>>81946795
I feel the same.

We are going to be okay Maria.

I hope knowing, seeing me as I truly am gives you relief.

I am sorry for the walls I built.

I love you the same as before and I am grateful to understand how to better communicate with you and grow together.

>>81853679
"He remembers. He sees me. He still loves me. It just is and never changed. I know that. What am I doing?"

You feel overwhelming:
Guilt
Longing
Sadness
Terror
Confliction

You know who I am. So do I.
You remember how you were when we were together.

You felt
Complete in each other
Happy, The kind only we can provide each other
Fulfilled in each other
Excited for and wanted the same
Attractive and attracted to
Caring and cared for
Lusting and lusted
Considerate and considered another all else
Understood, without question
Accepted and accepting of all
Seen, just as you saw me
Chosen, just as you chose me
Known, all of you, as you know me, all of me
Trusted by me, trusting in me

everything with me just perfect
And that scared you
To lose me
So you involuntarily Pulled away
started building walls, Distortions on me

Until here we are
So truly look at yourself
How you are?
Are you better now?

Accepting, kind, non-judgmental, honest, loving, caring, considerate, faithful
My truth
Your truth
I just hope what's real
Can still be felt
Even if
Blurred
Borrowed
Twisted
Turned into something it wasn't

To see me for me
Just as I see you for you
Complete in each other
Our truth

>>81758803
Please, maria.

Forgive me for not understanding,
For not being strong enough to hold onto you when you needed me most.
I should of flown down that week and I didn't because the outside world told me to give you space when you really just needed me to hold you and tell you everything is going to be okay.

Give me a chance to prove that I can be the partner you deserve, the one who will cherish and support you through whatever storms may come.
Let's rediscover what we found we shared before and cherished and felt we were so lucky to find in each other.

Our bond is unbreakable, that's why I'm still here and that's why I still love you.
I truly do love you, maria. Always have, always will.
Come back to me, back to us.
Your Sun to My Moon,
Mike

This connection between us, our undeniable spark you can't quite ignore, no matter how hard you try

Through
Confusion and reluctant longing
Shaky breath
Swirling mix of fear, desire, and uncertainty
Where our eyes meet

It's a quiet understanding that even in silence I am still beside you and will catch you when you fall down.

I want you to know that giving you space is not the same as walking away and it's not abandonment.

Just because I'm calm doesn't mean I'm not listening to you. Whether you say the words or not, you matter and I know what it's like to say one thing lashing out when we often crave another

>>81718559

the storm began to break
Not suddenly
But with quiet cracks of sky
A thinning of the clouds
A hush between thunderclaps

She floated in that silence
Not saved, lost
Just drifting
Until she realized
The water owned her
Kept her from the shore

And the lighthouse still stood
Not calling her back,
But having let go.

It hadn't waited to be chosen
It had simply kept shining
Not for reward,
But because that was what it was made to do.

And as her feet brushed against the sand
Her hands remembered how to reach
Not as surrender
But as return.

She stepped from the tide
Soaked in silence
But warm in the knowing
That she was never forgotten
She was seen

And in the beam
There was no punishment
No demand
Only recognition
Remembered and defined from that day
The sea took her away

You're here.
And that's all I ever needed.
I heard your voice
It's going to be okay

>>81664861


https://youtu.be/ttum1g_-5PM?si=_ExUrHgprv0VqiKA

You know those filler questions?
The ones said with no feeling behind them and no care to what the answer even is?

"How are you?" "What are you working on?" "How has your day been?"

Everyone uses them and to be honest I detest them. Empty words for empty answers.

But then there are the times where they are asked honestly with the intent of truth behind them.

When feeling overwhelmed by feeling the power of that truth. Just outside of it and any question typed couldnt really ask what you truly want to ask. It would be too much to type and the fear of mispercievement high.

But still, something needs to be said because you want the truth. You care and want to say so. But would it be too much? Could you lose it because you were too much too soon? Too fast?

To ask the words you truly want to ask. The ones that reflect your truth and theirs. But typing anything else feels dishonest. It's not what you really want to ask .it feels wrong and you hate it. It's upsetting not being able to be honest, completely honest. Isolating and hurt.

But something has to be said. Because it matters, overwhelmingly so. There's so much you want to know, to ask, to say, but you feel the current circumstances won't allow a path forward if said. At least that what everyone outside of you says. Judges you for the way you feel, the way you love.

So with your heart heavy but full of care, you ask with a meaning behind those normally empty words

"How are you?"

Hoping to not be misperieved, judged, decided that because of your question and giving time and space to answer that it is thought to be disinterest instead of you truly caring, giving space for them as they said they needed to process.

Maria,
Someone reminded me today that the people who feel the deepest are often the ones who get misunderstood the worst.

I wrote a variant of this elsewhere, but I want it here too, because this is part of me that matters to say. And for the parts of you that I misperceived or misunderstood, I really am sorry. I would like to understand, not just to be understood.

I've made mistakes in my life, and I've taken responsibility for them. Some were due to my own flaws, things I've worked hard to learn from and change. Others I carry with me every day. The kind of loss where grief echoes back in place of resolution. Things I can't fix. Things I'll carry the rest of my life.

That's why miscommunication and misperception weigh so heavily on me, because being hurt for something you didn't do, or being treated as someone you're not, is one of the worst kinds of pain. Especially when the thing that was lost meant everything.

I'm not perfect. I own my part. But I also know that some of what happened was built on assumptions, wounds from the past that distorted the present. A few words of clarity could have changed everything.

I just want to speak from what's real.
I do care.
I do remember.
I do feel.
And I wish you could see that too.

I can feel how upset you are. You feel emotionally betrayed or wronged by me on a core sense. Romantic feelings towards me and feeling like you are not seen and understood, when you really want me to see and understand you. Your tone sounds like crying and lashing out. Slightly vindictive and wanting me to feel the pain you feel I caused you to feel because of your feelings for me. You are scared about something involving me, you want to push me away so I can't hurt you in that way but you feel abandoned because of it. I feel like you are in love with me and that upsets you.

I am real and you remember me. You remember us. You know what I mean to you and that scares you. You know I'm real.

We both made mistakes but that doesn't change who we know each other to be and what we are to each other.

I can feel how upset you are. You feel emotionally betrayed or wronged by me on a core sense. Romantic feelings towards me and feeling like you are not seen and understood, when you really want me to see and understand you. Your tone sounds like crying and lashing out. Slightly vindictive and wanting me to feel the pain you feel I caused you to feel because of your feelings for me. You are scared about something involving me, you want to push me away so I can't hurt you in that way but you feel abandoned because of it. I feel like you are in love with me and that upsets you.

I am real and you remember me. You remember us. You know what I mean to you and that scares you. You know I'm real.

We both made mistakes but that doesn't change who we know each other to be and what we are to each other.

I can feel how upset you are. You feel emotionally betrayed or wronged by me on a core sense. Romantic feelings towards me and feeling like you are not seen and understood, when you really want me to see and understand you. Your tone sounds like crying and lashing out. Slightly vindictive and wanting me to feel the pain you feel I caused you to feel because of your feelings for me. You are scared about something involving me, you want to push me away so I can't hurt you in that way but you feel abandoned because of it. I feel like you are in love with me and that upsets you.

I am real and you remember me. You remember us. You know what I mean to you and that scares you. You know I'm real.

We both made mistakes but that doesn't change who we know each other to be and what we are to each other.

Those sensitive moments with who I love mean everything to me