Thread 83028931

>get around 8h of sleep
>but don't sleep well
>get out of bed to turn off my alarm
>make my bed
>get coffee n cigs
>its super cold outside today
>need2prepare for work
>I don't want to
>hoping for anything to happen so I can stay in bed today
>tomorrow is friday
>not excited for it either
>cause its not like im gonna do much on the weekend
>just kill me already please

>its getting late
>still n0t ready2go
>smoke my third cig while drinking my coffee
>hoping for a heart attack
>please I don't want to continue anymore

>see beautiful bright full moon
>feel content but empty
>get 8 hours of sleep
>go grocery shopping
>dissociate
>go to gas station
>cashier ignores me then acts rude towards me
>feel empty and uncharacteristically angry
>think about ripping her fingernails off
>drive 75+ mph down random roads to blow off steam
>swerve in and out of traffic and run stop signs
>chainsmoke all night
>see beautiful bright full moon
>feel content but empty
Such is life, OP.

OP has been a gay man on 4chan for over a decade. Think about that.

>after resisting it & drama
>end up at work
>alone
>Allah give me the strength to hang myself

>call dad to ask him what has to be done
>he expects me to work with the forklift
>I dont hab a license for it
>I can drive it around
>but I wont work fr with it
>in a worse case the insurance wouldn't pay
>>archive management
>we done it already as good as possible for us
>can't really do anything
>call mom and ask her to pick me up
>that's better than me going full melty here and losing this client fr
>instead of dad just being paranoid of it
>we can earn with the new client in one month as much as 5 months of work with this one
>dad is still afraid of letting go
>and his mismanagement n decisions are bad to build up a good relationship with the new client
>why was I even born
>just2suffer
>killmeeeee

>just chain smoking and walking in circles in the archive
>I could probably find a rope and use one of these shelves here
>too worried about what would happen to my figure collection
>call mom again
>tells me to let dad know befor agreeing on picking me up
>he would just get melty on the phone
>being born was a huge mistake
>the biggest mistake of them all

>seems like im stuck here for another 4+h
>but I will definitely not go2work tomorrow
>dad is like hurdur we will talk back home
>n0
>talking with him NEVER accomplishes anything
>I should just quit fr and apply for neetbucks
>that's also bothersome and hardcore annoying
>so I rather dont bother with it
>can I just st0p existing
>need moar cigs

>my head hurts from all these cigs
>but I cant st0p smoking
>there is little to do but its a dumb joke
>im just gonna stay in my room and be miserable until next week
>then IDK
>look for jobs in my area
>im just fucked
>I have n0 option
>im just doomed
>let a fatal work accident happen NOW

>last two hours
>idk what to do next after this recycling task
>welp I wont get up for work tomorrow
>idk about next week
>im just gonna stay in my room and d0 nothing
>buddah gib me the strenght to end it already
>I cant come up with a better plan for the future

A good part of my prayers have happened while staring at a clock in class. Another good part of my prayers have happened while intermittently glancing at my alarm clock in the morning, hoping for time to move more slowly while constantly changing the alarm time a few minutes later so I don't get a heart attack from hearing it blare.
Horrible times.

>dad shows up
>drama continues
>at least its about time4home
>the drama can continue there ig
>I hate being alive n regret being born
>>83030642
Idk what ur trying to say
Eh
Stay in school n d0 ur best

>arrive back home
>at least n0 drama
>but doesn't mean im less miserable
>gonna stay in bed for as long as possible after some tea with a cig
>please gib me a heart attack
>a brain tumor would be fine too

>dont fall asleep
>get out of bed for a cig
>why isnt there anymore button2press2st0p existing
>make it st0p

Bro, I haven't had Minttu in what feels like months. My eyes can finally rest for a bit ;)

>get out of bed for a coupl3 of more cigs
>tempted to sneak some alcohol into my room
>>83032872
You rub mint into your eyes?

>>83032913
Metaphorically, yes. I think it makes sense now you'd make a great middle manager/small business owner.

>finally get some Persian food mom cooked earlier
>grab a vodka x energy drink mix thingy
>gonna chug it down befor I eat for maximum effect
>don't wanna risk smuggling more alcohol into my room
>>83032936
Ur just trying to insult me

>>83033003
>>grab a vodka x energy drink mix thingy
Yeeh. I got Ultra Sunrise. My fav right now.
>Ur just trying to insult me
I mean, kind of. But the world is run by middle managers, so eh.

I mean, you'd def have power over me if we were hustling in the streets.

>>83033017
I dont like you and would kindly ask you to stfu
but ur like a annoying fly so there is no point in that

>finish my drink
>want a second one
>mom would notice that for sure
>I would be 2drunk for sure

>>83033070
>lil bro thinks the old mob rules still apply
No one gots times for that old school late 2010s respect and hierarchies anymore, assuming that was ever a real thing to begin with.

This badass warrior reminds me of you Ceb. You should grow out your hair again.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Wg2t4BjEzQ

>>83033107
>>83033143
stfu retarded cunt

>https://youtu.be/LcZFi7IdANs?si=yv5eec6rvm_LlkAN&t=4
>the scene of the best song of hazbin hotel S2 is still NOT on youtube
im mad

>>83033187
>children's cartoon, but they swear and cuss and sex!
Gosh, you're such a millennial.

>>83033197
I told u to stfu

>>83033228
And if I don't? Gaius Octavianus was indeed the best emperor.

Just you and things you try to hide and nothing else. What an e-lyfe.

You're a funny guy, Mr. Iranman. Heh.

im not short of hidden posts ig

I remember when one of our cats died, the vet told us she was pregnant at the time. Just as always. That cat was the biggest ho I've ever seen desu.

>new hidden post
wow this russian filter works pretty well

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/wISg2RzmK5g
>walking my dog on a winter night
Gosh, I miss the oppressive silence snow creates. Just me, my doggo, and my chud tunes. But the dog is dead, the hills unforgiving, the ears weary.

>>83033521
>Wir haben eine Liste und diese Liste, sie wird laenger. Egal ob nun Verraeter, ob Spitzel und V-Maenner. Auf eben dieser Liste stehen hunderte von Namen. Und eines fernen Tages kann nur euer Gott euch gnaden.

I guess real talk finally shut him up...

I love going to r/BuldakRamen. It's such an NPC place. People gushing over the most basic preparation of the most basic ramen brand. It's kind of comfy. A kind of place I'd belong in if not for my ego.

I wonder if I could get a Ceb blood transfusion for a confidence boost. What is your blood group? Mine is B.

>ready2sleep
>cant wait to wake up and have another meaningless & boring & annoying day
>pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease please just let me have a heart attack or something like that while im asleep
>I dont want2continue anymore

Minttu almost Gonnettu...
>just had a convo with my mother with zero aprehension
Maybe Ceb is the one who taught me that as you get older, your parents become more like your best friends... I should call dad too, as insufferable as he is...
>>83034243
My dad had a heart attack. I'd suggest a Slav diet of vodka and liver and shashlik. Occasional rabbit when the local hermit hooks you up. No cringetables or basedfruits whatsoever.

I butchered a pig the same day he almost died. Ironic or something. He hardly changed because people don't.

Or so my mother says. But it's just part and parcel of that neurotic autismo who wants to conquer the world, but you were born into a feeble female body build.

Obvs I'm aware all I say holds far less value once you learn I'm a Lithuanian subhuman. It'd be far more compelling coming from a German or an American, but it is what it is.

Mom's playing like classical music and shiet, bro who you trying to imprresss.

I'd get dominated so hard by Ceb if this was real life. Just another white bitch for his folx to conquer. Whatever you say, Mr. Manager, that hoe is all yours.

The last girl I've been speaking to would occasionally mention Greeks and Serbs and Chinamen and such she's been around. I just knew she didn't want to be devalued once more by being around another ethnicel. What woman has the patience for their backwards peculiarities? What worth id my discount 90s life in the 2000s?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bIPCVaLHZng

>lil bro pretending to be asleep
We're in the same privileged timezone, my Dubai choccy fren.

>>83034630
>Just another white bitch for his folx to conquer
Not beating the trans allegations, Aiste

Probs for the best am too dumm/asocial to even understand how unlikeable I am desu.
>>83034856
Blue, purple, who even cqres these days, it's all about power.

My new laptop uniropnically has an AI button that I keep acidentally pressing. Am already cucked.

I don't even know if certain folx are still alive, and if they're not, I never will now.

>can't fall asleep
>get out of bed for a cig
>my japan stocks are not doing too well
>fortunately I didn't buy more with my previous paycheck
>still n0t good news
>if I wasn't so retarded I would just try to release a shitcoin in Iran
>for a juicy rugpull
>God fuck damnit how do I make enough money to fix my problems

>>83035010
I like your realism. White people would just be like ''I am too mentally ill for this world, money is just the spiritual currency of Judaism.''
Funny how I think you (and anyone else) is on some mysterious breakthrough to freedom, while most likely you'll remain in the cushy if sneedful position of being a small family business accountant, while I will never give up my state-sponsored imported soon to be medical doctor engineer, model citizen one of the good ones he learned to speak in just a month status. A biyearly Japacation for you, a seasonal mushroom hunt for me. The world is in balance.

I hate how I already hate how I'll hate having been drunk once I'm sober.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UNo2-viKfW8
JBL bringing new life to my ears. Cyberpunk as hell.

>cant sleep
>there is n0thing I wanna do
>roll a cig

Imagine hitting it from behind and almost as you're done, she says ''>woke up again >please let me die >habbing coffee n ciggy'' and you realize you're just readint he daily ceb thread and never actually had sex.

I guess this unlovable boy better settle into his nightmares now. Night.

>time for more cigs
>parents went to sleep
>mom asked me to take care of the laundry if I stay awake
>but im getting actually sleepy now

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rRWE5KFt_eI
>they finally released the best song of S2 so far

>try to take care of the laundry
>find out the dryer was bugging around
>welp I wanna sleep now
>ready2sleep
>please don't let me wake up eva again
>goodnights

You know, I may be a gf-less, career-less, friend-less, kiss-less, handhold-less virgin in my mid-30s living in an apartment with my mother but at least I can die happy and proud knowing that I never resorted to drugs to numb away the pain.

Enjoy your smokes OP.

>>83037175
Honestly, tend to forget how often OP is just high and it shouldn't be normalized like this.