>>82095289
i skimmed this thread and think im on your side
im also trans (at least mentally and in some small ways physically like growing out my hair sometimes and caring for my nails) but a repressor ive been having these thoughts constantly since i was in high school and now it's constant daily since my 26th birthday
i seriously considered diy HRT when i was 19 in college but it was already too late for me
i dont think AGP is a serious insult, id rather be agp than hsts, grew up surrounded by so many gay theater kids i didn't realize i was attracted to men (bisexual) waaay too late.
too make matters worse i was training for the youth olympic team (never qualified) so my body is ruined in a masculine way, my shoulders are so fucking wide, like a 7 foot basketball players shoulders on a 6'1" body
ugh..
its weird how ive always had the masculine physique beta males want but they can never have it. i wish i was a semi passing trans girl (especially in the face, dont really care if i had a twinky body or a passing one)
to any other anons reading this just know that its not really a fetish. straight cis men might have some sissy fetishes but if you are trans you will grow out of that shit pretty fast once you realize you just want emotional connection like any female would (or enby, im not really a fan of the trans gatekeeping)