Well fishing has gone from one of my main hobbies to something I simply do to get out of the house. I stopped doing research, I no longer care if I catch something or not and probably I'm going to sell most of my stuff and keep just a couple of the cheapest rods I can find.

>friend wants to play horde
>I want to play a human because of the big titty mod
I can't tell him what my heart truly desires

>>531484857
try harder. someone might catch this time

>>212587179
Är sjukpensionär så tack för att du knegar och pröjsar min inkomst och bekväma livsstil.

When I go fishing is not the fish I'm after.
At first there were many things that would ruin fishing day, algae in the water, strong winds, not a single bite... now it's noise, people, even too many bites that won't allow me to relax.
My fishing rods are no longer tools, they are a declaration of intentions. They mean I don't want to get bothered by anyone, I don't want to hear any noise, I don't want a phone nearby, I don't want to move my sight away from the book I'm reading and see anything man made.
I don't have to catch anything. I don't even want to catch anything. Leave the fish be, I already found what I was looking for.

>>212349491
€1600/month in perma "bux" (early pension, sjukersättning).
After rent and bills I have €1000 left to spend freely.

I'm at war with myself. All I think is comfort when the only times I've actually felt alive where in times of challenge.
I'm checking some real estate and I keep imagining having my own place, spending a Sunday evening at home comfy while reading and listening to music, and while most of me longs for this, it still feels like giving up, like there's much more than that.
I'm not 20 anymore, and while I can indulge in escapism as much as I want, there's always a brief moment of clarity where I ask myself "Is this really what you want to do with your life?".

21 for me, that's when I realized I was studying a dead end degree I didn't give a fuck and that I was an outcast, and most likely that fallback friend you resort to when nobody else is available.
Now I'm 36, wizard, live with parents, have a decent job as programmer because at least I'm not stupid, and just live life on autopilot.
I'm pretty sure I don't enjoy anything at all. Whatever I don't do in order to cover my basic needs I do for escapism.
My main hobbies are reading, writing, fishing... does getting drunk counts as a hobby? It probably does.
When it comes to socializing, it entirely revolves around drinking. I don't really hang out with you, I hang out with a couple of pints, maybe a whisky sour, you just happen to join us.

>a singular dreadnought uses one whole detachment
Assuming dreadnoughts have a similar power to 2.0 dreadnoughts, will this balance them?