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>>212883320
>>212883325
I don't want to not exist, bros. I'm afraid this fear of death will never go away and I'll be afraid til the end

2017 will have been 10 years ago in 2 years

>be me
>almost 30
>been isolated since I was 11
>entire life = internet, vidya, porn, drugs, booze
>suicidal thoughts on loop 24/7
>hate myself
>cut myself sometimes just to feel something
>went to therapy, shrinks, took meds
>ate nothing but junk
>never exercised
>sleep schedule is a joke
>hygiene? what's that
>never go outside unless absolutely necessary
>no irl friends, no gf, no human connection
>no sex, no dates, no romance
>no school, no job
>literally just rotting
>starting to realize I wasted my entire life
>regret hits like a freight train

Very busy next few hours for me
Please send your thoughts and prayers

Based.

Pol is a cesspool of negativity. It's just a non stop seethe fest of morons shitting on each other. Absolutely zero intellectual conversations about anything at all. It used to be cool where It could organize deep dives on interesting shit, but now it's just a bunch of idiots seething about America, and nobody seems to mind their own fuckhole anymore. It's bad vibes all around and the rage battles aren't even fun. It's bad for your mentality and all the bad vibes are bound to affect you negatively. There's literally nothing good from it. I come on here to try to catch some interesting world news, but these days its too much of a bitch to dig through all the bullshit to get anything valuable from it. It is very addicting for some reason though, not sure why because it's just a non stop headache.

>2 blue shells
>still got first

>be me
>almost 30
>been isolated since I was 11
>entire life = internet, vidya, porn, drugs, booze
>suicidal thoughts on loop 24/7
>hate myself
>cut myself sometimes just to feel something
>went to therapy, shrinks, took meds
>ate nothing but junk
>never exercised
>sleep schedule is a joke
>hygiene? what's that
>never go outside unless absolutely necessary
>no irl friends, no gf, no human connection
>no sex, no dates, no romance
>no school, no job
>literally just rotting
>starting to realize I wasted my entire life
>regret hits like a freight train

I'm in need of advice.

>be me
>almost 30
>been isolated since I was 12
>entire life = internet, vidya, porn, drugs, booze
>suicidal thoughts on loop 24/7
>hate myself
>cut myself sometimes just to feel something
>went to therapy, shrinks, took meds
>ate nothing but junk
>never exercised
>sleep schedule is a joke
>hygiene? what's that
>never go outside unless absolutely necessary
>no irl friends, no gf, no human connection
>no sex, no dates, no romance
>no school, no job
>literally just rotting
>starting to realize I wasted my entire life
>regret hits like a freight train