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Part of me becoming a psychologist was a need to make sense of my broken home. Turns out, there are no deeper truths beyond "She's insane". Some people are lost causes. My home life was so bad (especially once my dad ditched us for years when I was young), I have a diagnosed ptsd because my body starts trembling if I have to talk about my childhood. It will take years to shake this off.
But unlike my mother blaming everyone else for her poor life choices, I take responsibility for my own destiny, went from being a bitter loner to being humane and will one day be happy. I just had a rough start and lost quite a few years.
I've spent the past 4 months interning in psychotherapy, meeting all sorts of therapists and patients. My coworkers will miss me, my stern boss with an outright intimidating aura gave me a hug instead of feedback on my performance when I had my exit interview today. It makes me cry to have received more love in a day than my parents made me feel my whole life. I've never really had friends, either.
2026 will be a new beginning for me, a year of healing. 2025 is just the tiresome grind leading up to it and really burning it into my DNA to never let toxic people creep into my life ever again. I've had my fill.
That's all I will say.