>>717257814
If I only knew how to overcome crippling fear of failure, rejection and unpredictable results. Worst thing is - each time I do manage to overcome it, it NEVER backfire, even if something goes wrong, I ALWAYS get around it or find solution. Everything ALWAYS works out, sooner or later. So why the fuck I am still so scared?
I could had ask those cosplayers at cons for contact or session, they liked my photos but each year it's the fucking same. I could make that FB account to join local wargaming group to finally play with all those minis I painted so far. I could ask out that cute shop girl before she changed job. I could do so fucking much and yet here I fucking am. Best I could do was accepting conference marathon (2 in row, including getting back by plane and flying away at same day with short window between) right after traveling to other city for anime con. Did it fucked up? Of course not! I didn't regret a moment of this! So WHY?!
FUCK! ME!
