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>creating exactly what you need
Been doing that to fill my need for social interaction. My main friend group consists of male autists I somewhat mentally groomed into not fitting well into society, so I can sometimes drop a few more layers of masks when I'm with them. It's not nearly enough but it's a start. I've done this with romantic partners as well, but I broke ties each time because either they didn't fit certain criteria I'd want in a partner, or they simply wouldn't ever fully be detached and deranged enough for me to be myself.