending all of it wasn't painful. Fuck you for everything you stand for every breath you take every beat in your heart should be your last. You will pay.

It might be better if he goes to prison, at this point but he would have to be kept in solitary confinement as he will talk to others. Perhaps it is better that you just take him out completely. Authorities or mafia. Either way.

>>33509828
You know, maybe break up. I like being single. Sometimes you fuck up things real bad, but you learn. Everything is impermanent either way. Maybe this pain is less bad than pain you would have experienced if things went "ideally".

>>33509990
Neither is responding to a music post (that you know is about you because of your guilty conscience).

>>33509994
And if im not the person who caused those problems for you?

>>33509999
Or. And hear me out. Ive had crazy people think im some problem in their life when there's absolutely no reason to think that and they constantly say FAFO.

>>33509854
Pride before the fall most likely, but God? No, I'm nobody(no relation).

There are things in this world, such that, even the devil may cry too.

>>33510015
Well then you have nothing to worry about as the eyes out there can see everything you do. I'm not sure why would respond if you don't have a guilty conscience though.

Basically, at this point someone here has gotten in the way of something very important. They will be taken out. That's just the way it goes and I don't need your belief in what I say, to make it true. Whoever has betrayed us, our mission, will be taken out. That's it. No begging for mercy now and I really don't care if you think I'm crazy or larping. Somebody here has betrayed us and that person will either be locked up or taken out some other way. Not my rules.

>>33510045
Youre going to kill someone?

Go ahead and ignore me if you want. It makes no difference to me. I'm leaving and that was your very last warning.

>>33510059
Or else youre going to kill them right?

>>33510057
No the people who follow me and protect me (legally) will. Just every day business for us spies.

I prefer to keep it light and fun.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dsh0TfIKhoE&list=RDDsh0TfIKhoE&start_radio=1

>>33510067
Hey what agency do you work for?

There’s this one person I had the bad luck to know, he seemed nice until I saw his real side. I got to see him scam people, and even take away people I care about by lying about himself and making up things about me. I’m usually not a person that holds grudge but this time I’m just unable to let it go, he has hurt more than just myself, hurting people that are close to me and others that I’ve got to know. Should I do something about it? And if I should, what are ways I can do so? I’m new to getting revenge, specially since he moved away just some months ago so what could I do?

>>33510103

M

Silly Q takes orders from me.

>>33510067
You know. The spy agency you just said will kill people on your behalf.

You don't wanna mess with me or my friends.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DeumyOzKqgI&list=RDDeumyOzKqgI&start_radio=1

>>33510112
So youre claiming youre going to have people killed. And why is that? Why would anyone do that for you?

>>33510120
Your friends that will kill people for you. Hey. Why arent any of those friends here with you?

>>33509998
Yeah, I feel that way too. Everything is impermanent. I struggle with saviorism tho. I think I will just cheat and that will solve everything

>>33510121
>>33510126

They are here, stupid. lol

>>33510128
Two left turns sends you backwards, at least try three.

Somebody here leaked some information or is threatening to. That person is in major trouble. They are a traitor, it could be Jay.

https://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/blue-hackle-mafia-army-commander-resigns-1.7595912

James would frequent a place like this.

>>33510175
I read the article and I agree lol

In 2003 when I was 11 I asked my mom for a PS2 and a copy of FF X for my birthday and on my birthday I opened the present and it was a GameCube and a copy of Wind Waker. My mom apologised and said she didn't have the money for a PS2 (GameCube had dropped to $99 this year). I called her a whore, grabbed the GameCube's handle and hit her over the head with the GameCube and then I smashed the GameCube off of the wall.

>>33510315
Explains a lot.

The day I've been both looking for and dreading seems to have arrived.

I've been knowingly neglecting my teeth health for years now and, as expected, my teeth are crumbling. I don't fix it because I am hoping the pain will be such that it'll force me into taking my life. The pain is certainly significant, it won't let me sleep. So... I'm not really sure what happens now. I never really thought about what I would do once this happened.

>>33510333
Just do what you can, dental procedures have advanced a lot, and we might be able to grow new teeth in the next 5-10 years. There are trials going now. Look it up. Just be better. No more excuses. Be your best.

>>33510359
I won't lie, I'm seriously considering it funny enough. I think this was more like a "the option will be there" sort of thing. It put me at peace to know that, if things got to bad, I'd have a trump card that would force me into it.

It's... going to be really painful though. I don't know the extent of the damage but whatever it is, it's not going to make for a simple, carefree fix. The pain is worrying me more than anything else, I've been petrified of the dentist my whole life.

What's a comedian's favorite summer activity? Camp...

>>33510059
I'm not ignoring you, I didn't know that was you for sure.

how do i know the difference between actual suicidal thoughts and just wanting attention?

>>33510333
This looks the second time u have tried getting me to address this. Regardless, I would have reported Tammy had I known.

>>33510506
What’s the difference?

>>33510514
What on earth are you babbling about?

I'm 27 and I went to a comic con in my city last week and 10 people asked to take pics with me and I let them but I didn't say anything else to them or try have a conversation because I thought it would be awkward. The convention I went to has a facebook group and there are people making posts asking if people had photos that they took with them. Would it be weird if I made a post in the group looking for friends around my age?

>>33510370
I say just get them treated for pain first, then worry about aesthetic. Sometimes you gotta be ugly, but you can be pretty again. It's just mass you occupy. Even just covering your teeth in gold is highly effective and I think it looks cool. Kintsugi. You'll have to pay your penance perhaps but life can be better after that than it nothing ever happened at all.

>>33510370
I say just get them treated for pain first, then worry about aesthetic. Sometimes you gotta be ugly, but you can be pretty again. It's just mass you occupy. Even just covering your teeth in gold is highly effective and I think it looks cool. Kintsugi. You'll have to pay your penance perhaps, but life can be better after that than if nothing ever happened at all.

>>33510521
They’re pretending I was a danger to Tammy because i wanted them to die.

Damn it, I used to be a master at catching cum in a tissue but nearly every time I end up getting some on the carpet these days. Either they're lowering the ply of the tissues because everything is getting shittier, or I'm losing my touch with age. I'm willing to reckon it's a bit of both.

Happy bday to me.

Well, Cristian, I'm finally letting you go. I now understand, that your love to me was as shallow as a puddle. You only cared about body pleasures, treated my life as unimportant. We both didn't love me enough haha. I wish I didn't neglect my social life for you, but I did and I am very lonely. That's on me. Like you said, you never asked me to do that. Pretty funny

>>33510632
I didn’t always want them to die but sometimes I did. I tried really hard to not hate my “mom”. I don’t want to talk about it.

ive looksmaxxed in every way i can, im thin, good skin, getting better at makeup and dressing well but i just cant do it. there are days i think i look good but then i position my hair slightly differently or look in the mirror again and i think in my wtf is that gremlin creature staring back at me. theres a picture of me on my mom's lockscreen from a few years ago and ive just not got good features i look like a deformed chipmunk seriously. ive always wanted to look good just for my own vanity but i think im going to give up, its like putting a pig in lipstick and itll probably humble my desire to look good if i stop caring anyway.

My job is driving me fucking crazy and there's no vacancies for the sector I have experience in anywhere AAAAAAAAAA

i can only have so much empathy. i gotta let go of my ego and just admit an asshole is an asshole, even if you are mentally ill and autistic and everyone bullies you and life is so hard and confusing for you but still you try really really really hard to be a good person. you're a bit of a cunt, man.

>>33510992
Me? What I do?

>>33510897
that's normal, try best

>>33511036
sorry i dont know what that means

yesterday i used an extension to delete every single message i ever sent to you with a single click of a button
i originally wasnt planning to since someone said itd be cringe but i caved and did it anyways
i like to think i did it as means to finally move on from you but in reality if you in any way shape or form reached back out to me i'd instantly give in and be more than happy to be friends with you again. i really do wonder if you even think about me at all, its a different sort of emptiness to feel so much for someone who feels nothing for you, am i the problem here or you? idk anymore

>>33504444 (OP)
My lack of self confidence is destroying me. I recently met a very pretty girl who is very clearly into me, but I genuinely tick off very few of the boxes that would make me attractive to a girl. I am broke, not masculine at all, not exceptionally funny or eloquent or charismatic in any other way. I am shy, possibly autistic (she even brought it up at some point). I just have so little that women would normally be attracted to that I can't see why this girl is giving me attention for any legitimate reasons.

>>33511019
no not you anon you're perfect and no one truly deserves you

Haven’t been able to make myself fully erect for several days and I’m worried that I’m developing erectile disfunction.

>>33511146
That made me smile.

>>33511151
good

A few months ago I wrote about a guy I was interested in but he was close to another girl. Welp, I just found out they got engaged. Idk, a few hours before that I was literally praying for my loneliness to end but apparently god is telling me to look elsewhere

>>33511148
So I can get it fully erect but it’s way more difficult now and it’s not getting stiffened upward as hard. I don’t know if it’s old age or poor diet or the humiliation ritual. I did loosen some muscle at my groin region so that might be a factor. Went a long time without working out but I just trained legs again today. Hopefully that helps.

Ah I just, I really don't, I really do not like my friend's mom's boyfriend.

>>33511389
he's a bit of a doofus

Just spent most of the last 24 hours vibe coding a project with AI.
It has all features I want bar some weird, heavy performance regression. Only occasionally a problem though.
I have run through the free limits of both ChatGPT and Claude, but I am satisfied.

>>33511403
A perverted doofus

>>33511413
>Just spent most of the last 24 hours vibe coding a project with AI
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

>>33511148
Hopefully not from anyone drugging me. Hasn’t felt like I have been lately. Just felt like it was important to document. Please excuse me.

>>33511414
the worst.

>>33511423
>the worst
I thought Paul was targeting me. I shouldn’t have been confrontational about it the way I was. From his posting style that appeared as soon as I began posting to his stream chat that seemed to be watching me thru my phone’s camera and communicating with me I became paranoid about him. Try not to blame me. I went thru some complicated shit.

>>33511481
fuck Paul you don't need him

>>33511481
When the cryptic posting that seemed meant for me to depict appeared I thought that it was partially him. I didn’t like the idea of him spying on me and then trying to derail my sanity and control me. Maybe I’m wrong and he didn’t but I think someone did.

>>33511484
that anon isn't me

>>33504641
Genuine love doesn't exist, you're in the same situation as the people who didn't fuck around. Be grateful you got any modicum of intimacy.

My friends (generally-speaking) suck. None of them ever contact me first, can't get a text back or an RSVP, nobody wants anything to do with me. Genuinely considered getting my one friend to invite people over for a party that "coincidentally" fell on my birthday because I figured people would be more apt to want to spend time with him than to attend something of mine.

I really need to just isolate myself, turn inward, and learn how to enjoy life without others but it's really difficult. I could go on a trip or go do something entirely by myself, but I know I'd still be thinking "I wish they were here with me". Pathetic.

>>33511731
stop being a bitch and confront ur friends about this

Do you think of me from time to time?
I do for you.
I miss the good times, but I understand why we can't meet.
Hope you're having fun with the other one.

>>33504641
Just date in the young twenties before she's gotten too ran through

>>33511844
I do, yes. Embarking through Hell together was nice.

>>33510992
You are evil.

It's fucking stupid
I should be able to send him my new songs, he should be able to send me his
We didn't fall out, we liked each other, we cared about each other, every niche thing we were passionate about was shared almost exactly
So why the fuck did he just ghost like that
I fucking miss the hell out of him and I'm confused, feels like such a waste

>>33511892
discord friendship im guessing?

I'm a pretty big guy, some people say I look threatening. When I'm wearing headphones in public and someone asks me what I'm listening to I just say something generic; the truth is, I'm listening to J-rock screamo girl band music. Nothing fills me with more rage, more hype, more energy than hearing japanese girls scream into my ears. It's not like I have yellow fever or I'm obsessed with japanese culture either. I don't really care for anime or their foods but if there's one thing I love then it's having an incoherent language blasting into my ears full of young death metal girls (and not in a gross fetish way either).

I never knew girls could be so cool.

MEGA KNIGHT

I’m surprised by how many girls want to fuck me

>>33512157
and then u woke up

>>33512166
No, actually.

>>33512464
>it looks like a pencil snapped
what does this mean

>>33512476
Fuck, my mcdonalds eduacation is showing itself. Here come the "you're a hecklin ESL" retort :(

>>33511895
Yeah but there's a lot more to it than that, although it's telling that you could snipe it like that, and probably dumb of me.
He showed me his real self in many ways but refused to ever link to his active social media so I should've taken that to mean there was always a barrier and chance of sudden disconnect. There was seemingly a valid reason for that despite flightiness though
Doesn't matter now

with our great lives we live it means that we can always hear again and again that we are the ones who will see that we venture into new years we will see that our great species and every ethnicity of humans gets to experience great living i understand that for so many years now we have had to view least favorite with the reason that we are an invincible species it will mean in this point in time and every new one that we do actually get to see that we are the ones who will actually for our great nation understand that we are the ones who respectfully won wars and were meant to enter every new reverse regions

>>33512522
Wow!

There is definitely something wrong with me.
I just got back from a great concert with my best friend.
I drank but not enough to impair my driving.
We got home
I had another beer in the car
We get inside and he's passing out on the couch
I desperately want to keep drinking for no reason.
He brought more esoteric tasty beer.
I refuse to drink it despite an implied invitation.
I'm drinking mouthwash while my best friend sleeps on my couch so I can drunkenly wash dishes and clean my bathroom. Why?

>>33512157
>I’m surprised by how many girls want to fuck me
Yes. But as I told the teenage girl: being fuckable isn't really a compliment.

>>33511719
>Genuine love doesn't exist
Yes it fucking does. The third woman I fell in love with met a man who is better for her than me in every possible way, except maybe one fetish that remains my copium. And my emotional response? Fucking elation. I couldn't be fucking happier. I genuinely hope they live with so much bliss they shit rainbows and genius babies.
Really.
Because holy shit I love her and want her to have all the everything. How could I not?

That's love. When their happiness means disregarding you and yours completely and you are thrilled.
Ask any good parent.

Holy shit I love that sexy bitch.

I wish I had a cute boyfriend who played the guitar and could like my face like how a cat cleans her kittens.

I love my gf but I might just die from the lack of physical affection (and her autism)

>>33512562
No that's being a cuck. Fuck off with that. I'll never give up on my love and I choose her for me. Never another.

>>33512687
>that's being a cuck
Why does that matter to you?

I don't think there is a group more unwilling to take advice than the anons on the /adv/ board.

>>33504777

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3GwjfUFyY6M&list=RD3GwjfUFyY6M&start_radio=1

>>33512762
I was saying fuck off to cuck shit.

You do you.

>>33509982
This fear would apply more had I been worried that something happened to my parents before I figured out I was being watched but that helped me at the time I figured it out. It was still scary as fuck and it still freaks me out but they have been mostly leaving me alone lately. The fact that I feel like I have the attention that I do gives me a sense of hope and safety. It did take me a couple months to report anything after I was scared out of the house and lived different places around town for some time. I wasn’t sure what to do. I just knew I was being watched and I wondered if the people who were watching were trying to help however there were hostiles as well and there still is so that’s also troublesome. I figured that talking to whoever is watching my phone screen would be good enough but apparently not for the help I have hoped to receive by now. Got scared out of my house last August after being concerned that Tammy had been replaced because of the way they were acting and what they could not remember and I didn’t know what to do. Wasn’t sure if Derek had been some kind of investigator or not. It took me about a month and a half to report to the police. Having some photographs to refer to made me feel better about reporting my problem. Made me feel more certain. Their response however made me wonder if they already knew and wanted to pretend I’m delusional which made me wonder more concerning things. I would still suggest that anyone who has the same problem or concern to try and photograph the ears and submit a comparison with old pictures to authorities and let them know. Unfortunately they can’t issue mandatory dna tests but they may get a detective to investigate at the very least.

>>33509982
>>33512959
I can imagine that they would want a timeframe to investigate in order to learn about whatever organized crime they may be involved in but I would also think that the police would have more questions for me if that were true. If u find yourself in my position and have nowhere to go I would also suggest checking in to a mental hospital as they can provide housing at your discharge. I wasn’t aware of this until recently.

My coworker is a worm.

>>33510333
I was also speaking more out of carelessness than seriousness that one time but animosity still existed. I know that if “Tammy” ended up dying that way I would have felt regret for what I said. I just grew tired of them being in my life. Don’t want to talk about it.

>>33512993
At least you are figuring that out now

>>33512683
Proving that women inherently have higher smv than men.
I keep seeing guys saying they have autistic gf or want an autistic gf but look for the opposite, absolutely zero.
It's not "You have autism cute cute" it's "Get back to work you fucking creep" for autistic men.
Brutal existence