>>81851221
so here it goes
at certain points it might sound like i'm contradicting myself but i'm not, like i said if you get it, you get *it*
to me, life is just.. that
it doesnt matter but at the same time it matters - theres no good, no bad, no suffering, no joy, it just is
life is just that, life
what i talked about it in the OP, i was frustated because i thought i was *this* close to figuring it out but it occured to me that you can't figure it out because there's nothing *to* figure out
the people *are* the history, the culture, the food, and the music but the people are *also* the self-absorbed, the greedy, the shallowness - it's fluff, all of it
thats the thing about fluff, thats the thing that both matters and does not matter
some folks detest the shallow talks, the "hey, how are you"s, the "have you eaten" talks because to them that's fluff - that doesn't matter, but that's part of life
likewise with the arts, the culture, the history, the music that our ancestors sang, the food they ate and what we eat now - to those same folks, they think this is what matters, the only thing that matters, but it's still fluff, and it's also part of life
people, nature, the planets, the universe - its all fluff, it doesn't matter but somehow someway it still matters
life is beautiful, anons
life is ugly
life matters
life doesn't matter
life, anons, is just that
>inb4 what am i supposed to do with this information?
i don't know - it's not supposed to be an answer
but for me, personally, this is it - it's my knowledge that i either figured out or someone else before me figured out and we reached the same conclusions
this is a revelation for me personally, now i both know and don't know what to do with my life but that doesn't matter and it matters at the same time
i can't say what this "knowledge" will do to you, anons, i don't care
you might see it as an incoherent ramblings of an old man going mad, but this is my "life" now
