>>82275873
I think you are overthinking it desu.
Things have changed a lot and these loonie bins don't really exist any more. And they won't tell you to fuck off either. Yeah the docs probably see a lot of poser drama queens and don't take those as seriously but if you are unwell they WILL take note and offer whatever they can ASAP, from my knowledge and experience at least.
>what if then no one's going to hire me because i've been to the ward and they think im crazy?
Man if those places wouldn't hire you because of something like this they weren't worth be worth your time anyways. Anyone that tells otherwise can fuck off. When it comes to your wellbeing and career its you above else. Even if in the worst case scenario you are in therapy for a while and cannot participate because of it, then so be it. Its you above else. No compromises.
Yes sometimes a little torture paves the way for a better (you) but from what im reading here that is not the case here. Don't worry about employment right now.
And again, 'the ward' is not really like it was back then.
Absolute nutjobs still get hired btw
>perhaps i shouldn't be ranting on the internet.
I think that the doc would be a good idea. Tell 'em about the intrusive thoughts and in which direction they go, perhaps that you are scared of acting on them, and that should be well enough to start this thing. Did the same and while it took way to long because of how disorganized some clinics are, i think that things are a little better now. You still have a lot of control over what happens and what doesn't. You don't just get immediately forced into involuntary hold if you step through the door and get force meds if you get what i mean.
>i honestly feel so helpless
It'll be fine anon. Regardless of if you chose the solo route or the medical one i don't see why it couldn't get better either way. But i am a little biased towards the latter here.
